Friday, December 30, 2005

I've noticed...

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired eyes. Oversensitive head. Irritated.

[CuRRent Song:] Stevens & Marcellus - Everything Counts (Extended Mix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Chicken Murtabak & Green Tea

...that I look for trouble in life.

Many times, Berlinda asked me, "Do you know you are living in luck without knowing it?"

Yes I know Berlinda. What makes you think I don't know?

Many times, mom asked me, "Do you know you are lucky? Living in luck without realising?"

I do know mom, and I know what you mean.

Thing is, I may be living in unknown bliss but always chose to look for trouble. Probably known as "looking for death" in mandarin, this is way too often. I took a closer look at my life cycle and patterns and found that out.

Last time I chose to give up Shan to understand more about "life". Now I know much more, and much more trouble got to me. I sorta regretted it, but who cares about that. I chose to give up Sunshine, and I wonder if that move was ever "right". Someone reminded me once more, "You are very lucky, you should keep things as it was and not took this route."

I know, but I still chose the tougher (aka stupid) routes. I guess I really like to have trouble around me. This is so stupid.

As for the past days, well I know I've not been blogging much about my everyday life proceedings, miss that? LOL...hahaha I've been reminded I'm a naggy person, and once again I agreed. Haha. Past days...nothing much, Christmas was nothing way too special, nothing too much. These days have been settling matters here and there, and I realised I'm inviting more trouble as I'm tackling current matters. Things will straighten out, I hope.

Gonna change my blog song now. Next time :)

.LuKe.

Monday, December 26, 2005

Weird Christmas

[CuRRent MooD:] Weird, tired, lil moody

[CuRRent Song:] DJ Tricky - The Riddle (Sven R-G vs Bass-T Remix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] "Mei Cai" + Curry Chicken + Rice

Slept from 9am - 5pm, but still feeling lethagic. Oh well. Anyway pple, Merry Christmas...

To what I understand, a lot of people around me ain't getting what people namely speaks of a "Merry Christmas". How would you be merry when you have so much to think about, to worry of, to be of true concern? I wonder. Then again, this year's Christmas ain't anything too spectacular to be spoken about.

I now speak of my singlehood, but things have not been completely over. As I mentioned a new chapter speaks of itself, and I'm getting to it. Things have not been rosy or what I even think is proper or ok. There has been so much on my mind, nothing can really be written out.

Just read Sunshine's blog, and my mind is in a whirl. That sounds, seems, felt way too familiar. Sometimes I wonder about what I always say, "What goes round comes round". I know for the evil I did things will come to me one day, and I will have to settle it my good way. Anyway, why do people think I'm having fun when I'm out so late? Does staying out late = fun? Does it mean enjoying myself? No.

She thinks that me being out wif the "China Dolls" = fun. Truth is, I'm only out wif one of them yesterday, the others just disappeared at the last moments, and budget constraints made us unable to go anywhere apart from staying at the same place chatting. She thought that in my moments of "fun" I chose to ignore her msgs and not replied. Truth is, I'm listening to life story and I did not want interruptions. Certainly if you're the one talking about your story you wouldn't want much interruptions and that was what I wanted to achieve. What can I say? Haiz. The dolphin-throwing incident I have nothing to say, since that's just a small episode. Truth is, these group of people will be the simplest if you think of it, but they certainly can fit into the "complicated" category that I have to be careful of how I'm making every single move not to thread onto wrong territory and get killed in the process. Of cos, within normal means I will not get killed, but within rage you never know what happens...

I didn't want this entry to be sort of counter-reply her blog entry, but I know it's happening (lol). I'm trying to end an issue and there was a mention of dragging "the game". Wait, what "game" are we talking about? I know that I've been bad to pop by your place and probably made some feelings stir, and I'm wrong right from that point on. I'm not in a better state of mind myself, I don't even know what is precisely happening and here it is all such things happening.

Ok I have to stop this. LOL. Time for me to activate some long-time-no-used resolute to keep myself in check. If things have to suffer, I do not want anyone else to suffer longer than myself. I sound so selfless and noble, but no - just a piece of shit.

Good shit.

Bad angel.

Whatever.

End of entry for now.

.LuKe.

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

You think do this very enjoyable issit?

[CuRRent MooD:] A little pissed

[CuRRent Song:] Basic Element - This Must Be A Dream '2005 (Radio Edit)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Laksa & Green Tea

Actually by now I've cooled down and dun really wish to talk about it. After all I know what moves I should take on my list.

Sometimes people always think the negative side of everything. I agree this is normally the case but sometimes some things just have to be done in a way you really don't understand why. When you start to not know why, you start to do things to avoid casualties. This might be a short term way, but well...it's selfish. Oh yea I forgot, everyone is selfish.

I'm a selfish guy. Girls, if you are looking for goodie-two-shoes to be a bf, do not look for me. I ain't that good after all.

Damned, when did I ever say I am. Maybe I gave the impression I am...but I'm not. I'm just human, and a guy who has needs. Just about it.

Next time then.

To the unknown person: Did I ever say I'm nice-looking? I didn't even bother to claim I'm nice on the inside. What gives. Just tell me who you are -.-

[ Update - 2232 Hours ]

Feeling just better now. :)

.LuKe.

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Life will take a turn

[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral, confused, tired

[CuRRent Song:] Rikki - Sutekidane

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Bee Hoon + Luncheon Meat + Fish Fillet + Hot Dog & Soya Bean Drink

Life will take a turn. Things will change soon.

I do not know if I took a correct step. I wonder.

No regrets, some things are just meant to be settled. Some meant to be held on. How life dictates, we won't know. We may end up at the same place after a whole big round.

Very tired. Will do another update when I can.

.LuKe.

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Life is indeed strange

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, neutral

[CuRRent Song:] E-Type feat. Nana - When I Close My Eyes

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

These days I've been training and guiding my replacement TA for my school, hence lesser updates. Anyway my last day will be on Friday, from then on I'll be to Tuas. The thing that's interesting will probably be that I wun be responding to anything pertaining my HP till I knock off from work, since we deal with sensitive equipment at my new workplace.

Anyway, my topic did not come from that. Yesterday I went to accompany my Sunshine over at her place. A few times the topic was on my existence since she was chatting wif her guy friends and her guy friend(s) were afraid I might get jealous due to the chats as well as her chat style. I know Sunshine enough that she normally chats this way and loves to make pple laugh (and make herself ROFL in the process) so I highly doubt I will really get jealous or something, jus that I'll probably tickle her whenever I see inappropriate words and phrases.

There was a point of note - she said I won't be affected, I won't be jealous. Wait, am I? Suddenly I felt a sense of worry. Yes, you could say for my trust for her and vice versa, but I was instantly reminded of Shan. It's almost the same thing...I gave her a lot of trust cos I know how much she loves me, but in the end I disappointed her.

A call for worry. What to do?

My TA is not here yet. Strange. Took him long to come over.

I should organise a "brain meeting" to discuss about this matter.

.LuKe.

Monday, December 12, 2005

Ultimatium

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired, confused, blur

[CuRRent Song:] Gunther & The Sunshine Girls - Teeny Weeny String Bikini

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Stupid title for a Monday, yeah I'm back at work. From Weds on you'll probably not see me update in the mornings, and my updates might not be so much cos I'm changing my workplace to somewhere in Tuas...OUCH. Very far, so I hope the pay be good :)

Life is messed up right now, everything's on a turn. Some stuff also not convenient to be discussed here...lol, I'm like thinking oh man, this is a blog and I can't say anything I wanna say. Oh well, shit happens.

Please make me see the light soon.

.LuKe.

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Today is a Wednesday.

[CuRRent MooD:] Lil tired, confused, blank

[CuRRent Song:] Rimini Project - A Day In The Sun (Extended Version)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] None

The issue on my friend's side is temporarily over for now. I should seek a time to address current issues with my Sunshine soon.

Guess I'm really a selfish person...

It has been super busy and late nights outside, early time back home, slping till noons. Oh yeah, my higher command just called to confirm I've been selected for the project that I've went for the interview the other time. LOL.

My mom mentioned I've been lucky since young. Oh well lucky.

...

Still on an average low.

.LuKe.

Monday, December 05, 2005

Sorry my Dear...

[CuRRent MooD:] Blank

[CuRRent Song:] Does not make a difference

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Does not make a difference

Dear Sunshine,

I'm sorry for everything that had happened this week. I know I've probably sort of ignored you and disappeared, but I have my reasons. I have stuff to settle on my friend's side and I will only be able to complete everything on Wednesday. I hope you will not ask too much cos when the time is right I'll mention it to you.

Dear, I'm very sorry to have not taken care of you and your health and in my selfishness forgotten about it. I know I need to beg for your forgiveness some time soon.

Yours with love,
Your Dear

I'm on a low.

.LuKe.

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Wednesday non-the-blue

[CuRRent MooD:] Great, though bit tired

[CuRRent Song:] Prezioso feat. Marvin - Back To Life

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Morrow leave, Friday course + leave, next week WHOLE WEEK LEAVE!!! WOO HOO!!!

Actually dunno what to blog...

Monday I went to accompany my dear...

Yesterday...initially wanted to go town to find Jeannie but when it was time to go it's already 8pm..so decided against it, den go Mac to makan and study my MCP. Just when I wanted to go home...BAM! Rain. Stuck in Mac...den waited for dear to go home...like dat lor...yeah, we went home in the rain...den now she got flu...hope she gets better soon.

Den I got D2 from Siew Fong's bf...tried a super long time, got the crack online...den finally can work. But hacking the game is hard. LOL. :) nvr mind...

Actually dunno what to write...tonight tentatively going to MU wif Cheryl and Linda...but nothing is confirmed...also maybe meeting up an MU fren outside...also maybe celebrating Mad's birthday...oh yeah, Mad dyed and cut her hair! I have a pic but I've not uploaded it yet. :)

Any updates, will do so.

[Update - 1105 Hours]

I Just Want To Keep You Hangin' On
Nuage

I just wanna tell you now
How much I love you
You can let me realise
Take a chance baby, wherever you want

Listen to me, listen tonight
I know you need me (whoa oh)
One more time you're into my mind
I wanna carry on, so I tell you

I just want to keep you hangin' on
I really love you till the morning
I just want to give you all my life
I don't want to stay without you

I just want to keep you hangin' on
I really love you till the morning
I just want to give you all my life
I don't want to stay without you

I just wanna close my eyes
So you can turn to me
Let me fly into your mind
Honey and baby, don't be afraid

Listen to me, listen tonight
I know you need me (whoa oh)
One more time you're into my mind
I wanna carry on, so I tell you

I just want to keep you hangin' on
I really love you till the morning
I just want to give you all my life
I don't want to stay without you

I just want to keep you hangin' on
I really love you till the morning
I just want to give you all my life
I don't want to stay without you

Listen to me, listen tonight
I wanna carry on, so I tell you

I just want to keep you hangin' on
I really love you till the morning
I just want to give you all my life
I don't want to stay without you

I just want to keep you hangin' on
I really love you till the morning
I just want to give you all my life
I don't want to stay without you

.LuKe.

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Sunday night, I'm blogging

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, cool, happy

[CuRRent Song:] Nuage - I Just Want To Keep You Hangin' On

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Jasmine Honey Green Tea

Woo hoo...really got loads of nice songs now...so happy =)

Ouch, my last update was Wednesday. I'll try ok?

Wednesday:
Celebrated Sharon's birthday...wasn't really what I called a good birthday...reached there and was late and waited for others. This day made me see Eugene, her current bf. CMI guy. Anyway, initially we agreed on going Marche but we thought it's pretty expensive so we changed the location to the eating place beside Meridien Hotel. Christina and her bf came later, and after settling down at the makan place I took a route back Somerset MRT to meet up with Christina so she could come over.

Nothing much really, den her bf arrived, everyone's making small talk. After the makan session we walked down to PS and the arcade to play games. At the end of it, Kitson went off and so did Christina and her BF. We then proceeded to Cineleisure's KBox and checked out the prices...ouch so ex. After some discussion we went over to Boat Quay but not without some drama. Sharon actually cried cos so few pple went over, esp. the part after we reached Boat Quay Yiming was making a decision to leave first and that was the last straw for Sharon and she cried and screamed and wailed. At the very end only 4 of us went to Hot Stuff @ Boat Quay and drank. I left at 2+am while the 3 remained.

Thursday:
Met up with Desy @ SIM ard 2+pm and went in wif her to check her studies stuff. Wow SIM really has quite a number of babes should I say. After checking, we went KAP to eat Mac...den after that went to dear's place cos had a bit of misunderstanding...so jus go and clear up the mess lor...:p

Friday:
Went back school...figured a whole day trying to transfer a video from PC to DV tape...finally able to make it...den after that I went to cut my hair...oh yeah, it was Cheryl's birthday so somehow some last-min arrangements had me celebrating it for her at Jurong Point. We met up at ard 710pm and went to Giordano to buy her pair of jeans. In my humble experience, gals normally try on their stuff inside and not bothered to show anyone they do not really know, but Cheryl actually sorta asked for my comments (that's the reason for my slow response since I didn't expect myself to be even on evaluation mode), well of cos I'm glad she is sorta comfortable wif my existence. After that we walked around, see some CDs @ CD Rama den go Zone-X and played DDR (I played)...den we went LJS to makan...after that went to Chameleon. This one's the funny part...we went in, and within 2 minutes tio blackout! LOL! Then I told Cheryl "wah so got atmosphere, your birthday they give such setting!" and after walking a while den I said "hey where's the birthday cake and candles?" LOL I knoe I'm lame...den after she got a comb we went to Coffee Bean to get a Mudpie as a "cake" for her birthday. This part I'm lame again cos I told her to make a birthday wish...den she asked "huh like dis also must make a wish?" den I said "yeah, it's your birthday cake after all so make one" den she looked around and commented "wah dun wan la, so paiseh" den I replied "ok lah at most I dun look lor...quick quick make your wish..." and she did of cos. Made some chat, den we went back.

Saturday:
Woke up at 10am and went the Wedding stuff of my neighbour with my mum. Here I have a pic of them...the couple I mean.

Alex and Paul
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Solemnization
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The Sharks' Fin is super SALTY! OMG. After getting back home, I went up Yuting's place to wish her a birthday, den went to find Sunshine...den after that I went Jurong Point (again) to celebrate Yuting's birthday at Pizza Hut. After that went to arcade play game, den I went down MU wif my bro dere also. Den went home at 4am. Yeah just about it.

Sunday:
Spent the day with my Sunshine :)

OK the end. Haha. :)

.LuKe.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Hmmm Wednesday Hmmm

[CuRRent MooD:] Ok, bit tired yet feeling energy-filled

[CuRRent Song:] Solid Base - Stay With Me

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Nothing

Might contemplate mixing a song on my own again. LOL.

Still doing NB stuff...hehe...

Yesterday...nothing much again...wanted to cut hair but...BUT they already off the lights...damnit...wat the heck...ended up eating laksa...lol...den go home a while den go Sunshine's place to slack a bit and watch VCD...den Mad called and told me something wrong wif the system again...so I went to see...Norton acting strangely again...I think no choice, I've done up downloading freebies for her, only waiting to set them up probably on Thursday. Back home played SG a bit, but server kept on disconnecting and seemed it's Singnet's side rather than SG. The only real upside for the day is I have new songs for my iPod! :)

Later in the evening going to Sharon's birthday celebration...hope it doesn't turn out weird. Lol.

*YaWn*

.LuKe.

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Busy Tuesday

[CuRRent MooD:] Busy

[CuRRent Song:] Jk Lloyd - Sounds of Sys (El Sonido De La 'S')

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Was busy, and will be busy later...I think will only be free late afternoon...

Just now got to continue to do new NBs, plan leave, oversee printer installation, install printer drivers, see new projectors coming in...den later on someone coming to clean projectors...lol...

Yesterday wanted to go cut hair but they said close for the day...so I think later I will have to go earlier...anyway, den I went home play SG lo...lol...den sweep mop floor...chatted wif Desy abt her life stuff...Thursday will be going out wif her for some stuff...yeah jus about it...

A short entry...will update more if any...

.LuKe.

Monday, November 21, 2005

Monday, 21st November

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, little tired

[CuRRent Song:] Cascada - Miracle (The Usual Suspects vs EXR Remix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo & some bread from BreadTalk

Firstly...

Happy 31st birthday brother. May your dreams come true and work harder for your future..

Ok that's real crap but lol..haha..nothing much to say since I've blogged yesterday...actually that entry was crap as well..felt a lil better after dear called me, but I guess it's hard to settle the problem in me.

I shall try to write the way I normally write on a Monday morning describing my past weekend.

Thursday:
Trying to recall...yea. Met up wif Serene at Dhoby Ghaut MRT and waited for her fren (which I've forgotten his name by now) then we went to Cineleisure LJS to makan. Reach there only saw a table which is wet and I had to approach the crew to help clear up..the end we settled for the table behind it cos the pple left. Her fren happened to bump onto his frens so ended up so funny, he like machiam conveniently forgotten about us...den after I makan finish (cos they didn't wan to makan) den both of us left the place den the guy came out and told us one of them is his cousin. OIC. Hehe. Den we walked over to MU, played cards and waited for people. She mentioned a lot of names but ended up all didn't come and it was pretty boring. Why boring? Not the music boring, but nothing to drink! It's Ladies Night and I have no spare cash on me, so I end up seeing some eye candy but nothing to drink! Actually not a lot of eye candy also..very few actually..oh yeah, actually only one guy which she mentioned did appear, and that was Jason.

I find them pretty funny. When I approached Jason and reaffirmed his name, he told me I should call him "Ah-Ken". The thing is, every other person addresses him as Jason. What's going on? Same as Serene, she has another name in Joyce plus dunno wat other name...so funny. You think your life not interesting enough so must make more names? Or issit you so notorious you go every nightspot must change a name? Anyway, we ended up changing coins to play Photohunt and played Pool also..although mine sucked..lol..den waited and listen to music...den later on a huge bunch of ladies came...turned out to be within our circle. Remember I mentioned someone who looked like Shan and Eleen? I found that her name is "Wawa", or as what I heard from them. Wait. 娃娃? As in doll? Strange but not unusual, since she's from China and from what I know, they sure can come up with interesting names. She brought her sister and also many other frens (mixed circle, got butch somemore) and crammed up the Pool area (which happens to be near the ladies' bar as well). After that it's like pretty messy, everyone goes everywhere and it's rather ehm, bored to say the least. Worst part came was when R&B kicked in (worst for me cos I dun really like R&B) and I suggested to go out to chill (as usual). Serene kicked a fuss but I couldn't really care less so I went out wif her fren.

Walked to usual makan place, but it was halfway we realised Serene was behind us. Oh well..den we went makan and drink, den made our way back MU. (timing issue. LOL) Just as we walked down, I saw Wawa coming up and asking me to look for Jason. I told Serene to look for Jason while I kept a lookout to wat was happening. Noticed Wawa was arguing with a guy named Timothy (yes I find him familiar, I think he has linkage to my Para circle of frens), and I waited for like 5 mins wondering where Jason was. Then Tianzun came along (a fren I got to know from them) and I told him to look for Jason too. Another 5 mins, no Jason. I went down, combed the floor a while and found Jason, told him to go up look for Wawa. Was sitting down and Tianzun came along. Made small chat and before I know it, *poofed* came a bottle of Martell. Tianzun then said "with me around, sure got something to drink!" (wow) den came the mixer and we finished the Martell by ourselves (3/4 left the time the bottle came). Just chatted about anything, and danced a little and stuff.

Think we left MU at 4+am, and went to some Muslim makan place behind Cuppage and chatted (I dozed off) till 6+ and everyone left...I sent Serene back home and off I go home by myself in NEL. NEL SUCKS.

Friday:
Reached home abt 9am, and woke my mum up cos she needed to go see a doctor. It was initially planned for next week but she received a "Red-coloured Bomb" from one of our neighbours who's marrying off her eldest daughter so she changed the doc thing to Friday at the last min (not exactly last min, but she told me only on Thursday which was like, ehm...). I was pretty tired but still went with her. Of cos, usual things...den went to market after that, came home and collapsed on the bed.

Woke up at...6+pm...den went to look for dear...den she said have to go celebrate her dad's birthday so she did lor..den I went Mac to makan, went home play SG...nothing much...but played till quite late I think...

Saturday:
Woke up at 4+pm, den play a bit of game, checked wif dear wat time she wanna be wif me den she said abt 9pm...so I played till 5 something near 6 before I started to prepare myself to go PS and play some games...dear got back to me ard 9+pm...den she came over PS den we go Carrefour...den we took train to Harbourfront, den took bus 409 up Faber Hill. Nothing much leh the deco...den we sit by a bench till...eh, 4am? We den did a stupid thing - walk from Faber to Tanjong Pagar. POWER!!! Went back 6+am.

Sunday:
Reached Ghim Moh area ard 7am..den I went to makan breakfast...den back home to bathe and wait for dear to contact me..den I went her place to snuggle and rest :p lol...den left her place 4+ I think...cos she go out wif her frens..den I go makan Mac...den come back home, play game, rest and laze ard...bla bla bla. Hahaha...

Ok so it's certainly a much longer entry compared to yesterday? LOL :)

.LuKe.

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Surprise? Blogging on a sunday

[CuRRent MooD:] Sedated..kinda tired..moody

[CuRRent Song:] Alex Megane - Hurricane (Cascada Remix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Honey Green Tea

If today's a sat, I will probably contemplate going to drink. If it's Wednesday I'll go Juggies' Nite @ MU to have a jug. Jus felt like drinking all of a sudden.

Don't ask me why here, there are jus things I can't blog for God knows why reasons.

Thursday:
Went MU wif Serene..it's like half a messy night...I had someone treat me Martell though hehe...actually dun wanna talk abt the recent stuff too much...

Friday:
Went doc wif mum, went market wif mum, slp, go look for dear, come back home, play game, sleep...

Saturday/Sunday:
Eh...Play game, go PS, go Faber Hill, go Tanjong Pagar (Sunday already), come home, bathe, go dear's place, slp, come back home play a bit of game plus stuff, blogging

LOL wat a way to describe my weekend events. Yeap, another sat of no MU :)

Feel like going out, but where can I go? What can I do? Haiz. My mood's really horrendous now.

.LuKe.

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Today is Thursday (but just as good)

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, a little tired

[CuRRent Song:] Masterboy - Feel The Fire

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Well if you wonder why I have such a title, that's cos...

...I'm on leave morrow!!! Hehe.

Well yesterday went home to play SG - surprisingly, Agartha has so less lands but yet able to win battles. Happy thing is I clocked wins, sad is my uranium production rate is slow. Oh shit. War Meter!!!

Den..met up with neighbours (Yuling, Yuting and Huijuan's sister, then Vanessa and Siew Fong, also bumped onto Kok Mun and his gf) and went Mac...den go home bathe n stuff, makan n play various games. Yeah just about it.

Later at night should be going MU and back Friday morning. Then depends Friday evening my dear wanna go out wif me...saturday we're going Faber to see the Xmas deco! Hehe :) yeah that's about my plans these few days...:)

See ya pple ard, going for lunch now - instant noodles :P

.LuKe.

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Normal Wednesday

[CuRRent MooD:] Not very tired but a little braindead

[CuRRent Song:] Lazard - Little Star (Original Trance Mix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

This is a nice song. Anyway sorry for not blogging yesterday as there were stuff going about here and there, it sorta slipped my mind.

There ain't too much these days, but I did go out with Serene yesterday night and it was real bad. Tiring. She ended up doing all sorts of "damage" on me it made me braindead...till now. She's short of me saying as an SM Queen...LOL joking she better not see this...hahaha...

I guess it's patching time again later.

Life has been getting boring cos my posts just get shorter.

WRONG.

There are just issues I don't write on my blog. Seems that I can't find peace till peace comes to find me.

It's really tiring. Change me, please? I know that isn't possible because a person changes only if he/she chooses to accept the change. Does that mean I'm in control of my own life and my own changes. It is in theory yes, but in practical it just doesn't strike out the way it meant to be.

I really hate myself at times.

.LuKe.

Monday, November 14, 2005

Very tired Monday

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired...

[CuRRent Song:] Deepest Blue - Deepest Blue

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Damn I am so tired...but there's much to do today...I know I'm going to share abt my weekend but I'm so tired now...haha...can't remember what went on...

Friday:
PS.

Saturday:
Ok this is a surprise - no MU! Haha...I slept till like 4+ and prepared to go Zhuzhu's place...I think it was 530pm when I reached her place so I started to see what I can do..freed up some space, did some ad-removal, taught her to use various stuff...yeah...den it was night when I was done so I went to find Berlinda for the phone thingie...den by the time I took train down to PS it was already 10+...hang ard dere till 12...den contacted Eric and he said he wun be down MU so I went home instead...hehe save money...den at home slack play game...

Sunday:
Slept till 12+, went to pei my Sunshine...till 7 went back home to get changed and meet Eric...ended up he talking to me abt Network Marketing...OH MAN...sianzation...when I just met him I received a call from Serene telling me she landed up in hospital since few days back...so after the talking session (the hospital visit saved me somehow) I went to visit her at SGH...den by the time reached home it's 12+am...bathed, makan...wait for my bro finished using comp it's 2+am...

So I'm tired. Haha..I'm already a lil tired when I was home, so it got on me. What's for later? Hmmm. Tired.

.LuKe.

Friday, November 11, 2005

Oh heck, it's Friday

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] B.A.R. feat. Roxy - Come Together (Planet R-Mix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo & bread toast + ham + egg

Thanks again dear :)

Hmm, I did not blog yesterday! Well actually also not much difference cos I did practically the same thing 2 days in a row - by accompanying my Sunshine :)

Today's a Friday so if you wanna catch me you can do so at PS (or Hotspot as known to Sunshine and Zhuzhu)...

Tentatively helping zhuzhu wif her comp on saturday. Tentatively meeting Berlinda to pass her the phone on sat too. Tentatively going MU at night wif Eric (my MU fren) as well. Speaking of which, he tried to jio me to go yesterday (Ladies' Night) but I kindly refused the invitation cos I've promised Sunshine I'll accompany her...also, I'm not into weekday clubbing cos I need to work the next day.

Yeah, I'm broke...what? That's no news? Yeah certainly not. Recent news has been bad - this morning I saw the coverpage of Lianhe Zaobao and it reported of a terrorist blast that killed 100+ I think...alongside with some officials associated with Anti-Terrorism. Upon learning of their JI master bomb expert being killed in action, this is certainly a good way to notify the world that they certainly won't take that lying down. Next news is of cos Avian Flu - new strain H9N2 found in Hong Kong. World population is certainly going down.

Life goes on, that's how it is. And that's how it will be. I'll be continuing wif my life, SG and killing some terrorist network with my Gattling Towers and Tank Hunters in C&C: Zero Hour. :)

.LuKe.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Sleepy Wednesday

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired and sleepy

[CuRRent Song:] Mr Brown & Mr Miyagi - Zhng My Car (not a song)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Sleepy...haha...

Yesterday night Sunshine msged me say her eyes tio irritation...so I went Shop N Save to buy eyedrop for her...

Nothing much lah yesterday...went home play SG...went Mac makan...really nothing much...

If got more update...will update...yesterday really nothing much...hahaha...

.LuKe.

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

A fine Tuesday

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] Gabry Ponte - Depend On You (Hard in Tango Remix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo & Bread toast + sausage + egg

Dear, thanks again for your breakfast :) *hugs*

Just reminded her that she needn't have to make breakfast every morning else I will take her for granted one :p

Yesterday...only one main thing to say - dental session. Cost me $90 for filling, polishing and a $5 mouthwash. And plenty of blood loss - I'm surprised I'm not too groggy after so much blood loss. Had my problem tooth patched, though dentist did say it might just break if very hard food comes along so I have to be careful not to make hard food break my $45 filling :p

What else...nothing much lor...go home after dental session still helped my mom mop floor...mom still worried whether I can do it...I was like "one dental session only, not as if extraction, wun die lah" but I admit I was feeling a little feverish (probably due to blood loss + the swolleness of my gums) and in the end I still managed the chore. Can't make my mum work too hard already - her other leg's starting to give problems.

Den SG lor :p saw Joanna's fren online...den Joanna asked me help her edit her blog a little which I did...den did little stuff here and there...yea jus abt it I suppose...I dun think I missed out anything much...

That new fren I've made had been contacting me the past 2 days...my sms exceed le leh...I think something is wrong - do I give pple the impression they can be extremely comfortable with my presence? That could be good - or bad. Hmmm...better KIV it...alert mode liao...

Later is patching session again...lol...

.LuKe.