Monday, March 27, 2006

Just a bo liao thing :)

[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral

[CuRRent Song:] Bl-chen - Schmetterlinge (album mix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Green Tea

Just something for fun...

Introduced by Christina...hehe

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Never knew I look like chio bu using my Jean Yip pic (see my friendster)...


Saturday, March 25, 2006

It's a Friday evening

[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Double Cheeseburger

(written on Friday evening, 24-Mar-06 around 7pm)

I noticed that nowadays I’ve been forgetting about little things that pple tells me and always remember the things I told pple in particular. Brings me a fact I’m being more selfish with years to go, isn’t it? Sometimes I wonder what am I becoming..this society and world is already very bad, and this transformation could only make it a little worse than before. When can I find myself?

Anyway, I’m waiting for Desy to come over Lucky Plaza. The reason why I started my entry like this was cos yesterday she told me to call her once I’m off work, but I could only remember I told her to meet at 7 or 7:30pm. Something’s wrong with me, don’t you think so?

I’ve been talking to my new fren these days and she’s really a nice lady to chat with. I couldn’t believe some of the topics which we touched on...and I tink sooner or later the level might be close or equal to that of what I last touched on in the old days with Rosanne. Come of which, I think I’ve never mentioned Rosanne (Rose) in my blog before. Rose is my online friend in USA, Seattle. I got to know her during my Poly days when the online text-based game Archmage was rather popular. She was a player in it and not knowing the ropes, I taught her the ways to go playing the game. The rest is history; we got to chat in email and conversed on phone freely through a lot of topics. The cultural differences only made the bond more interesting as we constantly ask new things to find out about each other. Come to think, good things don’t last long.

Today I got stuck in QR site the whole day cos of those stupid new tapes which of cos after some deductions I felt wasn’t the cause of the jamming of the tape drive – I believe the tape drive is faulty.

Desy actually asked me out on Saturday to chiong – certainly something that’s so out of the blue. Later I found out it has to do with the new guy she likes cos the guy chiongs. Oh man..I really do not have much to say about that. Asked her why this time round she switched target, thought it was another and guessed what she replied? “Like father like daughter ma!!” – OMG. This is so mean of her.

Tried to get my new fren out but she is tied up with her dad’s birthday so I have not much to say about that, adding on the fact she’s more or less married and under her husband’s say that she won’t be chionging cos something happened last time while she was chionging that she got “banned”. LOL…how bad can that get?

I got my shades out and tried wearing them on and walking about. Oh man it’s certainly not what I term as comfortable, but at least I’m not awkward I guess. It’s a good addition to the limited amount of accessories that I have in my possession…wait, what kind of accessories do I actually have? =) lol.

She’ll probably be here in around ten minutes’ time, so my entry is coming to an end. Well, I’ve told really a little too much about myself to someone whom I’ve known for only a few days – something which always happen so long I’m comfortable with someone. Come of which, Desy has arrived.

See ya pple =)

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Middle of the week

[CuRRent MooD:] Worried, thinking, wondering

[CuRRent Song:] Madonna - Hung Up

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Laksa + Teh Peng

Wonder where Sunshine went to. Tried calling her so many times, but on one occasion she just hung up on me. Now I dun even have much mood to take my "supper". On the same hand, also not much mood to play SG as well.

Been a long time since I've bumped onto someone who can pretty much chat up with me, this person that I've just known happens to be someone new in GSK. She's from HR and just a few months younger than me, and preparing for marriage. -.- that's stressful. If you happen to see a new face in my Friendster, that's her.

I'm so terribly broke right now, I wonder how am I to survive. Add on the fact my godsis wants me to return her money in full, I'm doing the calculations now and am not optimistic...not to mention I'm getting 2 techno CDs and a Para Para DVD imported in. The discs in total would probably cost me ard $100 and thinking of the extra $500 I had to return her, that's $600 gone from pay. Add on my dumb bills which amount to ard $200 including my savings' plan, I also have to cater ard $100 of transport, $50 to cashcard for meals in get the plan. It's going to be a tough month before govt decides to give us money. Oh yea...not to mention I have to return my parents money owed, and also monthly allowance to them which totals about $200 or more. I'm left with almost nothing -.-...

How am I to survive April......and I'm getting a fridge for the family probably in May.

I wonder why am I the one to be doing all these. You might say "I can choose NOT to buy the CDs"...yeah, I can. What's life if you can't get the little things that you want?

Endure. I really have to endure all these shit.

I really, really, really really x 1,000,000 hope "that guy" in my family finally bucks up and do something. There is this limitation I can endure, that I can stand, that I can sustain. Don't make me burst.

That's the reason why I think I wanna find what I want, but seemingly I can't have it.

That's life.


Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Never-ending thoughts.

[CuRRent MooD:] Always mind-boggling. Always puzzled. Always...uncertain.

[CuRRent Song:] E-Type - Rain

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Sichuan Vege + Yong Tau Foo Soup + Rice & Pokka Green Tea

I should be satisfied.

But why ain't I?

I have yet to find my inner peace.


Monday, March 20, 2006

My short update

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] 2 Alive - Tell It To My Heart

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] LJS

Now waiting for Sunshine..hehe…yeah…

Not much things for me to is busy as usual, with all those stupid servers on and off…also very sian to say the least…like always ready to fight wif fire like dat…hehe…now I so pai kuan in LJS blogging…I think the crowd is coming in so I wun be using for too long…furthermore not to say that Sunshine will be coming in about 15 mins time..

Back to the weekend, I went MU on Saturday and saw the new lightings. I would say it brought a different effect and ambience to MU. Last time MU is pretty dark and that you can’t see too much faces – but now it’s so bright with the new lightings on the stage that shines upwards – people can even dance on it. The stage is instantly lit up and from it you can really tell how much dry ice MU emits per night by looking at the stage from a distance. It gets so smoky sometimes you can’t differentiate the stage from the floor (that is, if you are on stage attempting to go down). With the new toys, you can really tell who’s good on stage and who’s not (that is, me).

SG-wise, I’m about lvl 20 post-reinc. So far I’m ok with 12 units though it gets a little hard to manage at times. With 6 extra units at my disposal, it gets funny sometimes on how I wanna use them. Dun get what I said? Go get SG and try it out.

I’m harbouring the thought of version 6.0 for my blog. Didn’t you guys get sick of seeing my dark red skin? I got bored of it. Need something brighter. :)

See ya.


Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Divine Protection

[CuRRent MooD:] Figuring Mood

[CuRRent Song:] Magic D - Someday (Original Radio Edit)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Steamed Fish

Weird title eh? This thing has been revolving around my mind for an extreme amount of time, but most notably these few years. I did notice that whatever I do, whatever I plan and think is often been prejudged or negated by some "higher being" up there.

I'm far from a good guy, so I do harbour evil intentions at times. This is an interesting thought though, that every time I do plan carefully and with purpose, somehow something will happen that will spoil the entire plan or cripple it so there is no way I can proceed even with contingency plans. If this ain't divine intervention, I wonder what it is. It happened WAY too much times.

Either He has been protecting me from harm, or that He is preventing others from being harmed, that He chose to stop all similar processes. It could be that whatever I do may cause myself harm in the long run that was stopped, or that it could cause more damage to others so it got interrupted. Whatever it is, it is certainly weird.

Coming to another point, when will this Protection actually end? I start to speculate, and my first deduction will be when my family gets properly taken care of (actually I'm referring to the "worse" sense, but I'm not spelling it out here). Once they are being taken care of, there is nothing left for me to fend for, to worry for, and therefore I'm left by myself to account for and I do not require to repay debts, thus leaving me to be exposed to the very deep evils of the world. Other than this speculation, I cannot find another probable date that the Protection will cease. Call it an imaginary view, but that's me - living in my dream world.

Point of note: Divine Protection actually makes an exception if a great deal of lessons are to be learnt from an escapade. I can't really remember if this happened more than once (what I mean is I made plans for something to happen and it actually happens), but I do recall the single one in Shan's incident.

... Scanning Memories ...

... Stopping Scan ...

I really can't think of anything else that was sinisterly planned and succeeded.

Let's see if Divine Protection works on my next "evil plan".


Disclaimer: I'm only ranting and expressing my thoughts. I hope I won't receive any form of preaching.

Monday, March 13, 2006

Tomorrow is a Tuesday

[CuRRent MooD:] Mixed: It's neutral, confused, bothered, pondering etc.

[CuRRent Song:] 2 Alive - Tell It To My Heart

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Laksa + Teh Peng

Actually by now I don't have much to blog, not that nothing interesting or what came my way but...somehow it just made me lose the feeling to blog.

Wonder what happened to me. Work? Probably.


Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Midweek Wednesday

[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral

[CuRRent Song:] Nuage - You'll Never Stop Me Lovin' You

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Laksa and Green Tea

Kinda unusual for me to be blogging midweek nowadays. Gonna continue my dotter's work later, hopefully I can finish basically for her to submit.

Birthday coming soon...ten days later =) so anyone wanna give me presents but have not got an idea? Hehe I've bought myself an iPod Nano, so if you really have no idea, I give you very good choice la...give me $$$ lor...hahaha~...

I'm already planning for my weekend, though this week isn't that too easy a week either - gonna rush some stuff at work before I can bring it to a close. There's something to do every week, I wonder when things will come to a point "I'm used to it"...when?

I gonna plan properly this time, inviting only a few drinking friends of mine. I'll see who else I can get. All in all, just a chillout. There are already a few people in mind that I'm not going to invite...some things in life have to change, and I have to make more decisions to tune myself down now. I better not give myself more trouble as the years go by.

Till then, happy birthday to myself...