Lethagic Tuesday

[CuRRent MooD:] Lethagic, a lil sick but ok

[CuRRent Song:] 周杰伦 & 费玉清 - 千里之外

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Egg + Chicken + Rice / Plain Water

So 'heng' today I woke up with lethagia and headache...so after thinking a while, I decided to report sick. Rested till 3pm, went to see doctor and checked about my insomnia situation...he gave me some advice on "sleep hygiene", gave me slping meds, den me back home lor. Rested a while...then pulled myself out of house to meet up with Malcolm, Janet and Pui Fun.

Met them up at Esprit @ Meritus Mandarin Orchard, then went to Cineleisure and went to the HK cafe and took black pepper chicken chop...a bit weird rite, go such place eat western...but bo bian, home got rice, took laksa for lunch, what else can I take left? Haha...den chatted quite a lot (oh ya, ex-GSK Lixin joined us) then went to Sembawang Music Centre...den walk n walk to Heeren...den walk walk...den went home lo.

Actually nothing much for me to blog, till Janet asked me something on my way back home via cab: "Luke ah, you depression issit?" I was like no, why would I be depressed when I have so much behind me? Then she said, "Some things need time to settle down, not say settle le then not depressed."

So, am I depressed? LOL...

.LuKe.

It's a smokey night....

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] 89ers - Higher Love (Classic Radio Cut)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Beef Lasagne / Plain Water

Seems like I left off with the drama on the CNY days...so what's it for me the past few days?

Wednesday was nothing much, Thursday after work I went out with one of my workplace "users" ad-hoc - meaning we only arranged it last minute. Went down Outram to check out handphone prices, only to find out that O2 Zinc has not been out to the "Outram" sellers...haiz. Walked over the hawker to makan, ended up waiting for a 三捞河粉 for like 20 mins or so? After that we just went on walking till Bugis, then while we were at Mos Burger, Sharon called and she came down to have dinner. It ended up wif her talking about her work stuff and me sending her back home before going back.

Friday...went to dental, den Isabelle came my place to visit. Mum enjoys her presence, then I ordered pizza for everyone's consumption. Isabelle played Gunbound till her fren dropped by my place via cab and fetched her for movies. Nothing too much really...

Saturday...woke up a lil later than expected, got myself asap down to MRT den to Eunos, den to cab (which driver took a big round or so to charge me extra) to reach my manager's place. Spent a few hours dere eating and drinking (had some nice german beer) before we left which Kamisah sent us to Kembagan MRT, den I took train to Paya Lebar to Guoyan (bro's godsis) place to fix up the PC. Let's just say it took some understanding and quite some work to do...esp. they dun have broadband, it gets pretty tough a lil to say the least...so fixed up everything (which was abt 7:15pm) and rushed down to Pat's mum's place to fix another PC. The other PC was in WinME, really something that I can't do much about, but did whatever I can...the network connection however remains a puzzle but some calling just needs to be done. Did some Lou Hei at her place, then after hanging ard a bit we went back via cab.

Sunday...slpt till 3pm and Berlinda called...den makan...den arranged to meet up with Sunshine...I think this is the first time we went out after what had happened...den went town to go parfum searching! Guess what, I bought a bottle!




Yeah! That's Armani Black Code, the scent is okay but I did not try on my skin which was a mistake...I wonder how it would fare? Opps! Hhahahaha~ my first parfum hor...dun anyhow make fun of me ok...

Den walk the walk and walk...hahaha...so the end we took dinner at Cafe Cartel, walk a bit, den went home. I really thank her for her invaluable experience in parfum's'...hehe

It's Monday...working week comes again! It's pay week, and every day closer to my birthday and my O2 Zinc! Am I going to buy it? Well...we shall see!

.LuKe.

Day back to work after CNY holidays

[CuRRent MooD:] A bit tired

[CuRRent Song:] None - in Fanout Remix Room

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Chicken Noodles / Plain Water

Nothing too much for the past 2 days of CNY, this year ang pow lesser, but it's as expected. Hehe...well, on the 2nd night of CNY I met up wif Virneige to sing KTV...wow, for 2 persons it went up to $75! WOW...hahaha...

Day 3...slept till nearly 5pm, den mum reminded me about going to my eldest maternal aunt's place but I didn't feel like going...so I told them...and mum said she's not cooking. Ok, so happen to bump onto Sharon online, and ta da! It's a dinner with Sharon @ Suntec City.

Spent quite a bit on transport in CNY, went down to Suntec City...waited for Sharon a while before she arrives. She didn't change a lot, and her noticable assets still remain. Nevertheless I'm quite immune to it...hahaha...so we walked a little down to the fast food area and had Mac for dinner. Chatted quite a bit, then she said another friend will be down, and later will be meeting up wif her bf. Okay...

...but there's more.

The friend...nothing to say sia...already married, wife pregnant, still wanna 喊砍喊杀, say what must help Sharon seek justice...argh, another self-proclaimed who thinks talking loud "with reasoning" will solve matters - if it did, then we wouldn't be there anyway. Anyway...after chatting a bit (seriously speaking I'm a lil pissed with his existence) we went to the arcade, sat a bit played some games...then saw the bf.

Drama #1: Talk like wanna gang fight (2 men gang fight), see eye to eye, stare stare, say wan fight come fight la, wan punch come punch la, or what "i endure u very long already" those stupid words...plus dunno what backstab here dere...in the end? No conclusion, both parties fedup...and Sharon haven't even started with anything. LOL.

So later, after everything, cannot find the bf, we went downstairs. Then Sharon started calling her bf, den talk talk talk again...the friend extra pattern here dere...SIAN 1/2...den I heard we going Bugis to find her bf...ok fine...guess what? The friend bringing his WIFE along....KAM LAN!!!

Ok, we met the wife @ City Link, then we went down Bugis...walked to the coffeeshop, saw the bf, then drama again he walked away (as though he so scared to see us)...den Sharon chased after him, managed to get him to sit down. Den me, her friend and the wife sat in coffeeshop makan. Friend makan finish, say wanna settle talk with the bf cos the bf "scold his mother"...haiz. Then later he went to confront him a bit...I ate my murtabak halfway, walked there to see how it went. Then talk a bit, the usual loud voice stare stare stand up very big shot kinda situation....den the friend walked back the coffeeshop. I also walked back...sat down eat murtabak...

Drama #2: BF walks to coffeeshop with some stupid glass bottle, talk loud loud....friend tries not to make it big, walks away with his wife...den guess what, BF walks to the friend with bottle like wanna smash bottle at the friend, den the wife walked in front of the husband "YOU WANNA HIT HIM NOW YOU HIT ME FIRST!!!" - pure Channel 8 stuff oozing out 'live'. Then bf say wat give the wife face, den friend and wife disappear, den Sharon took leave from the place with the bf, leaving me with my murtabak. At least my murtabak's not wasted.

Go home, clean up, "sleep".

I could not sleep. DUH.

How's that for pre-work drama? HAHA! Life is so full of drama for me!!!

.LuKe.

Happy Lunar New Year 2007!

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired but fine

[CuRRent Song:] Madonna - Into The Groove

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Steamboat / Iced Chocolate Float

Actually I'm rather tired but I'm waiting for stuff to finish on my PC so just blogged a little...

I guess I stopped my blogging near CNY eve. Nothing much about the days before CNY, do the usual cleanup and stuff just that I have my bro to help out in the household...if only he had done that eons ago, things might be so much better now. Anyway, on the night I went up my neighbour's place and as per yearly ritual, they were playing Blackjack. This year has been good, but talking about patience and changing of luck, it really happens. For the first 20 mins I lost 10 bucks, only by that moment one of my neighbours noted that I did not let anyone "cut" (split) the shuffled cards...so I did, and guess my luck changed drastically.

At the end of the 1 hour session, I won over $20. Haha!!

Come to CNY, I managed to make myself last till 6+am before I turn in (for the CNY thingie about staying awake so your parents could gain longevity), woke up in the afternoon...to eat my Mee Goreng, and only to realise I got my night plans of a movie with Orange toasted as she planned for other stuff. Oh well, talking about planning early, it just doesn't work somehow. Anyway, by the time I reached my relative's place I did manage to get someone out...

...and she is...

*drumroll*

Virneige! It's great to have such a friend of 19 years! LOL...

We agreed to meet at 10pm at the Heeren bus stop...Berlinda called and talked about her work and tooth problem...by the time I reached my area's bus stop it's already 9:50pm...from far I saw a cab...Mercs cab...FLAG AH!!! Haha...so I ended up taking a cab to town. Managed to meet Virneige, den we walked to Cineleisure. While walking to the cinema, I saw Orange's friend Joy so I msged her...ended up she was with her!!! GRRR!!! Okay never mind, so went to check the movies....omg. All slots are so packed...no choice, we got out and walked down to Hotel Rendenvous as I planned to chill at the Coffee Club...closed. Never mind, walked downwards to Bugis...on the way see all the TCCs and stuff all closed -.- so we walk n walk...den I thought of one place we could chill.

CAN Cafe!

To think it's open, we made our entrance at ard 2315 hours and we left about 0110 hours...we spent almost 2 hours chatting, laughing and small talk, also some heart stuff...it's a nice night, maybe not that happening but nevertheless when you can find someone you can be comfortable with, who cares?

So...off I go to bed. I am so freakin' unlucky something went wrong with the thing I'm waiting for.

Anyway, I must constantly warn myself not to be overly sensitive and emotional at times. I have to say that I'm trying to keep tabs on "that particular person that she wants me to get her out of her weird and hopeless situation even though she is enjoying every minute of it", but it seems not easy. I tried, isn't it? Oh well, it's up to her to update me somehow, not only from her regular blog.

.LuKe.

It's about 24 hours away from CNY 2007...

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, lil tired

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] 三捞河粉 / Canned herbal tea

These 2 days been helping out at home clearing up the stuff and clearing up. Seriously speaking this year is a lil less stringent to my mum's standards and it seems somehow in my mind I still have loads to do...even though I would say the most impt and obvious ones have been settled.

I've been mapling a bit, even though I haven't reached level 62..oh well who cares. I'm just taking it into my stride nowadays...

For the past weeks I seemed to be living a less-than-normal life...I've never mentioned in this blog and probably never will, I would say that even though it's not right in many pple's eyes, I've not regretted a single bit. Sure, maybe one day things will be uncovered...but maybe till then, some things will come a hard knock and simply push me by...but till then, I just wanna take every moment as my own, my best to my capability...somehow at these weirdest of times...

...I felt a sense of responsibility to protect. To protect what I feel is important to me. At least while I can still do something.

No one can tell the future, but at least I feel that I'm doing every single bit to help, to make sure I'm around and to make my existence felt. Logic just doesn't work on me this time, and I know I'm following my heart.

True, I'm still recovering from my previous hurt...but while in this hurt I really found something else in me that perhaps, I should've just tend to it and see through it...at least till a time I feel I can no longer support, or is not required to support.

I believe the person whom I wanted to protect certainly does not want my life to be tied up in any way - don't worry, it's my life and I decide on how I manage it. Decisions change over time, let's just say that this is my decision at this current moment...something I just want to do.

If only I could turn back time, if I made that decision...what would things have been?

Hahaha...there are no "if"s in history.

I dunno when is my next entry, so a Happy Lunar New Year for all of you! =)

.LuKe.

The V Day 2007

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] The Pussycat Dolls feat. Snoop Dogg - Buttons

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Beef Prosperity Meal / Mandarin Orange Green Tea

Everyone's talking about it, blogging about it...actually seriously said, I don't have much to mention. The only thing I did was to make something for a good friend to commemorate our friendship...took me a while but at least I got it done, it looks good. She seems pretty happy that I made it just for her =)

These few days just passed by like this, nothing too fanciful, and my coming off days will be used to help out the house - exciting eh? You know sometimes people just ask if I have so much to do and it gets on me at times...just because they have done their houses don't mean that I can do it the same way...I still have the floor to scrub, washrooms to clean, probably 3 cupboards to clear and clean. There might still be more for all I know!

As days gone by I realised I built my 1k+ rig (PC) almost all for nothing - so far it's just sitting by doing odd jobs. The only thing I liked it is cos I saved time on multitasks like burning CDs - last time when I start burning the whole system will half-freeze (almost total), forcing me to stop other tasks - even winamp was a problem!

Oh well, I often spend money on unnecessary stuff. I hope my upcoming investment won't be unnecessary...after all, it's a present I'm going to buy for myself.

.LuKe.

Oh yah, Happy V day!

It's Monday again - this week shall pass fast!

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, still a bit sick

[CuRRent Song:] None, in Fanout Remix Room

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Raisin bread / Plain Water

As I was saying, I spent Saturday at home with nothing much to do...so I did something I haven't been doing in a while - playing Maple. Haha...still level 61, but at least it's about 60% xp.

Sunday I woke up late for PM @ GeeAssKay...it was a scary morning as I spotted 2 abnormalities and tried to resolve them. One was resolved while the other wasn't critical. Towards the end my colleague and I thought we could end it on time but...something cropped up in the final process!!! GRRR!!! Ended up we left 1+pm...haiz. Went back my area, makan and went home chill a bit rest a bit till 4 something, and prepared myself to go out.

Went to train station, Orange smsed me and said she just left home. Okay so I thought her hse and the station is a distance so with a bo liao thought, I took the train to JE...hahaha, by the time I reached there, she happened to take the opposite train to my direction! LOL...so ended up we wasted 5 mins...but it's nothing much. Took the train down to Bugis and on we started our shopping...

...but wait, we ended up @ Sakae Sushi for her early dinner. Had some sushi and a bowl of beef ramen (she's the one who's hungry but I'm the one eating 80% of it - don't forget I took lunch at 2pm)...then after settling the bill @ 630pm, we started our evening shopping...

Walked around in Seiyu, went to Muji, den Kino...nothing too fanciful (counter-reminds myself of Isabelle's day 2 shopping which landed me with flu)...till we got to Bugis Village which in Orange's opinion was "unnecessary". Let's just say at the end of the day, she got quite some stuff in her bag, an extra carrier bag and some pics in my phone. I would say it's a very entertaining time while being out with her.

So then, may this week be fast over! Happy Chinese New Year ----- in advance!

.LuKe.

A saturday at home...

[CuRRent MooD:] Sick

[CuRRent Song:] VA - The Masterplate Mighty Mix Volume One (Disc 1)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Bread / Plain water

Just a week before the Chinese New Year, I fell sick! Down with the infamous flu...the doctor told me just in Jan alone the cases amounted to 21,000 compared to past year's 7,000 in the same period! Wow...the flu is strong, isn't it?

My eldest brother told me such stuff came from Guangdong (thanks for reminder bro), China. Weird to say of it, he mentioned that SARS, Bird flu, and new strains of the common flu all started from there. It seems flu likes to evolve over there eh?

Anyway...about my week...

Nothing too much, on Wednesday it was audit day 1, nothing too much...on Thursday met up with Isabelle after work for Shopping round 2...she did manage to get some stuff but by the end of it I was so tired and hungry, I didn't really think of it...

...Friday morning woke up so tired, decided to take cab to work. God knows...I fell sick ard late morning, detected something is wrong so I decided to go back home first. Rested till the evening to go see the doctor...then he told me I was running a fever of 37.9C...oh well, what gives. So it's plenty of rest and water for me, no alcohol...hahaha...

Which brings me here on a saturday doing nothing much apart from resting and chilling out when I'm supposed to help out in clearing up the house...oh well...stupid sickness...

.LuKe.

Just a normal weekday...

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] No song

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Carrot Cake / Plain Water

It's already midweek and is a fine casual midweek. Today is audit day 1, only small glitches in the morning but everything else is fine so far...so hopefully Daniel will be able to survive the 2 remaining days...

Monday:

Had half day @ work cos I needed to go down GMP to sign my memo...by the time I left GeeAssKay it was nearly 2pm (I think...or was it later?) as some stuff cropped up...so I came out of work and received an sms from Isabelle asking if I could accompany her for shopping after work. After planning a bit I agreed to it...so went GMP to sign the stuff, went back home to continue with chores...then met up with Isabelle...

We walked around Marina Square and chatted quite a bit (but its mostly abt the shopping)...in the end I got a pair of jeans, she got a pair of jeans and a cream-coloured skirt. We went over foodcourt to makan and after that we proceeded to St James! Well it's a weekday so there ain't too much presence (nevertheless Dragonfly had quite some people around)...but I would like to say that their membership system is simply confusing. We took Whiskey Sour (which is really sour) and a Martini Lychee...

Took cab home after the St James expedition.

Tuesday:

Lemme see....nothing too much, reached home completed Chobits slept early @ 12mn.

Oh yah, I supposed to be mopping the floor today. =)

Something I thought over today - how men and women view sex:

Men wants sex for the immediate feeling...they might not feel soooo attached, but so long they have it it's fine.

Women wants sex for the closeness and feelings associated. Women can possibly go without sex unlike man, but wif it it makes themselves feel much better towards the r/s. Women sees it as a more long term thing, and probably each session slowly gains more points for a long term feeling.

Probably unlike men, which gains so much points at that moment and probably loses most of the points in the next hour.

By points i meant "relationship points"...or "feeling points"...

.Luke.

Time flies, weekend gone!

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] DJ Lhasa - Baby One Day

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Some chicken ramen / Teh-Peng

Gonna rack my brains to blog this one...the week has been well, rather eventful perhaps? =)

Wednesday:

The day was okay to say the least...stuff ard here and there, then went back with Leong in the GSK bus to JE. Felt a lil headache...but shrugged it off, went back home and online...saw Josephine online. Casually chatted with her, in the end it became a dinner outing with me going down to City Hall (ouch).

Met up with her, then after walking around a lil we proceeded to Marina Square to have dinner. I thought of Changing Appetites, and while on our way there she stopped by a gift/flowers shop. Went inside for less than a min, then out of it along the way telling me how nice it would be to receive flowers and stuff.

It's just me to conjure silly surprises even for a friend just to make her happy, so on the pretext of going to the Gents (which I did), I went back to the shop and bought 3 roses which are nicely decorated, then I walked back. I think I did a good job to hide the flowers till I reach the table, then pleasantly surprising her with them. I think she's very happy to say the least, though she did say it'll be better if it's a gift on Valentine's day...haha, maybe to you readers it might sound like a hint but no, I will certainly say it's not...let's just say it's another story.

Well...at least she appreciates my effort...I can tell...the happiness brimming from her face, it felt good that I managed to make someone's day.

But comes the bad part...

Thursday:

REPORTED SICK. Headache, lethagia...whatever, I could not really come out of bed properly so I had little choice but to report sick. Collapsed onto my bed after that and slept through the late afternoon and went to see a doctor...

After wasting time here and there at home, I felt better so I went to Holland Village to transfer my funds. As I walked out of the bank, someone msged me - Virneige.

Blablabla...hmmm? She wanted to come down my place to look for me? Oh okay!

So after some planning here and there, we met up @ the Kopitiam at my place. There we started our chat sessions and wow, she's wearing a dress! Before we got on the topic...

...we ordered drinks. Normal? So the auntie comes along...

Auntie: 你们要喝什么？
Vir: 给我牛奶加冰。
Auntie:不可以！牛奶不可以加冰！会有“风”的！
Vir:。。。
Auntie:真的不可以！我试过！不可以加冰！要听我的！要就喝烧的！
Me:给我teh peng.
Auntie:好，teh peng 一个。
Vir:好啦，给我牛奶水热的。。。
Auntie:好。。。这就对，不可以加冰！

Virneige was saying that in one kopitiam the uncle onli served her twice and remembered her order, now she came to my place and the considerate auntie tells her she can't drink it! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

So she continued her stories and we ended up with laughter and stuff....time flies and it soon reaches 12mn...time to go? That was when Tilong (our mutual primary school fren) called and said he'll be coming down.

Guess what? I reached home @ 2+am.

OUCH.

Friday:

Work and work...then after that went to walk a bit around...then went home chill a bit. The thing about the night was probably a call from Sunshine (we haven't been chatting for like ages) so we chatted quite a bit, hung up and called again till nearly 2am.

Saturday:

Woke up, went to market with mum...then came back home to...lemme think, to clear my utility room! Guess what, my PC is back in my room! So spent the time cleaning up my computer table and stuff, and moved it back my room. Wireless equipment is still in the living room, waiting the next day to clear.

Cleared till like early evening, I took the bus down to PS to meet my brother...had a game of DDR...DAMN DAMN DAMN I am still recovering from illness and there I am, disgracing myself by failing the songs now and then! GRRR!!! After that went to LJS to makan alongside bro, his gf, Linda and Guoyan (bro's godsis)...after that, went to Esplanade...the setting is okay but the people just ain't correct cos all are couples (Guoyan had her bf coming along later) apart from me and Linda...so while walking back they began their stupid jokes...

Guoyan: See we all couples!
Linda: No lah, me and Luke not lor
Guoyan: You two a pair lah!
Me: No lah! Me not pear (pair) lor! I am Avocardo! She (Linda) den is pear!

*laughter*

Me: I know a friend by name of Orange lor! And Apple! What else you want?

LOL...stupid conversation...after that I took a cab down Dbl O...guess what? RETRO NIGHT!!! WOOT!!! Went up...then saw Pat!!! HEHE!!! Then she intro some of her "sisters"...then I ordered Brandy Coke...the music was great, people was ok (in fact I was only with Pat so......) so I just dance a bit by myself...den went to Gents...come back and saw......

MINGDE ("Chen Wei Lian") and VIVIAN, both MU kakis!!! COOL!!! So after I went to Pat's area and told her I'm off the dance floor, I went to look for both of them and started grooving to RETRO!!! Mingde's kinda lucky to have a beautiful lady trying to hit on him (but he kindly refused), and yeah that's just about the highlight for him? LOL...then I received msg from Pat and I went back to look for her...

Suddenly thought of someone I knew from my last visit to Dbl O - Ben, Orange and Cellie's friend. Is he here? I msged him, but it was only a while later I got a response that he happened to be at O Bar! I am so lucky! Hahahaha!!! I brought Pat to dance a lil and upon the music going out of Retro's way, we made our way down to O Bar...

...and it's RnB! Well good thing I did drink a bit so the grooves were fine (and come to think the music was ok) so I bumped onto Matthew before seeing Ben. So introed Pat to him, and continued dancing in O Bar till closure...then we shared cab back.

Today:

Slp till about 1+...den continued the chores at home till 7+...then preped myself, went down JE to meet up wif Orange to have dinner and passed her Chobits. Yeah just about it...


Whew. Finally done, before I end my blogging, show you pple something...



The white stuff is a coverup for that lady, oh well my loyalists will know who I'm referring to. Guess she really made her choice after all!

Take care, Penguin. =)

.LuKe.

What should I be feeling?

[CuRRent MooD:] Weird

[CuRRent Song:] Cascada - Miracle (The Usual Suspects vs. EXR Remix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] KFC / Vitagen

Ehm how should I start? Okay, I shall start with a thank you for Virneige who wrote a testimonial to encourage this 18 yrs fren of hers! LOL thanks! =)

How should I end? Haha...I shall end with the recent blog entry I read from that special someone in my life...as I'm in a rather mixed up phase of my life, I would think I'll not put names but she'll know when she reads this. I do not know if she did refer to me in her blog entry (bless my BHB-ness), but I think if she realises that (that = whatever is mentioned on her blogpost), she's still on good track. This was what I wrote on her taggie...

"True, it is well-said...but it takes two hands to clap at times...it gets nowhere if only one hand is trying to clap, ending up only slapping itself? LOL..."

I'm not trying to be cocky, irritating or anything like that - it's a clear message to her regards how I feel, and how anyone would feel. I hope she remembered what I told her during that day @ the train station, or even my mails...that one thing for certain is that if you really do feel for a particular someone, even if you are not ready for a real commitment, you will still feel for that person and that whatever that person does...how and what you do will directly affect matters.

By my recovery phase I'm effectively taking things to slowness - even a standstill, just awaiting to see if anything happens...so let's just see if things will happen naturally and blissfully? Hmmm.

And yeah...it does take effort for relationships to work...so let's just see how much effort can be put in...

*waiting for the rainbow beyond the rain?*

"And yeah, don't worry, I won't disappear."

Oh yeah, upon reading up some blog entries of people, I start to realise my previous post's advice will probably not work. Then again, that's my personal point of view (often wrong when I feel it can be right).

.LuKe.

"Tell me I got over everything and it's a lie"

[CuRRent MooD:] Thinking

[CuRRent Song:] 周华健 - 旧伤心痕

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Otah + Egg / (about to be) Yakult

Probably the topic headline will cover a lot of people this time round. Somehow the walk of life from last year till now has made me notice that the love mood of my circle is not an optimistic bed of roses but instead consisting of so much remnants of the past. As I myself am writing, I can think of people who fit the bill of the topic, which is the following statement:

"Tell me I got over everything and it's a lie."

Personally there has been more than a single event/happening/relationship that I've not been able to get over with, and things had been piling up. Ivan's advice had been pretty helpful to make sure I stay in shape and not to collapse under all these crap shitload of life's happenings, but I guess every day and every night for as long I have a single moment of peace, such things will come back to me.

OUCH. Just when I looked back at the profile and thinking that it's all just my thinking that I'm being overly possessive, unforgiving, being a shallow person...I am just dealt yet another blow.

Sorry, back to where I was...damnit. The feeling in me goes beyond that sourness of my Yakult or even the Dough Yogurt thingie that both Orange and I took @ the Persian restaurant...fuck it. I have not got over it, yes I know, I wanted to continue living through half a life of deception and deceit, but guess maybe half of the truth would've attacked me by now. A gazillion of advice had came to me to drop it, but it wouldn't have been the Luke you pple know should I had just heeded that advice. It's really painful now, but life goes on.

Anyway......this sentence also applied to one lovely lady that came to my life not too long ago, but she stayed within. Things were not meant to be, everything is wrong from the start...but somehow the love and feelings we have for each other stayed on...it's wrong, but where emotions are concerned...somehow the wrong feeling just seemed right. As of now many things might've cooled (of course we discovered something new that made us hysterical), but I believe somehow no matter how wrong it is, our feelings still remained. More than once she indicated this very meaning to me:

"Tell me I got over everything and it's a lie..."

As of current stand I thought of 2 more persons...however, due to the immediate hurt I am getting now, I am unable to make the stand for one of them as she had greatly shaken my vote of confidence in her. On what grounds, now I start to understand a lot of things...and why people around her will feel that way...and why I simply wasn't even in a correct position to make much changes. If this lady knows that I am talking about her...I really hope that if everything I see or felt is correct, you would have NOT been the target of my topic and that you have found a happier life beyond your past and beyond me. You could've missed my messages, my calls, or even removed my picture......but words, your words and mine - could it had been erased in the movement of time? Current circumstances state that I don't have proper processing abilities for this one.

The other lady...well, it's really limited guessing. This lady happens to be a reader of my blog, but I know very little of her life. It's not difficult to get trapped in time, so probably she might still be stuck in the "tell me I got over everything and it's a lie" thing...I pray that she will get a new lease of life and not get stuck in the past...about what it was good, great, beautiful and lovely - we have to move on. If "He" is unable to give you an answer, a good and straightforward answer...then you have to give him the answer. "He" is not going to dictate your life - you are. You have every right to get your own happiness, and happiness does not only lie on his side of the court. You have the very right to take your tennis racquet and move to another court suitable for your style of play.

For the ladies who know me and asked me for opinions, they know that I exercise "Girl Power" theory for them, on contrary to what some people might think that I will just casually persuade them to "forget it". Some men just meant to be punished and awaken, the best way to do so is to prove that you have led a life better than the time you had with them. For one of my ex-gf, she is now together with some cannot-make-it freak that will simply reset her self-confidence to zero. She is not happy, but she does not know how to get over matters. Guess what, I told her off and gave her concise directions on the way to get her share of happiness...come to think, I should check on her progress soon.

Hey lady, you know I'm talking about You? Haha! Just do it - I will be here motivating you.

Ok off the topic time - caught a movie with Orange last night - Babel. Another good show with Orange, I guess we're lucky catching all the good shows in each other's presence to the extend she said she'll catch all the shows with me cos the movies we caught were good! LOL - well I count all my fair share of critics - thanks for those who suggested the good movies to me beforehand! HAHA!

The next show I'll probably be catching, though it may not be "good" but should be a no-brainer - Jack Neo's "Just Follow Law"...support Local Films!!!

.LuKe.

P/S Somehow the pain subsided a little. Maybe...maybe I will get over it. Haha...

It's Sunday oh-so-fast

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine but sick

[CuRRent Song:] Rihanna - Unfaithful (Tony Moran Radio Edit)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Duck Rice / Coffee

It has been quite a weekend to say the least, but my sickness did not make everything the best possible. Think due to the amount of work @ GeeAssKay, it brought me down. As of writing, I'm still down from a cold with cough and feeling feverish - if it still feels the same it's a trip down to the doc morrow.

Thursday was rather a lil messy about the night planning but I stopped at JE after work to buy the "Anti-Hangover Gel" for "A-Hangover Gal" (LOL what a way to link it) and upon reaching home I took a nap till 9+pm...initially Orange wanted to stay at home so it was fine, I tried to see if I have other plans but...

...well as usual, I'm not that popular or charmy so there goes. Anyway I did think of KTV and guess what...

...that Orange somehow managed to reap my brain cells and suggested it before I did! GRRR...never mind, at least I can say like minds think alike (though I wouldn't say how like-minded we can be)...so after some planning we decided for KBox @ JEC. For those who knew me, I rarely go K-singing and I've never really been to room-oriented KTVs - long time back it was Pat who brought me to one, recent times was Pat again who introduced me to After 5, then Isabelle introduced me to CrystalBelle but still no one invited me to a room-oriented (CrystalBelle has both, so no count)...so this time it was well, another first for me. HAHAHAH...

We ended the session @ 3, sent her back via cab den back my place.

Mental block...haha...on Friday, seems to be like lazing here and there I think....only that at night I went town to play arcade, bumped onto Kenny and Linda...nothing too much...den went to Chinatown PartyWorld under invitation from Janet (lol 2 days in a row of KTV!), sang a bit of songs and after that went downstairs to have porridge (and a chat wif Virneige since the pple on the table are in their own world and that I'm so out-of-place), then went back home via cab.

Saturday was an okay day as I've planned for celebration for my mum's 60th birthday, I got down Isabelle, Patricia and her fren Jordan. The meal started ard 1:30pm and instead of being a 7-pple event it became 10 (my materal uncle and 2 frens of my dad came along as well) and after everything it amounted to $90.40...whoa, but well it's ok so long everyone is happy at the end...and I know my mum is. =)

Oh ya Da Ge, if you reading this, mum actually told me to let you know the price of the meal :P haha...

Pat, Belle and Jordan walked ard a bit with me and mum before going back, and I passed whatever stuff Pat needed for her new lappie. Belle occupied my PC with Gunbound while I switched on my lappie to surf the net. After much of things, Pat and Jordan left, leaving Belle at my place continuing her Gunbound.

Time-checking, we left home @ 7+ and she met up with her friend who happens to be my neighbour, then by the time Jo's cab got to my place it's like 7:45pm...we went to Grand Plaza Park Hotel to a chillout lounge there...drank, ate, listened to some singing and also to her issues...then about 9:30pm we left the place and walked to Swissotel (initial plan was News Asia Bar)...but Jo had to go the ladies, so we went. Malcolm came along after his prayer session and after some decision-making, we went to Clarke Quay instead.

Haha...we got into The Cannery, walked a bit and with Jo and with Jo contacting her friend...we ended up walking back to Boat Quay instead (and braving the stupid sudden rain)...after some looking around, we found that place where her friend is...ended up it's YET ANOTHER KTV PLACE!!! That's 3 days. LOL.

The night ended 1+am (shit that's soooo early) so I tried calling Orange...ok ended up she's half wasted @ Momo so I had zero choice but to turn back home...

Anyway, I rested a lot but it's still the same. Hope I don't fall sick - anyway, I CAN'T fall sick now.

Darn, it's nearly 8. Time to go.

.LuKe.

Once again...

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired but fine

[CuRRent Song:] Yumi Matsuzawa - You Get To Burning

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Lor Ng / Yakult

It's another post for the sorry and thank you...

Sorry to...

Virneige - for expressing my bad mood
Sujun - for enduring all my shit
Celena - for saying excessive gabbage

Thank to...

Virneige - for being around
Sujun - for making sure I'm ok after all these shit
Erin - for even bother about me
Ivan - for giving me kind reminders about things I already know but almost forgotten

And many others, thanks!!!!!! =)

.LuKe.

366th post, it's a whole year of posts!!!

[CuRRent MooD:] Low

[CuRRent Song:] Dave Rodgers - Wild Reputation 2005

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Fish / Yakult

Oh well, finally, it's my 366th post.

Nothing much to celebrate considering at least 75% of my posts refer on a bad note, including this one.

I get a feeling I'll lose faith in Love (between a Man and a Woman) if things go on like this. I know it is ridiculous since it came from someone who was hyped as "Love Saint" 情圣 from sec sch till poly.

Since my first reciprocal Love, my love life has never been smooth...either I create the fuss or my gf/female counterpart will create it. It just seems that when I want to have a serious r/s, some person will come along and destroy my dreams...and just when I'm not too sure of myself, I will have someone who loves me but yet I'm unable to reciprocate.

Past months seem to be the former, I wanna be serious but somehow things make it so I can't even do anything at all. I really wonder why such things happen to me?

Maybe I should really get an Alien or Barney the Dinosaur before I can truly not be extremely vexed or hurt.

.LuKe.

Life is full of dots...

[CuRRent MooD:] I'm still stable, I hope.

[CuRRent Song:] DJ63 - some mix

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Fish Hor Fun / Soya Bean Drink

It's nearly 4pm and Orange isn't here yet. In any case, let's just pray her system ain't in a serious bad state.

Haiz...yet another decision-making about to commence in life...I'm really kinda sad everything has to be this way...it's not my ideal situation, but perhaps for the love and peace for all. I'll just brace it.

I really am in a tight spot, only work seems to be in a bit of proper order...Love life is completely messed up, Family life is also screwed up...as for studies...I'll have to start planning. Life is really so stuck-up right now, but I have to carry on.

It's so stupid I can't write anything I want on this blog.

And mum said I'm pretty much the one stressed up for the family. I guess she's right somehow. Coupled with all other things...well, I guess it's really a great ordeal. But wait...I should count my blessings right?

Right.

.LuKe.

Easily tired these days...

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired

[CuRRent Song:] VA - Dance Beat Explosion Vol. 31

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Fish / Yakult

There's something in me I really wanna say it out...well I'll decide later.

Friday did not turn out as bad as I expected as Orange msged me in the morning and told me to go ahead with the clubbing plans. Tried to look for Jo, Dan and Weiming - all not free!!! The end I knew why Jo's not free but that's another story...=)

So after work went to Sujun's place to fix her ZoneAlarm...I have to say ZA sucks a little, after uninstalling I couldn't install it back! Good thing my quick thinking earlier made sure I downloaded another firewall and I installed for her. Okay, her system is working fine now.

By the time I'm done I had both Orange and Jo contacting me, the latter telling me about her unavailability. After fixing some timing and stuff, Orange decided we should have Persian food. What?? PERSIAN FOOD??? Oh man that's EXOTIC! Ok she gave herself like an hour or two to prepare, so I got back home and slacked a little while she took her time "doing wallpaint". Looking at the time and I msged her, said she was "halfway done"...so I went downstairs to have a walk. She then told me she was done and so I gave her specific instructions NOT to come my area since it's quite redundant that I should walk back my place.

I can't believe the cabbie took like 15 mins to drive from her place to mine -.- it's like nearly 10pm for goodness sake. Did manage to spot her, and she briefed me her plan - we moved to Dbl O instead (which to my opinion is a good choice) but we had bad timing issues - we had free entry SMS for first 200 up to 10:30pm, while the Persian Restaurant (which happens to be alongside MS) has its last order at 10:30pm. We tried the impossible...so guess what happened?

Stopped at Dbl O, rushed inwards and found that WE MADE IT! YAY!!! *Hooo~~~*

Orange did her silly big-like-a-penguin-running style while I'm resisting my snickering and literally "arm-chio-ing" (laughing silently) and we moved rather quickly and located the place (forgot the name, something like Buroo or Baroo or what) and had our last order! WOW!

That's like 2 of 2 done, and made Orange's night better despite her half-dead lappie. I had some chicken thingie wif spices, she had lamb and we shared the beef portion. We order this drink known as "Dough" which is actually some interesting Yogurt drink (frankly speaking, "interesting" is an understatement) which was WOW! SOUR!!! Ok, that can kill any normal person without sour resistance. After finishing the food we went off to Dbl O.

Got to know 2 of her friends, Matthew and Ben (latter which happens to know Celena as well) and spent the night drinking (in order: Brandy Coke, Gin Tonic, Beer - which we reckon is Carlsberg), 猜拳 (this was quite funny as Orange had a bout of bad luck at the beginning), dancing (she's freaked out by the lousy music which Dbl O plays - she is pure RnB party animal) and chilling out. As little dancing was done on my side, by the time I sent her back home and back to mine the alcohol effect was still on me, I ran back home, took a bath and slept.

Woke up ard 8-9am, had the hangover feeling - slept again. Woke up ard 11am, ok I'm okay. =) after checking out some stuff, I decided to help Orange buy her DVD-burner first (to save us the trip to Sim Lim on sunday - gonna fix her half-dead lappie) and after doing stuff here and there, I brought my Mobo down to Albert Complex.

This is stupid, nothing is wrong with the board. I got a bad feeling. Anyway I went to Sim Lim and to Dave's place (Dave is someone who helped me with my PC some years back and often gave me advice) and guess what, I bumped onto a GSK staff! He told me about his son's lappie problems and I've agreed to help him with it. Anyway, I bought the LG DVD-Burner for Orange while I had myself a 3.5" HDD enclosure.

Reached home, set up my Mobo back...DARN, it worked -.- but throughout all these, I got to know that the dongle I bought for the other PC is faulty -.- but okay...fiddled with my HDD enclosure (this happens to be one of the backup plans for Orange's lappie in case our original plan fails) and making sure everything is ready for Orange's lappie. Time-checked, went to prepare myself for Ting's bday chalet.

Watched TV...and Ting told me cake-cutting is 8pm -.- oh man I took my pace and I did manage to reach the chalet by 8...only to realise I'm early! In the end we had it at 10pm...anyway, pics time? =)










Seeing Ting turning 21 made me realised how time flies...and yeah, finally I have a pic with Ting...babelicious eh? =) I'm sooo proud of her.

As per mentioned, these days had been tiring for me. Haha...after typing so much, I realised my heart will stop me from writing what I wanna say again. So then, next time...

....sigh.

.LuKe.

Think and think...

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired

[CuRRent Song:] Cascada - A Neverending Dream

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Lotus Root Soup / Yakult

Nothing too much these days, just slight thoughts gone past me.

Mood of the dimension must be "sian" cos a lot of pple ard me are "sian"...

...including me...

Haiz...wan go clubbing also tio reject...so sian...how many times do I jio pple club lor...never mind lah...asking others...but I don't think I'll make anything out of it...

Even though coming Saturday will be rather tight (morning go Sim Lim to settle my motherboard, afternoon-late afternoon prepare to go Ting's birthday chalet)...somehow in my life still missing something...

...yeah I know what is it, but there's nothing I can do about it.

Life decreed ba.

.LuKe.

A diary is good...

[CuRRent MooD:] Inspired?

[CuRRent Song:] Mysterio - Show Me The Light

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Hot Dog + Egg / Pokka Green Tea

After reading back my past entries, it brought back quite some memories and relations.

I felt a renewed sense of vigour.

Tell me I'm the Owner of my WORLD!!!

.LuKe.

I wanna have this!!!

[CuRRent MooD:] Dreaming mood...

[CuRRent Song:] Lilu - Little Girl (Eiffel 65 Remix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] KFC / Coffee

This will be the most ideal present for my birthday...(dream)


It's an O2 Mars, looks cool eh? Features are good too....but O2 has a fair share of lousy comments so let's see how it goes...

On a side note, I'm on my old PC right now. Seems that memory module is not the issue, could be the motherboard. Damnit convince me to buy Abit again and I'll kill anyone.

I'll blog if I have the mood.

.LuKe.