Stepping backwards

[CuRRent MooD:] Thinking backwards, weird

[CuRRent Song:] DJ Jason Chow - Techno Trance Peak Non-Stop Mix

Isn't really into the mix but oh well, it's the "current song" so...

*nudge*

Yea, I'll have to ignore those nudges for now. Getting irritating.

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Yesterday was ok, Sher managed to get something out of whatever I've found out for her, she managed to summarise a little and I helped her to proofread the summary. Hope she will be able to get it thru though. Initially I thought it'll be another boring day until my brother answered a call from my paternal aunt saying they'll be coming. WHAT! Woo hoo my ang bao!!!~!~!

=P Well, didn't really get bothered by that too much. Continued staying on the comp, then they arrived, had the usual greetings but this time round my eldest paternal aunt came wif her son n daughter-in-law along a nephew of mine (^_^) babies are always cute ain't they?

I was on sms mode with Joanna and she was comtemplating on coming my hse or not. She did come in the end, after we "lao yu shen", and yea as per expected, she has turned prettier by the year. The red hair suits her to say the least. I was given the task (well, more like I gave myself the task) of "entertaining" her, so I tried my best. Through her Nokia 7610 (DUH! AGAIN!) I saw some pics of another baby - this time being my paternal 3rd aunt's 2nd daughter's daughter aka my niece. Niece? I think so. =P

Later on Sharon called me and asked if I'm free and yea I was. Prepared myself a little and escorted Joanna downstairs (ehm or issit she escort me) and saw two of her guy friends waiting for her (well those guys accompanied her to my area, waited for her to come out - hmmmx...the advantages of a pretty girl eh???), and off I go to Orchard to meet Sharon.

OMG. One of the worst nights just fell on me.

She was upset. Abyssmal. Mad. About her bf of course. But she really went frantic. Cried from Orchard till her house, and all the way crying, screaming, scolding, walking the way back to her place. I didn't really know what to do, so I tried watever I could including scolding her. I know that wasn't a good way but I said something which I think I'm still pretty right.

She asked me "why all of you say I'm at fault? why don't any of you go and scold him?"

My answer? "If he had listened, would you be like this? I would rather be talking to someone who can listen (her) rather than someone who can't (him)!"

I know my timing was bad as she was too emotional to be listening to me, I got screamed back instead. My method is not the best, I agree. My method is insensitive to her views, yes I agree. I knew what she's going through, but she has to learn from her view, her side and not from that guy. She cannot think of a solution, which is normal cos she has never got such a situation. What I want her to do is to step out of it, but she can't cos she thinks she can't get a solution since similar happenings may occur again. Well, let it decide by then! You don't have a solution now, it does not mean you won't have it later!

It has been hard on her, yes. It had been hard on me too -.- who am I to her? Friend? Yea. Can she think properly? I'm her ex for God's Sake! I do not owe her anything, she has much to owe me for! She deserted me that time! And what am I doing here, getting to be the good guy by listening to her complaints and stuff??? What do I get in return? Nothing!

I hope she understands that I have my own views to help her too. I know it's her emotions playing tricks so she scolded me...but oh well. What can I say. I can't just desert anyone in need. As what my mom said, "The person go eat shit, you go follow him eat issit?"

I tell ya, my mom may not have education, but she has very interesting and powerful views.

It's already near 1am when I reached home. -.- late.

Patricia called and asked me out when I was with Sharon. Turned out it was cancelled partly cos I am unable to meet up wif her, and that by me being late she told me that she's too tired to go out. DuH. See? I forsake one for another - how am I to forgive myself for that? Pat's my good o' sister ya noe???

Vivi's another. *headache* seems she's preparing herself to face another ordeal. Oh man. I guess I'm getting to chew more than I can swallow. It happens. I can be so busy at a time and so free in another.

Oh yea, today's St Valentine's Day. Let us wish all lovers Forever Bliss. May all admiration and affection be reciprocated. Singles soon find their love.

*nudge*

Shut up.

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Don't disturb me. I do not want to think of it for the moment.

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.LuKe.