Friday, December 30, 2005

I've noticed...

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired eyes. Oversensitive head. Irritated.

[CuRRent Song:] Stevens & Marcellus - Everything Counts (Extended Mix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Chicken Murtabak & Green Tea

...that I look for trouble in life.

Many times, Berlinda asked me, "Do you know you are living in luck without knowing it?"

Yes I know Berlinda. What makes you think I don't know?

Many times, mom asked me, "Do you know you are lucky? Living in luck without realising?"

I do know mom, and I know what you mean.

Thing is, I may be living in unknown bliss but always chose to look for trouble. Probably known as "looking for death" in mandarin, this is way too often. I took a closer look at my life cycle and patterns and found that out.

Last time I chose to give up Shan to understand more about "life". Now I know much more, and much more trouble got to me. I sorta regretted it, but who cares about that. I chose to give up Sunshine, and I wonder if that move was ever "right". Someone reminded me once more, "You are very lucky, you should keep things as it was and not took this route."

I know, but I still chose the tougher (aka stupid) routes. I guess I really like to have trouble around me. This is so stupid.

As for the past days, well I know I've not been blogging much about my everyday life proceedings, miss that? LOL...hahaha I've been reminded I'm a naggy person, and once again I agreed. Haha. Past days...nothing much, Christmas was nothing way too special, nothing too much. These days have been settling matters here and there, and I realised I'm inviting more trouble as I'm tackling current matters. Things will straighten out, I hope.

Gonna change my blog song now. Next time :)

.LuKe.

Monday, December 26, 2005

Weird Christmas

[CuRRent MooD:] Weird, tired, lil moody

[CuRRent Song:] DJ Tricky - The Riddle (Sven R-G vs Bass-T Remix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] "Mei Cai" + Curry Chicken + Rice

Slept from 9am - 5pm, but still feeling lethagic. Oh well. Anyway pple, Merry Christmas...

To what I understand, a lot of people around me ain't getting what people namely speaks of a "Merry Christmas". How would you be merry when you have so much to think about, to worry of, to be of true concern? I wonder. Then again, this year's Christmas ain't anything too spectacular to be spoken about.

I now speak of my singlehood, but things have not been completely over. As I mentioned a new chapter speaks of itself, and I'm getting to it. Things have not been rosy or what I even think is proper or ok. There has been so much on my mind, nothing can really be written out.

Just read Sunshine's blog, and my mind is in a whirl. That sounds, seems, felt way too familiar. Sometimes I wonder about what I always say, "What goes round comes round". I know for the evil I did things will come to me one day, and I will have to settle it my good way. Anyway, why do people think I'm having fun when I'm out so late? Does staying out late = fun? Does it mean enjoying myself? No.

She thinks that me being out wif the "China Dolls" = fun. Truth is, I'm only out wif one of them yesterday, the others just disappeared at the last moments, and budget constraints made us unable to go anywhere apart from staying at the same place chatting. She thought that in my moments of "fun" I chose to ignore her msgs and not replied. Truth is, I'm listening to life story and I did not want interruptions. Certainly if you're the one talking about your story you wouldn't want much interruptions and that was what I wanted to achieve. What can I say? Haiz. The dolphin-throwing incident I have nothing to say, since that's just a small episode. Truth is, these group of people will be the simplest if you think of it, but they certainly can fit into the "complicated" category that I have to be careful of how I'm making every single move not to thread onto wrong territory and get killed in the process. Of cos, within normal means I will not get killed, but within rage you never know what happens...

I didn't want this entry to be sort of counter-reply her blog entry, but I know it's happening (lol). I'm trying to end an issue and there was a mention of dragging "the game". Wait, what "game" are we talking about? I know that I've been bad to pop by your place and probably made some feelings stir, and I'm wrong right from that point on. I'm not in a better state of mind myself, I don't even know what is precisely happening and here it is all such things happening.

Ok I have to stop this. LOL. Time for me to activate some long-time-no-used resolute to keep myself in check. If things have to suffer, I do not want anyone else to suffer longer than myself. I sound so selfless and noble, but no - just a piece of shit.

Good shit.

Bad angel.

Whatever.

End of entry for now.

.LuKe.

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

You think do this very enjoyable issit?

[CuRRent MooD:] A little pissed

[CuRRent Song:] Basic Element - This Must Be A Dream '2005 (Radio Edit)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Laksa & Green Tea

Actually by now I've cooled down and dun really wish to talk about it. After all I know what moves I should take on my list.

Sometimes people always think the negative side of everything. I agree this is normally the case but sometimes some things just have to be done in a way you really don't understand why. When you start to not know why, you start to do things to avoid casualties. This might be a short term way, but well...it's selfish. Oh yea I forgot, everyone is selfish.

I'm a selfish guy. Girls, if you are looking for goodie-two-shoes to be a bf, do not look for me. I ain't that good after all.

Damned, when did I ever say I am. Maybe I gave the impression I am...but I'm not. I'm just human, and a guy who has needs. Just about it.

Next time then.

To the unknown person: Did I ever say I'm nice-looking? I didn't even bother to claim I'm nice on the inside. What gives. Just tell me who you are -.-

[ Update - 2232 Hours ]

Feeling just better now. :)

.LuKe.

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Life will take a turn

[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral, confused, tired

[CuRRent Song:] Rikki - Sutekidane

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Bee Hoon + Luncheon Meat + Fish Fillet + Hot Dog & Soya Bean Drink

Life will take a turn. Things will change soon.

I do not know if I took a correct step. I wonder.

No regrets, some things are just meant to be settled. Some meant to be held on. How life dictates, we won't know. We may end up at the same place after a whole big round.

Very tired. Will do another update when I can.

.LuKe.

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Life is indeed strange

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, neutral

[CuRRent Song:] E-Type feat. Nana - When I Close My Eyes

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

These days I've been training and guiding my replacement TA for my school, hence lesser updates. Anyway my last day will be on Friday, from then on I'll be to Tuas. The thing that's interesting will probably be that I wun be responding to anything pertaining my HP till I knock off from work, since we deal with sensitive equipment at my new workplace.

Anyway, my topic did not come from that. Yesterday I went to accompany my Sunshine over at her place. A few times the topic was on my existence since she was chatting wif her guy friends and her guy friend(s) were afraid I might get jealous due to the chats as well as her chat style. I know Sunshine enough that she normally chats this way and loves to make pple laugh (and make herself ROFL in the process) so I highly doubt I will really get jealous or something, jus that I'll probably tickle her whenever I see inappropriate words and phrases.

There was a point of note - she said I won't be affected, I won't be jealous. Wait, am I? Suddenly I felt a sense of worry. Yes, you could say for my trust for her and vice versa, but I was instantly reminded of Shan. It's almost the same thing...I gave her a lot of trust cos I know how much she loves me, but in the end I disappointed her.

A call for worry. What to do?

My TA is not here yet. Strange. Took him long to come over.

I should organise a "brain meeting" to discuss about this matter.

.LuKe.

Monday, December 12, 2005

Ultimatium

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired, confused, blur

[CuRRent Song:] Gunther & The Sunshine Girls - Teeny Weeny String Bikini

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Stupid title for a Monday, yeah I'm back at work. From Weds on you'll probably not see me update in the mornings, and my updates might not be so much cos I'm changing my workplace to somewhere in Tuas...OUCH. Very far, so I hope the pay be good :)

Life is messed up right now, everything's on a turn. Some stuff also not convenient to be discussed here...lol, I'm like thinking oh man, this is a blog and I can't say anything I wanna say. Oh well, shit happens.

Please make me see the light soon.

.LuKe.

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Today is a Wednesday.

[CuRRent MooD:] Lil tired, confused, blank

[CuRRent Song:] Rimini Project - A Day In The Sun (Extended Version)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] None

The issue on my friend's side is temporarily over for now. I should seek a time to address current issues with my Sunshine soon.

Guess I'm really a selfish person...

It has been super busy and late nights outside, early time back home, slping till noons. Oh yeah, my higher command just called to confirm I've been selected for the project that I've went for the interview the other time. LOL.

My mom mentioned I've been lucky since young. Oh well lucky.

...

Still on an average low.

.LuKe.

Monday, December 05, 2005

Sorry my Dear...

[CuRRent MooD:] Blank

[CuRRent Song:] Does not make a difference

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Does not make a difference

Dear Sunshine,

I'm sorry for everything that had happened this week. I know I've probably sort of ignored you and disappeared, but I have my reasons. I have stuff to settle on my friend's side and I will only be able to complete everything on Wednesday. I hope you will not ask too much cos when the time is right I'll mention it to you.

Dear, I'm very sorry to have not taken care of you and your health and in my selfishness forgotten about it. I know I need to beg for your forgiveness some time soon.

Yours with love,
Your Dear

I'm on a low.

.LuKe.

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Wednesday non-the-blue

[CuRRent MooD:] Great, though bit tired

[CuRRent Song:] Prezioso feat. Marvin - Back To Life

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Morrow leave, Friday course + leave, next week WHOLE WEEK LEAVE!!! WOO HOO!!!

Actually dunno what to blog...

Monday I went to accompany my dear...

Yesterday...initially wanted to go town to find Jeannie but when it was time to go it's already 8pm..so decided against it, den go Mac to makan and study my MCP. Just when I wanted to go home...BAM! Rain. Stuck in Mac...den waited for dear to go home...like dat lor...yeah, we went home in the rain...den now she got flu...hope she gets better soon.

Den I got D2 from Siew Fong's bf...tried a super long time, got the crack online...den finally can work. But hacking the game is hard. LOL. :) nvr mind...

Actually dunno what to write...tonight tentatively going to MU wif Cheryl and Linda...but nothing is confirmed...also maybe meeting up an MU fren outside...also maybe celebrating Mad's birthday...oh yeah, Mad dyed and cut her hair! I have a pic but I've not uploaded it yet. :)

Any updates, will do so.

[Update - 1105 Hours]

I Just Want To Keep You Hangin' On
Nuage

I just wanna tell you now
How much I love you
You can let me realise
Take a chance baby, wherever you want

Listen to me, listen tonight
I know you need me (whoa oh)
One more time you're into my mind
I wanna carry on, so I tell you

I just want to keep you hangin' on
I really love you till the morning
I just want to give you all my life
I don't want to stay without you

I just want to keep you hangin' on
I really love you till the morning
I just want to give you all my life
I don't want to stay without you

I just wanna close my eyes
So you can turn to me
Let me fly into your mind
Honey and baby, don't be afraid

Listen to me, listen tonight
I know you need me (whoa oh)
One more time you're into my mind
I wanna carry on, so I tell you

I just want to keep you hangin' on
I really love you till the morning
I just want to give you all my life
I don't want to stay without you

I just want to keep you hangin' on
I really love you till the morning
I just want to give you all my life
I don't want to stay without you

Listen to me, listen tonight
I wanna carry on, so I tell you

I just want to keep you hangin' on
I really love you till the morning
I just want to give you all my life
I don't want to stay without you

I just want to keep you hangin' on
I really love you till the morning
I just want to give you all my life
I don't want to stay without you

.LuKe.

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Sunday night, I'm blogging

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, cool, happy

[CuRRent Song:] Nuage - I Just Want To Keep You Hangin' On

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Jasmine Honey Green Tea

Woo hoo...really got loads of nice songs now...so happy =)

Ouch, my last update was Wednesday. I'll try ok?

Wednesday:
Celebrated Sharon's birthday...wasn't really what I called a good birthday...reached there and was late and waited for others. This day made me see Eugene, her current bf. CMI guy. Anyway, initially we agreed on going Marche but we thought it's pretty expensive so we changed the location to the eating place beside Meridien Hotel. Christina and her bf came later, and after settling down at the makan place I took a route back Somerset MRT to meet up with Christina so she could come over.

Nothing much really, den her bf arrived, everyone's making small talk. After the makan session we walked down to PS and the arcade to play games. At the end of it, Kitson went off and so did Christina and her BF. We then proceeded to Cineleisure's KBox and checked out the prices...ouch so ex. After some discussion we went over to Boat Quay but not without some drama. Sharon actually cried cos so few pple went over, esp. the part after we reached Boat Quay Yiming was making a decision to leave first and that was the last straw for Sharon and she cried and screamed and wailed. At the very end only 4 of us went to Hot Stuff @ Boat Quay and drank. I left at 2+am while the 3 remained.

Thursday:
Met up with Desy @ SIM ard 2+pm and went in wif her to check her studies stuff. Wow SIM really has quite a number of babes should I say. After checking, we went KAP to eat Mac...den after that went to dear's place cos had a bit of misunderstanding...so jus go and clear up the mess lor...:p

Friday:
Went back school...figured a whole day trying to transfer a video from PC to DV tape...finally able to make it...den after that I went to cut my hair...oh yeah, it was Cheryl's birthday so somehow some last-min arrangements had me celebrating it for her at Jurong Point. We met up at ard 710pm and went to Giordano to buy her pair of jeans. In my humble experience, gals normally try on their stuff inside and not bothered to show anyone they do not really know, but Cheryl actually sorta asked for my comments (that's the reason for my slow response since I didn't expect myself to be even on evaluation mode), well of cos I'm glad she is sorta comfortable wif my existence. After that we walked around, see some CDs @ CD Rama den go Zone-X and played DDR (I played)...den we went LJS to makan...after that went to Chameleon. This one's the funny part...we went in, and within 2 minutes tio blackout! LOL! Then I told Cheryl "wah so got atmosphere, your birthday they give such setting!" and after walking a while den I said "hey where's the birthday cake and candles?" LOL I knoe I'm lame...den after she got a comb we went to Coffee Bean to get a Mudpie as a "cake" for her birthday. This part I'm lame again cos I told her to make a birthday wish...den she asked "huh like dis also must make a wish?" den I said "yeah, it's your birthday cake after all so make one" den she looked around and commented "wah dun wan la, so paiseh" den I replied "ok lah at most I dun look lor...quick quick make your wish..." and she did of cos. Made some chat, den we went back.

Saturday:
Woke up at 10am and went the Wedding stuff of my neighbour with my mum. Here I have a pic of them...the couple I mean.

Alex and Paul
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Solemnization
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The Sharks' Fin is super SALTY! OMG. After getting back home, I went up Yuting's place to wish her a birthday, den went to find Sunshine...den after that I went Jurong Point (again) to celebrate Yuting's birthday at Pizza Hut. After that went to arcade play game, den I went down MU wif my bro dere also. Den went home at 4am. Yeah just about it.

Sunday:
Spent the day with my Sunshine :)

OK the end. Haha. :)

.LuKe.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Hmmm Wednesday Hmmm

[CuRRent MooD:] Ok, bit tired yet feeling energy-filled

[CuRRent Song:] Solid Base - Stay With Me

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Nothing

Might contemplate mixing a song on my own again. LOL.

Still doing NB stuff...hehe...

Yesterday...nothing much again...wanted to cut hair but...BUT they already off the lights...damnit...wat the heck...ended up eating laksa...lol...den go home a while den go Sunshine's place to slack a bit and watch VCD...den Mad called and told me something wrong wif the system again...so I went to see...Norton acting strangely again...I think no choice, I've done up downloading freebies for her, only waiting to set them up probably on Thursday. Back home played SG a bit, but server kept on disconnecting and seemed it's Singnet's side rather than SG. The only real upside for the day is I have new songs for my iPod! :)

Later in the evening going to Sharon's birthday celebration...hope it doesn't turn out weird. Lol.

*YaWn*

.LuKe.

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Busy Tuesday

[CuRRent MooD:] Busy

[CuRRent Song:] Jk Lloyd - Sounds of Sys (El Sonido De La 'S')

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Was busy, and will be busy later...I think will only be free late afternoon...

Just now got to continue to do new NBs, plan leave, oversee printer installation, install printer drivers, see new projectors coming in...den later on someone coming to clean projectors...lol...

Yesterday wanted to go cut hair but they said close for the day...so I think later I will have to go earlier...anyway, den I went home play SG lo...lol...den sweep mop floor...chatted wif Desy abt her life stuff...Thursday will be going out wif her for some stuff...yeah jus about it...

A short entry...will update more if any...

.LuKe.

Monday, November 21, 2005

Monday, 21st November

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, little tired

[CuRRent Song:] Cascada - Miracle (The Usual Suspects vs EXR Remix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo & some bread from BreadTalk

Firstly...

Happy 31st birthday brother. May your dreams come true and work harder for your future..

Ok that's real crap but lol..haha..nothing much to say since I've blogged yesterday...actually that entry was crap as well..felt a lil better after dear called me, but I guess it's hard to settle the problem in me.

I shall try to write the way I normally write on a Monday morning describing my past weekend.

Thursday:
Trying to recall...yea. Met up wif Serene at Dhoby Ghaut MRT and waited for her fren (which I've forgotten his name by now) then we went to Cineleisure LJS to makan. Reach there only saw a table which is wet and I had to approach the crew to help clear up..the end we settled for the table behind it cos the pple left. Her fren happened to bump onto his frens so ended up so funny, he like machiam conveniently forgotten about us...den after I makan finish (cos they didn't wan to makan) den both of us left the place den the guy came out and told us one of them is his cousin. OIC. Hehe. Den we walked over to MU, played cards and waited for people. She mentioned a lot of names but ended up all didn't come and it was pretty boring. Why boring? Not the music boring, but nothing to drink! It's Ladies Night and I have no spare cash on me, so I end up seeing some eye candy but nothing to drink! Actually not a lot of eye candy also..very few actually..oh yeah, actually only one guy which she mentioned did appear, and that was Jason.

I find them pretty funny. When I approached Jason and reaffirmed his name, he told me I should call him "Ah-Ken". The thing is, every other person addresses him as Jason. What's going on? Same as Serene, she has another name in Joyce plus dunno wat other name...so funny. You think your life not interesting enough so must make more names? Or issit you so notorious you go every nightspot must change a name? Anyway, we ended up changing coins to play Photohunt and played Pool also..although mine sucked..lol..den waited and listen to music...den later on a huge bunch of ladies came...turned out to be within our circle. Remember I mentioned someone who looked like Shan and Eleen? I found that her name is "Wawa", or as what I heard from them. Wait. 娃娃? As in doll? Strange but not unusual, since she's from China and from what I know, they sure can come up with interesting names. She brought her sister and also many other frens (mixed circle, got butch somemore) and crammed up the Pool area (which happens to be near the ladies' bar as well). After that it's like pretty messy, everyone goes everywhere and it's rather ehm, bored to say the least. Worst part came was when R&B kicked in (worst for me cos I dun really like R&B) and I suggested to go out to chill (as usual). Serene kicked a fuss but I couldn't really care less so I went out wif her fren.

Walked to usual makan place, but it was halfway we realised Serene was behind us. Oh well..den we went makan and drink, den made our way back MU. (timing issue. LOL) Just as we walked down, I saw Wawa coming up and asking me to look for Jason. I told Serene to look for Jason while I kept a lookout to wat was happening. Noticed Wawa was arguing with a guy named Timothy (yes I find him familiar, I think he has linkage to my Para circle of frens), and I waited for like 5 mins wondering where Jason was. Then Tianzun came along (a fren I got to know from them) and I told him to look for Jason too. Another 5 mins, no Jason. I went down, combed the floor a while and found Jason, told him to go up look for Wawa. Was sitting down and Tianzun came along. Made small chat and before I know it, *poofed* came a bottle of Martell. Tianzun then said "with me around, sure got something to drink!" (wow) den came the mixer and we finished the Martell by ourselves (3/4 left the time the bottle came). Just chatted about anything, and danced a little and stuff.

Think we left MU at 4+am, and went to some Muslim makan place behind Cuppage and chatted (I dozed off) till 6+ and everyone left...I sent Serene back home and off I go home by myself in NEL. NEL SUCKS.

Friday:
Reached home abt 9am, and woke my mum up cos she needed to go see a doctor. It was initially planned for next week but she received a "Red-coloured Bomb" from one of our neighbours who's marrying off her eldest daughter so she changed the doc thing to Friday at the last min (not exactly last min, but she told me only on Thursday which was like, ehm...). I was pretty tired but still went with her. Of cos, usual things...den went to market after that, came home and collapsed on the bed.

Woke up at...6+pm...den went to look for dear...den she said have to go celebrate her dad's birthday so she did lor..den I went Mac to makan, went home play SG...nothing much...but played till quite late I think...

Saturday:
Woke up at 4+pm, den play a bit of game, checked wif dear wat time she wanna be wif me den she said abt 9pm...so I played till 5 something near 6 before I started to prepare myself to go PS and play some games...dear got back to me ard 9+pm...den she came over PS den we go Carrefour...den we took train to Harbourfront, den took bus 409 up Faber Hill. Nothing much leh the deco...den we sit by a bench till...eh, 4am? We den did a stupid thing - walk from Faber to Tanjong Pagar. POWER!!! Went back 6+am.

Sunday:
Reached Ghim Moh area ard 7am..den I went to makan breakfast...den back home to bathe and wait for dear to contact me..den I went her place to snuggle and rest :p lol...den left her place 4+ I think...cos she go out wif her frens..den I go makan Mac...den come back home, play game, rest and laze ard...bla bla bla. Hahaha...

Ok so it's certainly a much longer entry compared to yesterday? LOL :)

.LuKe.

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Surprise? Blogging on a sunday

[CuRRent MooD:] Sedated..kinda tired..moody

[CuRRent Song:] Alex Megane - Hurricane (Cascada Remix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Honey Green Tea

If today's a sat, I will probably contemplate going to drink. If it's Wednesday I'll go Juggies' Nite @ MU to have a jug. Jus felt like drinking all of a sudden.

Don't ask me why here, there are jus things I can't blog for God knows why reasons.

Thursday:
Went MU wif Serene..it's like half a messy night...I had someone treat me Martell though hehe...actually dun wanna talk abt the recent stuff too much...

Friday:
Went doc wif mum, went market wif mum, slp, go look for dear, come back home, play game, sleep...

Saturday/Sunday:
Eh...Play game, go PS, go Faber Hill, go Tanjong Pagar (Sunday already), come home, bathe, go dear's place, slp, come back home play a bit of game plus stuff, blogging

LOL wat a way to describe my weekend events. Yeap, another sat of no MU :)

Feel like going out, but where can I go? What can I do? Haiz. My mood's really horrendous now.

.LuKe.

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Today is Thursday (but just as good)

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, a little tired

[CuRRent Song:] Masterboy - Feel The Fire

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Well if you wonder why I have such a title, that's cos...

...I'm on leave morrow!!! Hehe.

Well yesterday went home to play SG - surprisingly, Agartha has so less lands but yet able to win battles. Happy thing is I clocked wins, sad is my uranium production rate is slow. Oh shit. War Meter!!!

Den..met up with neighbours (Yuling, Yuting and Huijuan's sister, then Vanessa and Siew Fong, also bumped onto Kok Mun and his gf) and went Mac...den go home bathe n stuff, makan n play various games. Yeah just about it.

Later at night should be going MU and back Friday morning. Then depends Friday evening my dear wanna go out wif me...saturday we're going Faber to see the Xmas deco! Hehe :) yeah that's about my plans these few days...:)

See ya pple ard, going for lunch now - instant noodles :P

.LuKe.

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Normal Wednesday

[CuRRent MooD:] Not very tired but a little braindead

[CuRRent Song:] Lazard - Little Star (Original Trance Mix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

This is a nice song. Anyway sorry for not blogging yesterday as there were stuff going about here and there, it sorta slipped my mind.

There ain't too much these days, but I did go out with Serene yesterday night and it was real bad. Tiring. She ended up doing all sorts of "damage" on me it made me braindead...till now. She's short of me saying as an SM Queen...LOL joking she better not see this...hahaha...

I guess it's patching time again later.

Life has been getting boring cos my posts just get shorter.

WRONG.

There are just issues I don't write on my blog. Seems that I can't find peace till peace comes to find me.

It's really tiring. Change me, please? I know that isn't possible because a person changes only if he/she chooses to accept the change. Does that mean I'm in control of my own life and my own changes. It is in theory yes, but in practical it just doesn't strike out the way it meant to be.

I really hate myself at times.

.LuKe.

Monday, November 14, 2005

Very tired Monday

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired...

[CuRRent Song:] Deepest Blue - Deepest Blue

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Damn I am so tired...but there's much to do today...I know I'm going to share abt my weekend but I'm so tired now...haha...can't remember what went on...

Friday:
PS.

Saturday:
Ok this is a surprise - no MU! Haha...I slept till like 4+ and prepared to go Zhuzhu's place...I think it was 530pm when I reached her place so I started to see what I can do..freed up some space, did some ad-removal, taught her to use various stuff...yeah...den it was night when I was done so I went to find Berlinda for the phone thingie...den by the time I took train down to PS it was already 10+...hang ard dere till 12...den contacted Eric and he said he wun be down MU so I went home instead...hehe save money...den at home slack play game...

Sunday:
Slept till 12+, went to pei my Sunshine...till 7 went back home to get changed and meet Eric...ended up he talking to me abt Network Marketing...OH MAN...sianzation...when I just met him I received a call from Serene telling me she landed up in hospital since few days back...so after the talking session (the hospital visit saved me somehow) I went to visit her at SGH...den by the time reached home it's 12+am...bathed, makan...wait for my bro finished using comp it's 2+am...

So I'm tired. Haha..I'm already a lil tired when I was home, so it got on me. What's for later? Hmmm. Tired.

.LuKe.

Friday, November 11, 2005

Oh heck, it's Friday

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] B.A.R. feat. Roxy - Come Together (Planet R-Mix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo & bread toast + ham + egg

Thanks again dear :)

Hmm, I did not blog yesterday! Well actually also not much difference cos I did practically the same thing 2 days in a row - by accompanying my Sunshine :)

Today's a Friday so if you wanna catch me you can do so at PS (or Hotspot as known to Sunshine and Zhuzhu)...

Tentatively helping zhuzhu wif her comp on saturday. Tentatively meeting Berlinda to pass her the phone on sat too. Tentatively going MU at night wif Eric (my MU fren) as well. Speaking of which, he tried to jio me to go yesterday (Ladies' Night) but I kindly refused the invitation cos I've promised Sunshine I'll accompany her...also, I'm not into weekday clubbing cos I need to work the next day.

Yeah, I'm broke...what? That's no news? Yeah certainly not. Recent news has been bad - this morning I saw the coverpage of Lianhe Zaobao and it reported of a terrorist blast that killed 100+ I think...alongside with some officials associated with Anti-Terrorism. Upon learning of their JI master bomb expert being killed in action, this is certainly a good way to notify the world that they certainly won't take that lying down. Next news is of cos Avian Flu - new strain H9N2 found in Hong Kong. World population is certainly going down.

Life goes on, that's how it is. And that's how it will be. I'll be continuing wif my life, SG and killing some terrorist network with my Gattling Towers and Tank Hunters in C&C: Zero Hour. :)

.LuKe.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Sleepy Wednesday

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired and sleepy

[CuRRent Song:] Mr Brown & Mr Miyagi - Zhng My Car (not a song)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Sleepy...haha...

Yesterday night Sunshine msged me say her eyes tio irritation...so I went Shop N Save to buy eyedrop for her...

Nothing much lah yesterday...went home play SG...went Mac makan...really nothing much...

If got more update...will update...yesterday really nothing much...hahaha...

.LuKe.

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

A fine Tuesday

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] Gabry Ponte - Depend On You (Hard in Tango Remix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo & Bread toast + sausage + egg

Dear, thanks again for your breakfast :) *hugs*

Just reminded her that she needn't have to make breakfast every morning else I will take her for granted one :p

Yesterday...only one main thing to say - dental session. Cost me $90 for filling, polishing and a $5 mouthwash. And plenty of blood loss - I'm surprised I'm not too groggy after so much blood loss. Had my problem tooth patched, though dentist did say it might just break if very hard food comes along so I have to be careful not to make hard food break my $45 filling :p

What else...nothing much lor...go home after dental session still helped my mom mop floor...mom still worried whether I can do it...I was like "one dental session only, not as if extraction, wun die lah" but I admit I was feeling a little feverish (probably due to blood loss + the swolleness of my gums) and in the end I still managed the chore. Can't make my mum work too hard already - her other leg's starting to give problems.

Den SG lor :p saw Joanna's fren online...den Joanna asked me help her edit her blog a little which I did...den did little stuff here and there...yea jus abt it I suppose...I dun think I missed out anything much...

That new fren I've made had been contacting me the past 2 days...my sms exceed le leh...I think something is wrong - do I give pple the impression they can be extremely comfortable with my presence? That could be good - or bad. Hmmm...better KIV it...alert mode liao...

Later is patching session again...lol...

.LuKe.

Monday, November 07, 2005

This is going to be a tough entry...

[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral, lil tired

[CuRRent Song:] 杜德伟 - 救我

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo (x2) & bread toast wif sausage + mayo + crabstick

Wondered how I get such sumptuous breakfast? All thanks to my darling dearest Sunshine :) :P MUACKZ love ya to bits for preparing such breakfast...touched till no words can be said :D

Ok I'm easily satisfied for this matter. Back to life :)

Speaking of which, I wanna find that song...it's played in MU a few times but so far I had zero luck finding it...anyway why I said it's a tough entry cos I've not written my blog for 5 days...so how to backtrack sia...lol...

Wednesday:

Think I was at home or something...only remembered I went to book dental appointment on Friday...

Thursday:

Public holiday...den nothing much I guess...haha memory not good liao...remembered I went out at night...yeah that's about it...hahahha!!!

Friday:

Also go out...but then dental changed to Monday cos dentist need perform surgery last-min...went out at night lor...

Saturday:

Expected one...go out...went to PS to meet bro, den went Bugis bought something, den asked bro help me bring home cos I going MU, den went MU and reached 930pm. Bumped onto a new fren from last week under Rusty's circle, waited for them till 945pm before I went in...den saw Tommy and Raymond...came out wif chop den went to 7-11 to buy drinks...drink and chat...den went back in...by the time Linda + Rusty + gang came, it's already like 11 something...or 12 plus I forgot le...good thing Lecherous Monk came!!! :) LOL he said he dun wan his identity be divulged so no choice...he introed 2 of his frens den we hang out there and chat and look ard...den as usual lor...dance and wateva...I onli took very little alcohol but he hyped up the mood a lot...thanks! Oh yeah, when RnB came in we went to makan and watch football n chat...happened to know some new pple...one of them is like mix of Eleen (zhuzhu) + Shan (my ex)...hahaha...den nothing much la...den went back MU at 2+am...enjoy the music. The power thing that night is that the crowd lasted till 430am! That was way too cool! Closing, den walked some of them to their bus stop when the NR didn't come, they took cab home...I walked to my bus stop waited for bus...den SUPER SUAY rain...den went home lor...

Sunday:

Went to look for Sunshine in the afternoon...evening went down PS initially to pass something to Berlinda but ended up she said next week...so no choice...den met up wif Serene (Rusty's contact)...den sent her home...siao lor waste of time and money cos she lives in SENG KANG...stupid sia...den she like bomb n bomb my phone wif SMS...which I already exceeded...haiz...den went home played SG n stuff...den "sleep" cos I did not even manage to sleep much :( sadz...ended up now so tired...

Oh well...that sums up my 5 days...hahaha...I know my memory sucks but what to do...well actually also nothing much happening in life...enjoying the peace perhaps? Hope it will continue be peaceful...dun wanna be interrupted...

.LuKe.

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

This is a Wednesday (eve of PH again!)

[CuRRent MooD:] Lil tired, average

[CuRRent Song:] Reset - Calling You (Album Version)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

I might be visiting the dentist today...cos I'm starting to feel a toothache...damnit. Gonna have an hour of torture again :p

Oh...so I didn't update too much eh...Monday...well I was doing odd stuff in school...after that met up wif Sunshine and went to town to buy CDs and makan dinner...hehe bought 2 CDS - Best Techno Hits and Dance Attack! No.1 Euro Chart Hits..the songs are not bad though :)

Tuesday...slp till 4pm...den woke up by Sunshine cos going out wif her...den went to Suntec to walk and makan...den went to Esplanade slack the night away den came back home...

Today? Dunno. Maybe dentist lor. Sian and waste money but no choice...besides, wanted to go for some time le...not checked by dentist for some time le..den got one stupid hole in one of my molars..I think comfirm will be painful session...besides everytime need to use that stupid drill thingie to drill into the plaque...lol

KKz...anything will update again...

.LuKe.

Monday, October 31, 2005

*Yawnz* Monday

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired, average mood

[CuRRent Song:] Nebula - Sea Angel

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

I've talked about Friday's funny meetup with Carol, so let's just leave to Saturday and Sunday...wait, I thought my weekends' the same nowadays? Hmmm...I guess so, but since I got nothing to do...so just update lor...:P

Saturday:

Went to market wif mum...come back and slp...till 4+pm when Mad called me to pop down Sim Lim to help Allan with his comp...den went dere to buy the PC, and met up with Darkwolf. Went to Pool Junction and saw MondayBlues (now I knoe her name is Serene), they play pool while we hang ard watch and play photohunt...hahaa...after that wanted to walk down MU for a while when Linda called and said she wanna meet up...so ok, sure...I went to PS Star Fac to play games and waited for her till 11+pm...ouch...den meet le walk a while den she said she wanted to go MU -.- so go lor...saw Edwin and Rusty...den dance n dance lor...till 3+ they started 1 + 1 housepour...Linda said she wanted to drink so I asked Rusty if he's member (which he is) so he helped to order...ordered 2 Bourbon Cokes and Vodka Ribena (he ordered the latter which I'm happy) and upon this I realised those pple at the bar are siao sia...the Bourbon Coke I think I should just call it Chivas...damn concentrated!!! Ended up I took his Vodka Ribena (which is so much nicer cos of concentration differences) and each of us finished a jug (not much pple to share cos by that time most of the kakis had left) and of cos that's my first ever time I finished a jug by myself...lol...I noe lousy lah, but have to start somewhere rite...:p

After MU closing, Rusty suggested to go YingHuang which is at Shaw there...so we walked down and spent time there till 6am...den Linda suggested going to the beach! But b4 dat they dragged everyone to Mac to makan breakfast...den after that seems everyone almost tired le...so in the end cos I tired also, I left Linda and Rusty to go since I knoe Rusty will probably take good care of her and that she is in proper hands.

Sunday:

Went to find my Sunshine and spent 13 hours over at her place. Nice time wif her :) muackz :P

.LuKe.

Saturday, October 29, 2005

Out of the norm on a Saturday Morning

[CuRRent MooD:] Little emotional

[CuRRent Song:] Kylie Minogue - On A Night Like This

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice (brown + white) + black bean soup

It's unusual of me to be blogging on a saturday - in normal circumstances I will be blogging about the weekend on Monday but cos I need to get a small issue off my chest...and with Sunshine asleep...oh well...

Just now I opened my Hotmail and spotted a Friendster notice - someone has updated her Friendster Blog. She's Jiaru. Who's Jiaru?

Jiaru is the sister of my childhood sweetheart, Jiawen (also known as Annette).

I looked at the picture...a small girl. Can't be Jiaru, I thought. I clicked the link and logged into Friendster. Looked into her profile and saw a picture I might not wish to see...

Jiawen's solemnization pictures. A sight of my childhood sweetheart...married.

Yes, few months ago I knew that. It's hard to think about it, and when I see it...I felt weird. Kinda sour. Certainly not jealousy. It's a sense of helplessness.

The past is the past and I do not wish to dwell on it...but I'm human and full of emotions, hard for me not to think back and ponder about it. I did not know why things had to turn in that direction that time...I know, all my bad memories will start flowing back into my brain this very moment I start talking about this...I will have to stop it. I'll play SG or whatever game on my hands.

Back to present, just now went to Bugis to meet up with LSX pple. Carol looks younger compared to the pictures, and one thing you can certainly tell she's young.

Her expressions. I can't describe it but if you know me personally, I can show it to you. It was hilarious. It was half a crap session as we ended a lot of situations being OOT but we still managed to get comments and drafts done.

I'm being assigned "Game Master" position. I hope I am up to the task.

Still smiling and grinning about Carol's extremeness expressions. Very funny!

.LuKe.

Friday, October 28, 2005

It's Friday! =)

[CuRRent MooD:] Average alertness

[CuRRent Song:] Kylie Minogue - Red Blooded Woman

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Patching again. Haha...anyway the alarm sounded in the morning and the first sms of the morning is a msg from last night (I suppose, but it's this morning I think) and then I continued replying lor...den Sunshine called to morning call me...:) nice of her to have done so...:)

Yeah...later got makan at 11am...dun need spend money on lunch le...so happy!! :)

Anyway...when I woke up I saw mum doing stuff. Asked her why she woke up so early she said just to do a bit of moving about b4 she gets back to bed again. Hmmm...ok. Just did my usual stuff and came to school.

What's it yesterday? On way going home, Sunshine told me she'll be going her aunt's place..ok, so I went back home to SG...den she said she will go walk walk wif her aunt...so I took my diary and went to Mac and makan, and wrote. I know it's weird to have both a blog and diary, but they served different purposes. Anyway...Berlinda called a few times and the last time resulted me spending time in Mac thus not making it home before the downpour - stuck in Mac!!! Then bo bian, just went through my entries in the diary...just when I was leaving I bumped onto Bingwen (my same block neighbour) and we went home together with his umbrella sheltering me from the weather.

Logged on LSX, did some maintenance to the system...used the comp for a while (included all the makan and wateva) and Jaslyn called to chat. Gave my system up for my bro to use and we chatted till 3am where my phone almost went out of battery...if not, I think she will continue talking...she ji tao really noe a lot of crap to tok...lol...

I'll be meeting up LSX pple in the evening...here's the list...

1) Blizzard (Roy)
2) Darkwolf (Tommy)
3) Cinimod (Dominic)
4) DJ Zach (dunno his real name)
5) Cyric (Rank)
6) Garnet (Winnie)
7) Colourlee (Carol)

...for the End of Year Event Programmes Meeting. I hope we will actually be getting the agenda done rather than random yakking and chatting. I know it shouldn't be a very serious meetup but something needs to be done. I think I better bring some writing materials just in case.

Ok till next update...

[ Update - 1032 Hours ]

Got time go listen to this: http://podcast.mrbrown.com/tmbs-051010.mp3
Quite funny...about customizing car...

.LuKe.

Thursday, October 27, 2005

Thursday close to Friday

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] Gwen Stefani - What You Waiting For (Went thru some songs already)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

So so so...what's up yesterday?

Nothing much...met up with Sunshine, spent some time wif her, sent her to service, went home mop floor and makan, den fetch her back home, den back home bath den play SG...yeah.

Hahaha.

End of Wednesday.

Boring? Not really.

Hahaha.

Today's Thursday. Hmmm...gonna work towards the weekend. Anyway I've sent an application for "internal promotion". :) hope it works out.

[ Update - 1110 Hours ]

DU LAN! My account in Reincarnation tio banned!!! What for? For logging on a few times a day? For buying and generating lots of items? For not attacking anyone? STUPID MAN! Now I understand why they said the admins suck. LOL.

.LuKe.

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

A Wednesday

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, irritated a little

[CuRRent Song:] Fantasy Project - Gimme Love (Extended Mix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Starhub really irks me at times. For some unknown reason I've tried logging into their account manager but failed. I've took down the password, changed it before and took that down, and they still won't allow entry and lock me out. It's really freaking dumb.

Yesterday I was on SG mood, well kinda, so I played SG. I think there wasn't anything much since I've featured whatever shit that had happened last morning and noon. Went to fetch Sunshine home at night, and tried to slp early...ended up woken up by Berlinda's call and found that I couldn't sleep much anymore. Tossed and turned and the next moment I checked my phone, it's 4:30am. Ouch. Surprised I'm awake now.

Oh yeah, did a random wallpaper for a forumer. She did not request it, but I did it out of fun on my free time. Just my usual routine - seems weird that I do such pointless stuff.

Now doing SP2 patching again - I'll update if any.

[ Update - 1239 Hours ]

Somehow I still feel that Divinity is punishing me for whatever irresponsible and bad sins I've done. Sigh.

.LuKe.

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

I am TIRED

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired

[CuRRent Song:] Mysterio - There Is A Star

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Curry Rice & ingredients + Iced Lemon Tea

This morning was busy. Ouch. The 2 PCs which I tried upgrading to SP2 in staff room failed on me and died. I had to recover which I took super lots of attempts, and only one managed to upgrade to SP2 while the other stayed at SP1...it's a strange computer to say the least...I think I got to tackle the HOD Room PC morrow...still stuck at infancy...lol

While I was doing the above, got arrow ask me go lab prepare for some workshop thingie! ALamak waste of my energy and time but bo bian, so went up prepare...den makan and rest...nothing much right? But I used so much brain cells I'm tired out. Then went to Lab 2 and found that those workshop pple actually offed the main switch without offing the other power switches, thus it activated the circuit breaker to cut energy off from the lab. Good thing I figured a little and got it back - but it was a scare.

Yesterday...hmmm...after work it was raining. Wait...before that, Carol from LSX added me to Friendster, den I added her on MSN...we chatted for 2 hours plus while waiting for the damned SP2 to patch properly...den turned out it took more time than usual...but no choice...good thing she kept me company online during that time else it will be so bored and I think I will be dozing off on my desk..hahaha...den after that I knocked off and noticed it was raining, so I took an umbrella and went to MRT station to fetch Sunshine...den sent her home...after that she went service and I went home...home did some configuration to the system and got Bro's jap game working...also got new software working...den went to fetch Sunshine from terminal...den sent her home...yeah like dis lor...

I think. Haha. Den reached home slack, play game, slp. Didn't really play a lot of SG ytd.

Anyway I think it's time to break the news pple...I'm attached! :) I have a girlfriend now...so those who might wanna hope I be their "perfect" boyfriend, sorry ah I'm taken :P (wah piang so BHB!!!) but if you want you can queue lah...I think my girlfriend wun mind one...she also got queue one leh...the guys queue from her place to another block lor...lol...:P say until so kua zhang...

Who is she? Go figure lor..very easy one wat..rite..:P

"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine~"

.LuKe.

Monday, October 24, 2005

Tired Monday

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired (see my title?)

[CuRRent Song:] Bananarama - Move In My Direction

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Tired. Yawnz. Slept at 4am as I was chatting wif Eleen...lol she sudden low mood so she called me lor..den since long time no chat den just chat and crap wif her...den until 4am..power anot..haha..woke up just now so tired felt like slping more...but sunshine msged me to wake up le...so cannot slack on bed liao...hahha...

So back to my summaries...

Friday:

Haha I can't remember what I did...I think I went PS...played Puzzle Fighter...went back home...hahaha...something like that...I only remembered I played SG till 6am I think...den I slp till 10+am...den...

Saturday:

...went market wif mom. Memory blocked -.- can't remember what I did...I think I slept till ard 6+ or 7+ or 5+ den played SG...lol...den went PS, den went MU. Sent Linda back home, reached home morning ard 7am.

Sunday:

Bathed, played SG and "Reincarnation", then went to find Sunshine...den back home, played again till 6+pm, slp till 10+pm, went to Mac makan...come back, play again.

LOL. Stupid weekend eh? Hahaha...

Now chatting wif Michelle abt Salsa VS Jazz Dance...lol

.LuKe.

Friday, October 21, 2005

A planned rest on this Friday

[CuRRent MooD:] A bit tired, glad

[CuRRent Song:] Anjay - If You Dance

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Beehoon + Curry Puff

Today school provide breakfast cos got staff meeting :P hahaha...so nice...lol free breakfast! Not just milo milo all the way!

Keke...oh yeah been rare to see "glad" mood eh? That's cos 2 persons justified my reasoning in the forum! That's 2 for 2! At least my cause has been defended, thanks to both of them...really glad someone came out to speak for me. I dun wish to continue the OOT posts so I just decided to back out...when they appeared to clear my way. I'm really happy - or should I call it sweet revenge? Well nothing much to avenge about also...just hurt ego, maybe?

Nothing much about yesterday...install SP2 in school, reach home and went out again to Chinatown to get my dad's phone done. The guy said water went into the phone and I was reasoning out with him saying that there is no way that could happen, and that it's certainly not my problem since the problem started right after I tried the phone at home. The end he sent it for a 2-week repair. Duh.

After that took 851 down to Bugis and met up with Linda and her Malaysian fren (and my bro), after that had dinner at an eating place behind one of the bus stop at Bugis, then walked to PS and played DDR in Zone-X, then walked down from PS to Cineleisure to have my Chocobits. Then walked down to Orchard and took bus back home.

Home, watched Anime, bath, makan, watch TV den play SG. Den sleep.

It's SG again tonight I guess. No money to walk walk and play play le :P

So what's the plans for the weekend? I think for morrow I'll be either...hmmm...I dunno? Heard that my neighbours wanted to go Marina South to fly kite, and Linda was trying to find places to waste time away. At night my bro said he might go MU cos his frens will be there - contemplating whether I should be there, but with Linda constantly saying that she will appreciate it if I'm there (guess she's being too comfortable with my presence), I really feel funny going there. I dun wish to associate that place with anybody, but right now this is the issue. I dun like such situations, really. Irks me.

[ Update - 0936 Hours ]

Stupid sia...a processor had burnt pins in one of the comp and they said it's not covered under warranty -.- as if I will go and burn the pins like dat...stupid sia...I dun think my HODIT will accept the quotation since the warranty will end in less than half a year's time...oh well, they wanna waste time, ink and paper - that's their business. Really stupid leh.

.LuKe.

Thursday, October 20, 2005

Feeling Thursday, or Thursday Feeling?

[CuRRent MooD:] Emotional, tired

[CuRRent Song:] Evanescence - Bring Me To Life

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Somehow I felt emotional, I guess it's just life playing tricks on me.

Someone in forum had irritated me twice this month. I wonder if he had changed from the times I knew him, or was there anything that happened between us that I've never known. It seems to me he had changed much from the times, I've started to not see proper light to his very purposes. Now I shall pull my finger from the button that promptly agrees to myself going for the End Of Year event for LSX...I'm now not certain of my purpose there. Of cos, I'm never in LSX for any particular person, but sometimes when mood gets to you it wonders your very purpose and existence in life.

That lady just updated her profile and I've just given her a testimonial. My guess was more or less correct, and congratulations. Just hope everything works fine on her side, and efforts have not been wasted. Personally I know what had been "wasted" but life's like this - you can plan all you want in anything, but Divinity has other plans. In chinese they call it 人算不如天算. Once life works proper for someone whom I've once shown care, I guess my purpose is fulfilled.

Back to "yesterday" news.

Worked till 6:30pm, cool eh? Haha...but the shock was not the late hour but the call after that. Linda just called to say she'll pop by my place with my brother and I was like O.o wtf??? She said to visit my mum. Hmmm...

The night just went past like this, watching TV and me mopping the floor. Then sent her to bus stop, den went back to look for Ivan (chanced upon Ivan, Valerie and her bf on the way to the bus stop) and went home. Bathed and watched TV, played SG and Zero Hour. Sleep.

At times like now, my heart is frail. I'm feeling more tired than I should have been. Going to Chinatown later, then to Bugis to meet Linda and her friend whom she introduced on Saturday in MU. Heard from my bro and her that the guy is rather good at Exceed - I'll know soon I guess.

I need an fflush() for my emotional buffer.

[ Update - 0926 Hours ]

Suddenly felt like going to chiong and dance. But I know myself not to do that on day which the following day's a work day. Also, I have no money to be there in the first place. Guess it's just stupid mood acting on myself.

[ Update - 1316 Hours ]

Sianz...forum getting on my nerves...pple like to bite on me and no one to defend me :( so sad...

.LuKe.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Wet-Nest-Day

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired

[CuRRent Song:] Rimini Project - A Day In The Sun (Extended Version)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Oh..now I realised why my IE can often lose focus...it's cause of the yahoo messenger background that DCs by itself and tries to reconnect...lol...

Yesterday...just do stuff in school...and I did not go Chinatown (should be today I guess) as I went to accompany Sunshine...haha...so funny...I went her place but before that I took the lift on the other side, a middle-aged man went in with me. He was reading mail and was on earphones (and high volume) and had forgotten to press the level he wanted to go. I pressed mine and was looking at him...hmmm...so I called out to him...no answer...so I began waving my hand in front of him and asked which level he would like to go...then it turned out the same level as mine.

Thought ran through "hmmm, can't be. Coincidence." So the lift stopped at that level and I allowed him to go first. Then I saw him climb the stairs and I thought "can't be so...coincidence?" so I followed and we ended the same level, and turned the same direction. "Life COULD be dramatic to say the least" and we walked the same path...till we stopped at the same gate - Sunshine's place. OMG that man's her dad!!! LOL!!!

Hahhaa...funny sia...after that Sunshine and I went for dinner @ mac, den she went for service while I went back home to SG a while before coming out again to fetch her back home from service. After that I went to look for my neighbours while we chatted for an hour or so before we went back home. Initially wanted to play SG but my bro was on the comp so I went to bed at 1am as my endurance was limited. Woke up at 8 but still tired. Not much difference whether I slp at 1am or 3am. LOL.

Better start hurrying on my progress. LOL. Will update if any.

[ Update - 1746 Hours ]

So idiotic...still in school...SP2 installation take ages...*yawnz*

.Luke.

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

A Gastric Tuesday Morning

[CuRRent MooD:] Sianz 1/2

[CuRRent Song:] Reset - Blue

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Wanton Mee + Sugar Cane Drink

Having gastric pangs now...hope it will go off soon...

Yesterday was bad...after I blogged I tio struck by stomach upset that caused me to be in toilet for one hour, breaking cold sweat and difficulty in breathing. Initially I thought I was ok but soon realised I wasn't, so no choice but called up office for help. Had pple bringing me water, pill, Ribena...thanks pple...really appreciated it...

Went to doctor...tio meh by her...cos she said I shouldn't anyhow take medicine...cos she dunno if the pill they gave me is meant for constipation or diarrhoea, so she cannot anyhow prescribe medicine for me...end up she gave me pills for abdominal pain (sound like menstrual-related pain, lol) and also charcoal pills...interesting pills. It's black in colour, and tasted like carbon (I know pple asked me how carbon taste like...if you have the time and feeling adventurous, try biting pencil lead)...went home and ended in toilet too, took the pills and was a little better. Practically slpt the whole day off. Woke up for water, slp. Woke up for dinner, slp. Woke up for bath, den use comp, den slp. Den wake up dis morning for work.

Now feeling a bit tired and also the stupid gastric feeling...but just that little bit better...I guess the pain came cos I did not take breakfast...normally I do take milo but cos of this upset I was told not to take dairy products (milo has milk) so I dare not take the risk though it's already a day gone. I have to be so selective with food now - no spicy, no duck, no chicken...no whatever that seemed to be not freshly cooked as what the doctor said...although she said "today" yesterday, I think it's better to extend the deadline for another day just in case.

Kiasi? I prefer to be.

I believe I will still have leftovers for charcoal pills. If you want one or to see one, just tell me. Haha.

Waiting for the NB to finish patching...lol...

.LuKe.

Monday, October 17, 2005

Another Monday, now is Mid-Oct

[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral, tired

[CuRRent Song:] Slinkee Minx - Summer Rain

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Just now was Bananarama's Move In My Direction and now this, both of my current faves.

Seriously speaking, I wonder if I should blog abt my past weekend's proceedings. Rather tired now..and any movement to my memory brain cells seem to invoke irritation than anything else...but I noe if I don't write now, I probably wun write later. Here goes? Lol.

Friday:

Went down Chinatown with Sunshine, bought the second-hand phone for my dad and we walked down to Marina Square to makan dinner, after that we walked to Promenade and had a rest and chat there...den sent her back home...and realised I forgot to take the phone (which was in her bag) so I went back to take...but she was taking a bath so I waited for 20 mins or so (I think it's 1/2 hour) before I got it back...lol...

Back home, played SG and Winning Eleven 8 till 6:20am and went market with mum.

Saturday:

Reached home 8am and thought I could have a good rest b4 I go for David's BBQ (David = bunkmate in army during my Alpha days) but ended up every saturday's the same...

...I could never, ever have an undisturbed sleep with my phone on. It seems everyone loves to disturb my sat mornings somehow. Msgs, phone calls...bla bla bla...oh man, I really don't wish to switch off the phone for my convenience in case it became an inconvenience for others...but oh well guess I have to endure the weekly disturbances...haha...

Think I woke up at 3+ and went to Aljunied MRT to meet up wif Weiteck. I reached at 4:50pm and thought I was late...yeah I was late, but others were later -.- so I waited for Weiteck and we went over the condo that the BBQ was held at. Reached there and realised we're the only 2 army buds ard -.- so we went out again to Geylang and walk walk, settled in a kopitiam and drank beverages and chatted. After that went back and slacked, eat/drink and chat. Turned out I'm lucky to have avoided the BBQ mess - I can't imagine myself smelling of BBQ + Cigarette smoke + Alcohol = horrendous!!!

The cake cutting dragged on pretty late and by the time I left the condo and reached MU, it was 9:58pm on my watch but they have started on cover charge -.- so Linda had one of her frens bringing me in.

Stupid night, I should say. Tell me what's my accomplishment, and it was that I managed to watch Man Utd win Sunderland 3-1 on the latter's home ground - which means it's 1-3 actually. The 'celebration' wasn't really anything dramatic or what, I dun think I even heard a birthday song, but the night was simply experience and stuff for me.

Why? Cos I had to send the early birthday girl to hospital. -.-

Took Chivas + coke and it was no prob for me. It seems the birthday girl had some issues with straw-drinking alcohol and soon hell broke loose - she took up practically all my time of the night and I had to attend to her and after 2 hours of rubbish, I had zero choice but to dial up the ambulance (ok my fren dialled) and send her to hospital.

I was in the hospital from 2+ till 7 in the morning when the hospital decided to discharge her and I had to send her back home. That rounded my saturday night - no dance, little chio-bu gazing but nevertheless experience - of sending someone to hospital. Ouch.

Sunday:

I have one word to summarize this day - SLEEP.

I think Sunday's remarkably the best summary. Haha...ok time to continue my work...I will update if anything comes up.

.LuKe.

Friday, October 14, 2005

Fry Fry Friday

[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral Smile mood

[CuRRent Song:] Alfresca - Sunshine After The Rain

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Today is Friday...but dunno why, it seems I'm not anticipating this Saturday to come...

I have 2 birthdays to attend, one being David's 21st birthday which the gift has already been settled by Weiteck the Great, and another belongs to Linda...the former is a BBQ at a certain condo which I dunno wat time it will end, while the latter meetup time is 8pm which I think due to David's BBQ, I will not be able to make it.

But she wants me to be there regardless of the time.

Haiz...how how how? Sianz.

Now den I know...O2 not only coming up with XDA Atom but also Atom Exec and Mini Pro...Exec and Pro both has QWERTY keyboards in-built as well as wireless too...not bad, but the latter is only @ 195Mhz..although not everything is on CPU spd but at first glance, it really makes pple think.

Atom wins by multimedia capability and its 2.0mp cam + flash. Move away, Nokia 7270! Atom's on the way!!! By proper planning...I can even sell 7270 and my iPod Mini...if Atom's running on SD card that is. As of date critics do not know if Atom's running on SD (2GB max) or MiniSD (512mb max) so if they run by latter, I will be keeping my Mini. Hahhaa...so much "mini" terms running about...

I'm looking forward to Atom being my next gadget - probably my only motivation now. LOL.

Later at nite going Chinatown wif Sunshine...yeah dat's abt it.

Saturday is coming soon...

.LuKe.

Thursday, October 13, 2005

Thursday. Thursday? Thursday! Thursday.

[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral

[CuRRent Song:] Bananarama - Move In My Direction

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Some things that I should stop:

1) To know more people
2) Think too much
3) Going to blogs of people that will only affect me negatively
4) Thinking that I can't be financially well-off
5) Assume I can never be what my chinese name speaks of
6) On low mood
7) Lending people money

Things I should start:

1) Knowing how to appreciate pple more
2) Putting a stop to unnecessary expenditure (food is another matter)
3) Planning finances properly to clear debts
4) Praying hard that all money that went out to people's pockets will come back to me
5) Not care too much about other people; focused on who I should bother
6) Work harder to earn more money
7) Seriously wonder if I need anyone to motivate my life

Recent days have me to wonder that I should really settle myself down. Can I?

I don't even know precisely what I want with my life. This is serious stuff that I should really sit down and wonder, and to make an absolute conclusion.

Who can seriously support me as a motivational factor?

I'm not just looking for a girlfriend - I'm looking for a girlfriend willing to brace me through my hard times and motivate me whenever possible.

Not easy. At all. Takers anyone? LOL.

.LuKe.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

The 200th Post

[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral

[CuRRent Song:] Gunther & The Sunshine Girls feat. Samantha- Touch Me

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Yesterday I spoke of the fact about appreciation. A day won't change my views but it will go a long way - I'm still bothered by much of what happened within such a short time. I'm still glad of those who appreciated me though...thank you very much.

Went to cut my hair...no difference. LOL. Met up wif Sunshine den went home and rested a while and took over the comp and played Princess Maker 4, the new game I bought on Sunday. I've got a 'normal' ending of my daughter marrying some normal knight - well time to raise another daughter. Do you know what English-translated name I gave to her?

爱美玲. Read it and it will sound catchy. Even the birthday goes exactly to that person's - I like to relate actual people to a game at times so I can be pretty serious about it. I should be trying 依玲 or something like that soon - need to get the correct name. Haha.

It's about 4am the time I completed the game. LOL.

Gonna continue my rollouts today, doing some checking and stuff. Oh yeah, reminded me to check escalation status. Will update on this post if any.

200th post! Yeah.

[ Update - 1128 Hours ]

To commemorate my 200th post, I've done up version 5.0! Hope you guys like it!

.LuKe.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Peaceful Tuesday

[CuRRent MooD:] Peaceful (for now)

[CuRRent Song:] SonicDoom - Check This Playboy Out

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Early in the morning before I even step foot out of the house, Mr Lee called up from school to enquire some stuff. Oh well =)

Yesterday went to Sim Lim and walk walk...nothing much, just grabbing price lists...den I noticed a shop on the 4th storey that sells Anime...nothing special? Wait till you notice the triangular M18 tags! Singapore should have opened this market a long time back...actually there was an underground market, but that's another story. I see old pieces like 电影少女 by 桂正和 and recent year works like Chobits. Also spotted AppleSeed and other works too.

Probably you guys won't notice this till I tell ya - I've added a "wants" list, or what some people call it a "wishlist". So you wanna know? You can check it out over at "Profile" but I'll briefly go through now:

Fujitsu LifeBook E8020
This is a powerhouse serious. Desktop replacement contender, runs at DDR2 and Centrino next-gen technology @ 1.73Ghz (I think). PCI-E with ATi Radeon X??? (I forgot) in it...plus many many cool features. You can check the link in my list.

I wouldn't need the powerful notebook above if I have...
P4 LGA-775 3.0GHz (HT-enabled) Processor
MSI (Microstar) 915P Neo2 Platinum (Intel 915P)
CORSAIR 2x512MB Kit (Total:1GB/PC-4300/CL4) 533MHz DDR2-533
Hitachi (HGST) 7K250 ~160GB~ (HDS722516VLSA80/8MB) SATA-150
SAPPHIRE Radeon X600 Pro 256MB DDR

With such stuff on my PC, I don't need a desktop replacement. I still need my PC to run various stuff (gaming/video/programming/web design/etc) so I need raw power as much I possibly can - within budget that is.

Since I might have the above, I only need this for a Notebook...
Fujitsu LifeBook P7010E
http://www.pc-ap.fujitsu.com/products/lb_p7010.html
Coolness isn't it? LOL.

O2 XDA Atom
Something which I featured yesterday on my blog. The newest gadget from O2, this promises to be a media whore from them. I hope it is up to standard.

Some other stuff includes...
Microsoft Visual Studio .NET 2003 Academic Edition
Microsoft Windows XP Professional
Symantec Norton Systemworks 2005
Digital Camera (not decided on brand/model)

Hahaha...hellous right? No money still say so much...can always *wish* right...just give me any as a Christmas Present...I don't mind :P you can choose the cheapest (which I think is the Norton Systemworks)...but now it's still too early to talk about presents.

If I can keep a very tight rein on my finances, all these are possible. Seriously.

And of course, I need to go beyond my current job cos it pays too little to get the above...furthermore I have debts to settle.

Will update if any.

[ Update - 1035 Hours ]

Just updated my Friendster Profile. Go take a look! Muahahhaa!!!

[ Update - 1642 Hours ]

That "someone" really made my day - bad. Blasted me wif more crap...but she did make me realise some things about myself...I guess I should not wonder if people will not learn to appreciate me, but instead be glad that people DO appreciate me. Just like counting my blessings. Oh well...it's life isn't it? I must look closer into my life.

.LuKe.

Monday, October 10, 2005

Monday Morning...a week gone like this.

[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral, although I can be on either side

[CuRRent Song:] Eighth Wonder - Cross My Heart

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

My mood is strictly strange at times...though I start to realise why. I can see that things will start clearing up soon. I should know who I should appreciate on my side. Anyway...

Friday:

Actually can't remember much...oh, yeah I met up wif Ben to grab his CDs...he wanted to convert mp3s to CDA...so just help him a bit (well so long he doesn't bug me that much...)...though he's a queer friend but nevertheless one...and he did help me before, so I should jus help him out when needed too.

Saturday:

Morning went to attend Briefing and got my vouchers...hehe...:) wonder what to buy? When I got home I was pretty tired and msged Weiteck I'll not be meeting him for lunch and I went to sleep :P woke up in the evening and I went out to walk walk...lemme think...what went on...oh yeah, I met up wif Berlinda at Bugis...it wasn't a pleasant session cos I sorta goofed it with a lot of stuff (as usual) and she just went back earlier (which was good for me since I can go in MU before 10 to get free entry).

Note of CURRENT moment: Someone just made my mood less than neutral with his shallowness of an assumption of situations. I don't think I deserve that.

Back. Went in MU ard 935pm and saw Meiyun n co. Found out it was Tommy's birthday and there were tons of pple given the early time...so we celebrated his birthday, booze mode on and party it out (I only drank a cup -.- and Soda + Chivas = SUCKS). Saw the scary side of Meiyun again...even though my bro and I did have some say to the matter, and reasoned out with our own views pertaining to it. Oh well that's her. Danced wif Tommy's frens as well although not much since by Techno the alcohol's off and the mood is gone (fatigue + other reasons maybe) - actually the alcohol did not even kick in -.- lol...

Bro and Linda came in after 1130pm (I think) and some issues here and there, my bro and I left the place as RnB came in (130am) and so zun zun after we came out, Police raided the place in search of illegal stuff (if any). I had some other friends in (Edwin, Maurice etc.) and they were a little pissed off...oh well, relax dudes =)

Went to eat and drink beverage a lil before we left home.

Sunday:

Slept till 1+...when I realised I needed to meet Miko -.- so I woke up, checked offline msgs and yeah she confirmed it. Went down Woodlands and reached 245pm...waited 3 hours but no one. Went online wif GPRS and realised she's home and she said she waited 2 hours too. Oh well "got round no shit" so that's how it is. The only consolation of the day was I found Princess Maker 4 @ Popular and I bought it. Home wif it, met up wif Sunshine and Benjamin...also saw Crystal, Jasmine, Vanessa and Amy at Mac and chatted a short while.

Home to do Desy's stuff, set up my system for Princess Maker 4. Realised one thing - mainboard is starting to give problems, and I just found that my ECS mainboard has been in my system for 1 1/2 years - wow! Not bad. LOL.

Today:

Someone online sorta irritated me with his strange accusations. Never mind, I never thought he might think of me as someone who tried to terrorize him or something...well, never did, never will. I'm not that eng as you think I am. To think I treat him 1 x friend...he like dat. Oh well...so far for not being appreciated again...

Today is only 9 hours past, so let's get it over and done with. :)

[ Update ]

Targetted phone: O2 XDA Atom

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[ Update - 1458 hours]

Whoa. I really can't believe I'm like offending pple everywhere...well I've just offended 2 without wondering why. I do realise when someone does not know you very well, they can hurl all sorts of accusations at you. Someone just commented I'm impatient and pushy.

Me pushy? Impatient? Well I admit I have limits, and in certain issues I may be impatient. But call me pushy? Some pple even wish I AM! I can't even make proper decisions, let alone pushy! Wow suddenly I felt that "pushy" is a compliment!

My patience goes beyond how much that "someone" knows about me.

Earlier morning's case already put me less than neutral, now my mood is really starting on a low. Better not let the trip later to Sim Lim be a bad one. *deep breath*

I'm being patient enough to have stopped the argument from aggravating further. Imagine if I continued...wow, World War III commences...I think very few pple really quarrelled with me....one of them had to be Shan...

Shit. Memories coming back.

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.LuKe.

Thursday, October 06, 2005

It's Thursday!

[CuRRent MooD:] A lil tired

[CuRRent Song:] Mysterio - Show Me The Light

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Green Tea

Tried to update blog this morning but with no success as blogspot/blogger seemed to be down a moment.

Suddenly I was wondering about how they give name of artistes in techno pieces - this thought came from the day I got the Lunaspace version of Show Me The Light. It was tweaked to sound faster (increased tempo), so I utilised Goldwave to slow it down.

Ta dah! It sounds the same as the Mysterio version. Exactly. So do they actually change artiste name due to a different remix/mixer? Or does Mysterio has two names? They could just put "Mysterio - Show Me The Light (Lunaspace Mix)" or something - something which my mixer friends and I do.

Maybe it's the same case with the Eurobeat artistes - many names, same pple.

Just a short moment "that" female came into my mind and I wondered why the ignorance situation happened. Just really felt I do not deserve to be ignored. She would rather return tag to an anonymous person instead of me. She ignored my Friendster msg. She ignored my smses. Chris (was it her?) said she could have missed my smses and maybe Friendster msgs, but she certainly wouldn't miss the tags cos it's still on the same page, and since she made a new tagboard with a new blogskin, she only has 2 tagging visitors so far - me and that anonymous person. If that's not ignoring me, I don't know what is...but I don't wish to confront anything in her blog...no use anyway. It's her decision to ignore me, I just know I've done nothing to offend her.

Dumb.

Ytd went town to meet Desy...and stuff and stuff...well I guess I'm not saying much of it...just some dumb stuff...yeah and back home. No SG apart from uranium-taking last night because I played Winning Eleven 8 and C&C Zero Hour...the latter was slow...damn...time to change my system...

...but no money.

Damn. The thought keep going backwards. No no no...forward!!!

LOL.

I have more personal problems than I thought. It's just me.

.LuKe.

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Just an average midweek Wednesday

[CuRRent MooD:] Average, not very tired

[CuRRent Song:] Fantasy Project - Never Stop

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Today early morning came school for QSE stuff.

Yesterday...another normal day?

Did the usual stuff, Mad actually wanted to draw up her plan for Os but when I reached home and called her, it seems she was somewhere in limbo so the plan was not materialised. Read up on my programming stuff and really should decide on starting it. Hehe.

Den SG. Yeah. Really a small little typical day. It's ok so long as I can pass it without spending too much money. I've spent $3 extra yesterday due to the Laksa + Teh Peng frm the coffeeshop after school.

See ya.

Oh yeah, something I found out about "that" person...which made me a little pissed...but nvr mind...as I said, sometimes I just felt unappreciated or ignored. Don't worry, mood will resume very soon cos I will convince myself never to be affected by such pple...what goes round, comes round.

.LuKe.

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Tuesday Tuesday Tuesday

[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral

[CuRRent Song:] Lolita - Wanna Be Your Emotion

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Pokka Green Tea

Current song is Siria - I Will Believe It (Cascada remix). Hehe.

Actually nothing much to blog...yesterday was rather busy with QSE prep and cloning of lab...damn I did that image like thrice -.- made me so fedup, after that cannot Ghost Walker to change computer name...ended up I have to do so for every PC...damn...so leh chey...

Went home at ard 6:20pm, reached home helped mum with chores. Then meet up wif Sunshine to pass her stuff, den went home take bath play SG. Initially I felt tired and thought "a game of SG to get ura" ended up me ending the game at abt 4am. LOL...but it was fun I guess, I'm finally maxed stats ready to kick @ss...I have like 8 gold H-weaps imps @ TL120...woo...nice...hehe...

Nothing much really. Today is Tuesday only. Haha...oh yeah, Meiyun called me at night and chatted wif me for a while wif regards to what happened to her on last saturday. So lame. LOL.

Will update if anything.

.LuKe.

Monday, October 03, 2005

This is really strange

[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral, average alertness

[CuRRent Song:] Groove Coverage - I Need You (Project One Remix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Lol...I think this song has been the third time in recent weeks to be my "current song". Just so happened this way I guess.

Oh yeah, my title came about this way because of blogger. If you happened to read Dan's blog, he faced a problem at home whereby the blogger post editor will have icons lying about everywhere and you can't compose/view a post properly. For my case I can't configure the settings as well...however as I came to school and check...hmmm...it looked fine...maybe I should try logging in from an SP1 machine in school and see what happens...

Woke up, check stuff online, blogged, go to PS, saw Ivan and Val and got introduced a fren by the name of Rue, den go back Ghim Moh area to makan/drink/chat, go home play SG/watch Vampire...yeah that's my sunday. Well I woke up at 4+pm and slpt at 9amon Sunday, so what do you expect? :P

And yeah, Berlinda kept calling up my phone. And disturbed my sleep.

Ivan was quite funny really. Starting to get used to his "lameness".

.LuKe.

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Saturday Stuff

[ CuRRent MooD: ] Neutral

[ CuRRent Song: ] Anjay – If You Dance

[ Last Food/Beverage: ] Rice + fish and Cold Plain Water

It’s near 7am, and guess what I am doing? Eating last night’s dinner. I know its not good, but I jus wanna finish it…well it was me in the first place that didn’t make it back home early…

It was simply a stupid day…did not get responses from somebody out dere, den I was meeting Desy at 5pm…turn out that at 5:40pm when I was reaching Bugis Desy was saying that I’m early! I told her it was 5 and she said I did not confirm…well ok, could be my fault. Waited for her there and she came along and we looked at phones, then we went down Chinatown.

Haha, we exceeded the stop and we walked a stop backwards. Managed to fetch $265 for her 6230 (I think it’s a good price) and she treated me to Mac. After that we were planning about her BBQ and that she brought me into her place to check out the facilities. Ended up her granny said she can’t celebrate her bday dis yr cos 19 is not auspicious so…no choice.

Initially due to Desy’s decision not to go MU I was quite moody…but later on I decided to go because Dan’s there. Called up Meiyun and she was there too, so I reckon if I go it’ll not be too bad. Went there but Linda was late due to work. Waited for her from 11pm till 12:10am when she called and said she lost her way -.- so I had to wait again till 12:30am when Dan came out from MU and found me, and made small chat. Thanks dude =) and Linda eventually came wearing a black dress which really suits her and made her stand out.

Went in MU and looked for Meiyun…oh man, that was certainly a mistake. I’ve learnt to avoid Meiyun when she’s drunk – extremely dangerous. After that we walked around the place and I found Morris, Edwin and Rusty! Nice! LOL…and it turns out Dan knows Rusty as well! The world is so small! The mood was a little better…but things turned a funny direction so my mood was bad again…went out to catch some breath, and still not found back my mood. Went in, convinced myself to claim a Bourbon Coke, downed it and went to the stage and dance. Was a nice feeling really, so I continued for a good half hour or so till Dan came along and we danced together on stage. Certainly coolness to dance with him.

That’s about all, the rest is the usual go home bla bla stuff…

Amelyn’s blog is back, finally.

Hmmm, does the above even matter at all? I guess my life is stuffed with so much insignificant matters.

I want things to turn better, please.

.LuKe.

Saturday, October 01, 2005

The Baton From Dan The Man

[ CuRRent MooD: ] Irritated – what happened to blogger?

[ CuRRent Song: ] SG Background Music

[Last Food/Beverage: ] Cabbage soup + Pork bits + Mushrooms

Under the request of Mr Dan the Man, I need to pass the five thingie baton to 5 pple. But before I do…let me just feel up the wateva things (some are so stupid)…

Five colours and the first sexy/sex-related item that comes to mind

Actually I’m hardly surprised I’m being affected by Dan’s thought, but really, the first thing that came to my mind is a dildo, I don’t know why. In relevance, whatever colours you relate to dildos will not make a difference isn’t it? Hey, I noticed the loophole – it only said 5 colours but it didn’t tell me to relate to the item. So here it goes…

Item = Dildo

Colours = Red, Purple, Yellow, Pink, Blue

Five celebrities of the same sex that you COULD have a crush on

This is so f**king impossible, Dan could list it but I couldn’t, since I’ve never, and not ever going to think about this! OMG! I can only agree with Dan’s view of Richard Gere and Will Smith. Seriously, no way will I think about this…

Five things you plan to do before this week ends

Now this is so much more logical. Lemme think, I spoke about my weekend plans right? Dbl O was out since I did not go with Isabelle so here goes…

  1. Meeting up with Desy and getting her gift

  2. Finding out whether Berlinda’s phone can be repaired

  3. Checking selling prices for Desy’s phones

  4. Going Music Underground with Desy, maybe asking Linda, Meiyun, Peishan along, and with Daniel himself there too! Gonna be a cool night out.

  5. More SG? NO. I think something like meeting up with friends that I might not have met before, or meeting Sunshine, or just catch up on sleep.

Five singers/artistes/Djs whose song can make you dance/groove

Another easy one.

  1. Slinkee Minx – Summer Rain

  2. Elizabeth – Crazy Red

  3. Cascada

  4. Spring Break

  5. Master Blaster

Five people you wish to pass this heel/baton to

Simply lame if I pass it back to Daniel, so let me think a little of whoever reads my blog…

  1. Christina – you’re toast.

  2. Sunshine – try it gurl =)

  3. Jeremin – if you happen to be reading my blog, here goes

  4. Sylvia – I know you won’t do it, but if you do, that’s nice =)

  5. Zhuzhu – of cos, if you are even bothered and reading my blog

Ok done. =)

Oh yeah, blogger screwed up on me and I had to use their Blogger for Word to blog.

.LuKe.

Friday, September 30, 2005

Friday! Hehe.

[CuRRent MooD:] So-so, fine

[CuRRent Song:] Slinkee Minx - Summer Rain (Alex K Remix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] None

Hehe...I'm late. Anyway just got wind the Summer Rain version from Slinkee Minx belongs to a remix from Alex K, just another mixer? LOL...

Don't think there's a lot to write about...hhaahha...so plans?

Today:
Meeting Max to exchange CDs
Maybe meeting Isabelle to go Dbl O
Maybe SG

Saturday:
Accompany mum go market
Maybe meeting fren
Meeting Desy to shop and stuff
Maybe go MU wif Desy n her bf (provided I dun go Dbl O)
Maybe SG

Sunday:
Sleep
SG
What else?

Wanna go makan breakfast turn out bumped onto recess...sianz...school also got much things to do.

Yeah, ytd Sharon asked if wanna go Genting at mid-mth..den need pay $250 I think too chor le...so I rejected the offer lor..bo bian not I dun wan to relax but den no money to relax...haha...

Oh yeah, ytd night went to meet up wif Desy cos she wanna chat wif me over some issues...ended up also didn't cover much of it...jus chatted and stuff lah...suddenly I realised we've gotten closer than usual...I wonder if that's good or bad...(on my pocket)...lol...hahhaa...

Still thinking whether to go Dbl O...it's a chance to go kua kua...haha...

.LuKe.

Thursday, September 29, 2005

Thursday, last second working day of the week

[CuRRent MooD:] Not too tired, weird

[CuRRent Song:] "Cascada" - Altitude (why ""s is cause I've not heard of Cascada doing trance pieces -.-)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Chances that if I blog in the morning, my last beverage will be milo since I take that almost every morning before I come for work (excluding times when I'm late - oh, so you know when I am eh?).

Now chatting to Desy on sms...I worry for her sometimes. Not to say its bad on experimental mode, but I get a feeling things might not work out in the end...I got a weird feeling...I have to be on standby mode pretty soon in the near future...not that I'm pessimistic of her relationship, but somehow...somehow I felt weird about it. Dun tell me it's my jealousy as a daddy, lol...:P

Didn't play much of SG ytd cos I went for a jog. I took an edited route and bypassed the normal Orchard crowd route and took the back (the one that goes past 4 Seasons Hotel) up to Boulevard and beyond...however my stamina was limited and I stopped at Orchard Cineleisure area after a 2 min sprint-kind run...I'm amazed by my ability to do that cause I thought I'll be down in a min but I lasted 2 mins...how I knew the timing is cause I gave myself the gauge to run during the duration of which "Crazy Red" is running in my iPod Mini. The song is over 2 mins but I only started at the "intro" section.

I think it was Chris who said in my testimonial that I think too much. I agree, but that's jus how I am, isn't it? It won't be me if I don't. LOL.

Weekend planning:

Fri: Hotspot (lol), or meet up with Mad
Sat: Morning go market with mother, Meet Desy, maybe meeting a friend, maybe meeting another friend for a drink at night
Sun: Sleep, SG, ?

I wonder why the walls and windows are trembling...probably cos of the construction works of the Multistorey carpark near my school. Lol. Speaking of SG, I think I need to retrain my orgs to reach lvl 50 for that division...damn, should have been 10 of them but I tried wif a radar which helped a lot really. Ok probably I'm talking to myself since you guys won't understand of what I'm saying if you don't play it.

Ok I guess that's about all for today's post. Will post when there's anything else.

.LuKe.

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Today is midweek Wednesday

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, not tired (why?)

[CuRRent Song:] Reset - Calling You (Album Version)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Good morning everyone =) oh well anyone who read this could've been already afternoon or night...so, in case I don't see you - "Good afternoon, Good Evening and Good Night!"

Find that familiar? The Truman Show.

Nothing to write actually...hahaha...I'm @ lvl 50 in SG and some of my fellow mates in the regiment were surprised. Lol...what to do, nothing to do just keep playing SG...not surprising that I raise my lvls this fast compared to them in which they actually have a life. But a bit sad cos I sold my maxed (full lvl) Hawks away (for pple who dunno: they are fast air units with awesome attack prowess and range but poor armour and life points) for some other stuff to train my own lvl...so there, what to do? LOL.

Sometimes I wish I can keep on gaming. LOL. But I want a life :P

Sunshine seems to be enjoying herself on her second day of attachment. :) hope it becomes better for her.

Tentatively I'm out on Fri/Sat with Desy, but not confirmed. There goes my money cos I need to buy her a bday gift. She better appreciates me...cos I've been doing so for the past 3 years...some pple really asked why I do such things...I wonder too as well. I guess if I'm at it it's hard to even think of the idea to come out of it, isn't it.

Oh yeah, I forgot to call up Starhub. Darn.

Now listening to Magic Incarnation by Sundee. Maybe I'll put as blog song one day, but I tell you it's different cos it's not Techno...it's actually Trance in nature. Not progressive though so it's slightly easier on the ears. Gives me the religious and spiritual feeling, adding on the modern electronic sense of it.

It will be darn cool if I foot Desy's gift and yet be able to fend off for the month. Well, if I spend $2.50 every weekday, it is really possible, but do you think I can only spend so little? Just on a good note, I spent $3.50 yesterday but I did not take early dinner - took dinner at home. I believe if I continue to do so, as in not take early dinner but to go home and game till I take my dinner, it is possible to save up on the early dinner cost...however electricity bills will go up :( oh well...although house bills are not footed by me, still felt the pinch on my parents. I'll try to take early dinner only for times when I am on mood to go for a jog or something. Maybe today. Haha.

I forgot. I have ulcers on my inner lips and that was the reason why I didn't go for a jog yesterday. It's not an exact reason but when you jog the lips will actually move, thus moving the ulcers as well - nothing irritates more than nudging pain while jogging. Of cos, traffic conditions apply too. I wanna change route on my next jog cos I found the "less-pple" route out of Orchard to PS...so maybe I'll do so.

Suddenly my post became a little longer than usual. I'll see if I can write Chapter 2 of my story later. Hehe.

.LuKe.

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Tired Tuesday (again?)

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired

[CuRRent Song:] Alizee - Moi Lolita

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Strange, blogger claimed my 童话 blog was the most recently updated blog...but weird thing is, I've not updated it for 2 mths! Did someone hack into my account?? (*ponders*) Can't be anyone leaving comments too since I didn't even allow the comments link to be out. So what happened? I think blogger screwed on me. =)

Ytd I noticed someone in my Friendster contacts that updated her photos. Seeing it made me irritated. She seemed to have "conveniently" forgotten about my puny existence. Talking about unappreciative people. Haiz. Maybe I'll just Friendster msg her later and see if she replies.

I'm @ Lvl 49 in SG. Hehe 1 more lvl to the elusive 50.

Guess there's nothing much to blog for today.

Suddenly I just felt that a lot of things just went detached from myself. Wonder if it's good or not.

.LuKe.

Monday, September 26, 2005

Very short update on a Monday

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] Reset - Calling You (Album Version)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Curry Rice + Otah + Tofu + Potato + Egg + Chicken and Iced Lemon Tea

Wish me luck on completing my new story. Will publish it once I finish it. =)

.LuKe.

Irritated Monday Morning

[CuRRent MooD:] Irritated, but still ok

[CuRRent Song:] Mystral - Falling Star (Cherish Edit)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Irritated by Starhub. Current line not wif me, tried logging into Starhub online but failed (forgot password), called them but they take more than 1 min to answer, which is unacceptable cos I'm not using their line to call (which means I need to PAY). Forget it, gonna call when I'm back home.

Nothing really special over the weekend cos in order to save costs, I had to hang ard at home. Did I go anywhere? Oh I did. Friday I stayed at home while Saturday I went to look for Berlinda. Sunday I went to meet up with Sylvia, Limin and their friend Lixin. Kinda a weird evening actually as they pretty much talk cock den I got to see Sylvia's bf and jus hang ard in JP for a while before I go back home. Nothing fascinating to say the least.

I'm @ Lvl 41 now in SG I think. Won't be long before I join the "elite" lvlers. That's what happens when I don't go out on weekends.

I've formulated an "impossible" saving plan for October (oh shit I forgot abt Desy's bday). It claims by end of month I should still have savings provided...






...I spend $2.50 on weekdays. I don't think that's really possible. -.- but to not spend $50 in the weekend *might* just be possible, considering the fact I do not go clubbing every weekend, and that now my weekends are vacanted after the ending of the previous chapter. It's really time I should do something abt my money...yeah yeah I know I say this EVERY time but I should really convince myself...sometime soon. I'm already 24 but to have no savings SUCK big time.

Oh well, beginning of another week. Oh yeah, Sunshine just started her attachment today, hope she does fine.

.LuKe.

Friday, September 23, 2005

Friday Night is the Night

[CuRRent MooD:] Stablised

[CuRRent Song:] Alex Megane - Hurricane (Cascada Remix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Lor Ng + Rice + Plain Water

I've removed my earlier post cos I felt I was in confused mood just now. Hehe I'm back, though not entirely. I will collect my mood as per timing permits.

Those who read my blog spot before I removed it, you are lucky. Hehe...well I guess I probably wun put it back till perhaps some time later...or maybe never, just like the post a few mths back.

Anyway, I still hope for the best in everything.

.LuKe.