Facets of life (?)

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, just that little tired for now

[CuRRent Song:] None (playing in my mind is JJ Lin's Killer)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Bah Chor Mee / HL Milk

Need to rush out the stupid interface for my assignment tonight...cos morrow need to present. I hope morrow morning dun need go market else I might not have enough rest to study and then whatever things need to be done.

Somehow as my studies began, free time took on alternate meanings at times. It could mean a personal chillout space, it meant chillout with friends alongside many stuff. I may also decide to try different things on an experimental basis, probably cos I'm in the stage that I can still experiment and recover from failures...of course, some stuff just need extra care.

Like now, my MapleSEA's cleric is level 38 and chief bandit just reached level 70. It's a casual thing for me to play, maybe at times a bit feel more like playing it than doing anything. Then again, as studies took on a precedence I had to at times kill off the playful demon for the hardworking (or at least working) angel...not easy, but trying is the first step to success.

Michelle (workplace) and I were chatting today when our random topics drifted to the direction of relationship. Not much to mention (the common stuff) but some common stuff could let once again make myself realise what views am I holding onto. Like she mentioned about how she missed the woo-ing days and the feelings - that got me to a teasing front of course.

Mic: it's been like 1-2years since i have the being woo-ed feeling. mus go complain to bf again le. haa
Me: wah liew...its common la...as in bgr liao den will cool a bit...
Me: i mean, woo liao u still wan the wooing feeling?
Me: means like as though not together. lol
(some non-relevant response)
Me: means u still wan the attention, the stuff la
Mic: arbothen.. which girl dun like. haha. together le den the attention gets lesser
Me: maybe the flowers, the shyness, the movies...the innocence in some ways
Mic: yes ! lol
Me: yes, its common the attention gets lesser, since being together means being comfortable wif each other, some things will be "less emphasized". but then again, attention can be converted to other things like more care n concern, love and such. commitment and planning maybe.
Mic: wao
Mic: hmm ook. duno how to continue ur theory le. haha
Me: thot u wanna oppose me or something
Me: hahaha
Mic: lol duno how to counter attack la. mind blockage
Mic: =p

I believe we will face such situations at some point of time - no such thing as "forever honeymoon", it will drift off as people tend to know each other much better and relax at a point of time. As such, when we choose to be together with someone, we should just stick to the guns and try to be accepting...unless of course the changes are bent way too much out of proportion. Haha.

My above point could be right, could be wrong. What has been "less attention" could have been placed in other places like "love, care and concern, responsibiliy, commitment" or maybe "possessiveness, pride, dependancy"...it all depends, isn't it? Nothing too much about being "too good" or "too bad" - it's just what we prefer in life.

Writing the "forever honeymoon" theory brought me to think about my brother, who once claimed it is possible to let a relationship "stay similarly" throughout the first few years. It is not really practically unless you have 101% nothing to hide, or you have found a perfect partner (which itself is impractical). Just look at what is happening now to him, I can plainly scoff off that theory.

True, no honeymoon theory, but it takes two to clap, it takes both to maintain a longlasting relationship going through the tests of time into "eternity".

As my brother came into the picture of my blog post, almost nothing good can come out - it will most guarantee mean another ranting session or some sort of post which sees light to how he is and how everyone is handling.

Nowadays as my mum talks about him, I've held myself back much lesser than I used to in the past. In the past I defend for him, now I am speechless. I've seen years gone by, from myself a kid to this moment that I work...sometimes I wonder if I am becoming more unfeeling...but maybe it's more like I'm giving up on him.

All his stupid promises, blablabla succeeds even lesser possibility than a Scroll of Attack on Dagger 10% (Maplers will know what I mean)...I really tend to lose hope in him more and more. I believe more pressure must be exerted on him.

He always asked why his account now unable to play some games as "administrator access is required" and told me to solve it, which I've pushed it away time and again. I've downgraded his access so that he cannot do stupid changes to the system, and it seems that my system has lesser problems and downtime!

I'm planning to do maintenance on system, I guess I'll get him to backup whatever stuff he has before I plan the BIG BOOM. And I need to tell him that I'm not going to let him use the system until he does what is needed to be done. I think I've gave him way too much chances.

It's really so much more a convenience without him at home, seriously. He just creates more problems when he is...gets on me, I really wonder why all these has to happen on our family when mum and dad are seemingly the best parents that one could ever have. He's just taking things for granted bloody way too much.

Oh well, that's life.

When is my skin change??????

.LuKe.

JJ Lin - Killer

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] JJ Lin - Killer

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Just watched the "hooha" video of JJ Lin...below are links of the videos...

Disclaimer: MV version is ok, but for those who cannot stand gore/nudity (actually only 2 scenes of breasts) please do not proceed with the uncensored versions.

JJ Lin - Killer (MV Version)


http://youtube.com/watch?v=xoCiwNeA_eM

JJ Lin - Killer (Uncensored version)

http://youtube.com/watch?v=5y41vLiIMbQ

http://youtube.com/watch?v=4_sKxO3PQTg

http://youtube.com/watch?v=ObYlmRGmJRc

You can omit the third video if you have watched the MV. The end part of part 2 features the MV as well.

The song is not bad, a bit Jay-ish feeling but since it's JJ you get the JJ feeling so...yeah it's a good try. Since the video was such a hooha, I think the company has achieved its aim of promoting the song and album. Haha...

The weekend was ehm, kinda...I dunno how to describe it. Friday was work but no studies (hehe) but met up with groupmates to discuss the assignment...then Saturday went to market with mom...den stayed at home to maple a bit...(yeah cleric lvl 37 le) then went out with Orange for a movie...Jap animation in fact. It's "The Girl Who Leapt Through Time" - it's not bad, though for people who expects a big story will be a little disappointed. This animation is a bit more reflecting on the people who uses unparalleled powers without proper consideration, and how some decisions in life could affect everything else not in your control...not everything can be undone in a way.

As she wasn't in the best of moods, somehow my mood got affected even though I was trying to make her better...I guess a short turning point would be the strawberry smoothie - took me like 3 hours plus just to see her smile for the first time yesterday - something which is unbearable to my standards. I'm a "happy fruit" in general and can't stand melancholy too much in usual circumstances. In usual times I'll send her back and stuff but I think due to the mood and stuff I left her to go back home first (sorry abt it =x) while I wandered in the streets a little and ended up at ZoneX and PC Bunk...saw Ivan and Vanessa (separately)...and Eddy...haiz. Hearing what Eddy said to me, I hear also sian. Say what his mother confronted my brother (abt money issues again, what else?), den I just snapped back in relaxing fashion, "Is that any of my business?"

This is just how much I face my brother's issues nowadays. He's almost hopeless.

Back home, mapled a little...slpt.

Now at workplace executing PM...probably meeting up Adeline and co. in the evening for dinner I guess. Oh well, a lot of thoughts being sorted out yesterday...dunno if I can put them in place for execution.

More on it...elsewhere. Haha.

.LuKe.

One week already??

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, but a bit tired

[CuRRent Song:] Michael Jackson - Black or White

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Cabbage Soup / None

Time flies, I didn't even notice it's already a week off my previous blog entry.

That thursday, I went KTV with Pat, her mum, Jordan, someone (forgot her name but I seen before) and Orange...sang till 12+am then took cab home.

Friday...it was a Dbl O night with Pat, Orange and Ben.

Saturday...studies...then went out with Sharon to walk around a bit...then home...

Sunday...did what ah? Oh yeah was slacking at home without knowing what to do, then Adeline smsed me a bit then I got to know that they were shopping...then I asked why didn't ask me to go...ended up I met up with them...haha. Them = Adeline, Serene and Jean (the latter ones I knew them from Dbl O during Adeline's last visit). Walked quite a bit in Far East Plaza, talk a lot of cock, den went Paragon...yeah just like that. Then took Jean's friend's red WRX home. Haha.

Work days are boring - either work or study usually. Today I got my leave, so I went to pay a visit to Sujun. Her baby is soooo cute! =) but she's like sleeping longer than expected all thanks to my expert and relentless rocking of the hammock...hahaha...

Yeah, it's Friday tomorrow!

.LuKe.

Finally...

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Chicken Pie

FINALLY! Lvl 70 Chief Bandit in MapleSEA Aquila! Slow, but sure. :P

.LuKe.

Just another day

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, a bit tired

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Been almost a week since my last update, well studies has been pretty 'siong', a lot of concepts to grasp and understand, trying my very best to follow up. Tutorials had been ok so far, but I anticipate worse things up ahead so I should buck up.

Last week...well...Friday was a lecture, Saturday was a tutorial, so after that I went to PS to buy some stuff and had early dinner. Not very sure of my day, I msged Daniel of the night's programmes. Ended up he said some place in MS that I'm not sure of.

So the night came, we ended ourselves in Istana Park for our usual drinking, then off we went to Teddy Bez. What? It's a techno joint newly opened at MS, and to think that Rusty (ex-Paralist) was involved in the Techno-dance competition...however it was sad that due to military obligations he was not able to attend the Semis and it was an automatic walkover. We all got eyes lah...one look can tell he's the best on the floor.

Anyway...the place closed at 3am (zzz), sat a lil at the coffeeshop and off home we went (NR8 - surprise!).

Sunday...lazy day...stayed home the whole time apart from accompanying mum to the marketplace, and ordered pizza for dinner at night. That's just it.

OH yea...my Bandit in MapleSEA is finally LEVEL 70!!! WooO~~~ but not yet job change. Zzzz...hahaha...but current clothing look stupid leh...hahaha...

So now is Job Change > Band of Thieves > Assaulter > lvl 100!!!

LOL...long way to go.

Template ah template...shld be time to change template...

.LuKe.

Being back with what I like best about studying - programming

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, lil tired

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Being back into what I love to do is a good thing.

Programming is one of them, and it's back into the game with VB.Net yesterday! Having VB6 background is truly a plus point (alongside my rather stable syntax memory) as I managed to go through the "refresher" course without much problems. Skipped through the very basics and got on the advanced questions - it's not too advanced, just the number guessing game. With MSDN equipped, what can go wrong?

But of cos, VB6 and the .Net architecture is different (.Net is OOP) so I got to get adjusted back into the OO environment - the one and only programming language that I've done OO was C++, and that wasn't very exhaustive practice even though I probably got like a B or something in that subject during my poly days.

Gosh, I am soooo excited about programming! Being back in the game gives me good confidence in my assignment and practical test which totals up to 50%!!! It just means so long I do some studying for my theory, I will not have an issue passing this module! Hooo~~!!!

Well, more challenges to come I know, but bring it on. =) the programming, that is. Hahaha.

.LuKe.

Midweek again, lil tired

[CuRRent MooD:] A lil tired

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Bee Hoon + Fillet / Plain Water

Let's see...last update ended on Friday afternoon, so lemme see...

On Friday evening I was hanging around at JP and was msging Orange, then she told me she's going down clubbing with Faith. Went home and prepared, then went to Marina Square's Sakae to meet them...makan that lil bit, then after waiting a bit for Orange to makeup we took Ben's car down Dbl O and clubbed till 2+am...

Saturday...zzz...woke up and accompanied mum to the physio, den makan at the foodcourt (almost zero appetite but full of thirst - overdose of aircon + alcohol maybe?)...then back home, zzz-ed the afternoon off, woke up to maple and net a bit before arranging to go out wif Virneige to scout for Tilong's bday gift. By the time we're done, I noticed I'm being attacked by unknown substances which caused quite a bit of rashes on my body so feeling a lil unwell, I went back early (like 10 something on a saturday???) and unable to join Orange and Joy for 'dinner-supper'.

Sunday...woke up, see rashes, slpt...till no rashes. Haha...maple and net, den waited a lil, preped myself for Tilong's bday BBQ, den met up with Minhui (my primary school classmate) and Virneige downstairs and went to the BBQ together. Nothing too much, just that Minhui left like 11+pm and Vir and I continued chatting till 1am. LOL.

Monday...work lor. After work went to PSB Academy for my first day of studying after like, ehm 5-6 years?? The lecturer was fine, the class was very packed which was quite an opener to me...and the lecturer used up 1/4 of the total course notes on the first lesson. Kinda cool eh. Today will be my first tutorial...hehe =) wish me luck on VB.Net =)

On a sidenote...I have received news of... ... ...

STARCRAFT II!!!

WOOT!!! I gonna buy it when it comes! 1000%!!! It's even more anticipative compared to Tiberium Wars!!! HEHHEE...rumours said it'll be out end of the year...hope so!!!

.LuKe.

Good and bad...zzz

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Mee Goreng / Carbonated orange drink

Good thing or bad thing first?

Bad things...well nothing too much really, got shot multiple arrows today to do quite some stuff. Now still waiting for vendor to arrive.

Good things...

I've approached my manager for a transfer of project away from GSK. From what I hear, there is another project with regards to contract, vendor and project management, which is certainly a direction I would love to try! With that type of experience in me, my resume will be more geared towards a managerial role! If say I could get on this project and last for at least a year over, I'll be so well equipped wif actual skills as well as my degree (if I can survive passing every module), so I have a boost of confidence I'm a step closer to what I want to be!

Yesterday I went for my orientation at the Delta Campus, PSB Academy...it ended rather fast and somehow I managed to arrange a meetup with Michelle! It's always a thing of me to meet Michelle as it's hard to meet up wif her (studies, boyfriend etc) for as much as I like...so eventually we got our asses down to Vivocity where we met up with another friend of hers, Jocelyn (whom I've met before about 2 years back) and we went to the open area to sit and chat. Good times end fast, time to go home, yeah that's just it.

I appreciate every moment out with my close and loved ones.

[ Updated 1520 hours ] Another good - I got my company to deduct the extra bonus in 2 installments. At least I can eat better-tasting grass. Haha.

.LuKe.

Next month eat grass

[CuRRent MooD:] Sianz

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Fish n Chips / Plain Water

My company is deducting the extra bonus given to me.

This means...

(because I overspent this month...)

No fastfood
No restaurant food
No clubbing
No KTV
No movies
No gadgets enhancement

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ..........................

.LuKe.

2 weeks past

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] None

Forgot to tell all of my readers that I went reservice last week. Then again, most people close to me would've already known.

For that weekend before reservice, I had Pat and Jordan at my place mapling and stuff. Haha sunday was a day for me to go Chinatown to swap the handphone, den tried finding army stuff but didn't manage to...the day dwindled pretty fast and I packed my army stuff till 3+am, den woke up around 6am and left home for my 5-day ICT.

First ICT was...well, rather slack. Haha...of cos there were the busy times but overall it's rather relaxed, more like a breakaway. Well I got what I wanted which was to drive my vehicle outfield!!! People think I'm crazy to be anticipative of such things but maybe cos I dun have a civilian license to drive, that part of the driving me is satisfied!

Back to civilian life, heard usual rants from my mum after being back from ICT, saturday went Dbl O...sunday...dwiddled life away as well before celebrating Father's Day, then meet up with Pat.

There had been lots going on in life recently, a lot of confusion and sadness...but at least till today, everything seemed ok. Well...I hope so.

.LuKe.

It's midweek Wednesday...wassup?

[CuRRent MooD:] Okay

[CuRRent Song:] Manian - Turn The Tide (Italobrothers New Vox Radio Edit)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Duck Rice + Egg / Soya Bean Drink

So getting off from last Friday, went Vivocity with Isabelle and shopped - she shopped. Haha...she bought like stuff amounting to almost $300 or so I think...haha...well, that's the power of GSS (Great Singapore Sale)...

...then again, that effect got to me. Saturday...went PC Show with Yuling and Huimin (neighbours) and bought a keyboard @ $12 and webcam @ $29. The webcam is not bad, has lighting and mike by itself! Keyboard also beh pai. Then Yuling bought an "mp5 player"...just silly names for gadgets...lol...den walked around a bit, went to Topman @ Marina Sq...bought a yellow top...den waited for Orange to arrive, den we went over Changing Appetites to makan...

Out of CA, den go toilet...den Orange suggested me to change to the top I bought cos I was wearing rather casual...so I did lor...den heng got Yuling help me bring back the stuff so I can go clubbing with Orange empty-handed...hahaha...den waited for Orange to "decorate" herself for like 20 mins, then went to wait for cab...haha, ain't too bad really (and fortunately)...and off we went Dbl O.

Reached there...wah! Culture shock! So few people! So unlike the Weds situation! Went in and looked for Isabelle(s) and fren, sat down and chatted...lol den from random stuff we started talking about Maple...den Orange was like half zzz but she found it pretty amusing when we were talking abt Showa's enemies...the Ah Peh, Ah Ma and Ah Lians! LOL!...

After that, went to look for Adeline and Joe (LSX pple)...wah, tonight is not Isabelle liao...tonight become Adeline liao...super hyper lady, jump and dance around, pull people to dance wif her lor...haha...den played "5-10" wif Isabelle #2..so funny...I think my coordination wif Orange too good liao...ended up Isabelle #2 have to drink so much...haha...den after that Isabelle #1 left...den we hang a while before Orange and I went down O Bar...

O Bar...Orange also didn't dance much, just sat on the sofa and chilled, chatted and drank beer and ate her fave popcorn...hahaha...den Adeline and Joe came down a while and left...den after a bit while den we went home...sent her home before I went home...collapsed...hahaha

Sunday...oh, went to PS area wif bro and almost waste time dere lor...when Sharon called me den we met for dinner, den we walked down Wisma Atria...and I bought another top from Topman...HAHAHA...while she bought a top from Forever 21...yeah...den sent her home, den I went home...

Monday...after work met up wif Jordan and Pat, went to Sim Lim and managed to get a harddisk for Jordan's T30 and replaced it...and worked...haha good one...

Today Wednesday! Yeah.

.LuKe.

Friday...

[CuRRent MooD:] Ok

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Curry Chicken + Sichuan Vege Soup + Black Pepper Beef / HL Milk

After work on Wed, I went back home to take a bath and stuff...den took bus down to Orchard to look for Orange who was having dinner wif Faith. So joined them in jap food, then chatted for quite a bit, den walk and walk, Faith went off...den Orange and I walked to Mandarin and Orange went to doll herself up for half an hour with me doing anything conceivable to break the boredom. After that we tried waiting for cab at Mandarin...too few...so we walked over Heeren and waited for cabs...den took cab down Dbl O.

Wow. WOW. WOW!!! OMG the queue was ridiculously long! It is the longest queue I've seen to date, and Orange said it reminded her of the haydays of Dbl O...OMG. Then as all of us slowly met up together, we took turns queuing which going into Tivoli to have some beer and chat...and aircon. We queued from 11+pm...

...till 2am. OMG. Then went in...tried finding a LSX member which we did, den did some intros, blablabla...actually the whole thing went too fast, the night just faded away. But...something I can never forget...

...was what happened to Isabelle. She got herself dead high and drunk, I couldn't even understand 80% of what she says...and to think I had to handle her, take care of her...wah siong ah!!! -.- but what to do...good fren mah...:)

Reached home abt 5+...

Next day, woke up, mapled, then went to PC Show! Got myself a 4gb thumbdrive...den we went to makan at Genki Sushi in Marina Sq...den went shopping...but nothing much...den went home...reached home nearly 12mn liao.

Zzz...tonite still going out shopping wif Belle again...hahaha..

.LuKe.

A Decision is made today.

Life shall dictate itself. It shall not cause harm that much more.

.LuKe.

Yet another week past

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Mushroom Swiss Burger / HL Milk

Another week of mapling, nothing overly fascinating apart the fact I went to see the doctor about my cough which lasted for over a month, and it got worse by the day.

Doc: "Let me see your throat"

Doc: "You got mucus dripping behind your throat!"

What an elaboration. Gross. Got antibiotics to clear my throat, some pills to clear the cold, got myself to bed earlier on wkdays, drank more water...so much better now to say the least.

Thursday met up wif Orange and Faith was around too, then walked a bit in Heeren then Faith and her friend went off, me and Orange had dinner @ Villa'ge (ex-Marche)...talk a lot of crap, den go Cineleisure ard 10pm can still get a top for herself...then go home...

Then saturday Pat came my place to have dinner - Mui Chye wif Duck wings...yum yum =)

Ytd went out wif bro to PS see pple play game. LOL.

That's my week. Boring? Yeah, kinda.

But soon not much chance liao. Got my studies schedule...

Mon, Wed, Fri - 1900 - 2200
Sat - 1300 - 1600

Painful. Not to forget if I tio RT. DIE.

Oh well...June gonna be an interesting month. So might be July. Looking forward to things happening, and hopefully things will go as per planned. I am praying hard for everyone around me to have their lives as planned.

Else...well, it's just me.

Please let me worry more about others instead of myself. I will lead a better life this way. Wahahaha.

.LuKe.

Just a sunday

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] Infernal - Keen On Disco

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Duck Rice / Sugar Cane drink

Week of mapling, nothing too much. Haha.

On friday is Jess (Pat's fren) birthday, so off we went Dbl O. Met up wif Pat around 9pm, and confirmed going were Orange and Faith but they will be there only later. So went makan, den took cab down to Dbl O, got free entry from Jess, went in have a free Bacardi Breezer, see fashion show, sang bday song for Jess, den Orange and Faith came so I went to baggage counter to see them...den led them to the area, den chat a bit, got a jug of beer for them, den after finishing the beer went down O Bar, stayed at the pool area and had pop corn and 2 jugs Gin Tonic, chatted and danced a little...ended the night wif me and Pat on same cab.

Saturday...went market wif mum, den waited for Pat to come my place for maple which she did late afternoon, den random stuff, den Jordan came as well...mapled till 1+am before going to Kopitiam and had makan and chat, den went home 3+am. Slpt at 4+am.

Sunday (today)...slack day, did not do what I wanted to do. Haha. Please give me more discipline. Haha.

As today comes to an end in 6 hours' time, something overtook my feelings and thoughts - somehow I had to start worrying for someone again. I get a feeling her direction in life is getting a little disoriented, somehow I think it is getting twisted of the way her life is now. I'm really getting worried.

Hope that I can even get to chat with her regarding this topic at all...sometimes it's hard, but as a self-proclaimed bad-assed evil guardian angel, I just have to get it kickstarted...somehow.

.LuKe.

My 400th post

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, a bit tired

[CuRRent Song:] Tune Up! vs. Italo Brothers - Colours of The Rainbow

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Thosai / Plain Water

Actually come to think, my week's nothing much apart from Mapling...haha...I think Monday I met up with Sharon...den nothing too much, it's Maple and Maple...haha lvl 64 dit...

Friday met up wif Sharon den went to After 5 with Pat jio-ing me...so off we went till about 3am, took cab home. Had quite some fun wif dice hehe.

Woke up sat morning 1020 hours and went market wif mum, reached home Maple, do stuff...den before I left home, the flowers from my eldest bro and sis-in-law came along and dis resulted to some delay of meeting up wif Alynna Jie and thus I took cab down.

Oh, my Alynna Jie's getting married =) hehe

Evening met up wif Pat and had dinner wif her family to celebrate her mum's Mother Day...hehe...den went to Bugis met up wif Virneige, and then back home area bumped onto Minhui (primary school and poly mate), then waited for Tilong and then got another primary schoolmate down...stayed at Kopitiam with plenty of laughter...den they went prawn fishing while I went home...

Yeah. Hehe. Nothing too much for my week eh?

.LuKe.

It's a monday...*yawnz*

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, a bit tired

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Chicken Pie / Plain Water

So saturday came back from MOS, went market with mum, den back home to rest...woke up, played Maple. Dallied my time till I taken dinner, prepared and went down Wisma Atria to get a gift for my cousin. Walked down to PS, den left 11+pm to go the KTV pub.

Quite a lot of pple when I reached, so the usual birthday thing and passed the gift to my cousin. Then went in and got intoxicated - drinks just kept on coming, one bottle gone another bottle comes...power...haha...den got to meet Joanna's bf in person, the pple are friendly and everyone just played along, sang along...pics to come!

Went home nearly 3am...=) and yeah, my aunt also came along! LOL! Cool aunt to go along wif cool babelicious cousins!

Sunday...zzz...woke up 3pm, went market makan buy toto...reach home Maple...den Pat contacted me last min to go Suntec which I did...so went Suntec, makan Pastamania, walked back to her "eastern" home...den went back home after that...hahaha

Nothing left to describe via words since it's the experience that I'm talking about. Hehe.

.LuKe.

This night somehow made me think my life is crap.

[CuRRent MooD:] Crappy

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] McChicken / Teh Peng

My life is seemingly reduced to crap after tonight, and God knows what I should do with my pathetic life.

On half day off today, so I went home to take a nap, and I smsed Sharon to see if anything's on for the night. Initially arranged for a night out, I woke up with Pat's sms to ask me out for After 5...but I've agreed with Sharon so I tried asking Sharon, whom wasn't very interested with the After 5 thing. Soon, Brian called and confirmed the MOS trip for the night. I checked with Sharon and she's fine with it. So off we go MOS and I told Pat about it.

After dallying in the house quite a bit, I went to meet Sharon at her place ard 10+...reached Liang Court ard 10:40pm, went to Mac and makan. Soon before I knew it, Eugene appeared. Point taken - it's almost never a lonely night with Sharon around (duh). Then met up with Brian and co, called Daniel - then knew they were already in MOS. Wait, ain't Daniel supposed to sign me in? DUH! Well buddies are for life - I paid the cover while he cover the mixers (which are damn ex)...so then off we are in MOS.

Till this point of blog, two things didn't go as planned.

In MOS, danced a bit, chatted, drank, brought Sharon around the place (which she commented preferred much more than St James)...then yeah nothing too much, then an sms came along - Orange. Asked me where I was so I said was at MOS. Den she said she was in O Bar and asked what time MOS closes...I said 4am but our co is off for supper, asked if she's game. She said she doesn't mind, so asked me how to arrange. In the end I said I'll be down to look for her. Settled. Pat then asked where I was, said was in MOS. Then asked if she can come down but I told her I'm off for supper. Yeah in the end she passed the phone to Weiming who mentioned about sending her back as she was rather high. Ok duh.

I walked down from MOS to Dbl O (surprised at my navigation)...called her and she came out pretty dead while her fren Jeremy went to take her stuff. Accompanied her a bit before the guy came out, den while sitting she puked her life out. Then said she did not take much food before that, ok sure I understand. Soon we flagged a cab and down we went Circular Road (Boat Quay). I was behind taking care of Orange while her friend was in front...cab stopped, her guy friend who was IN FRONT (conventional rules of cab takers in a group generally has the person in front to pay first if no prior agreement) walked out just like this. Come on, he wasn't even half drunk (though he claims he drank more than Orange BLABLABLA...bullshit you can drink a lot but still be more sober - I can attest to that) and he just walked out of the cab leaving me behind with Orange. Look, I have 2 bags, a hand holding on the tissue for her, and my other hand had to dig my wallet to get the freakin' $5 bill (look, the cab fare ain't even over $5!) which the driver returned my change - so I had my hands holding on wallet, bags, and my mouth biting the tissue, and I had to open the damn door by myself and had to take care of Orange as well! I AM REALLY DAMN PISSED WITH HER GUY FRIEND.

Fine, I didn't think much about it, had her out and I went to look for Dan and co which I did. Came back and helped Orange to the tables which they were having their supper. Asked for drinks, and I went to get the drinks. The drinks took a DAMN FUCKING LONG TIME to be done, and Eugene happened to come by the place twice and upon the second, told me that Orange and the guy was by the side. Ok I turned to take a quick look, yeah they were there. Then I waited for another 5 mins (drinks NOT DONE yet), turned and saw both of them going in the cab, closed the door and left. Good try, not even telling me about it, how nice. Ended up I had to cancel the Teh Alia (dunno how to spell) from the shopkeeper. Come to think, I'm rather sorry he had to be on the end of my pissed mood and even returned me the money for the purchase.

Foul mood, walked back to tables, and I went to walk around to kill off my foul mood. Pat called and chatted a little, den I went back to the tables, and soon everyone finished and left. Sent Belle back home, and myself back. Had a huge complaining session with the cab driver, and though I know the cab driver was half crapping, he tried to make me feel better.

Thank you, Mr cabby.

As you can see, things took an unexpected turn right from beginning till the end. It's a bad Friday-Saturday night. Tell me, good guy bad guy the same. Be good guy get bullied, get eaten, get all these crap from the not-so-good guys who seemingly get the better bet of the lot. I know the all-too-well theory of the bad eating up the good, and I myself ain't too good to begin with...but just so shitty whenever I wanna be the good guy, I get terribly eaten up somehow.

I am so pissed being good, yet if I wanna be bad I'll either have conscience pricking me or getting the feeling I'll get my retribution and just desserts. Tell me, what way to go?

What a damn fucking lousy night. I hope morrow night @ Joanne's birthday will be 10x, 100x, even 1000x better.

Please do. Or if thoust insist, make it so bad I can round off as a damn lousy weekend.

Oh yeah Orange, I am not blaming you. I'm just not happy I wasn't notified of you disappearing, and that I've tried to made your night any better but it turned out otherwise (on my end).

.LuKe.

Friday~ Friday~

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, a bit tired

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Bee Hoon + Luncheon Meat / Plain Water

Gonna backtrack what was done...nothing much really =)

Monday...after work went back home mop floor, den went out to meet my neighbours to celebrate birthday for one of them. Went to Crystal Jade La Mian Xiao Long Bao (翡翠拉面小笼包) had our dinner, then went KTV @ Orchard Partyworld till 4am...

Tuesday...don't need say lah, awaited the arrival of 小猪 and was happy upon hearing the news =)

Wednesday...after work went to AMK and met up with Sandy, a new online friend that I got to know recently. Ate dinner, chatted a bit, helped her planned some finance stuff and further helped a way or another - hopefully it is good help that I've provided and hope things won't go any uglier. Haha.

Thursday...home, rest, Maple, sleep. Haha.

Dunno what's on for today. LOL.

Sometimes I really don't know whether what I've done is right or beneficial to myself. Often doing things that people normally won't do, and get a kick at myself for things turning bad at the end. The so-called good things I do are often so able to turn ugly at the final turn, and yet I still do them. I wonder what is wrong with me.

.LuKe.

小猪来这世界了

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] Jive Bunny & The Mastermixer - That's What I Like

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Unchanged from last post

Sujun's daughter has come into the world weighing 2.355kg @ 1704 hours! =)

So happy for them! =)

.LuKe.