Post #501, Last day of 2010.

[CuRRent MooD:] Hard to find a word for it

[CuRRent Song:] No song

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Pearl Milk Tea (damn sweet)

Well I guess I don't update my blog a lot nowadays, maybe it's laziness or maybe some other matters. I cannot mention anything about work since I'm jobless. Yeah, you heard it right - jobless.

Maybe it came as my own doing, having matters that went out of hand that caused me to lose focus, and now concentrating on reality might deem a little too late. I've been able to survive for the first month but for how long? I do really hope a satisfactory job will come soon.

As a year draws to a close, everyone talks about celebration, about resolutions and I am no exception. This year does bring quite a bit of ups and downs, and testing times. So much marriage questions, so little time, so little money, and of course the jobless part does make me wanna break down at times. I'm still around cos I have my family, my dear, my friends and of cos the Divine One up there somewhere who allows me to be surviving for a reason. Truth be told, no one knows when I'll just suddenly break down without knowing why and how, no one knows whether I'll just disappear from the face of the earth without a care of the world. No one knows, I do not know either.

Sometimes I wish I am not what I am. I wish things are better, I wish things are more normal, I wish for many things in life that I knew that it has to be worked out rather than just being spoken. Having a soft personality can be really testing, so testing till it works out to the very existence in this world. My so-called trying to be understanding personality astounds me at times, and sometimes I do not know whether there is a right or wrong, or whether there is a need to know right or wrong. I do my best to put perspective on others, trying so hard to look at better side of things, but when I don't see it when it comes, I question myself to whether I have done it right.

I realize I tend to be hardly unreasonable, I wonder who agrees with me on that. Anytime anything unreasonable comes out, it will be tamed quickly by the slightest of reasoning. By then, who know or what knows whether what is right or reasonable at all.

2010 was a year of trials, and ended with trials. I know years ahead will tend to be in that direction. Let's just hope I'll be a "better man" after all these years ahead of me.

Happy New Year, everyone.

.LuKe.

The 500th post, denoting November, a month left of 2010

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired, lil mood

[CuRRent Song:] (FM98.7) Michael Jackson - Breaking News

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Subway Roasted Chicken Sandwich / Teh Peng

I don't blog much nowadays, simply at times not easy to find an appropriate mood to do so. It just felt I have so much to do, so much to think, and just that certain amount of time. Yes, I understand I can be lazy at times, but somehow it just feels like it's the continuous nudging thoughts and things that are slowing me down.

At this time of the year, it's always so much thinking and planning and at a loss, it has become quite a routine that this year has not spared me away from it. Again, I have to look for a job as my contract is ending - just an active search into the ideal job got me acknowledging the fact I have to further my credentials. It's again the ITIL/MC certs combo that so many companies are actively looking for, it comes knocking to my door I have to do something about it. Maybe I have to hold on another year of a reasonable job that pays what I want, and I have to continue my certs to be updated and also to gear myself to my ideal appointment, IT Manager. Yeap, that is my aim (I'm not overly ambitious to go up director level or something) and I have to do what I can to achieve it...but it seems I have been rather stagnant this year trying to decide what to do, I kinda lost it. I need to orientate my direction...

Not without any costs though. That will take substantial time and money, and I'm not sure if I have both. There had been things happening for the past months that got me thinking a lot, and got me wondering what I am doing with my life, what do I really want and such. As a matter of truth, I still do not have much an answer apart the so-called target appointment.

I felt that I'm kinda lost in my direction right now, I'm not knowing what to do properly, what is right to do, what's my plans like and stuff. It just went completely bonkers without any proper order, any proper solution. No answers yet I guess.

So tired, much to do, not in optimal position to face challenges. How?

How no cow, cow see how. Mooooooo.

.LuKe.

The 499th post

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, lil tired

[CuRRent Song:] 98.7FM advertisement

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Mixed Vege Rice / Peel Fresh Powerberries Juice

Yesterday was the first major step for ownership of a new home at Queenstown area (Dawson) as we went to sign the Agreement of Lease. All fees added up, the first payment exhausted our CPF as it went over 40k...yeah I know, it's kinda ridiculously expensive, but I'm sure we will find a way out.

I believe it will be a long journey ahead as there is so much to plan for - proposal, ROM, Chinese traditional marriage, temporary housing, design for new house etc...just so much, it seems certain that the coming years will be fast and furious! So much changes, uncertainty and excitement...

Certainly need all the support I can get! :)

.LuKe.

Trying to blog more! LOL

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, rainy weather

[CuRRent Song:] Sugababes - About A Girl

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Bee Hoon, Luncheon Meat, Fish Fillet / Teh Peng

Generally a good weekend as National Day made it a long weekend, things had been fine on most fronts, and most importantly, no Monday blues and the week is a day shorter!

Actually also not sure what to blog...hahaha...if got something to blog den I blog again...as my subject says..."Trying to blog more!"

Oh yeah, I started a Dragonmaster Evan character in Maple...seeing Serene play Maple, so I also started a new char inside that server...hahaha...so far it's lvl 26 (or 25)...very fast to level...

.LuKe.

Time sprints, flies and teleports

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] Random 987 song

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Famous Amos Chocolate Chip cookies / Plain water

My last update was on 23rd May, but the real last update was 21st Jan. The real 'life' update came 10 days earlier, which means from than till now it has been over half a year of real updates. For now, I have my contract extended till the end of the year, which means less thinking (or more) until then. I have to decide my study route very very soon as expenses of my wedding will soon climb up.

Wedding I say? Yeap, of course I have to plan my marriage with my beloved Serene by now. No no, proposal not done yet but I've promised her on that pretty soon (how soon? Wait lor :P), but certainly the wedding needs to be planned. For now, our date is somewhere around the second half of next year (2011) and most importantly, it will be a wedding lunch so I might be anticipating less guests, but oh well, we had reasons for deciding on lunch instead of dinner.

Back to study route, I have a few options - ITIL (for service delivery), MCSE (Microsoft Certification), CCNA (Cisco Certification), PMP (Project Management). PMP poses a problem as I do not have job credentials that reflect on project management, but the huge advantage comes as PMP does not specialize in specific field i.e. I can go any industry. I think I will go for ITIL Foundation v3, as I still am not sure how much I am going for technical studies.

It's quite a dilemma, but I have to sort it out really soon. There will be plenty to come about regards to money matters, but we gonna bite it through! On a side note, I managed to get my copy of Starcraft 2 Collectors' Edition @ SGD$229.00...ppl ask if it's worth it, well I think it is, after all in life, everything has a value that only we choose to determine whether it's worth it.

I hope I'll be updating this blog more often somehow :) for whoever is left reading this...

.LuKe.

Adaptation from my Brother's blog: History of 曾

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Pokka Green Tea

Adapted from Sensei Michael:

It has been said that 天下一曾无二曾 (there is only one Zeng and never two below the sky). Unlike the 陈 Chen or 李 Li or other major surnames, which may be of any other family all over China, all 曾 Zeng surnames come from the same family – that of the vanquished city-state of 缯 or 鄫, wiped out by 莒国 (the state of Ju).

In its heyday, during the time of the Warring States, the state of Zeng was a prosperous city-state, with fertile soil (due to bordering rivers) and a strong silk culture. Technology thrived within the state and the people were cultured and rich. Unfortunately, Zeng was tiny and its army inadequate to protect itself against its stronger neighbours.

In the end, 太子巫 Prince Wu had to flee as his state was destroyed and taken from him. In order to avoid persecution, all members of his family dropped the radical from their names and adopted a simple 曾 to recognise each other. Throughout history, the family has been known for their involvement in the civil service, military and teaching professions, but were never very great men.

Thanks bro for the info :)

.LuKe.

Reason why I should go management...

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Mixed Vege Rice / Water

Look at this article...

http://news.cnet.com/8301-13860_3-10435937-56.html

A 9-year old kid who has an MCSE certification!!!

I can "knock off" liao...really not the way to go man...

.LuKe.

The January Post

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Shredded Chicken Noodles / Teh-Peng

Ehm, a late Happy New Year for all of you?

Things has been fine, work has been fine but just lacking in the department of learning (there ain't too much to learn), my Christmas was spent with my Dear, Rykiel and Xing munching at 313 Somerset and watched a show at Cineleisure. Initially aiming Avatar 3D, it was full and thus we chose Old Dogs by Robin Williams and John Travolta - it was entertaining and a good watch to spend our time.

New Year Countdown, we went up to Mt Faber with my Dear, Christina, Damien and Chaveil, which before then we ate Sakae at Harbourfront. Chaveil had more contacts coming along, which got the total party size to around 14 to go up the "mountain". We managed to get a space early, but the fireworks for Mt Faber sucks for this year, very disappointing.

Along the way from then to today, I managed to catch Sherlock Holmes and Avatar 3D. It was tough to get tickets for the latter and I understood why after watching it - a decent storyline covered with nice and beautiful graphics, I guess you needn't have to wonder why it's almost full house every weekend.

Work on a Monday is often busy, oh well, get back later. :)

.LuKe.