The 500th post, denoting November, a month left of 2010

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired, lil mood

[CuRRent Song:] (FM98.7) Michael Jackson - Breaking News

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Subway Roasted Chicken Sandwich / Teh Peng

I don't blog much nowadays, simply at times not easy to find an appropriate mood to do so. It just felt I have so much to do, so much to think, and just that certain amount of time. Yes, I understand I can be lazy at times, but somehow it just feels like it's the continuous nudging thoughts and things that are slowing me down.

At this time of the year, it's always so much thinking and planning and at a loss, it has become quite a routine that this year has not spared me away from it. Again, I have to look for a job as my contract is ending - just an active search into the ideal job got me acknowledging the fact I have to further my credentials. It's again the ITIL/MC certs combo that so many companies are actively looking for, it comes knocking to my door I have to do something about it. Maybe I have to hold on another year of a reasonable job that pays what I want, and I have to continue my certs to be updated and also to gear myself to my ideal appointment, IT Manager. Yeap, that is my aim (I'm not overly ambitious to go up director level or something) and I have to do what I can to achieve it...but it seems I have been rather stagnant this year trying to decide what to do, I kinda lost it. I need to orientate my direction...

Not without any costs though. That will take substantial time and money, and I'm not sure if I have both. There had been things happening for the past months that got me thinking a lot, and got me wondering what I am doing with my life, what do I really want and such. As a matter of truth, I still do not have much an answer apart the so-called target appointment.

I felt that I'm kinda lost in my direction right now, I'm not knowing what to do properly, what is right to do, what's my plans like and stuff. It just went completely bonkers without any proper order, any proper solution. No answers yet I guess.

So tired, much to do, not in optimal position to face challenges. How?

How no cow, cow see how. Mooooooo.

.LuKe.

Time sprints, flies and teleports

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] Random 987 song

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Famous Amos Chocolate Chip cookies / Plain water

My last update was on 23rd May, but the real last update was 21st Jan. The real 'life' update came 10 days earlier, which means from than till now it has been over half a year of real updates. For now, I have my contract extended till the end of the year, which means less thinking (or more) until then. I have to decide my study route very very soon as expenses of my wedding will soon climb up.

Wedding I say? Yeap, of course I have to plan my marriage with my beloved Serene by now. No no, proposal not done yet but I've promised her on that pretty soon (how soon? Wait lor :P), but certainly the wedding needs to be planned. For now, our date is somewhere around the second half of next year (2011) and most importantly, it will be a wedding lunch so I might be anticipating less guests, but oh well, we had reasons for deciding on lunch instead of dinner.

Back to study route, I have a few options - ITIL (for service delivery), MCSE (Microsoft Certification), CCNA (Cisco Certification), PMP (Project Management). PMP poses a problem as I do not have job credentials that reflect on project management, but the huge advantage comes as PMP does not specialize in specific field i.e. I can go any industry. I think I will go for ITIL Foundation v3, as I still am not sure how much I am going for technical studies.

It's quite a dilemma, but I have to sort it out really soon. There will be plenty to come about regards to money matters, but we gonna bite it through! On a side note, I managed to get my copy of Starcraft 2 Collectors' Edition @ SGD$229.00...ppl ask if it's worth it, well I think it is, after all in life, everything has a value that only we choose to determine whether it's worth it.

I hope I'll be updating this blog more often somehow :) for whoever is left reading this...

.LuKe.

Wooo Hooo

[CuRRent MooD:] Happy

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Lexus Chocolate Cream Crackers

Yeah! I got a Distinction for the failed module the other time! SWEET REVENGE for myself! Thanks dear for my Distinctions! :P

Onwards 14th November for graduation!

.LuKe.

Damn stressed.

[CuRRent MooD:] Stressed

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Very stressed about projectwork for final module. Wonder why I have to be selected as PM and get stressed for such shit and having to cover all fronts. Right or not also the same. Damn sickening.

.LuKe.

Two months...no updates?

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, little headache that went on/off for 2 weeks over

[CuRRent Song:] No Song

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Pokka Lemon 1000 Juice Drink

To say I'm too busy updating...ehm that's too much. I think I'm lazy, yeah I'm lazy. Else what can I say? I find time to Maple (I'm at Level 105), find time to play old games (Der Langrisser), find time for studies, going out with frens, get myself drunk...and the endless actions that I do while I still can.

All of a sudden I sound so old eh? Haha...this came as a small reminder when Sujun was telling me about Michelle and Huimei's conversation as the latter commented on Michelle's dressing at work and she was startled she had to go home to get changed. Oh well...I believe her dressing is okay (since SJ did not make a big thing of it) and why would you bother too much while you're still young? Do you have to wait till you're older to realise you wanna wear like the young? That will be a little too late, isn't it? Like what I always hold my views to ladies with assets - if you have it, just flaunt it! Don't take me as though I don't care - I applied that to my first gf as well...because I know that it takes confidence to flaunt and always be certain that it's appreciated.

My recent update says that Michelle's not changing probably. WAHAHAHHAA...cos she kapo-ed Huimei's cardi and wear...hahaha so it still did not beat my point :P

Another thing reflecting past and present is about studies. I'm marvelled at what the will to study can do to oneself. Looking on the examinations that I took, I always thought I could've failed if not for all the study groups that I've conducted - look, when was I so hardworking when I was in poly or sec sch days??? I guess this attributes to the paying factor - that I'm actually paying for my own school fees and wouldn't like to waste money compared to those days which my parents paid for me. True, it sounds like I'm so idiot to waste their money but well, young ma dunno things...now then know money hard to earn...easy to spend!!! Hahaha...so a word to those Poly/Uni students who use parents' CPF to study...MUST STUDY HARD, COS IT'S YOUR MONEY!!! (students need pay back to their parents after they finish studying)

Things at workplace has been fine, sometimes rushing a few quick stuff in order to make people happy...oh well it's a relationship-based company so there's not much I can say isn't it? Hahaha...I just hope they will consider to convert me quickly cos I really cannot stand the pathetic 6 days of leave they give under the contract terms...force me to take MC sia...:P

It's a week study break for me, studying be back on 30th of this month...heard we gonna touch on Oracle...what, another database? It was database that ruined me in my poly days and I'm trying hard not to repeat that...so hopefully I'll pull this one off...with my study grouping, I don't see why I cannot beat all these exams!!! WAHAHAHAHA...*siao liao*

I guess my life in a general state of mind (logical mind) is fine...only my personal life gets screwed and stuff...but oh well, so long I stay sane (which I think so far so good)...I should be able to make my life pass...

...not fail, pass. Haha...

.LuKe.

P.S. Yeah! An update!

Time flies

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Curry Chicken + Fishcake + Rice / Herbal Tea

People say I've not updated my blog for a long time. Yeah, I think it's a month since my last update. So what has changed?

I just formally completed my second module with a gruesome exam yesterday, and Serene insists I get a Distinction of some sorts...grrr how sia?? Can pass I already giggle liao.

Work-wise, I'm waiting for the transfer to another project but so far little updates as few would like to travel far to GSK to work so...I really don't know how I should react. Got so many things to tie up loose ends, I hope I can get them done by the week. So instead of just waiting, I am getting my contacts to intro jobs to me...so far I've sent 2 resumes and praying that some form of response would arrive.

Personal life wise...ehm, hope that everything will resolve by itself ba. A bit too lazy, a bit too afraid of looking at the future. Dunno what or who should I follow. Haha.

.LuKe.

I gonna die

[CuRRent MooD:] Sick

[CuRRent Song:] Dunno, it's a song played in the Muslim wedding downstairs.

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] None

Haha...after such an absence of updating, first thing I gonna say is I gonna die...ahaha...why not?

I missed my first lecture due to fever, and my first assignment is due...2nd Sept! How ridiculous is that??? Add on the fact I gonna be attending both Mic and Isabelle's bday...how am I to make it? I gonna be God...lol no lah, maybe just need some miracles...

But firstly, my illness must go away first...else it's goodbye to my current module. And to think this topic is one of my weakest...die la die la...

Really die le lah...

.LuKe.

Being back with what I like best about studying - programming

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, lil tired

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Being back into what I love to do is a good thing.

Programming is one of them, and it's back into the game with VB.Net yesterday! Having VB6 background is truly a plus point (alongside my rather stable syntax memory) as I managed to go through the "refresher" course without much problems. Skipped through the very basics and got on the advanced questions - it's not too advanced, just the number guessing game. With MSDN equipped, what can go wrong?

But of cos, VB6 and the .Net architecture is different (.Net is OOP) so I got to get adjusted back into the OO environment - the one and only programming language that I've done OO was C++, and that wasn't very exhaustive practice even though I probably got like a B or something in that subject during my poly days.

Gosh, I am soooo excited about programming! Being back in the game gives me good confidence in my assignment and practical test which totals up to 50%!!! It just means so long I do some studying for my theory, I will not have an issue passing this module! Hooo~~!!!

Well, more challenges to come I know, but bring it on. =) the programming, that is. Hahaha.

.LuKe.

Midweek again, lil tired

[CuRRent MooD:] A lil tired

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Bee Hoon + Fillet / Plain Water

Let's see...last update ended on Friday afternoon, so lemme see...

On Friday evening I was hanging around at JP and was msging Orange, then she told me she's going down clubbing with Faith. Went home and prepared, then went to Marina Square's Sakae to meet them...makan that lil bit, then after waiting a bit for Orange to makeup we took Ben's car down Dbl O and clubbed till 2+am...

Saturday...zzz...woke up and accompanied mum to the physio, den makan at the foodcourt (almost zero appetite but full of thirst - overdose of aircon + alcohol maybe?)...then back home, zzz-ed the afternoon off, woke up to maple and net a bit before arranging to go out wif Virneige to scout for Tilong's bday gift. By the time we're done, I noticed I'm being attacked by unknown substances which caused quite a bit of rashes on my body so feeling a lil unwell, I went back early (like 10 something on a saturday???) and unable to join Orange and Joy for 'dinner-supper'.

Sunday...woke up, see rashes, slpt...till no rashes. Haha...maple and net, den waited a lil, preped myself for Tilong's bday BBQ, den met up with Minhui (my primary school classmate) and Virneige downstairs and went to the BBQ together. Nothing too much, just that Minhui left like 11+pm and Vir and I continued chatting till 1am. LOL.

Monday...work lor. After work went to PSB Academy for my first day of studying after like, ehm 5-6 years?? The lecturer was fine, the class was very packed which was quite an opener to me...and the lecturer used up 1/4 of the total course notes on the first lesson. Kinda cool eh. Today will be my first tutorial...hehe =) wish me luck on VB.Net =)

On a sidenote...I have received news of... ... ...

STARCRAFT II!!!

WOOT!!! I gonna buy it when it comes! 1000%!!! It's even more anticipative compared to Tiberium Wars!!! HEHHEE...rumours said it'll be out end of the year...hope so!!!

.LuKe.