Then again...

[CuRRent MooD:] Sianz

[CuRRent Song:] Cascada - How Do You Do (EXR Reconstruction)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] NA

Come to think of it, I shouldn't have blogged about it. No point continuing making another person feel more sorry than she is.

I can still include my cat pics though =)

Cat looking at me Cat turns around the pillar
.LuKe.

A Dottie way to end my Sunday

[CuRRent MooD:] Weird

[CuRRent Song:] Lilu - Little Girl (Eiffel 65 Remix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Wintermelon Soup

PM @ GSK ended ard 3pm as it dragged on real late due to one of the servers having an unusual issue. Went to LJS and makan lunch, den after dallying a lil, went up to arcade to watch pple play Time Crisis 4 and after deciding a while, played DDR in sandals. Last time I couldn't have done so, but when i can play DDR in my workwear, I don't see why I can't in sandals - and I failed Dam Daridam @ last stage. -.- duh...

Rested a short while, then went over to Raffles to fetch Cellie, den pei her to Tiong Bahru MRT which I went straight home as she wanted to meet up with a friend. Prior to that we've agreed to watch Covenent @ JP (upon her considering that I have to work early on the next day while she can wake up much later) so I bought the tickets beforehand.

Reached home, rested, den I ate dinner and prepared myself to go out.......

.....walked just out of my carpark to Block 9, only to receive her phonecall which she mentioned that she was held up by something and unable to make it to the show. Bo bian lor, turned back and went back home...but well, at least my neighbourhood cats made me smile a lil amidst the disappointment.

To Cellie: I'm not blaming you or anything ok...just feeling disappointed about the whole thing so I hope you don't misintepret my blog post. I jus need somewhere to let off steam :P hehe...I'm quite fine about it and I hope your stuff gets settled well. =) remember to tell me what happened ok...so at least I wun feel the tics are so wasted :P keke...

Here are some pics...actually only 2 pics of THE CAT...

Cat looking at me


Cat turns around the pillar

.LuKe.

A normal Sunday @ GeeAssKay

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, a little little bit tired

[CuRRent Song:] Basic Element - This Must Be A Dream 2005 (Radio Edit)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] You Tiao

Today only started for about 3 hours, so let me blog yesterday ba..

Lemme think...hahaha...

Gingko please.

Started the day with accompanying mum to market, den reached home on PC do a bit of stuff, maple a bit...den was about to meet Celena for lunch when my bro asked me to wait for him...ended up I'm late...sigh.

Met up Cellie for lunch @ Mos Burger, den proceeded to PS and walk walk a bit...den went to PC Bunk. By then tired liao..msged Cellie a bit..den I actually tried dozing off on the sofa! Keke..not bad leh..so much noise I can rest lor..but that was until 2 guys came to the PCs beside me and blasted Audition music till I really cannot tahan...den went up PS Star Factory to play Puzzle Fighter...

...when I saw Andrew (shit I forgot his name but it seems that's his name from what i can remember) playing Puzzle Fighter wif his frens. Ok time to not spend money but instead look at them play. Quite funny to say the least, I left the place ard 5+ down back to Raffles to fetch Cellie and off we went over Bugis to meet her good fren, Orange.

As Orange was late I accompanied her walking about shopping a little till Orange arrived to the scene b4 I made my way down to Sim Lim Sq to get stuff for myself. Jus so happens I recall the scene where Cellie is busy smacking the mouse's right button just to get the menu out that I realised she really needs a new mouse. Walked ard a little and got my wireless dongle and also her mouse - got the sakura pink MS mouse for her. Walked back to Bugis direction to find them...

I arrived at Watsons and found them at ZA booth. The first thing Orange asked me was "which side of my face looks better?" I was like O.o but realised that she was testing foundation as what Cellie told me when I arrived at the scene. Practically said, both sides looked almost the same to me but after figuring a moment I said "my left...which is your right.". I guess I had a good guess since Cellie agrees with me as well. Speaking of agreement, it's strange of how our thoughts got interlinked. I was just mentioning to her about watching a movie today and was about to mention Covenent when she beat me to it. Ok that's No.1.

Back to where I left off, they wandered in Watsons for a short while before making the way to Bugis Village...not without Orange going over to Rockery for a bubble drink which brought me to No.2 - Cellie suggested drinking bubble tea which I agreed. When we walked over, I asked her what she wanted and she said "I feel like drinking Pearl Milk Tea today."...I was like -.- how come I thought of the same thing!!! Initially before I reach there I wanted Almond Milk Tea but the end decided the no-frills Pearl Milk Tea...such a coincidence.

Ok I'm deviating. B4 going over to Bugis Village, we stopped by this accessory place which is in the building of Seiyu (beside-beside the ATMs) and they were like on steroids - looking thru the accessories. Yeah I know I should be anticipating this but it's ok...haha. Came a part which they said about earrings and mentioned they wanna try accessories on me, well my immediate response was "u all sponsor lor" and they actually went wif the flow...-.- good thing that meant as a joke else I'll get killed by my mum b4 I know it.

Went over to Bugis Village only to have them walk n walk thru the shops on the second level, looking thru lots of clothes, accessories and bags and getting my suggestion about them. On this day I got to know something abt Orange - she's really good at NOT making choices, as in hesitating at any possible chances. She can simply freeze at a spot for 10 mins or so deciding what to buy...which I simply told her "You just choose odd or even for each of the items, den look at the time to decide what to buy." but of cos she did not take my advice and continue to indulge in self-thought before decided on that white bag which I mentioned would be a better buy.

We walked back downstairs and were deciding what to eat - this is No.3 - the time when Cellie asked if I'm hungry and I responded a little, I've already thought of KFC but wasn't a very serious thought. As Orange asked Cellie what will be the dinner for the night (it's about 10pm by then), Cellie responded "I feel like eating KFC..." oh man WHAT GIVES! I don't quite believe it and exclaimed "again???" - it does not mean the KFC issue but the similar thoughts issue. Probably some electromagnetic waves got thru both of us at the same time yesterday. Anyway, off we went KFC thru the side alley and first thing Orange yelped in worry was "I hope there are no cockroaches!"...I turned to them and replied in the Kung Pow way, "There will BE no cockroaches..." and Cellie responded "got cockroaches Luke will also step on them lah..."...hahaha seriously speaking, how many times in life have I purposely stepped on a cockroach to kill it? Once - when I was with Michelle and she was terrified of that cockroach lurking around when we were chatting downstairs her place years ago. In my immediate defensive response I killed the poor roach which in theory did not stand a chance against me. Oh well, Kor's duty what, what to do...

After walking past the alley which indeed had a lack of cockroaches, I said to Orange, "See I told you there are no cockroaches. They have gone to LJS." and she responded "why ah? LJS got a lot of cockroaches is it?"...my response was, "no, cos they smell the LJS scent and went over. Anyway you needn't have to read into my words too much =)"...soon we walked over KFC and got seats for ourselves quite immediately. Went over to order food with Orange accompanying me as (wonder if you guessed it...) she didn't know what to eat. Cellie, is Orange a Piscean? No right, she just celebrated her birthday which makes her a Scorpio! I don't see how she can be so good at not making choices just like me (at situations). :P After waiting for the queue, I had myself a situation i had to choose Crispy chicken...duh. Ok got everything and went over the table. Oh man...they swapped my whipped potato instead of coleslaw for the cheese fries. Walked over to counter and changed. Walked back and Cellie said "actually I dun eat KFC coleslaws..." -.- ok I walked back to counter again and approached the manager for a change which she kindly did =)...then we started munching on the food.

Conclusion for the night - KFC and cheese makes Cellie and Orange high...haha...to the extend when I mentioned about the "breathing sounds" of one of my users they laughed so hard they could collapse on the table, prior to mentioning they looked full, constipated, stomachache or having some form of cramps! Looking at them simply made me laugh hard too.

Walked Orange to MRT before we walked to Bugis Seiyu side to wait for the cab and sent her home.

Well-spent saturday evening, in my opinion. No one ever mentions that shopping is boring.

This post describes about Saturday. Since I'm going to blog again on Sunday (in case pple miss my [Update - ] tag), I gonna push this post to Saturday.

.LuKe.

The Cheese-snack day

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine but tired

[CuRRent Song:] Floating Clouds - Sun and Water (Long Cut)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Yong Tau Foo wif sauce + pork (I think)

Today is Friday, and a rest day for me (clear leave lo~). So what did I do today? Guess...

...I went over Cellie's place to help her with her cheese snacks.

What? What the?

Yeah, correct. Cheese snacks. After smelling so much cheese, it really can get overwhelming.

Reached her area ard 1+ den realised she jus woke up frm bed...so wait n wait lor...wait till heavy rain -.- but no choice...finally managed to see her den we went NTUC to purchase the ingredients. After that just braved thru heavy rain (yes we walked the shelter but I'm still half drenched anyway) we went back to her place.

First reception is Fluffy...lol. Fluffy is her dog, a mini pomeranian (frankly said, I've seen such dogs but never knew the name to that breed...oh well) which well, welcoming present to me is constant barking. No matter, since he (dog) could never beat Melvin (my neighbour's crazy dog) in the barking loudness department. Anyway, after looking around a bit (like touring like dat), we proceeded to start the cheese stuff...

No wait. She played around wif Fluffy (ok also known as Fee), then went to start the cheese things. Really a joy to watch her play with Fee. Anyway...never knew making that cheese snack is SO simple, even I can do it...:P but I guess it's the effort and thought that counts, isn't it? We started wif cutting the cream cheese into small pieces so it melts faster, den i had to start using a (oh man what we call that...beater? UPDATE: Cellie mentioned it's a WHISK) whatever to "stir" the cheese to soften it...after some effort, the cheese went soft and she added a cup of sugar. Continue to stir and stir...den managed to get it partly liquified. On goes the PROJECT! Took out the small foil-thingies which contain the snacks, den put Oreo cookies on top.

SINFUL!

Then she poured the cheese mixture inside.

SINFUL!!

She proceeded to add an M&M peanut in the middle.

VERY SINFUL!!!

And the rainbow-confetti like small pellets.

SUPER DUPER SINFUL!!!!

After finishing the rest (we took like about 2 hours), we went over to look at her pics. And that's a zillion of them. LOL (exaggerating anyway)...

The day passed pretty quickly to say the least, and I ended up eating dinner over at her place. Nothing too much, tried a cheese snack and it was ok but the Oreo probably made it a lil more heaty than usual.

Dilly dally a bit here and there, she has to meet up wif her fren for kopi and so we left the house, with me towards home.

That sums up my cheese-snack day.

On a side note, we bought extras for another day of cheese-snack. HAHAHA....

Here are some pics for the day...


Mixing the stuff...
Finished Product
2 plates of themI'm trying, I'm TRYING!
Ain't too bad.

The REAL product

.LuKe.

A working Tuesday

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] VA - Dance Beat Explosion Vol.31

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Lotus Root Soup

Haha...nothing to blog apart...

My Bandit is finally Lvl 55.

=P maybe update later ba.

.LuKe.

A monday not working

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] E-Type - Rain

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Laksa / Teh-Peng

I'll just blog about yesterday since there ain't much today...

Lemme think......

Arranged to meet up wif Cellie after work and I suggested going to Vivocity or Cathay Cineplex since I've not been to either to catch a movie. She decided on "Flushed Away", the rat show with lotsa slugs (and Sujun, this IS the show with slugs. The penguin show I mentioned was "Happy Feet", opening on 23rd Nov I think) and frogs. She proceeded to book the tickets online and after a lil discussion we took the 1810 show, I think it was an early booking so we got the top middle seats (best seat sia).

Had lunch with my family since it's a celebration for my dad's 60th birthday, it's a small affair really as my eldest bro is in Shanghai. He did call back with my nephews though, which did make my dad's day brighter. After makaning, I went "shopping" with my mummy and then brought the items back home. After hanging ard for some time @ home, I prepared a bit and was about to leave when I recalled something and so I did that b4 I left.

Well, almost late though but made it on time. Cellie was out wif a purple tee and folded denims which depicted her sunday slack nature (LOL). We took the train (well I forgot to check the buses going to HarbourFront from Raffles Place) and after a bit of transferring here and dere, we got ourselves to the crowded HarbourFront MRT station.

Following the crowd or looking the signs made no difference as the majority were heading for Vivocity. To my opinion, Vivocity is large with a few storeys, which is maybe a fresh experience as Singapore do not usually have such a large floor space for a shopping centre. After looking at the directions, we managed to find GV and collected the tics, went up another floor and into the main hall.

The show is ok, had some humorous portions and the usual feeling-feeling kinda scenes, and we came out at abt 1950. Went to a washroom and had ourselves waiting till 2010 for the ladies (well what to do hehe) and we went to locate a good eating place. Well, the foodcourts are packed but Cellie suggested to go over HarbourFront which is certainly a wise choice.

Walked over to HarbourFront and ate "Small Bowl Noodle" and she ate Ban Mian...nothing too much, went to Mac and bought the cone ice cream. After that walked a bit, and she had her guy friend to send her home by car while I went back in my trusty 100.

Readers, found the last sentence FAMILIAR??? LOL!!!! It was almost the same enactment a week ago, and Cellie almost forgotten. I joked wif her saying that she needn't have to worry about Sunday nights going home via train cos there will be her personal driver sending her home =P keke...

That summed up my Sunday.

Today? Ok...morning went to Raffles area to have lunch with Cellie, den home to help my mummy, den went out a bit walk walk, den come back maple and online a bit. Think I'm going to see a doc abt...hmmm. =P

Till my next update......

.LuKe.

A jap saturday

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine but tired

[CuRRent Song:] DC-10 - Flying High (Original Mix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Some vege soup

This morning reached home at about 9+? Went to UOB to create a new savings account and had the CSO explain stuff, and off I'm home to configure the wireless router. Damnit, I took like 4 hours to even finally have the job done, only to find that the signal ain't stable! Configuring the wireless router for an ADSL connection is really troublesome to say the least. Anyway, I repositioned the router and it seems to be better, now my PC and lappie can work together =)

Went out at abt 3? Yeah I guess so - to sell the phone and enquired about Nokia 5300 which costs only $390 - quite cheap eh?? After that I took bus down to PS, den I recalled there's free shuttle -.- nvm, went down to Zone-X and saw my bro, onli to have Berlinda called and complained blablabla for half an hour or so. After that I hang ard a bit and it was abt time to meet up wif Cellie @ her workplace.

Met up wif Cellie who wore purple and pink top wif white polka dots skirt. I have to say not all girls can wear polka dots and also the type of skirt that Cellie wears (those ehm how should I describe...also dunno...maybe Cellie can help me :P...UPDATE: Cellie said it's a Balloon Skirt), but she fits in it quite well. Anyway, we went over Paragon to reserve 2 seats for Sushi Tei, then went shopping (oh yea shopping, since she did buy something) till ard 8 whr we went back to take jap food. I took Beef Udon (forgot the name, she's too good wif jap and that got me wondering the whole time...UPDATE: It's a Niku Udon, courtesy reminder of Cellie) and she got herself ordering a range of food and her first "appetizer" got her smiling from the beginning - salmon. Oh well...it's a little over $40 but it's affordable, since it's Jap.

After finishing the food, I brought her over to a spot in orchard whr less people knows about it and we watched Kung Pow and Kylie's Especially For You with Kermit the Frog. Yeah, after that I sent her home in a cab.

That sums up my day, and another day is coming.

.LuKe.

It's a Thursday @ GeeAssKay

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired but fine

[CuRRent Song:] What else

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Wah..these 2 days not much time to blog, the day b4 ytd I just went online and had to handle Maple auctions, maple meimei, maple buddy and also msn chat...den also my usual stuff like mails etc. hahaa...really not much time to update. I onli managed to grab the bloctopus pic from Cellie's Frenster to post it here, else I seriously don't have much time to.

Yesterday went out with Belle to Marina Square to shop...well, we only went ONE shop and spent more than an hour dere dishing and with her trying out probably like 10 over pieces of clothing. Ended up she bought only 1 which costs abt $80+...wow. After that went to find place to makan and we ended up at Changing Appetites (thx Sujun for reminding, and Cellie this is the full name for the acronym CA) and I ordered TLB (Tender Loving Beef) while she ordered a Mushroom dish (both spags). We sat there chatting till 10+ b4 I sent her home and sent myself home with a cab.

Reached home, den noticed something unusual so called Cellie jus in case. No answer, hmmm so I left voicemail. Den she called back abt 5-10 mins later den claim I sounded gan chiong. Got meh? Dun have lah...LOL. Den continued to stay online to do maple auctions and also to upload some pics to my Friendster Album.

Den zzz...

Today is clear shit day. Hope can clear finish. Haha.

.LuKe.

Presenting the Bloctopus Wannabes.

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Spiced beef + tomato hot dogs / HL Milk

Presenting to you...

The Bloctopus WANNABES! =)

Hahaha...update later, now working.

.LuKe.

Post-Pox Work Day 1

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired but fine

[CuRRent Song:] Groove Coverage - Let It Be (Axel Konrad Remix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Fishball Noodles / HL Milk

Oh well, it's really tired going back to work after a 2-week rest at home from Pox. I guess I managed quite well, but I believe tomorrow will be more busy as Malcolm will be on leave and Kamisah on half day. It's work after all, and I'll manage it.

I guess my recent week or so has been ok to say the least, life still stablizing to no known grounds. Things might be good or bad, and although I'm optimistic in nature sometimes I can't help but feeling that bad things will soon follow that will dampen my mood again. I understand the worst has not come, and I should always expect it.

Let me just hope that the good will come while I will be able to manage the bad pretty well. How, I ask - that remains something for myself to know and myself to find out. Haha.

[Update - 2127 Hours]

Actually there's nothing much to blog about, just that somehow I have this weird feeling in my heart. Maybe it's a sense of loss and found (that's NOT a typo) - I felt I seemed to have lost something, and seemed to have found something.

The thing I lost - am I to find it back? The thing I found - am I afraid to lose it?

I know I have to remain as what I am so people know me as me, not as an image or a projection of someone I wished I am. I do not know if I am to find back the thing I lost, but I hope I won't lose the thing I found.

I don't wanna lose happiness and I'm grabbing hard on it - hope it's not too hard.

.LuKe.

Day 14, the final day

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] Barcera - Secret of Love (Central Seven Club Remix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Fish + Rice

Went to see the doctor nearing noon time, and wow there were like 5 pple in queue. Went to photocopy my resume, den went to makan, den went back. Still need to wait. After going in, den come out in 5 mins. -.- den officially I'm cleared!

After that went on my way to take train to City Hall and waited for Celena to meet me. Wow, from the time I reach till the time we meet is like almost 45 mins - 1 hour but also cannot blame her cos something went wrong wif her "transport ability" and dragged everything. Oh well it's common to wait for a lady so off we go to Suntec.

Walked to Suntec and got those much pple giving away flyers and stuff, and we managed to reach the exhibition hall. Managed to look for the forms to fill, we turned to each other and asked "Do you have a pen?" - haha, confirm same reaction. Walked to the side and I approached the reg counter for a spare pen which they had and got Cellie to start writing. After that I wrote, den she went to the Ladies while I waited. Some stupid thing happened - a guy walked over and asked "Sorry can we have spare forms-" and realised I'm just a visitor and quicky reacted "oh sorry!"...kns, jus cos I carry a stupid file with the forms = I am a form distributor? GRRR!!!

Ok got everything done and got a stupid JobsCentral red bag and some stupid stuff, den walked in. Hmmm. It's like 1/3 filled with booths, pple are ok crowd, den ok lor...walk ard aimlessly but Cellie tried to walk wif a bit more purpose and got a bit of chat wif the pple dere and got some info. After walking like half hour we walked out of the place...ended up our day became Window Shopping day as she was walking around trying to look for winterwear (going Japan end-year, so envious!) and also did a bit of window-shopping for myself, and looking a bit of gadgets here and dere. She seemed interested in the new pink iPod Nano which minimum is 4GB in size. After a bit more window-shopping @ Suntec, we walked over to MS which will have MORE shops for her. MS is ladies heaven sia.

Ok, continued the window-shopping @ MS, den after walking so much and walking thru all the cute stuff and everything, it's like still so early in the day so I suggested a movie. We decided on Death Note and after buying the tics, we still had 2 hours to go. OMG...den we went walking a bit more and then went to the foodcourt to have our dinner. We sat the "Al Fresco" (how do you spell that) that oversees the Esplanade and CBD (which she commented she saw her company), and we bought food. Oh well I've sinned again by eating Chicken Baked rice. LOL. Being a phototaking princess, she decides to whip out her cam and took pics of both of us. I'll post once she's done wif it.

Off the movies we went. Death Note is not too bad, a lot of my guesses actually went wrong so it's a good plot. It's ard 9+ the moment we were out, so we went to Esplanade to chat a bit and photo-whore again before she took her fren's lorry back home while I waited for my trusty 111.

Yeah, summed up my day. Sorry no pics yet - we took one very interesting pic which I will certainly put it up here. LOL. Another time ba, goodnite pple...morrow need to work liao......

.LuKe.

Day 13 of Poxication

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired, fine

[CuRRent Song:] DC-10 - Flying High (Original Mix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Lotus Root Soup + Rice

Actually I'm quite blur liao, always backtracking the posts, but nvm....hahaha....

About today, I went out about 2+pm to town. Nowadays really getting lethagic, walk out to bus stop after makan from market den I already feel like taking cab to town -.- why such change sia~ but heng the end I took 111 to town. LOL...

Went to PC Bunk to hang ard about half hour b4 Sujun arrived. Watched her play Maple till 5+pm den pei her a bit and walked her to Cine at about 6pm. Den I went against orders and ate Yoshinoya...

Sin #1: Yoshinoya
Sin #2: Beef and Teriyaki Chicken. CHICKEN!!!
Sin #3: Cold Heaven & Earth Green Tea. COLD!!!

Oh well, what gives. I'm just trying NOT to be openly defying, and I'll still try. At least I drank mineral water while I was makaning lunch.

After that walked back to PS den hang a bit den come home with bro. Bathed den Maple, chatted wif Celena abt morrow's Career Fair. Oh, she ran out of ink for my Resume. Oh man...HENG got Huijing still awake, den I got her to print for me den I went upstairs to collect. Now leaving morrow to photostat...

...wait. Morrow is sunday...meaning?

Thot #1: Need go market with mummy @ 12+pm cos today didn't go. Den what time will I reach Suntec sia???
Thot #2: Need to photocopy the resume
Thot #3: Need to see doctor about my pox. ALMOST forgot about it.

It's going to be a day of planning. I'll be back to work on Monday though.

Did I mention that they waived off my medical leave for Monday - Wednesday to recognise my contribution to my work? That is way too cool! Which means...I STILL HAVE 10.5 days of annual leave! LOL!!!

Oh yeah, I ran out of luck for Maple Gachapon today. Didn't really get VERY good items, but oh well, it's LUCK.

Gonna rest soon. Oh yea, update my template to reflect Cellie's blog.

.LuKe.

Day 12 of poxication

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired

[CuRRent Song:] Mellodee Feat. Laura - Angel of Mine

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Wintermelon Soup + Rice

Here's some lyrics for all of you:

Angel of Mine
Originally sang by Monica

When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find
Angel of Mine

I look at you looking at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
Gonna love you boy you are so fine
Angel of Mine

How you changed my world you'll never know
I'm here for now, you helped me grow

Chorus:

You came into my life
Sent from above
When I lost the hope
You show my love
I'm checkin for you
Boy your right on time
Angel of Mine

Nothing means more to me then what we share
No one in this world can ever compare
Last night the way you moved is still on my mind
Angel of Mine

What you mean to me you'll never know
Deep inside I need to show

(Chorus)

I never knew I could feel each moment
As if they were new
Every breath that I take
The love that we make I only share it with you
You, You, You, You

When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find
Angel of Mine

(Chorus)

How you changed my world you'll never know
I'm here for now you helped me grow
I look at you looking at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
Checkin' for you boy your right on time
Angel of Mine

The lyrics are not bad to say the least.

Today went to look for Sujun as I heard she's not feeling well.

Really tired now...eyes slowly closing as I'm waiting for Celena to come online...*yawnz*...

Oh yah, my Bandit Lvl 54 liao......

Think I stop here...pox ah? Still same lor...more scabs dropping off my body, haha...

Something for you pple for bo liao sake...




.LuKe.

Day 10 & 11 of Poxication

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired, fine

[CuRRent Song:] DJ Valium - Doing It Again

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] "Gor" Fish + Rice

Morning went to see doctor and wait...backtracking really sucks, now I mixed up everything. Never mind....I think I'll forgo day 10 since it's nothing too much apart from pox clearing up.

Anyway, went to see doc in the morning...yeah, den it went like dis...

Doc: How are you? Still feeling bad?
Me: No, apart from the first few days when it's bad, now it's better.
Doc: What? It's still bad now?
Me: No...I mean first few days. It's better now apart from the 2 pox on the leg.

(points to ankle and foot)

Doc: Oh my, it means you have not fully recovered.
Me: Which means?
Doc: I think it might still be contagious. I should give you tomorrow MC.
Me: (...) Oh ok...den how? Means I cannot go out?
Doc: Not really. You must not go too crowded places with lots of people. To be exact, do not be too close to lots of people. Infection level is very low now but just in case.
Me: So means can go out in general but avoid close contact?
Doc: Yeah. Does your work need to work closely with people?
Me: Yeah, work close with pple, GSK. We first line support.
Doc: Ok lah den I give you until Sunday MC. Den u come back on Sunday ok? I write you letter.
Me: (thinking: letter?) Orh ok.
Doc: Meanwhile just apply calamine lotion.
Me: I've already stopped applying since it's not itchy. Only first few days itchy.
Doc: Never mind, just apply on those 2 pox that are still active.
Me: Ok...(do I need to?)

End of the thing. Was given MC till Sunday. In the end, the 2 poxes turned dark at the end of the day I came back.

Anyway went out walk a bit here and dere den come back. Wah, just these few hours I already super tired I took cab back on my last destination.

Oh well, Poxication over soon!!!

.LuKe.

Day 9 of Poxication

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] DJ Jason Chow - Masterplate Mighty Mix Volume 2 Disc 2

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Potato Soup

Thinking about how my pox is clearing up certainly makes me excited - I can finally go out soon! Then again, it reminds me that I'm going to work soon. DUH.

MC only until Thursday, so have to see what doc has to say about my condition to decide whether I can go out anot. Maybe I should hope I Friday I will have MC as well...else so sian, rest so long den have to work first day on a Friday. FRIDAY! STUPID LEH! Even though it's a Friday but confirm no mood lor...so sian...

If morrow go see doc den he say can go out liao...I think I will confirm go out have a breather lor...walk whole orchard without pple I also dun mind. Wah liew stay at home for 10 days really pain sia...butt pain head pain wateva also pain...hahaha...

Now onli left a few stubborn pox...let's see what doc has to say...

Not bad rite, got pox I everyday find something to blog? Now THAT'S bo liao. On a side note, My Bandit LVL 53 liao. SIAONESS.

.LuKe.

Day 8 of Poxication

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] Barcera - Secret of Love (Central Seven Club Remix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Chicken pox pills / Water

LOL

Today woke up rather late at 2pm, looked at my pox and am quite happy with myself. Much of the smaller poxes start to clear faster, while the bigger pox does appear to be clearing up as well. The big fat ones are losing steam apart from a few over at the legs. However just now I checked my legs and found signs of rashes...what's wrong?

I'm trying to resume much of my usual activities, and yeah I'm level 52 Bandit in Maple already. Haha...actually shld be resting soon...

Well...pox pox faster clear lah...hahaha...

.LuKe.

Day 7 of Poxication

[CuRRent MooD:] Neutrally fine

[CuRRent Song:] E-Type feat. Nana - When I Close My Eyes

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Cabbage with meat soup

SAME OLD ROUTINE! HAHAHAA...what else is new...? Nothing much different, today is second day of lazing on the bed refusing to wake up...hahaha...

Most pox still ard, the smaller ones are disappearing...and praying those on face faster disappear...else how I meet pple...?

Hahhaa...

Maple and maple...soon to be Lvl 52 liao...hahaha...

Den, yeah anyway, even though it might be a bit late but...

Happy birthday, Sujun.

.LuKe.

Day 6 of Poxication

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] Madonna - Into the Groove

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Strepsil Menthol

Okay it's STILL the same, eat sleep maple. Ok only difference was that I chatted with Celena on phone to help her pass time.

Pox is slowly recovering, I hope it could be faster though - it's getting irritating to be oh-so-careful about my own body movements. Imagine I have to go slow motion on removing and putting on clothes, sitting/lying down etc. - grrrr....

I'm more or less booked on my post-pox activities (LOL)...so far I have 2 bookings already, or tentative bookings I should say. Life becomes so uncertain nowadays there is no confirmation to anything and everything I do. It seems life will not rotate around myself anymore, but who cares. I just gonna do what I think and feel I will do, whether it works, whether it succeeds or what, I'm not gonna care.

Ok, a link for you readers for the day. Thanks Yvonne!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QOqXlbWf9Io

It certainly got me laughing.

.LuKe.

Day 5 of Poxication

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] No Music (copying songs)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Wintermelon soup

The usual wake up in the morning, eat medicine and continue to on comp....no.

Today I rested on bed till 11am, which is probably my first real "lai chuang" for this week. Had my brunch and found that I'm not exactly tired at all! Took a chance and bought x2 xp card 24 hours for today and played Maple.

The poxes are still clearing up little by little, and I hope to see them cleared real fast. They are really irritating to begin with. Cos of the pox, my face looks really terrible.

2 quotes pertaining to pox:

"I looked at my face and felt as though it got hit by a thousand pimples."
"Now it seems that both pox and pimple are fighting for space on my face."

The latter is real funny it seems.

Oh well, gonna rest soon. Nothing too special happened today =)

.LuKe.

Day 4 of Poxication - Depoxifying

[CuRRent MooD:] A lil tired

[CuRRent Song:] Oceanlab - Sky Falls Down (Armin van Buur Mix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Pox Pills / Plain Water

Woke up in the morning to take pills, toss n turn a bit and found that I'm unable to sleep so I woke up to use the comp. Realised my HR fren did not go to work either, chatted with her online a bit.

The routine's not too much different, eat slp maple blablabla...well, I did notice some of the minor poxes are starting to clear up. I look at my face...sigh...CMI. Horrendous. Worst ever seen. I better hope all those things clear up from my face else I really have a hard time meeting people up since I'm already as bad as I can be.

The tiredness is getting on me as I'm writing this.

Ok time to crash. Haha.

.LuKe.

Day 3 of Poxication

[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral

[CuRRent Song:] Karma - Everytime You Leave (Neno DJ Loco Loco Short Remix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Strepsil Menthol

It gets funny when you're actually backtracking the days instead of actually writing it on the day itself.

Nothing much, continual suffering, eat slp maple, exchange smses, msn chat....what else man? But one thing I found out was that my "headache" was partially caused by the pox residing on the "resting" areas of my head. What I mean is that when I lie on bed, there will be this area the head will rest on the pillow, the pox will be pressed on those areas, causing myself pain.

Nothing I can do about that for now, so I have to take my painkillers till the pox goes down. Or endurance is the key. I think I'll just take it at night. Nowadays it's hard to sleep at night also - I have to force myself to bed when I feel tired but when I'm on the bed I find that I cannot get to sleep at all. That feeling simply sucks to the extreme.

I'll also need to find a bit of time to replace my tagboard. That taggie board seems to be down in and out, might as well down for good. It's getting real irritating.

Beginning of Day 4, tired but feeling a lil better. Till next update.

.LuKe.

Day 2 of Poxication

[CuRRent MooD:] Weak but fine

[CuRRent Song:] None (Maplestory's background music?)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Water Chestnut / Water Chestnut drink

Where's day 1? Ehm...hehe ok I'll start with Day 1 but today is Day 2 so...

DAY 1

Fever persisted from Sunday night till Monday, and I've got the premonition It is coming. I haven't had such a fever for a longggg time...so it felt kinda unbearable at moments. However...upon looking at my mummy's efforts to keep me cool (honey drink) even in the wee hours (the ice in the hse was used up), somehow I felt so loved that my mummy has always been there for us.

Anyway, on Monday morning Malcolm msged me instructions of work but I realised I'm not even fit for work - giddiness, painful eyes, lethagic, headache, muscle aches...no way I can move to work. Contacted the necessary people to tell them I'm off to see a doctor while continue resting...and my mummy, poor her did not have a good nite of rest, continued to make the honey drink for me. I love you mummy!

Late morning, got my bro to accompany me to the doc. Doc only gave me headache medicine but 2 days of MC (just in case). Bought my usual packet of duck rice but realised my appetite had taken quite a hit as I was only able to finish half a packet. No choice...after eating, went to bed again.

Woke up in the afternoon and got my laptop on to connect back to GSK. Wow, the number of email are...howdy. Oh yeah, I should set my away from office - should do that soon. Anyway, went to close off some work-related stuff and chatted with my HR fren for a while. Dad bought back 2 coconuts to get the drink out into a cup and got me to drink it. Whew...that's a lot of liquids but I know I need it. After staying in the GSK network for some time (Kamisah needed some help), I turned it off and went to rest again.

Evening, woke up and switched on the PC, chatting with frens and eating my dinner - porridge with preserved cai xin. Oh well, what to do I'm sick. Finishing most stuff, I went to take a bath. Took off my clothes...

...oh shit.

Those things. On my arm. My body. Starting to get obvious.

Tio liao lor!

Bath finished and told my mum that I've contracted it (good thing to our opinion since it's better than contracting it years later). After mapling a little and stuff, I went back to bed.

DAY 2

Woke up in the morning, looked at myself - yeah confirm liao is The Pox. LOL. Then got up to clean up and went to the doc. Wow it was a long wait (like 5 patients) before it's my turn. Went in to tell the doc, the doc inspected me....yeah confirm is Chicken Pox. So he gave some advice blablabla, contacted GMP to make sure they cover the "quick recovery medicine" (which they did - I heard it costs about a hundred!) and yeah, I am a Certified Pox Carrier. (LOL) Walked to buy Chee Cheong Fun (with nothing but soy sauce) and the auntie asked if I had a stomach upset -.- and I replied "no, just not feeling well". Imagine if I tell her "oh I'm on chicken pox" LOL...

Reached home, apply calamine lotion and took the medicine. Wondering what is the "Wonder Medicine"? It's enclosed in a box of 70 tablets (wow) and take 5 times a day (WOW) two tablets everytime (Ooooh) so I'm like swallowing that much pills. So the usual things that EVERYONE repeated umpteen times (but thanks anyway)

No scratching (x dunno how many times)
Dun eat heaty food, oily food blabla (x dunno how many times from 2 persons)
Bath without soap (once for now)
Drink more water (just about the next thing to No Scratching)

Yeah. Haha...so meanwhile I'll be resting at home for 10 days without going out while my poor colleagues struggle for the FDA audit for GSK on the next week. JIAYOU HP Outsource! We are low-life forms aka ants but we can do it!!!

Besides...ants do a lot to the ecosystem, don't you think so?

That concludes Day 2 of Poxication. =) time for bed.

Anyway, an interesting link found by Sunshine. Anything to my name ~ duh

http://www.80stees.com/products/Dukes-Of-Hazzard-Luke-Duke-T-shirt.asp

.LuKe.

I think I'm poxicated

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine but sick

[CuRRent Song:] Fantasy Project - When I Fall In Love

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Guilin Gao

Yesterday tio fever....den today went c doctor...pox haven't come out...

Just now went to take bath...hmmm...saw something on my arm. And some other places.

I think I'm Poxicated.

.LuKe.

Mood goes on a coaster ride

[CuRRent MooD:] Extreme?

[CuRRent Song:] Lilu - Little Girl (Eiffel 65 Remix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Bee Hoon + Luncheon Meat + Fish Fillet / Soya Bean Milk

Well, I have to say that I've really been on a weird mood recently. A lot of things happened that I simply can't say much here, affecting my mood just that I have to go drastic measures to counter-effect the mood swing. Yet...I can't do anything to alleviate the root problem, I can only wait.

IMAGINE ME WAITING. DAMNIT.

Anyway, I got to know about the news and instantly there were 3 pple that appeared in my mind - Patricia, Michelle and Isabelle. Pat knew it along so she was advising me properly, while Michelle used her intelligence to guess it right and for Isabelle, it just went on her gut feeling. It seems weird they could know somehow, but I'm very happy they are very supportive of me.

Thanks for all the encouragement ladies =)

Sunshine was also trying to find out about the matter...told her a lil about it but she still seems to be little bothered about it...oh well, am I blessed or what. I really don't know what to say.

On that day, met up with Belle and we took Jap food in PS - costing over $60. Ouch.

Yesterday was real unstable mood @ workplace - almost argued with Malcolm over matters. I'm trying not to let it affect my work. Initially supposed to attend a birthday chalet held by Serene, Tammy's friend but my mood and headache did not allow me to carry on so I went back home first. Went smsing a few people and after quite a while I go town only to be meeting up with Belle's fren, Celena (or Celly in short - sounds like some musical instrument).

By the time we met up it was at Art Friend, a place I rarely lay my feet on (I'm hardly artistic or creative, fyi) to look for stuff. After that we went to Mos Burger and have a good chat and went walking a bit before we proceeded to go home with me sending her back to her place before I go back. Going her place reminds me of my army days! HAHAHA!!!

It's like late by the time I'm home.

Anyway, thanks Celena for making my evening nice.

Thanks Sunshine for crapping with me, all the sense and non-sense.

I thank Isabelle for accompanying me after taking her stuff from Serangoon, always believing that friends are worth it. You are worth it too!

A big hug for Michelle, who never knew what happened from the beginning but stood for me somehow, even after knowing the incident.

Patricia, thanks for all the advice and thoughts you have shared with me so far. It has been invaluable.

I thank everyone who tried. Oh yeah, thank you Lidia (another workplace Mapling fren) for even being concerned by sms-ing me to check on me.

On a note, when is my CHICKEN POX COMING???

.LuKe.

A Sunday morning in GSK

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] Soul Asylum - Runaway Train

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Carrot Cake / Teh Tarik

Trying to get up some Maple pics =)

On way to Orbis

Hiding behind and peeping =)

I used a Megaphone!

Smooching and leaving

Congrats with Candies

Congrats with Fireworks

Bear-headed Bride?


Chatting with the couple

Leaving the banquet

Waiting for the wedding

Say CHEESE!

Being in the middle is weird...


Someone is not smiling...


Hehe...

.LuKe.

The day people talked about my hair

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine

[CuRRent Song:] GSK - Server Room Noise (Fanout Remix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Fruit cake / Milo

Stupid topic rite? It's just about what happened yesterday at workplace...

Walked to my server room, Pin Pin called my name.

PP: Hey hey got something to ask you...

Finished what she wanted to ask...

PP: Hey your hair quite nice ah?
Me: Eh...ok lor
PP: Not bad lah, better than the one on your pass

(points to my pass)

Me: Aiya I that time not yet cut hair ma, now cut le
PP: This one look nicer lah
Me: Of cos lah, this one more expensive leh
PP: How much?
Me: Last time I cut barber ma, $10 nia...now cut Jean Yip $25 lor
PP: This one still better, yi fen qian yi fen huo (1 cent of cash for 1 cent of goods)
Me: Ok...

Went to HR side...

Jassamyn: She (PP) do valuation on you ah?
Me: Huh???

(Elizabeth called)

Liz: come come I ask u something...

(done)

Candy called...

Candy: Hey hey come come...

(done, walked over to Jassamyn)

Me: what u mean?
Jas: I mean PP was doing valuation on your hair, your shirt and your overall issit?
Me: Huh no lah...she only talking about my hair, about it look nice
Candy: yeah lah, you look much nicer like this leh!
Me: Of cos lah this hair more expensive
Cdy: How much?
Me: $25 lor
Cdy: Yeah it looks better on you!

(went over SJ to talk a bit and passed her something which made her squeal like a pig)

(walked into server room and did my ops)

Tim walked in...

Tim: Hey Luke! How have you been?
Me: Yeah fine, how about you?
Tim: Okay lah...hey, you look much younger ah? Your hair looks good on you.
Me: No lah, got white hair liao...
Tim: Got white hair? How come?
Me: Think is family lah...cos my bro also ard my age got white hair...
Tim: Aiya dun be modest lah, must be cos of GSK rite?
Me: ??????

(end of my hair story)

LOL stupid sia...

Hehe Maple Update: Bandit Lvl 45!

Oh well..things nowadays really getting real...unpredictable.

.LuKe.

Happiness? Priceless.

[CuRRent MooD:] Jolly

[CuRRent Song:] GSK - Noise of TC Server Room (Fanout Remix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Biscuits / Milo

Hahhaa...trust of me to put a nonsensical name for the song area. Haha.

One thing I love to do in life is to make the people around me happy. Nothing beats the happiness radiated from their smile and eyes. Really a joy to behold.

Ok that's all - updates if any. LOL.

.LuKe.

An early sunday morning

[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Sichuan Vege + Rice / Plain Water

Well now playing maple...hahaha...will post some pics if I have the time, but cos my current skin has a "limited" display size, I might consider or not posting them. LOL.

Just yesterday (friday to be exact) night I met up with Sunshine in the evening to see how she is. Well...I guess she's still living fine without me, which is comfort to know. Well...sometimes I'm just so afraid of hurting people...it will take time for me to heal from every hurt, whether is being inflicted on me or vice versa. It is so strange.

Life is going on a weird ride nowadays. Wonder if things will actually settle in life at all.

I hope I won't screw my life any further. I can't afford it anymore.

Tired.

.LuKe.

Wandering thoughts

[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral

[CuRRent Song:] Basic Element – This Must Be A Dream ‘2005 (Radio Edit)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Double Chocolate Frappe

Now taking a drink in McCafe, sipping their Double Chocolate Frappe which is currently “my drink” in this place.

They say being loved is a good thing, but do you feel that sometimes it does not bring you anywhere at all? I felt like that some point of time, and now I’m feeling it again. Seriously, I don’t think anyone can understand how I feel without knowing what has happened. Then again, I don’t wish anyone else to know what happened in any single case..it will cause quite a log of debate I believe.

Just had a game of DDR Extreme and PPP with workwear, how’s that? I don’t know of much people who does that (there are, and I know them), and it certainly make people think that I’m mad.

I think I’m seriously mad as well.

Everyday as I walk through this grim journey of darkness, I do not know what kind of things lay in store for me. I do not know if the light I see will aid me in my route to the unknown or simply blind me, making my voyage ever perilous.

Somehow, the kind of love unto me seems too puzzling to me, even thought-provoking. How did I get such kind of attention?

I’ve doubted my ability to love anymore. I can’t trust my own intuition and instinct anymore; I’m just walking and swaying about, wandering into the vast land of mystery.

I can’t exactly tell what’s right or wrong anymore; I’m just walking the way I want, not seriously thinking about grave consequences as I might endanger the people around me.

I was selfless on a selfish note, selfish on myself and now selfish without possible recognition of anything around me. I know I’m not myself anymore, and something which I didn’t want to happen had happened to me.

Yet I’m not pulling myself back from this plunge. It seems I WANTED this fall into the abyss. I refused the rope, the harnass, a ladder – I just wanted to fall deep and die when I reach the bottom – or get crushed by immerse pressure I put myself in while falling.

For those who are out of my life, you’re lucky you needn’t have to bother about me. For those who just came in, please take care and do pull yourself back and not to save me as I fell past your window.

If you think you’re the one who caused my current situation, don’t think so much about it. As I said, I chose my route and you needn’t have to account to anything. Just take good care of yourself and not let me pull you with me into the everlasting darkness.

Then again, I’m the one causing the trouble, so as to speak. How shall punishment and retribution get to me in time, I wonder.

I know I’m just being overly-critical of myself. Don’t worry, this is just what I call as a “neutral” post – no sadness, no happiness, just thoughts.

I’m just waiting for something good or bad to happen to me so I can change my course. Till then, I’m on a Neverending Dream. =)

.LuKe.

Thanks for the love everyone

[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

With quotation from Celena's blog, thanks everyone for the love you showered unto me. That previous entry was only a rant but turned out I had quite some response. I really have to count my blessings in the darkness of days I stay.

I'll resolve the issue with my bro, and well though those who know me will know what kind of outcome it will be, but oh well, what to do, one is my bro other is my fren.

Will update again when possible.

.LuKe.

What I like, what I want...?

[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral, little affected by previous entry

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Hmmm...this is quite a bo liao entry..."inspired" by a lady I saw in the MRT. She kinda reminded me what I like and what I want.

Material Wants:

1) More formal clothing
2) More clothes
3) Money (obvious, but is not exactly desperate want)
4) A good phone (in the ranks of N series (function, not fault), O2 Stealth etc.)

What I like/don't mind in a female (Don't laugh and don't discriminate):

1) Don't mind wearing skirts. In fact, like to wear skirts. I always think it brings a feminine touch out of them. Next point will re-iterate current point...
2) Legs. Whether they wear skirts or shorts, it brings out their legs. I'm not those slim-legs=swee kind of legs man, I appreciate many variations.
3) A bit "bah-bah" (having a bit of "meat" ard) is ok, just don't be oversized. In fact, many of my gfs were on a bit weight side, but I don't mind since hugging them is real good.
4) Does not look like an alien (Barney??? LOL)
5) I like cute gers much more than the chio kind. Usually cute gers are easier to communicate compared to the chio ones - the latter often have attitude problem. Some cutes gers are a bit on the weight side, and they are certainly much more humble. I like humble girls.
6) Average dress sense. Please vary your wardrobe. I know my wardrobe sucks and I don't need a second person to remind me there's another split image of myself.

Wonder why I came up with all these? I saw an average-looking woman with decent legs (to my opinion, since her legs ain't the slim kind) while in the MRT today. Hehe.

See ya ard till next update. Finally a casual update. =P

.LuKe.

It's very late now

[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral

[CuRRent Song:] Guang Liang - Yue Ding

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Fish / Teh Peng

Well...actually it's very late now and I should be slping but...

Just roughly go thru wat happened ytd.

I believe many of you who had known me for some time knows just how much I regards my friends, how much I protect my frens and godsisters. It seems that he had really crossed my boundary and I'm still restraining myself.

What happened was that on one saturday, my bro smsed me whether I have $20 to spare cos our fren needs it. Initially I wanted to decline, but upon seeing it's a particular fren's request, I hesitated. I asked him why she did not approach me herself and he said she did request thru him but he did not have the cash so he approached me instead. Being doubtful, I asked him to tell her to msg me the account number. She did, so I thought it was true...or so I thought.

That day after the transfer, I went down to the usual haunt and checked wif her if the money was deposited and she said yes, it did. She continued her game without saying when she will return - quite unlike her style, but probably cos she was busy I didn't really bother her with it. Budget is rather low dis month so I smsed her the next day or so asking when she will return the money. No reply...never mind, it's rather normal since she do miss sms at times. On that night, she was on MSN and asked me a funny question, about something to do with return of money, but vice versa. I was like ?????? so I asked her but she did not respond.

Ytd she msged me if my bro said that she was the one needing money and I said yeah, if I did not misintepret the SMS my bro left for me. I double-checked...yeah no, I doubt I misintepreted. It turned out that my bro owed her some money and being down on resources, she asked my bro for the money. He did not have any, so he asked from me. I transferred, thinking SHE was the one borrowing. Yes she needed the money, but it was actually my bro who caused the problems. I was like WTF. WTF!!!!! I can't believe my bro did that. She is already bloody pitiful, no family le, money also using what her decreased mum left for her, in Singapore also living under someone else's roof and without a job...den my bro still dare to borrow that much money from her???

JUST WHAT IS THAT BLOODY USELESS BROTHER OF MINE THINKING? HAS HE GONE BONKERS???

He wanna screw half of my life upside down, I already resigned to it. He screwed my family upside down, that I have nothing to say....BUT I can't stand MY FRIENDS BEING PART OF HIS VICTIMS as well.

Sadly said, I believe her much more than my bro...since he had already disappointed those that had faith (may still be hoping) in him many many countless times.

This being said, I may still clear part of the debts for him...to be exact, I'm giving face to my friend who was an unfortunate victim. There is no single way I think he can return the money, and my friend is prepared to give up this friendship. It sounds bad but if you're at the end of it, you will understand why.

Borrow money. Don't return. Then twist the words. I can't believe he did it right in front of me and my friend.

He owes me an explanation.

.LuKe.

P.S. Post created at 1+am but edited the next day.

VERY VERY PISSED OFF

[CuRRent MooD:] Unhappy, pissed off

[CuRRent Song:] Infernal - Keen on Disco (Extended Mix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Lunch @ GSK

I am so fucking pissed off by that someone in my household. I better wish what I heard ain't true at all.

.LuKe.

Life changes...(Part 2)

[CuRRent MooD:] PISSED OFF

[CuRRent Song:] DUH

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] DUH

Paste almost everything done...IE CRASHED.

FUCK.

Wateva.



Scented paper I used last time for writing letters.





Letters and more letters.



The gift I tried to hide away from prying eyes. It says "I Love You".





More gifts...



Her dad's namecard that time.





Some letters she wrote.



A "poem" I wrote for her while she's down.



A poem she wrote in response of mine (not related to the one on top).



A small birthday gift.













Apology snippets for her cousin who "abused" me.



Another apology.



A bookmark she gave to me.



Xmas card.





My birthday card...



Words I held dear in my heart for a long time......

Yeah done. Haha.

Anyway life changes...I will live in the darkness of the night, hiding away from the Sunshine I once held on. Neverending dreams I will hold on to.

.LuKe.

Life changes...(part 1)

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, energetic (but a bit sianz)

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

Initially thought half day leave...but ended...hmmm...got to help out cos Daniel on MC...bo bian! Still trying to negotiate.

Saw my title? My life will change from now...cos I started to dump my past.

Yesterday night I dumped my past into the trash bin...trash chute to be exact. Part 2 of this post I will share some pics with all of you. It will not be clear, you can go around guessing what those stuff are, but yea, I threw the gifts that "she" gave me. Of course, I talked to myself before I threw those gifts away...it was more of a final message to whatever and whoever...these stuff held zero significance now that she's married happily ever after.

I remembered those days I hid those gifts for fear someone might know. I remembered my friends wide-eyed when they knew that gift came from a girl. I remembered how I was titled "Love Saint - Qing2 Shen4" in Sec school just because of her. The ending was not good, the post-mortem was worse, the finale was a killer...but all these is part of my past, and I have to let go.

I do not want to see those things anymore, at least physically.

Once I brace up to remove all these things, I will become a stronger man. Hopefully. LOL.

More updates if possible.

.LuKe.

A weekend just passed like that...

[CuRRent MooD:] Tired, thinking

[CuRRent Song:] Ozi meets Tom Mountain - Dreams

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Black Bean Soup / Pokka Green Tea

My first trip to Dbl O is well, not the best but hahaha...it's ok.

I guess a lot of things in my mind lately.

I really wanna sort out my thoughts quickly so I can attend to the bigger issues in my life.

Time is not on my side.

I think...there are things to change in my life...

A pic for you pple:



That's Belle's fren and me. Nice cute ger eh? My type - opps!!! HAHAHA

Dun jealous woh, Sunshine. :P

.LuKe.

A neverending dream, a dream of you~

[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, hyper, happy, awake (wow)

[CuRRent Song:] None

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo

My mood is good, but that nudging headache is still around. It does not come like in waves, but rather like a ball in the head, once I shake my head I'll notice it.

It's end of a month, beginning of another, end of a week and coming to weekend. I'm supposed to have some stuff coming on, but it seems nothing is 100%.

Sat nite is supposed to be with Isabelle for her bday, but I have not got a response from her.

Oh well, hope everything works out.

[ Update ]

Received response from Belle to meet up at certain time and place (forgot but in handphone). Hehe ok so it's confirmed.

Haiz...I am really a forgetful nervous wheck I think one day I will cause my team to die sia...got one vendor I Monday arrange Wed come but Wed I MC, den I arrange today but today I tio held up by another vendor forget to inform my team!!! COCK UP ME!!! KILL ME PLEASE. Sigh. Like dis how my team can work??? Haiz...lousy me.

.LuKe.

Blogskin 7.0 is up

[CuRRent MooD:] Okay

[CuRRent Song:] Cascada - A Neverending Dream (Deepforces Remix)

[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Lots

As per title, lol

Spent half a day cos I've not done blogskin for a long time. Oh well =)

.LuKe.