Thursday, June 30, 2005

Thursday, so close yet so far?

[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral

[CuRRent Song:] Fantasy Project - Never Say

Hmmm dis current PC has a prob reading the music files, thus i have to restrict myself to the online files I left in the ripway server for my blog.

Well today is a thursday, I think I should be considering to cut my hair's rather long to say the least and a lil getting on my nerves. I hope today will be a good hair day? Lol...

On saturday my eldest bro will be back from Shanghai for a couple of days to see how everyone is doing..including my "happening" second bro who "happens" to have a kid soon..which means I "happen" to be uncle of another kid soon...I've watched quite a lot of drama in life and I guess this should be one of the closest that had happened on my side (well at least I made no girl/woman pregnant!!!).

The planning for making "someone" happy is en route, waiting for the impt item to arrive. Well, I hope no one beats the surprise earlier than I do, for I'm one who likes to surprise pple and see the smile on their faces. I dun tink I'll get to see this person's smile as I'll not be handing it to her personally, but I do hope she'll be happy with it. Sometimes I find it strange to be doing such stuff, and I wonder why. It's jus me to see someone out dere happy in moments of darkness, and that's how I am...I may not know much abt the person or the situation, but I never mind myself being that little torchlight in the confinements of the cold chilled room. Anyway...I tink I did mention her before...but there was an entry made quite some time ago.

I believe in one theory: If someone who you do not know, or whom you do not know well, tries to make you happy by surprising you, it will be one happy thing because that is something you will least expect. I hope it works on the intended target.

Stupid? Yea cos I'm wasting money, but I'm happy with it so long someone out there is happy and due to that be able to lighten up on life. Don't ask me to do this to everyone, unless I'm earning 10k a month (which is quite impossible). there anything planned on Friday? Kinda forgotten. Hmm with this extra expense I will need to save on somewhere else..maybe on my food + arcade gaming plan. Wonder if you guys knew, I'm planning to pick up Maximum Tune 2 (the car racing game). And I'm a paid player for Shattered Galaxy, a futuristic RTS that I'm playing right now online. It has been around for some time, but I still like it nevertheless. I hope they give more privileges to paid players so it makes it worthwhile for paying players...yea?

With more expenses coming, I will have to plan for additional income somehow. Yeah, somehow. Haha...perhaps also planning to buy SEB 160 next month...but that is provided I'm not buying any CDs for July and August, since an import costs well over $60.


Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Chapter 4 completed

[CuRRent MooD:] ok ok mood

[CuRRent Song:] Sherrie Lee - No Ordinary Love

I've completed chapter 4 of my story.

Anyway, Blogger has added the images support (finally) so for direct images we needn't go photobucket or something. Can store up to 300mb of images, I guess it will take quite a while before it will be used up.

If everything goes well, I'm planning to surprise somebody to make her day better. Not anyone I've mentioned before, not anyone I really know in reality. It's just me to be making people happy out of the blue, and I hope I can do it though. :)

On a lesser note, right now I'm wondering what to do with my life. You see, I can't study because I dun have funds. On NTUC Study loan, it's 6 times my income + income of guarantor. Guarantor need be 30k per annum. Ouch. Where am I to find that person? Furthermore with this loan it's only like 1/3 of my degree fees, where am I to get the rest? If I don't study, it will take a great amount of persistance and chance for me to strike it out. Living in Singapore is really a tough affair.

Upon thinking about the above, sometimes I'm really convinced I'm not ready for a relationship. It's not the commitment issue but the practicality of it. For people who knows me, you know what I'm like when it comes to money and people who I care about.

On another note emphasizing the abovementioned, my 2nd brother is getting married soon, and my sister-in-law is like 4 years younger than me. Kinda tough for me to think of it since my brother is like 7 years ahead of me, you can do the calculations and wonder/marvel at the aspect. People who knows my family and myself certainly knows about my brother's situation. He does not have any money at all, how is he to sustain the family? I really wonder. And of course in accordance to deduction, the money that I helped him with will probably not be returning to my side once more. *sigh*. They had a certain degree of love but no money. How? It's no way to go about it in Singapore with Love and without Bread.

With such things going around me, it's no wonder I pressure myself with such issues. There must be ways for me to make more money. I guess I must really convince myself to be ultra hardworking to really make my mark. Or I need a great deal of luck (not by buying 4D and stuff though lol).

May my planning work. Please make me happy by making someone else happy. I like it that way. =)

Oh yea, went to watch Initial D wif Sunshine on monday. It's jus an ok show, but the feel of Mt. Akina on film is better compared to game or anime. This mth really is movie mth...spent a lot on movies...

Mr and Mrs Smith
Batman Begins
Initial D

Did I miss out on any movie I've watched? Don't think so. Really a lot for my personal standards.


Monday, June 27, 2005

Monday soon? Oh restarts...

[CuRRent MooD:] Sianzation

[CuRRent Song:] Mark Farina - I Love Rock and Roll

Nothing much, spent weekend wif my army mates and evening wif Sunshine, den nite till morning wif Thomas, Angeline, Phoebe, Justin.

Some senseless pics :P

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Nothing to do jus take pics while I'm stuck in the stupid jam at Orchard on Saturday.

After the whole night till morning out wif the co, came back home played a bit of game and slpt till nite. Den up again bathe, play game and took dinner, now here writing blog. Nothing really much to write. Can check out my Friendster Photo Album if you want. :)

Yeah a new week comes!


Saturday, June 25, 2005

Singapore is HopeLess

[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral, earlier on pissed but feeling hilarious too

[CuRRent Song:] Spring Break - Big Bad Love (Radio Mix)

Today I've heard a really ridiculous issue.

When I reached home from work, my mom told me my dad had a small accident. He was trying to cross the road to Mac when a Mitsubishi Lancer cornered into the carpark and its tyres went past my dad's feet. My dad went to knock the driver's door, and guess what? The driver told my dad to pay him damages!!! IS THAT RIDICULOUS? Tyres went past my dad's feet, and driver asked for damages??? Utterly stupidified, my dad went to the Police with the driver.

In the station they had statements, and the police asked my dad to visit the doctor. When both of them finished the statements, the driver talked to the policeman in English. My dad knows English and told him to speak in Mandarin, which he refused and continued in English, claiming my dad doesn't know English. Being pissed, he said "Since you can say in English which I can't reply very well, why don't you speak in Mandarin or Hokkien? Why, can't you even speak Mandarin?". Small argument, the policeman asked the driver to go out.

After the statements, the driver asked my dad to a corner. My dad thought the driver wanna settle the matter outside of court and police, but the end the driver still INSISTED my dad to pay! I was thinking, if my dad can knock his door and damage it, he needn't be a taxi driver for goodness sake! WTF is this guy thinking??? My dad was very pissed and convinced not to settle it off, pressing it for court claim.

The absolute part comes...the wife of the driver came along...instead of telling off her husband, she swore at my dad!!! She said something like "lim bei lim bei" den my dad was very pissed and said "I can be your dad at my age, young people!" which I guess "lim bei" is typically correct if my dad might be the one saying it.

I'm convinced it should go to court, let the bloody driver pay for my dad's injury and abuse, suspend his bloody license for months (if he P plate lagi BETTER!!!) and let his wife kana sore throat for a week (becos she swore at my dad)!!! Fucked up pple! No wonder they are HUSBAND AND WIFE, birds of the fucking feather flock together!!! It's so infuriating!!!

Ok matters aside. I hope that man rot in hell. Anyway...ytd bumped onto Thomas, Angeline...den introed me to her godsis, Phoebe. Then today went down PS again, bumped onto Peishan, Hikki, Hikki's fren and Joanna (my 3rd Aunt's youngest daughter - pretty cute gal). Yeah just abt it. And completed 2 games of Puzzle Fighter without a drop of sweat. It seems the computer players dropped in standard...or am I getting better?

I think there's nothing much...morrow meeting up wif Weiteck n army dudes, den evening shld be out wif Sunshine...yea jus abt it. Hehe hope everything be good.


Thursday, June 23, 2005

Chapter 3 is up!

[CuRRent MooD:] Neutralised =)

[CuRRent Song:] Orange Connection - Free

Finally a song that I didn't really go ahead and skip, yet is not a regular. Well I like the way it goes.

Anyway people, Chapter 3 is up. I'm trying to keep it going since if I drag it too long it might just kill the interest for some people. In any case, the way I'm looking at it, I won't be surprised if I can stretch it like 50 chapters because every chapter is like probably 2 pages long only. This is only the beginning as I think there will be quite some stuff to share at the later chapters.

I know a lot of you believed this had happened to me. To me, FairyTale is only a reflection of what I think my life should be, and probably was. It's never a matter of "Fact or Fiction". In my present life and circle, there are few who had truly known my past, and certainly in my entire circle I can probably list here now.

From Primary School Days:

Yingxiang (my benefactor) - he is sign-on Air Force, I'm rarely in contact with him for the past year or so. Sometimes I felt I should do something, isn't it? He knows part of my past.

Jiankai (my P.Sch best friend) - working life, has been some time I've seen him and visited his family. Should do so some day.

Secondary School Days:

Kai-En (was my best friend) - he was the one who destroyed me. Someone who made a difference to my life, good and bad. He knew everything, he knew too much.

Qiyue (crappy strange dude) - along wif Kai-En, he left my circle in believing the individualistic views of KE. His choice.

Thomas (nice cool dude) - he was a good friend of mine as well, hanging out in this clique of KE n co. Although he had to go along with them, he was the only one who stood out and did not take a stand with them. I could say he has a maturity that went beyond them.

Weitong (our suave dude) - always part of our jokes, always the temperamental one. He was a good friend too, he had not much of a choice as he was part of the clique, yet I think he did not really take sides too. I believe till now, at least.

Jeremy (interesting dude) - one who indirectly managed to allow KE to attack me on my weakness. It wasn't his fault really, I can't bear to blame him totally. A betrayer is his own fault, and KE betrays me on his own, on account and expense of others. Jeremy did break a promise, but who doesn't?

Kaixin (a link between P.sch and S.sch) - cool and peace-loving guy, he's my only link from my Primary School to Secondary School (and to Poly). Very neutral guy, I appreciate him a lot.

Yuling (neighbourhood gal) - I dun tink I should make a mention of her as she does not know much of my past. It's jus a pity she has to be convinced by KE to go against me. Pathetic.

Post-Sec School, Polytechnic:

Rebecca - A gal I knew from IRC. She was my first line that made me aware of KE's aggressiveness, yet I was so believing towards KE I did not take note at all. KE told her stuff that narrowed my chances with her to zero.

Patricia - my same age Godsis, part of my Affinity. She knows some parts of my past, and about the thing of KE.

Weishan - ah, she knows way a lot. A pity I never knew how to appreciate her till it happened...

... .... ...

So and so forth. Hehe. I tink I made too much links to my past today. A rare post of such length nowadays, isn't it. I think some might have got used to me writing long posts the recent bout of short ones got them wondering if there's something wrong wif me. Haha :)

Do read chapter 3. Still wondering whether it relates to my life story? Don't bother thinking about it. Just read it. =)


Wednesday, June 22, 2005

What the...

[CuRRent MooD:] Shocked

[CuRRent Song:] Plazmatek feat. United ... - Por Que No 2005

Didn't get the complete name of the artist cos I'm reading it thru my iPod Mini.

Guess what...she's married. Oh man I can't really believe it till I happen to see one of the testimonials written by her husband on her sister's Friendster.

Makes FairyTale all the interesting.

Till then :)


Monday, June 20, 2005

Chapter 2 completed

[CuRRent MooD:] Normal

[CuRRent Song:] Virginia Toy - Harmony

Chapter 2 of my story blog is completed :)

In case you guys wonder why it's so fast, it's not really that fast. Chapter 1 was completed last week, just that I did not have the time to do up the blogskin for the story blog.

Hope the story is fine for all of you...if not, spare yourself the torture and stop reading it :P ;)


Visit my Story!

[CuRRent MooD:] A little emotional, happy n stuff =)

[CuRRent Song:] 光良 - 童话

Guys, my Story Blog is up! You can proceed to My FairyTale.

Friday...I went down Hotspot...happened to bump onto Hikki and had dinner wif her frens.

Saturday..went out wif Sunshine, den jus when I was sending her home, Isabelle called and asked me out for a movie. Well, I went to meet up wif Belle, and watched "Batman Begins". It's not a bad show to say, at least I got to know why Batman became Batman. After dat I sent her home and chatted till 5am before going home on my dad's cab :P

Sunday...slpt n slpt and awoke n slpt till abt 2+, went to market makan den went to Sunshine's place to watch vcds...Pirate of the Carribean and League of Extraordinary Gentlemen...I did not finish the latter as I need to go celebrate Father's Day. Turned out my bro went to work, what timely fashion!

Hehe jus abt it. Too excited abt my Story Blog being up. :P See ya pple =)


Friday, June 17, 2005

Am I classified as a failure for now?

[CuRRent MooD:] Puzzled...

[CuRRent Song:] Deep Spirit - Lonely

It has been an issue I've been bothered for quite some time...

I'm working, but do not have reserves at all. Am I able to pay my debts by year end?

Sunshine's issue as well..she said it's "the same old answer". So what am I to do? I'm neither here nor there. She can't be my gf cos she has memories clinging onto her, but what can I do? How am I to noe when she will stop that? It's practically useless for me to do so much, allowing me so much, but all end up a heap of trash and ash.

And I hate females leading guys on. (not referring to Sunshine)

Linda's female boss got me fedup just now. Went to visit her at work just now, she had another guy friend which the boss claimed is her "husband"...and she practically said all sorts of things to undermine me and promote him. What f*cking crap is that? I as a friend went to see how she is, and to accompany her if she's bored on way back home, and there I was heavily "criticised" by her boss? What right has she got? Maybe she takes EVERYTHING as a joke, but there's a damn limit to everything. Oh well.

Life's ups and downs, now's the downs and I have to tackle it down one by one. Gonna finished the unfinished at my workplace before Mrs Tan comes back..else it will be pretty screwed up.

Starting to drain me...


Monday, June 13, 2005

Monday. Weekend sure goes fast...

[CuRRent MooD:] Relaxed

[CuRRent Song:] Alex Megane - Hurricane (Cascada Remix)

Hehe jus got myself into some stupid "which wateva are you" kinda quiz...

Here is mine...

Congratulations Luke, you are...

'PoiPoi' Apple Lim of

You look like a stereotypical bimbo outside but its a different story inside. You're a nice, simple, proud and straightforward person who believes what you're doing is right. You don't change people, and you love them for who they are. Your primary goal in life is to be happy, next to being pretty. You have your detractors but you don't let them bring you down. You go out of your way to help others out even before they ask, and for that they love you.

Which Singaporean Blogger Are You?

Lol...I think poipoi (apple)'s the last person I could have thought of, since I've been patronising her site time to time b4 I got to knoe Xiaxue and Kenny's...from the blog world we realise there are pple out dere willing to show the world what they are made up of. =)

Oh's been a lil up down, but nothing deters me for now. Gonna live for what it is, and what will be. Not going to give up for now...

Friday evening I went to PS...den on way back I happened to bump onto Sunshine on the bus...haha so coincidental...den sent her home...on Saturday went out wif her to walk walk lor...den bought some no money le...but got myself a thumbdrive...256MB...

Oh yea, I saw the "public" price for N8800. Guess it.

It's madness.

It's a whooping SGD$1,588. !!!!!! OMG!!!!!! MAD!!!!!!! That is CRAZY!!!!!!

They are trying to con pple isn't it? Online's only selling below a thousand. N91's SGD$940 though. Ouch. Wonder what's the price wif plan. Hmmm...I'm planning to target N91..if so, I'll be selling my N7270 and iPod Mini (4GB) far, I've heard of takers like Ivan for my N7270 and Zhaoting for the iPod...the latter is a fren I jus got to know from Linda, who happens to be my bro's fren and now is my fren too.

Currently I'm looking at selling my N7270 at $350 and iPod Mini at $260 + free remote. Current price that is, may fluctuate wif time, may not sell also if I find N91 unfavourable. I sure will ask for a demo over at the telcos b4 I decide anything for the phone. If I sell my 2 gadgets at the abovementioned prices it shld negate half the price of the phone. Planning to use my line to purchase, depending on how it is. I will also check out the prices for the non-contract ones.

Oh yea, on Sunday I went out in evening to PS and met up wif Linda, and she intro 2 frens to me. That's abt it. Linda's a weird gal. Lady. Whatever.

I knoe I always complain no money, yet I'm still targetting? That's the reason why I'm targetting and not confirming. -.-


Friday, June 10, 2005

Wow, the week goes quite fast

[CuRRent MooD:] Relaxed...

[CuRRent Song:] Akira - Piece Of Heaven 2004 (Cascada Remix)

Actually come in here, dunno what to write. Haha...when is the last time I wrote...?

*clicks the view blog link*

Ok back. Haha...well these 3 days I have been under Win2K's test so lame..slping thru the class still can get 36/50...hahaha...stupid sia...

This is a continued post on 10th June...

[CuRRent MooD:] Relaxed...waiting to go home...

[CuRRent Song:] Siria - I Will Believe It (Cascada Remix)

Actually nothing much to blog...these days I've been spending a lot of time wif Sunshine...well, even Eleen noticed I'm sorta busy...hahaha...well...Sunshine's situation has always been a problem...

... ... ...

I do not know what she wants out of us. Sunshine, can you just tell me? Even if it's the same answer as can jolly remind me again. I believe after knowing each other better through these months, we had a better understanding of each maybe you can make a better inference...if not, well I guess you can just tell me what you are feeling about it.

... ... ...

Jus now John, Jack, Johnny came over to Ghim Moh and I asked Rashid to join us for lunch. Jack asked his IT Trainer to join us as well. FYI, all of them are TAs jus like me...same batch apart from Rashid...den we chatted and talk cock lor...haha...

I tink I'll be off at 4:30pm later. Nothing much to do, I gonna start everything next week...all the cloning and stuff...haha...

Think too much, no mood. Dun think, I will not be planning myself for the challenges in the future. So how? My bro's situation isn't anything better than usual too...I may think mom will start to realise the fact they gonna react, that will be something I do not know.

Enough of all these. I might be down to PS later...walk preparing to write testimonial for MH n Mic...

[Edit] lol. Saw Sharon's nick - "Do I really have a gd bf???" - all so funny. Haha. [Close Edit]

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Monday, June 06, 2005

It's 6th June 2005, a Monday

[CuRRent MooD:] Ok ok mood

[CuRRent Song:] DJ Stuchi - Mix 2004 Tekkno 002

Now ripping video at same time blogging, and also waiting for my mail to load. CMI.

Ponders hard abt what I did last Thurs. On Friday I went to see doctor and went PS. Sat I went town and met up wif Sunshine, Sunday(ytd) I went out wif Sunshine in the evening.

Haha...yea on Thursday went out wif Winnie, Euro, Roy, Timo to watch Unleashed at Marina Square GV. It's 8 bucks so it's not too ex, but still a bit ex to say the least. The show's average, I would say jus pass it unless you really have nothing else to watch...but hey, wif Initial D coming, and War of the Worlds...Mr and Mrs Smith...I think there are much better shows isn't it?

I don't really have much to write for now...I guess? Been thinking about Degree courses recently, but I really wonder if I can or will work hard for it. Haiz.

Go see other stuff. Thinking abt this makes me a bit less of mood.


Wednesday, June 01, 2005

.1st June.

[CuRRent MooD:] Okay, a lil heavy-headed

[CuRRent Song:] S.H.E. - 候鸟

Come to tink, quite strange I didn't skip dis song to another techno or trance piece. I guess today's a day abt memories and stuff.

Of cos it did, since if you did notice the tagboard Lyd jus tagged me. She's one of my 3 godsisters whom I've acknowledged at the same time abt 3 years back, if you looked at my profile and under affiliations, you will see her name.

Dun worry, no walking back to the memory lane years back, else it'll be the same old I missed those days...*opps*

*slaps self back to blogging*

Anyway, Sunday I woke up at nearly 5pm to eat my lunch (yummy Duck rice) before I took my leisure time down to Cineleisure to try my luck at seeing Jeannie (Chocobits) - and I did! Well she looked different from her pic, but I recognised her from her white bead necklace! :P that was fortunate. I helped her to buy her dinner (shilin's XXL Crispy Chicken) and stood at her stall for 5 mins before she noticed me -.- by that time, I almost wanted the chicken to myself. HAHA...chatted a while and of cos not wanting to interrupt her work, I left after that to PS.

On Monday, Isabelle msged me mid-day to watch a movie wif her in the evening. We caught Monster-In-Law and it was an okay show, not those really superb ridiculously hilarious shows but nevertheless an effort. Managed to catch up a lil wif Isabelle and after the show we took dinner, went to arcade a while and sent her home...yea, jus abt it.

Ytd I spent my time wif Sunshine after school. =)

Time flies, it has been almost half a year since I've ORD (and working). It has also almost been 3 years since Lyd, MH n Mic being my sisters. It's almost 2 and a half years since I've broke up wif Shan. Darn, time really jus flew past me.

Oh Lord, please give me a girl/lady that I can truly love and that she appreciates me. Haiz.