A Decision is made today.

Life shall dictate itself. It shall not cause harm that much more.

.LuKe.

Yet another week past

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Mushroom Swiss Burger / HL Milk

Another week of mapling, nothing overly fascinating apart the fact I went to see the doctor about my cough which lasted for over a month, and it got worse by the day.

Doc: "Let me see your throat"

Doc: "You got mucus dripping behind your throat!"

What an elaboration. Gross. Got antibiotics to clear my throat, some pills to clear the cold, got myself to bed earlier on wkdays, drank more water...so much better now to say the least.

Thursday met up wif Orange and Faith was around too, then walked a bit in Heeren then Faith and her friend went off, me and Orange had dinner @ Villa'ge (ex-Marche)...talk a lot of crap, den go Cineleisure ard 10pm can still get a top for herself...then go home...

Then saturday Pat came my place to have dinner - Mui Chye wif Duck wings...yum yum =)

Ytd went out wif bro to PS see pple play game. LOL.

That's my week. Boring? Yeah, kinda.

But soon not much chance liao. Got my studies schedule...

Mon, Wed, Fri - 1900 - 2200
Sat - 1300 - 1600

Painful. Not to forget if I tio RT. DIE.

Oh well...June gonna be an interesting month. So might be July. Looking forward to things happening, and hopefully things will go as per planned. I am praying hard for everyone around me to have their lives as planned.

Else...well, it's just me.

Please let me worry more about others instead of myself. I will lead a better life this way. Wahahaha.

.LuKe.

Just a sunday

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] Infernal - Keen On Disco

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Duck Rice / Sugar Cane drink

Week of mapling, nothing too much. Haha.

On friday is Jess (Pat's fren) birthday, so off we went Dbl O. Met up wif Pat around 9pm, and confirmed going were Orange and Faith but they will be there only later. So went makan, den took cab down to Dbl O, got free entry from Jess, went in have a free Bacardi Breezer, see fashion show, sang bday song for Jess, den Orange and Faith came so I went to baggage counter to see them...den led them to the area, den chat a bit, got a jug of beer for them, den after finishing the beer went down O Bar, stayed at the pool area and had pop corn and 2 jugs Gin Tonic, chatted and danced a little...ended the night wif me and Pat on same cab.

Saturday...went market wif mum, den waited for Pat to come my place for maple which she did late afternoon, den random stuff, den Jordan came as well...mapled till 1+am before going to Kopitiam and had makan and chat, den went home 3+am. Slpt at 4+am.

Sunday (today)...slack day, did not do what I wanted to do. Haha. Please give me more discipline. Haha.

As today comes to an end in 6 hours' time, something overtook my feelings and thoughts - somehow I had to start worrying for someone again. I get a feeling her direction in life is getting a little disoriented, somehow I think it is getting twisted of the way her life is now. I'm really getting worried.

Hope that I can even get to chat with her regarding this topic at all...sometimes it's hard, but as a self-proclaimed bad-assed evil guardian angel, I just have to get it kickstarted...somehow.

.LuKe.

My 400th post

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, a bit tired

[CuRRent Song:] Tune Up! vs. Italo Brothers - Colours of The Rainbow

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Thosai / Plain Water

Actually come to think, my week's nothing much apart from Mapling...haha...I think Monday I met up with Sharon...den nothing too much, it's Maple and Maple...haha lvl 64 dit...

Friday met up wif Sharon den went to After 5 with Pat jio-ing me...so off we went till about 3am, took cab home. Had quite some fun wif dice hehe.

Woke up sat morning 1020 hours and went market wif mum, reached home Maple, do stuff...den before I left home, the flowers from my eldest bro and sis-in-law came along and dis resulted to some delay of meeting up wif Alynna Jie and thus I took cab down.

Oh, my Alynna Jie's getting married =) hehe

Evening met up wif Pat and had dinner wif her family to celebrate her mum's Mother Day...hehe...den went to Bugis met up wif Virneige, and then back home area bumped onto Minhui (primary school and poly mate), then waited for Tilong and then got another primary schoolmate down...stayed at Kopitiam with plenty of laughter...den they went prawn fishing while I went home...

Yeah. Hehe. Nothing too much for my week eh?

.LuKe.

It's a monday...*yawnz*

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, a bit tired

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Chicken Pie / Plain Water

So saturday came back from MOS, went market with mum, den back home to rest...woke up, played Maple. Dallied my time till I taken dinner, prepared and went down Wisma Atria to get a gift for my cousin. Walked down to PS, den left 11+pm to go the KTV pub.

Quite a lot of pple when I reached, so the usual birthday thing and passed the gift to my cousin. Then went in and got intoxicated - drinks just kept on coming, one bottle gone another bottle comes...power...haha...den got to meet Joanna's bf in person, the pple are friendly and everyone just played along, sang along...pics to come!

Went home nearly 3am...=) and yeah, my aunt also came along! LOL! Cool aunt to go along wif cool babelicious cousins!

Sunday...zzz...woke up 3pm, went market makan buy toto...reach home Maple...den Pat contacted me last min to go Suntec which I did...so went Suntec, makan Pastamania, walked back to her "eastern" home...den went back home after that...hahaha

Nothing left to describe via words since it's the experience that I'm talking about. Hehe.

.LuKe.

This night somehow made me think my life is crap.

[CuRRent MooD:] Crappy

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] McChicken / Teh Peng

My life is seemingly reduced to crap after tonight, and God knows what I should do with my pathetic life.

On half day off today, so I went home to take a nap, and I smsed Sharon to see if anything's on for the night. Initially arranged for a night out, I woke up with Pat's sms to ask me out for After 5...but I've agreed with Sharon so I tried asking Sharon, whom wasn't very interested with the After 5 thing. Soon, Brian called and confirmed the MOS trip for the night. I checked with Sharon and she's fine with it. So off we go MOS and I told Pat about it.

After dallying in the house quite a bit, I went to meet Sharon at her place ard 10+...reached Liang Court ard 10:40pm, went to Mac and makan. Soon before I knew it, Eugene appeared. Point taken - it's almost never a lonely night with Sharon around (duh). Then met up with Brian and co, called Daniel - then knew they were already in MOS. Wait, ain't Daniel supposed to sign me in? DUH! Well buddies are for life - I paid the cover while he cover the mixers (which are damn ex)...so then off we are in MOS.

Till this point of blog, two things didn't go as planned.

In MOS, danced a bit, chatted, drank, brought Sharon around the place (which she commented preferred much more than St James)...then yeah nothing too much, then an sms came along - Orange. Asked me where I was so I said was at MOS. Den she said she was in O Bar and asked what time MOS closes...I said 4am but our co is off for supper, asked if she's game. She said she doesn't mind, so asked me how to arrange. In the end I said I'll be down to look for her. Settled. Pat then asked where I was, said was in MOS. Then asked if she can come down but I told her I'm off for supper. Yeah in the end she passed the phone to Weiming who mentioned about sending her back as she was rather high. Ok duh.

I walked down from MOS to Dbl O (surprised at my navigation)...called her and she came out pretty dead while her fren Jeremy went to take her stuff. Accompanied her a bit before the guy came out, den while sitting she puked her life out. Then said she did not take much food before that, ok sure I understand. Soon we flagged a cab and down we went Circular Road (Boat Quay). I was behind taking care of Orange while her friend was in front...cab stopped, her guy friend who was IN FRONT (conventional rules of cab takers in a group generally has the person in front to pay first if no prior agreement) walked out just like this. Come on, he wasn't even half drunk (though he claims he drank more than Orange BLABLABLA...bullshit you can drink a lot but still be more sober - I can attest to that) and he just walked out of the cab leaving me behind with Orange. Look, I have 2 bags, a hand holding on the tissue for her, and my other hand had to dig my wallet to get the freakin' $5 bill (look, the cab fare ain't even over $5!) which the driver returned my change - so I had my hands holding on wallet, bags, and my mouth biting the tissue, and I had to open the damn door by myself and had to take care of Orange as well! I AM REALLY DAMN PISSED WITH HER GUY FRIEND.

Fine, I didn't think much about it, had her out and I went to look for Dan and co which I did. Came back and helped Orange to the tables which they were having their supper. Asked for drinks, and I went to get the drinks. The drinks took a DAMN FUCKING LONG TIME to be done, and Eugene happened to come by the place twice and upon the second, told me that Orange and the guy was by the side. Ok I turned to take a quick look, yeah they were there. Then I waited for another 5 mins (drinks NOT DONE yet), turned and saw both of them going in the cab, closed the door and left. Good try, not even telling me about it, how nice. Ended up I had to cancel the Teh Alia (dunno how to spell) from the shopkeeper. Come to think, I'm rather sorry he had to be on the end of my pissed mood and even returned me the money for the purchase.

Foul mood, walked back to tables, and I went to walk around to kill off my foul mood. Pat called and chatted a little, den I went back to the tables, and soon everyone finished and left. Sent Belle back home, and myself back. Had a huge complaining session with the cab driver, and though I know the cab driver was half crapping, he tried to make me feel better.

Thank you, Mr cabby.

As you can see, things took an unexpected turn right from beginning till the end. It's a bad Friday-Saturday night. Tell me, good guy bad guy the same. Be good guy get bullied, get eaten, get all these crap from the not-so-good guys who seemingly get the better bet of the lot. I know the all-too-well theory of the bad eating up the good, and I myself ain't too good to begin with...but just so shitty whenever I wanna be the good guy, I get terribly eaten up somehow.

I am so pissed being good, yet if I wanna be bad I'll either have conscience pricking me or getting the feeling I'll get my retribution and just desserts. Tell me, what way to go?

What a damn fucking lousy night. I hope morrow night @ Joanne's birthday will be 10x, 100x, even 1000x better.

Please do. Or if thoust insist, make it so bad I can round off as a damn lousy weekend.

Oh yeah Orange, I am not blaming you. I'm just not happy I wasn't notified of you disappearing, and that I've tried to made your night any better but it turned out otherwise (on my end).

.LuKe.

Friday~ Friday~

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, a bit tired

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Bee Hoon + Luncheon Meat / Plain Water

Gonna backtrack what was done...nothing much really =)

Monday...after work went back home mop floor, den went out to meet my neighbours to celebrate birthday for one of them. Went to Crystal Jade La Mian Xiao Long Bao (翡翠拉面小笼包) had our dinner, then went KTV @ Orchard Partyworld till 4am...

Tuesday...don't need say lah, awaited the arrival of 小猪 and was happy upon hearing the news =)

Wednesday...after work went to AMK and met up with Sandy, a new online friend that I got to know recently. Ate dinner, chatted a bit, helped her planned some finance stuff and further helped a way or another - hopefully it is good help that I've provided and hope things won't go any uglier. Haha.

Thursday...home, rest, Maple, sleep. Haha.

Dunno what's on for today. LOL.

Sometimes I really don't know whether what I've done is right or beneficial to myself. Often doing things that people normally won't do, and get a kick at myself for things turning bad at the end. The so-called good things I do are often so able to turn ugly at the final turn, and yet I still do them. I wonder what is wrong with me.

.LuKe.

小猪来这世界了

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] Jive Bunny & The Mastermixer - That's What I Like

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Unchanged from last post

Sujun's daughter has come into the world weighing 2.355kg @ 1704 hours! =)

So happy for them! =)

.LuKe.

Prayer for my good friend...

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] VA - Best Dance 2007 CD 1

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Duck Rice / Teh Peng

Sujun, may you have your healthy 小猪 out soon!

.LuKe.