[CuRRent MooD:] Tired, neutral
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
Well, called up Mount E yesterday and told me consultation is $70 excluding procedures...I was like wah, if ask me go twice or more masi siao!!! I hope the referral letter does tell the doctor what to do...so at least go once you know is do once do good...sian part will be still need go back...idiotic...
Nothing much to talk about also...just nothing to do start of my day blog lor...later doing work liao...kicking off the patches and stuff. Ok lah...I think don't talk too much le...work more impt...
.LuKe.
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
A walk through the past? Just a passing thought...
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired, pondering
[CuRRent Song:] Deep Spirit - You're The One That I Want (Bass Up! Remix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
Just applied oil on my ear...sian...no reimbursement for my specialist checkup! This is so irritating. And guess where they assign me to...Mount E you know??? It is such a damn ex place lor...I also dunno what the hell to do with it...maybe I should call them up and ask the pricing...so at least I'm more or less prepared...otherwise kana bo dai bo ji refer to so ex place, wat for???
Just had a walk into the past yesterday. It was a total shit feeling, I wonder why I had to walk thru it in the first place. Come to think, I think I looked for trouble and trouble came knocking on my door. Good thing it's not a serious issue and I've more or less came to terms with it...well, more or less I said.
Sometimes I wish I couldn't have cared less with my personal life with aspect to this. I would rather be a mindless money-earning machine or a mommy's boy maybe. No choice, I am what I am.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Deep Spirit - You're The One That I Want (Bass Up! Remix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
Just applied oil on my ear...sian...no reimbursement for my specialist checkup! This is so irritating. And guess where they assign me to...Mount E you know??? It is such a damn ex place lor...I also dunno what the hell to do with it...maybe I should call them up and ask the pricing...so at least I'm more or less prepared...otherwise kana bo dai bo ji refer to so ex place, wat for???
Just had a walk into the past yesterday. It was a total shit feeling, I wonder why I had to walk thru it in the first place. Come to think, I think I looked for trouble and trouble came knocking on my door. Good thing it's not a serious issue and I've more or less came to terms with it...well, more or less I said.
Sometimes I wish I couldn't have cared less with my personal life with aspect to this. I would rather be a mindless money-earning machine or a mommy's boy maybe. No choice, I am what I am.
.LuKe.
Monday, June 26, 2006
Finally last week of the month...(reflections)
[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral, thinking...
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
Wah...sian ah...this week gonna be yet another troublesome one. Security patches to run, things to solve, den colleague leaving...sigh, add on the fact I'm still clearing up my life, I wonder how are things really going to turn out for me.
I really think I'm quite a sucky person to be out with. Throughout my life I've been trying to be a better person, only turning out worse than what I thought of to be. I guess the best parts of my life has to be time before I'm 18, where major decisions and occurences happened. I guess if I made a different choice, my whole life would have been changed. Still again, even if I made a different choice THAT time, I would've made a similar choice later after that...because I am what I am, and something which I can't change radically.
Sometimes I tink I know what I want in life, and sometimes I think I don't. Seems contradicting eh? Life at 25 and not achieving much, it's really time for me to review my life isn't it? My eldest bro @ 25 was already married, moved out and had life decisions to make for himself. Disregarding my 2nd bro, I guess I'm really an underachiever in this aspect, not able to match up to my eldest bro.
I know my parents do not have too high expectations in me, but somehow I have an expectation of myself to provide whatever I can for them. I know they are always there for me, always ready to help me when I need it, and advise me when necessary (though I find it a nag at times, but that's normal isn't it?). I wanted a gf and wife that can take care of them, that they find comfortable. They do not have high expectations, they are simple people. You'll know it when you talk to them.
Talking abt gf, I guess I really have to rethink about myself and Sunshine. Once again we bumped onto the same issue yesterday, about myself not treating her well and stuff. No, it's not her fault...it's just about me, my expectations and stuff. Sometimes I think I do not understand myself well, sometimes I do...but I know I understood myself way too much I could not have the courage to face it. A brimming pot of evil, maybe.
I know I'm losing myself, but I will have to force myself to pick up again for my parents.
What do I want from my life, people around me and from a prospective gf/wife/partner? I think I know, but just that either I don't work for it or I do not have the courage to face it. Then again, how many would?
How many knows that changes being made will benefit or destroy their very existence? Only by trying it out would you know. It takes courage to change and accept changes.
New journey? Yes/no/maybe?
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
Wah...sian ah...this week gonna be yet another troublesome one. Security patches to run, things to solve, den colleague leaving...sigh, add on the fact I'm still clearing up my life, I wonder how are things really going to turn out for me.
I really think I'm quite a sucky person to be out with. Throughout my life I've been trying to be a better person, only turning out worse than what I thought of to be. I guess the best parts of my life has to be time before I'm 18, where major decisions and occurences happened. I guess if I made a different choice, my whole life would have been changed. Still again, even if I made a different choice THAT time, I would've made a similar choice later after that...because I am what I am, and something which I can't change radically.
Sometimes I tink I know what I want in life, and sometimes I think I don't. Seems contradicting eh? Life at 25 and not achieving much, it's really time for me to review my life isn't it? My eldest bro @ 25 was already married, moved out and had life decisions to make for himself. Disregarding my 2nd bro, I guess I'm really an underachiever in this aspect, not able to match up to my eldest bro.
I know my parents do not have too high expectations in me, but somehow I have an expectation of myself to provide whatever I can for them. I know they are always there for me, always ready to help me when I need it, and advise me when necessary (though I find it a nag at times, but that's normal isn't it?). I wanted a gf and wife that can take care of them, that they find comfortable. They do not have high expectations, they are simple people. You'll know it when you talk to them.
Talking abt gf, I guess I really have to rethink about myself and Sunshine. Once again we bumped onto the same issue yesterday, about myself not treating her well and stuff. No, it's not her fault...it's just about me, my expectations and stuff. Sometimes I think I do not understand myself well, sometimes I do...but I know I understood myself way too much I could not have the courage to face it. A brimming pot of evil, maybe.
I know I'm losing myself, but I will have to force myself to pick up again for my parents.
What do I want from my life, people around me and from a prospective gf/wife/partner? I think I know, but just that either I don't work for it or I do not have the courage to face it. Then again, how many would?
How many knows that changes being made will benefit or destroy their very existence? Only by trying it out would you know. It takes courage to change and accept changes.
New journey? Yes/no/maybe?
.LuKe.
Sunday, June 25, 2006
What can I do with Life...
[CuRRent MooD:] A lil tired, a lil moody
[CuRRent Song:] Clutch - The Light (Extended Mix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] None (haven't eaten anything the whole day)
I guess I owe an apology to Sunshine for needlessly displaying acts of childishness. I guess it's hard for me as things are going thru my brain and I find it hard to act on myself with thoughts bombarding myself every now and then. Now and then it's the same things, same questions without answers, that I leave myself so puzzled I do not know an actual call of action. I really don't know what I should do next.
Coming weeks will be tough with only me and Malcolm ard (my other colleague will be his last week in GSK) so it's time to get my head (our heads to be precise) even bigger. Sigh...this can be quite a problem really.
This weekend is more or less the same, spending time at home and with Sunshine...went to Bugis wif her yesterday to walk and buy a bit of stuff...still training my SG when I can, and slept quite a lot today. Oh well...what kind of shit life am I leading...I wonder.
Till I can sort out a lot of things, till I can get myself disciplined...there's nothing too much I can do. Yeah, thanks to Serene for trying to make me feel better - she's Dan's "sister".
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Clutch - The Light (Extended Mix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] None (haven't eaten anything the whole day)
I guess I owe an apology to Sunshine for needlessly displaying acts of childishness. I guess it's hard for me as things are going thru my brain and I find it hard to act on myself with thoughts bombarding myself every now and then. Now and then it's the same things, same questions without answers, that I leave myself so puzzled I do not know an actual call of action. I really don't know what I should do next.
Coming weeks will be tough with only me and Malcolm ard (my other colleague will be his last week in GSK) so it's time to get my head (our heads to be precise) even bigger. Sigh...this can be quite a problem really.
This weekend is more or less the same, spending time at home and with Sunshine...went to Bugis wif her yesterday to walk and buy a bit of stuff...still training my SG when I can, and slept quite a lot today. Oh well...what kind of shit life am I leading...I wonder.
Till I can sort out a lot of things, till I can get myself disciplined...there's nothing too much I can do. Yeah, thanks to Serene for trying to make me feel better - she's Dan's "sister".
.LuKe.
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Fucked up
[CuRRent MooD:] As per title
[CuRRent Song:] Black Eyed Peas - My Humps
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Fish Hor Fun / Sugar Cane Drink
Fucked up.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Black Eyed Peas - My Humps
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Fish Hor Fun / Sugar Cane Drink
Fucked up.
.LuKe.
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Just a short update
[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] "Vege" Porridge / Plain water
Today ah..wan to see doctor also got problem..tell me cannot claim den need me pay cash! I was like WTF..den I contacted Jacee from GMP den after some clearance she say should be able to see the doctor..later I will go again..dis ear of mine really giving me quite some problems..
Jus about 2 days away from SG’s reincarnation..about time I make my last efforts to level whatever I can..though it will not be simple..anyway I’m in one of the better regiments already..hehe..
Hope morrow go back work wun be overwhelmed by workload..and hope everything goes fine at workplace..if not also no choice la..some things not within our control, but of cos when make a mistake must make sure wun happen again lor..else it’s really no one’s fault but yourself..
Really wonder when this ear of mine will be ok. Oh well..nothing too much to blog on a normal weekday, so I’ll probably leave it for some other time..or till I have things to say.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] "Vege" Porridge / Plain water
Today ah..wan to see doctor also got problem..tell me cannot claim den need me pay cash! I was like WTF..den I contacted Jacee from GMP den after some clearance she say should be able to see the doctor..later I will go again..dis ear of mine really giving me quite some problems..
Jus about 2 days away from SG’s reincarnation..about time I make my last efforts to level whatever I can..though it will not be simple..anyway I’m in one of the better regiments already..hehe..
Hope morrow go back work wun be overwhelmed by workload..and hope everything goes fine at workplace..if not also no choice la..some things not within our control, but of cos when make a mistake must make sure wun happen again lor..else it’s really no one’s fault but yourself..
Really wonder when this ear of mine will be ok. Oh well..nothing too much to blog on a normal weekday, so I’ll probably leave it for some other time..or till I have things to say.
.LuKe.
Monday, June 12, 2006
A short blog for the week
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Breadtalk Cheese + Ham bread / Grass Jelly Drink
Wah…the week was pretty tough but we did manage to grit our teeth thru it. Oh well what to do, life goes on..
On a good note, I’ve finally got my news of an increment, not too much, jus abt 10% of my total income. Sounds not bad, well beggars are not choosers so I guess I’ll just stick to it.
I’ll go update my resume later on, but I guess I have to find a way to accustom to my lifestyle and get a bit of savings and planning so I can study or at least aim for MCSA (or MCSE).
What have I done for the week? This week I am being hit by an infected ear so I can’t hear properly on the left ear..so I’m out from nightspots.
Friday/Saturday/Sunday:
Come to think of it, apart from the fact I did not go Paradigm, I think all I did was to stay at home and SG. And of course my tiredness got on me as well.
Just got myself those UV screen protector kinda things – my actual intention was to make sure my screen does not get dirtied by random sources (fingerprints, saliva etc) but I hope it will solve the problem of reflective light sources (since my screen directly faces the window).
Time to eat =)
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Breadtalk Cheese + Ham bread / Grass Jelly Drink
Wah…the week was pretty tough but we did manage to grit our teeth thru it. Oh well what to do, life goes on..
On a good note, I’ve finally got my news of an increment, not too much, jus abt 10% of my total income. Sounds not bad, well beggars are not choosers so I guess I’ll just stick to it.
I’ll go update my resume later on, but I guess I have to find a way to accustom to my lifestyle and get a bit of savings and planning so I can study or at least aim for MCSA (or MCSE).
What have I done for the week? This week I am being hit by an infected ear so I can’t hear properly on the left ear..so I’m out from nightspots.
Friday/Saturday/Sunday:
Come to think of it, apart from the fact I did not go Paradigm, I think all I did was to stay at home and SG. And of course my tiredness got on me as well.
Just got myself those UV screen protector kinda things – my actual intention was to make sure my screen does not get dirtied by random sources (fingerprints, saliva etc) but I hope it will solve the problem of reflective light sources (since my screen directly faces the window).
Time to eat =)
.LuKe.
Monday, June 05, 2006
An update...long or short?
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired, pondering
[CuRRent Song:] Melodie MC - Anyone Out There
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Egg + Fish / Pokka Green Tea
I've not updated for a week eh...so what should I write? As usual lor the weekend...
Friday:
Spent morning in QR, took half day off. Went to JP, cut my hair (dis time it's quite short) and wanted to surprise Sunshine by going back early to see her...ended up she went out wif her aunt..so bo bian lor, go home rest a bit den prepared myself, went down to PS to accompany my bro and play game...after that met up with Dan and co, went to Paradigm.
Another private party, but we got to know "the lonely dancer" - his name is Richard. Then got a treat from Andrew as he won jackpot, den hang ard till abt 3am walked to the MU bus stop took NR5 back home.
Saturday:
Rested till late afternoon, prepared myself then meet up Sunshine to go Suntec PC Show. Wah as usual, lotsa pple crowding everywhere, I thought I won't be getting anything this year but...Man Proposes, God Disposes - I ended up getting a BENQ 17" LCD monitor @ $325...with a webcam! But I gave to Sunshine though. Now look at my screen very SONG. LOL. After that met up with Alynna Jie for dinner, den Jazlyn came to meet us as well, den chat and bla bla bla...den go home play game...actually ard near morning wanna slp but Isabelle called me den asked me to call her frequently to make sure she's ok...ended up I turned in ard 7am...
Sunday:
Woke up ard 3, den went to Bugis and met up with Berlinda to purchase system...her rough specs:
P4 2.4a GHZ
PC Chips MoBo
512MB PC400 RAM
Combo CDRW
56K Modem
$478....noticed something missing? HDD? LOL. Cos her previous system that time HDD spoilt, so she got a new HDD. Since she dun really need a good system, so she reuse...then I saw a very attractive offerr:
+ $68 for 250GB SATA HDD
WOW!!! After asking Berlinda, she agreed I could pay the $68 and get myself the HDD. COOL!
Imagine $68 for 250GB SATA HDD...whr to find????
Brought to her place and set up everything...reached home already 12+midnight le...
Today:
BUSY DAY!!!!!!
Actually had something else to talk about...but never mind...another time...
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Melodie MC - Anyone Out There
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Egg + Fish / Pokka Green Tea
I've not updated for a week eh...so what should I write? As usual lor the weekend...
Friday:
Spent morning in QR, took half day off. Went to JP, cut my hair (dis time it's quite short) and wanted to surprise Sunshine by going back early to see her...ended up she went out wif her aunt..so bo bian lor, go home rest a bit den prepared myself, went down to PS to accompany my bro and play game...after that met up with Dan and co, went to Paradigm.
Another private party, but we got to know "the lonely dancer" - his name is Richard. Then got a treat from Andrew as he won jackpot, den hang ard till abt 3am walked to the MU bus stop took NR5 back home.
Saturday:
Rested till late afternoon, prepared myself then meet up Sunshine to go Suntec PC Show. Wah as usual, lotsa pple crowding everywhere, I thought I won't be getting anything this year but...Man Proposes, God Disposes - I ended up getting a BENQ 17" LCD monitor @ $325...with a webcam! But I gave to Sunshine though. Now look at my screen very SONG. LOL. After that met up with Alynna Jie for dinner, den Jazlyn came to meet us as well, den chat and bla bla bla...den go home play game...actually ard near morning wanna slp but Isabelle called me den asked me to call her frequently to make sure she's ok...ended up I turned in ard 7am...
Sunday:
Woke up ard 3, den went to Bugis and met up with Berlinda to purchase system...her rough specs:
P4 2.4a GHZ
PC Chips MoBo
512MB PC400 RAM
Combo CDRW
56K Modem
$478....noticed something missing? HDD? LOL. Cos her previous system that time HDD spoilt, so she got a new HDD. Since she dun really need a good system, so she reuse...then I saw a very attractive offerr:
+ $68 for 250GB SATA HDD
WOW!!! After asking Berlinda, she agreed I could pay the $68 and get myself the HDD. COOL!
Imagine $68 for 250GB SATA HDD...whr to find????
Brought to her place and set up everything...reached home already 12+midnight le...
Today:
BUSY DAY!!!!!!
Actually had something else to talk about...but never mind...another time...
.LuKe.
Monday, May 29, 2006
Monday's journey back home
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] LJS
Now on the way back home blogging..hehe. Well the weekend has been rather normal, nothing too much to boast about so here it goes..
Friday:
Knock off from work and took cab with my work colleagues and ‘boss’ to Clarke Quay to makan. By the time we reached there its 7:30pm (took an hour to reach) and the cab fare costs over $25. This is so expensive! Anyway we ended up taking our dinner at an Indonesian restaurant and chatted quite a lot about work-related issues (boring but what to do) and some off-work stuff. Around 9pm I took 190 with Malcolm (the newest addition into the team) and went to PS. After he met up with his friends I went to Atrium.. jus as I was abt to go in, I was being intercepted by a female who asked for some time for a survey. Turned out it’s a Prudential agent and I told her I had an agent who is from Prudential too. We chatted a bit and talking a lot of rubbish before I took my leave. Nothing much abt the night apart from bumping onto Andrew and he asked if I’m going to Planet Paradigm and I replied another time – budget low and mum’s visit to clinic the next day. Upon reaching home I took a bath and went to bed.
Saturday:
Woke up 9:45am and prepared to go clinic with mum. By the time I’m back home it’s I think 12+ and I turned on the comp to play SG. About 2+ near 3pm I went to take a nap and woke up at ard 5pm. Thinking that I had to meet up with Berlinda, I prepared myself and went to MRT station..but she called me after I passed the gantry and said that she does not have sufficient cash..so ok..another time. I took train down to PS. Went Atrium arcade and hang around a little before my bro appeared. Accompanied him to Park Mall to meet up Wawa and went Holiday Inn Hotel for an interview in a pub. After that we took bus back to Centerpoint and walked to Cineleisure to makan. After that went to MU with them but only stayed till the last bus and went home. Home, play game till morning.
Sunday:
Accompanied Sunshine for the whole day.
Today:
BUSY DAY. LOL.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] LJS
Now on the way back home blogging..hehe. Well the weekend has been rather normal, nothing too much to boast about so here it goes..
Friday:
Knock off from work and took cab with my work colleagues and ‘boss’ to Clarke Quay to makan. By the time we reached there its 7:30pm (took an hour to reach) and the cab fare costs over $25. This is so expensive! Anyway we ended up taking our dinner at an Indonesian restaurant and chatted quite a lot about work-related issues (boring but what to do) and some off-work stuff. Around 9pm I took 190 with Malcolm (the newest addition into the team) and went to PS. After he met up with his friends I went to Atrium.. jus as I was abt to go in, I was being intercepted by a female who asked for some time for a survey. Turned out it’s a Prudential agent and I told her I had an agent who is from Prudential too. We chatted a bit and talking a lot of rubbish before I took my leave. Nothing much abt the night apart from bumping onto Andrew and he asked if I’m going to Planet Paradigm and I replied another time – budget low and mum’s visit to clinic the next day. Upon reaching home I took a bath and went to bed.
Saturday:
Woke up 9:45am and prepared to go clinic with mum. By the time I’m back home it’s I think 12+ and I turned on the comp to play SG. About 2+ near 3pm I went to take a nap and woke up at ard 5pm. Thinking that I had to meet up with Berlinda, I prepared myself and went to MRT station..but she called me after I passed the gantry and said that she does not have sufficient cash..so ok..another time. I took train down to PS. Went Atrium arcade and hang around a little before my bro appeared. Accompanied him to Park Mall to meet up Wawa and went Holiday Inn Hotel for an interview in a pub. After that we took bus back to Centerpoint and walked to Cineleisure to makan. After that went to MU with them but only stayed till the last bus and went home. Home, play game till morning.
Sunday:
Accompanied Sunshine for the whole day.
Today:
BUSY DAY. LOL.
.LuKe.
Sunday, May 28, 2006
This life of mine is getting dangerous...or is it?
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired
[CuRRent Song:] Spring Break - Big Bad Love (Cascada Remix Long)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Sichuan Vege / Water
I know pple will ask me why, but I guess I wun say much of now. I just wanted it to be written here so when I come back to my blog entry, I would think back of what may or not had happened and whether Ive regretted it.
Is GSK's significance only drill down to that?
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Spring Break - Big Bad Love (Cascada Remix Long)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Sichuan Vege / Water
I know pple will ask me why, but I guess I wun say much of now. I just wanted it to be written here so when I come back to my blog entry, I would think back of what may or not had happened and whether Ive regretted it.
Is GSK's significance only drill down to that?
.LuKe.
Thursday, May 25, 2006
Just a passing thought
[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral
[CuRRent Song:] 品冠 & 梁静茹- 明明很爱你
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] LJS
Sorry if I mis-spelt Fish Leong's chinese name.
Just a small writing after I listened to S.H.E.'s 不做你的朋友...
This song at one point talks about a couple unable to be together and remains as best friends. We know for certain such situations is few and far between, and that it can rarely be maintained. Of course, they did sing in the end to propose to not being friends at all.
I hold an extreme optimistic view to my relationships - that whatever happens, we should at least still be friends. So far so good, maybe not always in contact but at least no one hates the other like bitter enemies. I still chat with at least one of them (maybe cause she's the one who let me down), as for the rest it's occasional.
I often believe the key is never to end a relationship in a quarrel - it should be due to mutual understanding of each other that one acknowledges the other's reason to not maintain the close relationship any further. Such things is tough and depends on the individual...but nothing is impossible so long you work hard enough.
This is going to be a short writing as my new keyboard sucks. LOL. Till another time =)
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] 品冠 & 梁静茹- 明明很爱你
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] LJS
Sorry if I mis-spelt Fish Leong's chinese name.
Just a small writing after I listened to S.H.E.'s 不做你的朋友...
This song at one point talks about a couple unable to be together and remains as best friends. We know for certain such situations is few and far between, and that it can rarely be maintained. Of course, they did sing in the end to propose to not being friends at all.
I hold an extreme optimistic view to my relationships - that whatever happens, we should at least still be friends. So far so good, maybe not always in contact but at least no one hates the other like bitter enemies. I still chat with at least one of them (maybe cause she's the one who let me down), as for the rest it's occasional.
I often believe the key is never to end a relationship in a quarrel - it should be due to mutual understanding of each other that one acknowledges the other's reason to not maintain the close relationship any further. Such things is tough and depends on the individual...but nothing is impossible so long you work hard enough.
This is going to be a short writing as my new keyboard sucks. LOL. Till another time =)
.LuKe.
Friday, May 19, 2006
Yet another dream (a short one)
[CuRRent MooD:] Normal
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Plain water
It's strange that I had only 4+ hours of sleep and yet I could have a dream...a short one that is. I do not understand why, and this had never happened - I dreamt of the same person consecutively 2 days. It must've been her marriage that somehow affected my subconscious. The dream is very simple, only lasted a minute probably - I was in a hall, looking at people dancing Line Dance (something which used contemporary music in sychronised steps of groups of pple or individuals - kinda like Para Para but the latter uses Eurobeat in general) and I saw her right beside me dancing along with the others. It is real strange, and I woke up.
The idiotic rebuilding for QR really got on to me. What's wif this place that their network rebuild is so slow I had to use CD rebuild...and that the CD rebuild is equally f*cked up as well? This is total crap.
I guess the dream happened cos I'm quite an emotional person...even though nowadays I chose to hide some feelings, some still persist. Yesterday I read Pingguo's blog and was somehowwhat felt deeply about how she is feeling at the moment. Oh well..life is like dis.
Gonna end blogging. Somehow some idiotic thing is happening. -.-
On a sidenote, one of the LSX pple is getting married. Oh well...I'm really getting old. STRESS AH.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Plain water
It's strange that I had only 4+ hours of sleep and yet I could have a dream...a short one that is. I do not understand why, and this had never happened - I dreamt of the same person consecutively 2 days. It must've been her marriage that somehow affected my subconscious. The dream is very simple, only lasted a minute probably - I was in a hall, looking at people dancing Line Dance (something which used contemporary music in sychronised steps of groups of pple or individuals - kinda like Para Para but the latter uses Eurobeat in general) and I saw her right beside me dancing along with the others. It is real strange, and I woke up.
The idiotic rebuilding for QR really got on to me. What's wif this place that their network rebuild is so slow I had to use CD rebuild...and that the CD rebuild is equally f*cked up as well? This is total crap.
I guess the dream happened cos I'm quite an emotional person...even though nowadays I chose to hide some feelings, some still persist. Yesterday I read Pingguo's blog and was somehowwhat felt deeply about how she is feeling at the moment. Oh well..life is like dis.
Gonna end blogging. Somehow some idiotic thing is happening. -.-
On a sidenote, one of the LSX pple is getting married. Oh well...I'm really getting old. STRESS AH.
.LuKe.
Thursday, May 18, 2006
So bored...
[CuRRent MooD:] Bored, tired, sleepy
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Seafood Mee Goreng / Lemon Barley Drink
So bored...wanna sleep...but got to wait for the CD burn finish...den do stuff...den can go back.....JU site. SIAN!!!
Haha...on a light note, I'm taking morrow afternoon off. Later go back JU must PIA!!!
Wait...I'm a slacker...blogging while @ work! SINFUL!!!
Oh well, gonna wait for the CD to finish, so what to do.
Later go put the tapes in safe.
Person whom I'm looking for on MC...hmmm..hahaha...
I think you see the way I type you will know how bored I can get.
Anyway I had a dream this morning...funny one, and certainly won't happen cos it's a clash of timeline.
I have both Steven (my Para friend) and my childhood sweetheart as my classmates! This is weird.
The setting is like a big classroom...or canteen...or both, since it's like both combined into one mega big room...the classroom is on one side and the canteen the other. I was eating lunch with Steven and my childhood sweetheart (call her A la) when she and her friend walked past us. Both of them are student councillors, so they have some power...I saw her friend throwing rubbish in improper ways, and talked somehowwhat loudly. Steven left me to go back class, which I'm finishing my big plate of food when she jus came along and said, "you better finish the food faster, and remember to clear your food else there will lots of rubbish everywhere." - it's a bad tone really.
I took the tray and plate, and stood up and went to the collection area to clear...but as I walked past I said "don't think just because you can talk loudly means anything. I do clear my rubbish unlike someone else who throws it around and talks louder than me."
I could see both their faces change, and were furious. I added "don't look at me, I'm speaking the truth. I'm going back to class."
They literally stared at me as I was walking back...I could feel it. I walked towards Steven and commented "those are certainly some unreasonable girls!"
And I woke up. Strange dream.
Oh well...off I go.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Seafood Mee Goreng / Lemon Barley Drink
So bored...wanna sleep...but got to wait for the CD burn finish...den do stuff...den can go back.....JU site. SIAN!!!
Haha...on a light note, I'm taking morrow afternoon off. Later go back JU must PIA!!!
Wait...I'm a slacker...blogging while @ work! SINFUL!!!
Oh well, gonna wait for the CD to finish, so what to do.
Later go put the tapes in safe.
Person whom I'm looking for on MC...hmmm..hahaha...
I think you see the way I type you will know how bored I can get.
Anyway I had a dream this morning...funny one, and certainly won't happen cos it's a clash of timeline.
I have both Steven (my Para friend) and my childhood sweetheart as my classmates! This is weird.
The setting is like a big classroom...or canteen...or both, since it's like both combined into one mega big room...the classroom is on one side and the canteen the other. I was eating lunch with Steven and my childhood sweetheart (call her A la) when she and her friend walked past us. Both of them are student councillors, so they have some power...I saw her friend throwing rubbish in improper ways, and talked somehowwhat loudly. Steven left me to go back class, which I'm finishing my big plate of food when she jus came along and said, "you better finish the food faster, and remember to clear your food else there will lots of rubbish everywhere." - it's a bad tone really.
I took the tray and plate, and stood up and went to the collection area to clear...but as I walked past I said "don't think just because you can talk loudly means anything. I do clear my rubbish unlike someone else who throws it around and talks louder than me."
I could see both their faces change, and were furious. I added "don't look at me, I'm speaking the truth. I'm going back to class."
They literally stared at me as I was walking back...I could feel it. I walked towards Steven and commented "those are certainly some unreasonable girls!"
And I woke up. Strange dream.
Oh well...off I go.
.LuKe.
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Now I truly feel the "work sucks" feeling...
[CuRRent MooD:] SIAN
[CuRRent Song:] Bananarama - I Love The Way
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Chicken / Water
I dun wanna talk so much abt work though.
Looking around in Friendster, two friends of mine got married...or should I say, one ex-friend. Beautiful ladies, if you wanna see just request from me (the pics I meant).
Life takes many turns, sometimes up and many downs...but it's just how we treat life that life wanna treat us. Frankly speaking, I just wanna write a little here before I disappear.
Today took 1/2 day off and visited GMSS. Could not see Mrs Tan around though.
Sleeping soon, another shit day morrow @ GSK. Just wanna leave that place soon...maybe?
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Bananarama - I Love The Way
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Chicken / Water
I dun wanna talk so much abt work though.
Looking around in Friendster, two friends of mine got married...or should I say, one ex-friend. Beautiful ladies, if you wanna see just request from me (the pics I meant).
Life takes many turns, sometimes up and many downs...but it's just how we treat life that life wanna treat us. Frankly speaking, I just wanna write a little here before I disappear.
Today took 1/2 day off and visited GMSS. Could not see Mrs Tan around though.
Sleeping soon, another shit day morrow @ GSK. Just wanna leave that place soon...maybe?
.LuKe.
Sunday, May 14, 2006
Sunday is a Mother Day...
[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] LJS + Coke
Today is PM day and it sucked cos it had its failures. Not to mention that now they are fighting wif fire over at main site cos the email server not working..die man dunno why like dat..
So talking about my weekend..it’s just slightly over half the fun I anticipated..well at least it’s not a total failure.
Friday:
Vesak day holiday, so accompanied my mum to the market to buy some fruits and stuff. Den reach home and continued to set up my comp cos I could not find the CD I need. Anyway I’ve reformatted my comp, so it’s a lot better and recovered from the common ailments that irked me. Initially arranged to go to Chinatown with Joanna, ended up she wanted to go Jurong to collect some stuff so I didn’t accompany her but instead went to meet up with Dan to have an early dinner and also to check out the arcade till time runs out. After that we met up with the rest (Brian, Yvonne and forgot the gal’s bf’s name lol) and went up Paradigm.
Paradigm to us on Friday is what we term as “private party” cos there are so few pple..but nevertheless we ordered a Jim Beam for all to enjoy. I didn’t know Jim Beam can be downed so easily – we only used 2 jugs of mixers for the bottle of JB..the music was nice, DJ Jason Chow lived up to his name but a pity the crowd was disappointing – we have agreed that we should try to heighten the crowd this coming Friday by posting on possible mediums – Friendster, WhoLivesNearYou and whatever we can think of..jus gather the techno/eurodance lovers!! Besides, it’s ladies nite too!
Pulled Belle to the place too and she seemed to be the only female enjoying the ladies nite as I had to accompany her to the counter to get her free drink till the staff got fed up (joking here). The thing ended at 3, she met up with her Maple friend and I went with the pple to makan n drink at the open makan place beside Meridian, den went back home.
Saturday:
Woke up at abt 2pm as my mum dragged me out to the market to buy daily necessities. After that, went back home to game a bit and check stuff, and agreed a time out with Joanna to Chinatown @ 6pm. Met up 15mins later and she said Jovi was around (Jovi for your info is one of my real-life SG playing friend) so we met up with him and went to makan and check out N80 pricing. So far the cheapest for non-plan N80 is $998.
We took 124 and went to town, to PS so Joanna could find a Mother’s Day gift which the end she didn’t..ended up is Jovi got a gift instead from Precious Thots. After walking ard for a while they said they wanted to go “poke balls” (pool) so I took my leave and went down to Zone-X and saw Eddy, an arcade fren from my Para days. After hanging ard for a long time, we went makan @ BK (actually it’s me makan) den went up Star Fac, saw Belle. Den played Puzzle Fighter, den after that walked out of PS, they took cab to PartyWorld Orchard while I took bus 111 back home.
Cheong game...SG and the jap game my bro dled. No sleep.
Sunday:
Now, going back home after PM. An hour or so later and I have to check server. SIAN!!!
.LuKe.
P.S.: Server going fine. Hope everything is great.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] LJS + Coke
Today is PM day and it sucked cos it had its failures. Not to mention that now they are fighting wif fire over at main site cos the email server not working..die man dunno why like dat..
So talking about my weekend..it’s just slightly over half the fun I anticipated..well at least it’s not a total failure.
Friday:
Vesak day holiday, so accompanied my mum to the market to buy some fruits and stuff. Den reach home and continued to set up my comp cos I could not find the CD I need. Anyway I’ve reformatted my comp, so it’s a lot better and recovered from the common ailments that irked me. Initially arranged to go to Chinatown with Joanna, ended up she wanted to go Jurong to collect some stuff so I didn’t accompany her but instead went to meet up with Dan to have an early dinner and also to check out the arcade till time runs out. After that we met up with the rest (Brian, Yvonne and forgot the gal’s bf’s name lol) and went up Paradigm.
Paradigm to us on Friday is what we term as “private party” cos there are so few pple..but nevertheless we ordered a Jim Beam for all to enjoy. I didn’t know Jim Beam can be downed so easily – we only used 2 jugs of mixers for the bottle of JB..the music was nice, DJ Jason Chow lived up to his name but a pity the crowd was disappointing – we have agreed that we should try to heighten the crowd this coming Friday by posting on possible mediums – Friendster, WhoLivesNearYou and whatever we can think of..jus gather the techno/eurodance lovers!! Besides, it’s ladies nite too!
Pulled Belle to the place too and she seemed to be the only female enjoying the ladies nite as I had to accompany her to the counter to get her free drink till the staff got fed up (joking here). The thing ended at 3, she met up with her Maple friend and I went with the pple to makan n drink at the open makan place beside Meridian, den went back home.
Saturday:
Woke up at abt 2pm as my mum dragged me out to the market to buy daily necessities. After that, went back home to game a bit and check stuff, and agreed a time out with Joanna to Chinatown @ 6pm. Met up 15mins later and she said Jovi was around (Jovi for your info is one of my real-life SG playing friend) so we met up with him and went to makan and check out N80 pricing. So far the cheapest for non-plan N80 is $998.
We took 124 and went to town, to PS so Joanna could find a Mother’s Day gift which the end she didn’t..ended up is Jovi got a gift instead from Precious Thots. After walking ard for a while they said they wanted to go “poke balls” (pool) so I took my leave and went down to Zone-X and saw Eddy, an arcade fren from my Para days. After hanging ard for a long time, we went makan @ BK (actually it’s me makan) den went up Star Fac, saw Belle. Den played Puzzle Fighter, den after that walked out of PS, they took cab to PartyWorld Orchard while I took bus 111 back home.
Cheong game...SG and the jap game my bro dled. No sleep.
Sunday:
Now, going back home after PM. An hour or so later and I have to check server. SIAN!!!
.LuKe.
P.S.: Server going fine. Hope everything is great.
Friday, May 12, 2006
Updated on Friday for Thursday
[CuRRent MooD:] Fine
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] N.A.
Yeah I’m on half day off today, now going back home in the train.
2 super juniors sitting beside me..what do I mean by super juniors? I meant those that was from my sec sch but are not within my batch (that means they are not there while I am)..haha, weird way of saying it eh?
Later reach home, change of clothes den go out le..meeting up wif Ricky to Queensway, den makan and chat a bit den I continue go town le I assume. In the evening will be meeting up with Isabelle to take a CD from her..den jus spend a bit of time outside..everything goes fine, I’ll be reformatting my comp tonight.
Tentatively on Friday I’ll be going Paradigm while will be going drinking on Saturday, but there is no confirmation..which means things can turn pretty happening or boring depending on how everything goes.
Work has been fine this week, busy but still managable, tied up a bit of loose ends here and there but there is still lots of work to be done. It’s QR week for me the coming week, and I’m having PM on Sunday. Hope the PM dun screw too much. Gonna be careful with it.
Now listening to Masterplate CD tracks..felt that the first CD is better. Hehe.
Actually nothing much to write about..I hope I have more pics after the weekend! =)
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] N.A.
Yeah I’m on half day off today, now going back home in the train.
2 super juniors sitting beside me..what do I mean by super juniors? I meant those that was from my sec sch but are not within my batch (that means they are not there while I am)..haha, weird way of saying it eh?
Later reach home, change of clothes den go out le..meeting up wif Ricky to Queensway, den makan and chat a bit den I continue go town le I assume. In the evening will be meeting up with Isabelle to take a CD from her..den jus spend a bit of time outside..everything goes fine, I’ll be reformatting my comp tonight.
Tentatively on Friday I’ll be going Paradigm while will be going drinking on Saturday, but there is no confirmation..which means things can turn pretty happening or boring depending on how everything goes.
Work has been fine this week, busy but still managable, tied up a bit of loose ends here and there but there is still lots of work to be done. It’s QR week for me the coming week, and I’m having PM on Sunday. Hope the PM dun screw too much. Gonna be careful with it.
Now listening to Masterplate CD tracks..felt that the first CD is better. Hehe.
Actually nothing much to write about..I hope I have more pics after the weekend! =)
.LuKe.
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Just a pic for all of you =)
[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral tired
[CuRRent Song:] VA - The Masterplate Mighty Mix Volume One (Disc 2)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Egg + Hot Dog / Water
Nothing much, just a picture for all of you:
Do we look like siblings? =)
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] VA - The Masterplate Mighty Mix Volume One (Disc 2)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Egg + Hot Dog / Water
Nothing much, just a picture for all of you:
Do we look like siblings? =)
.LuKe.
Monday, May 08, 2006
Tired sleepy sunday
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired but ok mood
[CuRRent Song:] E-Type - Far Up In The Air
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Curry Chicken and Hawaiian Pizza / Pokka Green Tea
SIAN!!! Morrow need to work. SIAN SIAN SIAN.
Lemme recap...
Friday:
Went to Planet Paradigm with Daniel and co. Initially went to PS' Star Factory to play Puzzle Fighter den bumped onto Dan's fren Andrew. Den after hanging in there a while, went down wif him to meet up another of their friend, Mandy (the 2nd Mandy that I know of). After that went to Meridian there the open-air makan place and eat and chat. After a while Andrew told me a gal asked him go over meet her, so we went with him back to PS' Starbucks. His friend's name is Gladis or something (pronounce same as Gladys), then chat and crap so much, then we meet up the rest and went to Planet Paradigm.
Friday Planet Paradigm is Eurodance night! Techno all round man!!! Hahaha!!! Not bad, spacious, cheap drinks (compared to MU) and dance floor is practically our pple...LOL. I heard they going there again coming Friday for drinks, so I might join them again.
Saturday:
Woke up after 2 hours of slp to accompany Sunshine a while then go back home SG and dally around, then evening time proceeded to PS. Damn I alighted at wrong bus stop and had to walk the remaining distance to PS. Went to Star Factory again and saw Andrew, and until about 11+pm I walked over to Orchard Shopping Centre to meet up with Joanna, my cute cousin ;) ...den she brought me up the ktv pub whr the room they booked with their pple. Had free Martell to drink - nice! =) den got to celebrate birthday of her sis Joanne (a babe in my opinion!). Then just see show (see how Joanne is down with so much drinks), see and hear and sing song, den see see around a bit till Isabelle msged me and asked whr I am...den after dat she came to join me. After staying for a while she wanted go MU, so we went. Come to think, how Joanne responds to her friends about my existence makes it so funny. I was trying to get a pic wif her and Joanna (which I did) den also quite funny, one of the guys responds this manner:
Guy: hey you know I am to her anot?
Me: then you know who I am to her anot?
Joanne: hey you know who he is anot?
Me: I'm her cousin leh!
Joanne: he's my real cousin leh!
Guy: I also never really say who I am to her wat...
Something like that...so funny, come to think of it!
MU there we reach is euro/techno already, den she asked to get Vodka Ribena and Baileys on rocks. Then just dance and listen music, den go home. I already so tired liao..hahaha..
Sunday:
SLEEP. Wake up go market with mother. Come back home. SLEEP. SLEEP.
Wake up eat, bath, now chatting and blogging.
LATER SLEEP.
HAHAHAHAHA......
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] E-Type - Far Up In The Air
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Curry Chicken and Hawaiian Pizza / Pokka Green Tea
SIAN!!! Morrow need to work. SIAN SIAN SIAN.
Lemme recap...
Friday:
Went to Planet Paradigm with Daniel and co. Initially went to PS' Star Factory to play Puzzle Fighter den bumped onto Dan's fren Andrew. Den after hanging in there a while, went down wif him to meet up another of their friend, Mandy (the 2nd Mandy that I know of). After that went to Meridian there the open-air makan place and eat and chat. After a while Andrew told me a gal asked him go over meet her, so we went with him back to PS' Starbucks. His friend's name is Gladis or something (pronounce same as Gladys), then chat and crap so much, then we meet up the rest and went to Planet Paradigm.
Friday Planet Paradigm is Eurodance night! Techno all round man!!! Hahaha!!! Not bad, spacious, cheap drinks (compared to MU) and dance floor is practically our pple...LOL. I heard they going there again coming Friday for drinks, so I might join them again.
Saturday:
Woke up after 2 hours of slp to accompany Sunshine a while then go back home SG and dally around, then evening time proceeded to PS. Damn I alighted at wrong bus stop and had to walk the remaining distance to PS. Went to Star Factory again and saw Andrew, and until about 11+pm I walked over to Orchard Shopping Centre to meet up with Joanna, my cute cousin ;) ...den she brought me up the ktv pub whr the room they booked with their pple. Had free Martell to drink - nice! =) den got to celebrate birthday of her sis Joanne (a babe in my opinion!). Then just see show (see how Joanne is down with so much drinks), see and hear and sing song, den see see around a bit till Isabelle msged me and asked whr I am...den after dat she came to join me. After staying for a while she wanted go MU, so we went. Come to think, how Joanne responds to her friends about my existence makes it so funny. I was trying to get a pic wif her and Joanna (which I did) den also quite funny, one of the guys responds this manner:
Guy: hey you know I am to her anot?
Me: then you know who I am to her anot?
Joanne: hey you know who he is anot?
Me: I'm her cousin leh!
Joanne: he's my real cousin leh!
Guy: I also never really say who I am to her wat...
Something like that...so funny, come to think of it!
MU there we reach is euro/techno already, den she asked to get Vodka Ribena and Baileys on rocks. Then just dance and listen music, den go home. I already so tired liao..hahaha..
Sunday:
SLEEP. Wake up go market with mother. Come back home. SLEEP. SLEEP.
Wake up eat, bath, now chatting and blogging.
LATER SLEEP.
HAHAHAHAHA......
.LuKe.
Thursday, May 04, 2006
Happy stuff and not-so-happy thoughts
[CuRRent MooD:] Lil tired
[CuRRent Song:] BoA - First Snow
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Fish / Plain Water
Actually it's vice versa but just thought of talking about the happy stuff before touching the not so happy ones.
Just now I went to Mac with my neighbours, then I happened to bump onto my Primary school friend who jio-ed another Primary school fren out to have a chat. Even though I do not understand too much of the people which they were talking about (after all, they were on similar tracks in life - the JC route), I felt the kind of feeling being with old friends just cos they were my Primary school frens. It's really cool chatting random stuff, associating with their own kind of excitement and enthusiasm towards different thigns yet maintaining my own individual stand. Really cool.
Upon thinking about stuff these days, the anti-idea came to mind today - about two of my close ones leaving the country probably - but they never visit my blog so I doubt they will really notice how I feel.
One is my Alynna Jie and the other, my Desy daughter.
Alynna is going back to Australia a few months down the road, and although I do not display too much, no one really understands (neither do I) why I was so happy with her stay in Singapore. There was simply a small sense of loss and worry while she's away in Aussieland, and upon hearing of news she's back I was all so happy and enthusiastic meeting her, often just trying to make up and forgo many other stuff for her. Knowing of her going back Aussieland brings me some pain deep in me, which I wonder why. I'll always support Jie's endeavours in work and life, and though I can't bear to see her back in Australia, I'll have to support her.
Desy is Indonesian, so no doubt she will be back there...from what I've heard, it should be in the coming months, maybe just a few months after Jie goes back to Aussie. I don't think I can accomodate too much of having my 2 close ones being a distance away from me, especially for Desy's case that she won't be back in Singapore anytime soon (and possibly never). It's strange how I started out having a liking for her but ended up in the current state.
Sometimes I wonder why all these happens, why life works out this way for me. Maybe it's just another trial for me to think of ways to make myself able to fend myself without dedicating my feelings and love for others, and just redirect it back to myself, my life and those who really needs it. I really wished there's some way out of such mess.
After all these, I will be left with Berlinda, Patricia and Michelle. Frankly speaking, I held many different feelings and approaches towards these ladies in my life...I'll probably mention in another blog entry when I have the time.
Till then people.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] BoA - First Snow
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Fish / Plain Water
Actually it's vice versa but just thought of talking about the happy stuff before touching the not so happy ones.
Just now I went to Mac with my neighbours, then I happened to bump onto my Primary school friend who jio-ed another Primary school fren out to have a chat. Even though I do not understand too much of the people which they were talking about (after all, they were on similar tracks in life - the JC route), I felt the kind of feeling being with old friends just cos they were my Primary school frens. It's really cool chatting random stuff, associating with their own kind of excitement and enthusiasm towards different thigns yet maintaining my own individual stand. Really cool.
Upon thinking about stuff these days, the anti-idea came to mind today - about two of my close ones leaving the country probably - but they never visit my blog so I doubt they will really notice how I feel.
One is my Alynna Jie and the other, my Desy daughter.
Alynna is going back to Australia a few months down the road, and although I do not display too much, no one really understands (neither do I) why I was so happy with her stay in Singapore. There was simply a small sense of loss and worry while she's away in Aussieland, and upon hearing of news she's back I was all so happy and enthusiastic meeting her, often just trying to make up and forgo many other stuff for her. Knowing of her going back Aussieland brings me some pain deep in me, which I wonder why. I'll always support Jie's endeavours in work and life, and though I can't bear to see her back in Australia, I'll have to support her.
Desy is Indonesian, so no doubt she will be back there...from what I've heard, it should be in the coming months, maybe just a few months after Jie goes back to Aussie. I don't think I can accomodate too much of having my 2 close ones being a distance away from me, especially for Desy's case that she won't be back in Singapore anytime soon (and possibly never). It's strange how I started out having a liking for her but ended up in the current state.
Sometimes I wonder why all these happens, why life works out this way for me. Maybe it's just another trial for me to think of ways to make myself able to fend myself without dedicating my feelings and love for others, and just redirect it back to myself, my life and those who really needs it. I really wished there's some way out of such mess.
After all these, I will be left with Berlinda, Patricia and Michelle. Frankly speaking, I held many different feelings and approaches towards these ladies in my life...I'll probably mention in another blog entry when I have the time.
Till then people.
.LuKe.
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
Running through my thoughts
[CuRRent MooD:] Ponder wonder mood
[CuRRent Song:] Nuage - I Really Wanna Be Your Magic
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] LJS / Pokka Green Tea
Actually by now I would've forgotten what to write. Haha...somehow my thoughts are a little clearer now, though I would think they might not be the best of solutions, but I think it might just work out.
Till next update.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Nuage - I Really Wanna Be Your Magic
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] LJS / Pokka Green Tea
Actually by now I would've forgotten what to write. Haha...somehow my thoughts are a little clearer now, though I would think they might not be the best of solutions, but I think it might just work out.
Till next update.
.LuKe.
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