Monday, November 15, 2010

The 500th post, denoting November, a month left of 2010

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired, lil mood

[CuRRent Song:] (FM98.7) Michael Jackson - Breaking News

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Subway Roasted Chicken Sandwich / Teh Peng

I don't blog much nowadays, simply at times not easy to find an appropriate mood to do so. It just felt I have so much to do, so much to think, and just that certain amount of time. Yes, I understand I can be lazy at times, but somehow it just feels like it's the continuous nudging thoughts and things that are slowing me down.

At this time of the year, it's always so much thinking and planning and at a loss, it has become quite a routine that this year has not spared me away from it. Again, I have to look for a job as my contract is ending - just an active search into the ideal job got me acknowledging the fact I have to further my credentials. It's again the ITIL/MC certs combo that so many companies are actively looking for, it comes knocking to my door I have to do something about it. Maybe I have to hold on another year of a reasonable job that pays what I want, and I have to continue my certs to be updated and also to gear myself to my ideal appointment, IT Manager. Yeap, that is my aim (I'm not overly ambitious to go up director level or something) and I have to do what I can to achieve it...but it seems I have been rather stagnant this year trying to decide what to do, I kinda lost it. I need to orientate my direction...

Not without any costs though. That will take substantial time and money, and I'm not sure if I have both. There had been things happening for the past months that got me thinking a lot, and got me wondering what I am doing with my life, what do I really want and such. As a matter of truth, I still do not have much an answer apart the so-called target appointment.

I felt that I'm kinda lost in my direction right now, I'm not knowing what to do properly, what is right to do, what's my plans like and stuff. It just went completely bonkers without any proper order, any proper solution. No answers yet I guess.

So tired, much to do, not in optimal position to face challenges. How?

How no cow, cow see how. Mooooooo.