Sometimes I wonder how it'll be like if I took a totally different route off my work life

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] Duno

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Famous Amos Cookies (2nd pack in a wk...OMG) / Pokka Mint Green Tea

As I was going through so many articles nowadays, I can't help but wonder that now's an exciting time for developers as so many tools are available.

When I started out on my home's 2nd hand 386 DX26 (or was it 33, correct me big bro), all I knew of a computer is that it is something that somehow makes gaming consoles possible. I often looked at them like windows to gaming (please, no pun intended) as my second bro got the first nintendo back home and played Castlevania 2 like no tomorrow till he completed the game, then got on to a Japanese RPG known as DragonQuest III. It was the latter that got us so crazy we can remember many japanese terms and even most of the mazes in the game we needn't have the guidebook with us!

Anyway back to what I was saying. So when I got my bum into Nan Hua Secondary, it didn't take long before my interest kindled when I saw booklets which has game code written in the ZBasic and GWBasic (QBasic being an MS variant, is largely but not fully compatible much of the time) languages, that triggered something in me that never seemed to have gone away throughout the years.

The passion to create games. From then, I learnt code straight from the booklets (they are coding booklets, not guidebooks or manuals) and developed my small little games which reside in the small confinements of the PC, only making its existence known to my secondary school friends in the Computer Club. I recalled making a text-based RPG style of Battleship which you can issue commands of different weapons to sink other ships.

Flash pass a few years later, I got myself directly into Singapore Polytechnic in DCIS (Diploma in Computer Information Systems). I got distinctions for 2 programming modules, notably Structured Programming using Pascal (no one uses it much anymore nowadays but to me the lecturer helped me plenty to establish my base and knowledge, as well as fuelling the interest) as well as Data Structures and Algorithms using C (I was a lil surprised with this one, but it was a nice one). Unfortunately whichever is non-programming I tend to suck at them (exception being Business Studies which I got an A) and even stayed back for a full year and wasted my parents' money :(...well, I guess in life there's always a reason for everything.

I guess it would've been good if I've pursued my life on my interest, but somehow life doesn't work the way you want, maybe for special reasons. Instead of programming, I took up desktop support for my first job (and for now, possibly my career). Many poly frens of mine asked why I didn't take up a programming job, and all I can say is "programmers have no life". At a point of time in NS, I wanted to take up a Games programming degree course, but the expenses were hefty (SGD$30,000) and I can ill afford that, so I gave up.

4 years later, I'm now doing desktop support in general plus a few here and there. But the interest for games programming never died...sometimes I wonder.

If I put my heart into developing my programming skills, what would I be now?

However, there is no "ifs" in history.

.LuKe.

Didn't know I can be so tired

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine but tired

[CuRRent Song:] Duno

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Mentos / Plain water

And tired I am. Seriously, I didn't know I can be so tired. Was thinking of taking a half day, but I have to endure...there isn't much half days for me to take.

What a torrid day.

Speechless for now.

.LuKe.

I guess often the biggest hits in my life...

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] Duno

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Mixed "vege" rice / Pokka Lemon 1000

...is about losing friends. I never liked to lose friends, esp. when you tend to think that it's due to misunderstandings or something. Of course, many people will tell me if such friends are worth it if they just throw me in the lurch after something happens or just decides to end the whole thing just of a disagreement in matters.

I don't know, it seems I don't have an answer for now.

.LuKe.

Coast is clear :)

[CuRRent MooD:] Glad, tired

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Fried fish ball / Water

Oh well, I'm glad things are okay for now. What I'm still unhappy about is probably some other feeling that came along with this repercussion.

I guess in life, sometimes you cannot put too much trust in ppl especially when emotions are concerned. Emotions will in the end be the deciding factor to kill the others. Brought me back to 10 years back when trust was betrayed by self-righteousness.

Come to think, is the truth the ultimatum? Do we seek in life to know all truth?

It is the case, isn't it? I would like to rest my case for now. Too tired to think of it.

.LuKe.

The depth of the soul...is hard to justify.

[CuRRent MooD:] Screwed

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Duno

Whatever the case, now only idiots and sympathizers would think I'm right, if they have known what happened.

Oh well, I kept on saying "there's no right or wrong".

Wrong.

I'm just wrong.

.Luke.

Feeling-less. Exasperated. Vexed. Puzzled.

[CuRRent MooD:] Look at the bloody title...

[CuRRent Song:] CD spinning sounds...

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Don't wanna remember

'nuff said. Even the mood of talking about how I got my Zakum Helm and putting pics up is gone.

.LuKe.

Going for Zakum Helming tonight!!!

[CuRRent MooD:] Excited

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Mixed 'Vege' Rice /Pokka Mint Green Tea

Heehee...tonight is an exciting night...wish me luck! For the ppl whom are not sure of what I'm talking about, Zakum is a major boss in Maplestory. It drops a helmet which provides a healthy boost of stats for the character!

:)

.LuKe.

Short update + another LoTR quote

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] Duno

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Mixed 'Vege' Rice + Pokka Lemon 1000

If anyone has seen my current MSN nick, it reflects some current nicknames of mine.

I have now "Chan Chan", which is what Dear calls me by. "Lulu", though not the first, but currently held by the ppl at the SubContracts department. Also I have "666"(六六六), held by HR staff in GSK last time.

In the past I had aplenty, including Psycho, Lovesaint (情圣 - yeah I know vomit ba), Meow...ehm what else can I think of eh...oh yeah, the Milkula and stuff...LOL

Anyway, yet another quotation from Lord of the Rings, The Fellowship Of The Ring - this was extracted from the moments of the letter left by Gandalf at Bree which they were resting at the inn and being pursued by Black Riders:

All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.
From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.

I liked the first two verses though. It speaks of things that cannot be simply assumed to be always in its active state or of a common conception. Of course, the later verses are more related to the story, but nevertheless can also be taken in or out of context in ways possible.

Oh well, wait for my next update ba.

And yeah, thanks to all that attended my Bday party @ Dbl O!