[CuRRent MooD:] Fine but tired
[CuRRent Song:] DC-10 - Flying High (Original Mix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Some vege soup
This morning reached home at about 9+? Went to UOB to create a new savings account and had the CSO explain stuff, and off I'm home to configure the wireless router. Damnit, I took like 4 hours to even finally have the job done, only to find that the signal ain't stable! Configuring the wireless router for an ADSL connection is really troublesome to say the least. Anyway, I repositioned the router and it seems to be better, now my PC and lappie can work together =)
Went out at abt 3? Yeah I guess so - to sell the phone and enquired about Nokia 5300 which costs only $390 - quite cheap eh?? After that I took bus down to PS, den I recalled there's free shuttle -.- nvm, went down to Zone-X and saw my bro, onli to have Berlinda called and complained blablabla for half an hour or so. After that I hang ard a bit and it was abt time to meet up wif Cellie @ her workplace.
Met up wif Cellie who wore purple and pink top wif white polka dots skirt. I have to say not all girls can wear polka dots and also the type of skirt that Cellie wears (those ehm how should I describe...also dunno...maybe Cellie can help me :P...UPDATE: Cellie said it's a Balloon Skirt), but she fits in it quite well. Anyway, we went over Paragon to reserve 2 seats for Sushi Tei, then went shopping (oh yea shopping, since she did buy something) till ard 8 whr we went back to take jap food. I took Beef Udon (forgot the name, she's too good wif jap and that got me wondering the whole time...UPDATE: It's a Niku Udon, courtesy reminder of Cellie) and she got herself ordering a range of food and her first "appetizer" got her smiling from the beginning - salmon. Oh well...it's a little over $40 but it's affordable, since it's Jap.
After finishing the food, I brought her over to a spot in orchard whr less people knows about it and we watched Kung Pow and Kylie's Especially For You with Kermit the Frog. Yeah, after that I sent her home in a cab.
That sums up my day, and another day is coming.
.LuKe.
Saturday, November 04, 2006
Thursday, November 02, 2006
It's a Thursday @ GeeAssKay
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired but fine
[CuRRent Song:] What else
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
Wah..these 2 days not much time to blog, the day b4 ytd I just went online and had to handle Maple auctions, maple meimei, maple buddy and also msn chat...den also my usual stuff like mails etc. hahaa...really not much time to update. I onli managed to grab the bloctopus pic from Cellie's Frenster to post it here, else I seriously don't have much time to.
Yesterday went out with Belle to Marina Square to shop...well, we only went ONE shop and spent more than an hour dere dishing and with her trying out probably like 10 over pieces of clothing. Ended up she bought only 1 which costs abt $80+...wow. After that went to find place to makan and we ended up at Changing Appetites (thx Sujun for reminding, and Cellie this is the full name for the acronym CA) and I ordered TLB (Tender Loving Beef) while she ordered a Mushroom dish (both spags). We sat there chatting till 10+ b4 I sent her home and sent myself home with a cab.
Reached home, den noticed something unusual so called Cellie jus in case. No answer, hmmm so I left voicemail. Den she called back abt 5-10 mins later den claim I sounded gan chiong. Got meh? Dun have lah...LOL. Den continued to stay online to do maple auctions and also to upload some pics to my Friendster Album.
Den zzz...
Today is clear shit day. Hope can clear finish. Haha.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] What else
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
Wah..these 2 days not much time to blog, the day b4 ytd I just went online and had to handle Maple auctions, maple meimei, maple buddy and also msn chat...den also my usual stuff like mails etc. hahaa...really not much time to update. I onli managed to grab the bloctopus pic from Cellie's Frenster to post it here, else I seriously don't have much time to.
Yesterday went out with Belle to Marina Square to shop...well, we only went ONE shop and spent more than an hour dere dishing and with her trying out probably like 10 over pieces of clothing. Ended up she bought only 1 which costs abt $80+...wow. After that went to find place to makan and we ended up at Changing Appetites (thx Sujun for reminding, and Cellie this is the full name for the acronym CA) and I ordered TLB (Tender Loving Beef) while she ordered a Mushroom dish (both spags). We sat there chatting till 10+ b4 I sent her home and sent myself home with a cab.
Reached home, den noticed something unusual so called Cellie jus in case. No answer, hmmm so I left voicemail. Den she called back abt 5-10 mins later den claim I sounded gan chiong. Got meh? Dun have lah...LOL. Den continued to stay online to do maple auctions and also to upload some pics to my Friendster Album.
Den zzz...
Today is clear shit day. Hope can clear finish. Haha.
.LuKe.
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Presenting the Bloctopus Wannabes.
[CuRRent MooD:] Fine
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Spiced beef + tomato hot dogs / HL Milk
Presenting to you...
The Bloctopus WANNABES! =)
Hahaha...update later, now working.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Spiced beef + tomato hot dogs / HL Milk
Presenting to you...
The Bloctopus WANNABES! =)
Hahaha...update later, now working.
.LuKe.
Monday, October 30, 2006
Post-Pox Work Day 1
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired but fine
[CuRRent Song:] Groove Coverage - Let It Be (Axel Konrad Remix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Fishball Noodles / HL Milk
Oh well, it's really tired going back to work after a 2-week rest at home from Pox. I guess I managed quite well, but I believe tomorrow will be more busy as Malcolm will be on leave and Kamisah on half day. It's work after all, and I'll manage it.
I guess my recent week or so has been ok to say the least, life still stablizing to no known grounds. Things might be good or bad, and although I'm optimistic in nature sometimes I can't help but feeling that bad things will soon follow that will dampen my mood again. I understand the worst has not come, and I should always expect it.
Let me just hope that the good will come while I will be able to manage the bad pretty well. How, I ask - that remains something for myself to know and myself to find out. Haha.
[Update - 2127 Hours]
Actually there's nothing much to blog about, just that somehow I have this weird feeling in my heart. Maybe it's a sense of loss and found (that's NOT a typo) - I felt I seemed to have lost something, and seemed to have found something.
The thing I lost - am I to find it back? The thing I found - am I afraid to lose it?
I know I have to remain as what I am so people know me as me, not as an image or a projection of someone I wished I am. I do not know if I am to find back the thing I lost, but I hope I won't lose the thing I found.
I don't wanna lose happiness and I'm grabbing hard on it - hope it's not too hard.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Groove Coverage - Let It Be (Axel Konrad Remix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Fishball Noodles / HL Milk
Oh well, it's really tired going back to work after a 2-week rest at home from Pox. I guess I managed quite well, but I believe tomorrow will be more busy as Malcolm will be on leave and Kamisah on half day. It's work after all, and I'll manage it.
I guess my recent week or so has been ok to say the least, life still stablizing to no known grounds. Things might be good or bad, and although I'm optimistic in nature sometimes I can't help but feeling that bad things will soon follow that will dampen my mood again. I understand the worst has not come, and I should always expect it.
Let me just hope that the good will come while I will be able to manage the bad pretty well. How, I ask - that remains something for myself to know and myself to find out. Haha.
[Update - 2127 Hours]
Actually there's nothing much to blog about, just that somehow I have this weird feeling in my heart. Maybe it's a sense of loss and found (that's NOT a typo) - I felt I seemed to have lost something, and seemed to have found something.
The thing I lost - am I to find it back? The thing I found - am I afraid to lose it?
I know I have to remain as what I am so people know me as me, not as an image or a projection of someone I wished I am. I do not know if I am to find back the thing I lost, but I hope I won't lose the thing I found.
I don't wanna lose happiness and I'm grabbing hard on it - hope it's not too hard.
.LuKe.
Sunday, October 29, 2006
Day 14, the final day
[CuRRent MooD:] Fine
[CuRRent Song:] Barcera - Secret of Love (Central Seven Club Remix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Fish + Rice
Went to see the doctor nearing noon time, and wow there were like 5 pple in queue. Went to photocopy my resume, den went to makan, den went back. Still need to wait. After going in, den come out in 5 mins. -.- den officially I'm cleared!
After that went on my way to take train to City Hall and waited for Celena to meet me. Wow, from the time I reach till the time we meet is like almost 45 mins - 1 hour but also cannot blame her cos something went wrong wif her "transport ability" and dragged everything. Oh well it's common to wait for a lady so off we go to Suntec.
Walked to Suntec and got those much pple giving away flyers and stuff, and we managed to reach the exhibition hall. Managed to look for the forms to fill, we turned to each other and asked "Do you have a pen?" - haha, confirm same reaction. Walked to the side and I approached the reg counter for a spare pen which they had and got Cellie to start writing. After that I wrote, den she went to the Ladies while I waited. Some stupid thing happened - a guy walked over and asked "Sorry can we have spare forms-" and realised I'm just a visitor and quicky reacted "oh sorry!"...kns, jus cos I carry a stupid file with the forms = I am a form distributor? GRRR!!!
Ok got everything done and got a stupid JobsCentral red bag and some stupid stuff, den walked in. Hmmm. It's like 1/3 filled with booths, pple are ok crowd, den ok lor...walk ard aimlessly but Cellie tried to walk wif a bit more purpose and got a bit of chat wif the pple dere and got some info. After walking like half hour we walked out of the place...ended up our day became Window Shopping day as she was walking around trying to look for winterwear (going Japan end-year, so envious!) and also did a bit of window-shopping for myself, and looking a bit of gadgets here and dere. She seemed interested in the new pink iPod Nano which minimum is 4GB in size. After a bit more window-shopping @ Suntec, we walked over to MS which will have MORE shops for her. MS is ladies heaven sia.
Ok, continued the window-shopping @ MS, den after walking so much and walking thru all the cute stuff and everything, it's like still so early in the day so I suggested a movie. We decided on Death Note and after buying the tics, we still had 2 hours to go. OMG...den we went walking a bit more and then went to the foodcourt to have our dinner. We sat the "Al Fresco" (how do you spell that) that oversees the Esplanade and CBD (which she commented she saw her company), and we bought food. Oh well I've sinned again by eating Chicken Baked rice. LOL. Being a phototaking princess, she decides to whip out her cam and took pics of both of us. I'll post once she's done wif it.
Off the movies we went. Death Note is not too bad, a lot of my guesses actually went wrong so it's a good plot. It's ard 9+ the moment we were out, so we went to Esplanade to chat a bit and photo-whore again before she took her fren's lorry back home while I waited for my trusty 111.
Yeah, summed up my day. Sorry no pics yet - we took one very interesting pic which I will certainly put it up here. LOL. Another time ba, goodnite pple...morrow need to work liao......
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Barcera - Secret of Love (Central Seven Club Remix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Fish + Rice
Went to see the doctor nearing noon time, and wow there were like 5 pple in queue. Went to photocopy my resume, den went to makan, den went back. Still need to wait. After going in, den come out in 5 mins. -.- den officially I'm cleared!
After that went on my way to take train to City Hall and waited for Celena to meet me. Wow, from the time I reach till the time we meet is like almost 45 mins - 1 hour but also cannot blame her cos something went wrong wif her "transport ability" and dragged everything. Oh well it's common to wait for a lady so off we go to Suntec.
Walked to Suntec and got those much pple giving away flyers and stuff, and we managed to reach the exhibition hall. Managed to look for the forms to fill, we turned to each other and asked "Do you have a pen?" - haha, confirm same reaction. Walked to the side and I approached the reg counter for a spare pen which they had and got Cellie to start writing. After that I wrote, den she went to the Ladies while I waited. Some stupid thing happened - a guy walked over and asked "Sorry can we have spare forms-" and realised I'm just a visitor and quicky reacted "oh sorry!"...kns, jus cos I carry a stupid file with the forms = I am a form distributor? GRRR!!!
Ok got everything done and got a stupid JobsCentral red bag and some stupid stuff, den walked in. Hmmm. It's like 1/3 filled with booths, pple are ok crowd, den ok lor...walk ard aimlessly but Cellie tried to walk wif a bit more purpose and got a bit of chat wif the pple dere and got some info. After walking like half hour we walked out of the place...ended up our day became Window Shopping day as she was walking around trying to look for winterwear (going Japan end-year, so envious!) and also did a bit of window-shopping for myself, and looking a bit of gadgets here and dere. She seemed interested in the new pink iPod Nano which minimum is 4GB in size. After a bit more window-shopping @ Suntec, we walked over to MS which will have MORE shops for her. MS is ladies heaven sia.
Ok, continued the window-shopping @ MS, den after walking so much and walking thru all the cute stuff and everything, it's like still so early in the day so I suggested a movie. We decided on Death Note and after buying the tics, we still had 2 hours to go. OMG...den we went walking a bit more and then went to the foodcourt to have our dinner. We sat the "Al Fresco" (how do you spell that) that oversees the Esplanade and CBD (which she commented she saw her company), and we bought food. Oh well I've sinned again by eating Chicken Baked rice. LOL. Being a phototaking princess, she decides to whip out her cam and took pics of both of us. I'll post once she's done wif it.
Off the movies we went. Death Note is not too bad, a lot of my guesses actually went wrong so it's a good plot. It's ard 9+ the moment we were out, so we went to Esplanade to chat a bit and photo-whore again before she took her fren's lorry back home while I waited for my trusty 111.
Yeah, summed up my day. Sorry no pics yet - we took one very interesting pic which I will certainly put it up here. LOL. Another time ba, goodnite pple...morrow need to work liao......
.LuKe.
Saturday, October 28, 2006
Day 13 of Poxication
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired, fine
[CuRRent Song:] DC-10 - Flying High (Original Mix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Lotus Root Soup + Rice
Actually I'm quite blur liao, always backtracking the posts, but nvm....hahaha....
About today, I went out about 2+pm to town. Nowadays really getting lethagic, walk out to bus stop after makan from market den I already feel like taking cab to town -.- why such change sia~ but heng the end I took 111 to town. LOL...
Went to PC Bunk to hang ard about half hour b4 Sujun arrived. Watched her play Maple till 5+pm den pei her a bit and walked her to Cine at about 6pm. Den I went against orders and ate Yoshinoya...
Sin #1: Yoshinoya
Sin #2: Beef and Teriyaki Chicken. CHICKEN!!!
Sin #3: Cold Heaven & Earth Green Tea. COLD!!!
Oh well, what gives. I'm just trying NOT to be openly defying, and I'll still try. At least I drank mineral water while I was makaning lunch.
After that walked back to PS den hang a bit den come home with bro. Bathed den Maple, chatted wif Celena abt morrow's Career Fair. Oh, she ran out of ink for my Resume. Oh man...HENG got Huijing still awake, den I got her to print for me den I went upstairs to collect. Now leaving morrow to photostat...
...wait. Morrow is sunday...meaning?
Thot #1: Need go market with mummy @ 12+pm cos today didn't go. Den what time will I reach Suntec sia???
Thot #2: Need to photocopy the resume
Thot #3: Need to see doctor about my pox. ALMOST forgot about it.
It's going to be a day of planning. I'll be back to work on Monday though.
Did I mention that they waived off my medical leave for Monday - Wednesday to recognise my contribution to my work? That is way too cool! Which means...I STILL HAVE 10.5 days of annual leave! LOL!!!
Oh yeah, I ran out of luck for Maple Gachapon today. Didn't really get VERY good items, but oh well, it's LUCK.
Gonna rest soon. Oh yea, update my template to reflect Cellie's blog.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] DC-10 - Flying High (Original Mix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Lotus Root Soup + Rice
Actually I'm quite blur liao, always backtracking the posts, but nvm....hahaha....
About today, I went out about 2+pm to town. Nowadays really getting lethagic, walk out to bus stop after makan from market den I already feel like taking cab to town -.- why such change sia~ but heng the end I took 111 to town. LOL...
Went to PC Bunk to hang ard about half hour b4 Sujun arrived. Watched her play Maple till 5+pm den pei her a bit and walked her to Cine at about 6pm. Den I went against orders and ate Yoshinoya...
Sin #1: Yoshinoya
Sin #2: Beef and Teriyaki Chicken. CHICKEN!!!
Sin #3: Cold Heaven & Earth Green Tea. COLD!!!
Oh well, what gives. I'm just trying NOT to be openly defying, and I'll still try. At least I drank mineral water while I was makaning lunch.
After that walked back to PS den hang a bit den come home with bro. Bathed den Maple, chatted wif Celena abt morrow's Career Fair. Oh, she ran out of ink for my Resume. Oh man...HENG got Huijing still awake, den I got her to print for me den I went upstairs to collect. Now leaving morrow to photostat...
...wait. Morrow is sunday...meaning?
Thot #1: Need go market with mummy @ 12+pm cos today didn't go. Den what time will I reach Suntec sia???
Thot #2: Need to photocopy the resume
Thot #3: Need to see doctor about my pox. ALMOST forgot about it.
It's going to be a day of planning. I'll be back to work on Monday though.
Did I mention that they waived off my medical leave for Monday - Wednesday to recognise my contribution to my work? That is way too cool! Which means...I STILL HAVE 10.5 days of annual leave! LOL!!!
Oh yeah, I ran out of luck for Maple Gachapon today. Didn't really get VERY good items, but oh well, it's LUCK.
Gonna rest soon. Oh yea, update my template to reflect Cellie's blog.
.LuKe.
Friday, October 27, 2006
Day 12 of poxication
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired
[CuRRent Song:] Mellodee Feat. Laura - Angel of Mine
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Wintermelon Soup + Rice
Here's some lyrics for all of you:
Angel of Mine
Originally sang by Monica
When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find
Angel of Mine
I look at you looking at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
Gonna love you boy you are so fine
Angel of Mine
How you changed my world you'll never know
I'm here for now, you helped me grow
Chorus:
You came into my life
Sent from above
When I lost the hope
You show my love
I'm checkin for you
Boy your right on time
Angel of Mine
Nothing means more to me then what we share
No one in this world can ever compare
Last night the way you moved is still on my mind
Angel of Mine
What you mean to me you'll never know
Deep inside I need to show
(Chorus)
I never knew I could feel each moment
As if they were new
Every breath that I take
The love that we make I only share it with you
You, You, You, You
When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find
Angel of Mine
(Chorus)
How you changed my world you'll never know
I'm here for now you helped me grow
I look at you looking at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
Checkin' for you boy your right on time
Angel of Mine
The lyrics are not bad to say the least.
Today went to look for Sujun as I heard she's not feeling well.
Really tired now...eyes slowly closing as I'm waiting for Celena to come online...*yawnz*...
Oh yah, my Bandit Lvl 54 liao......
Think I stop here...pox ah? Still same lor...more scabs dropping off my body, haha...
Something for you pple for bo liao sake...
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Mellodee Feat. Laura - Angel of Mine
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Wintermelon Soup + Rice
Here's some lyrics for all of you:
Angel of Mine
Originally sang by Monica
When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find
Angel of Mine
I look at you looking at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
Gonna love you boy you are so fine
Angel of Mine
How you changed my world you'll never know
I'm here for now, you helped me grow
Chorus:
You came into my life
Sent from above
When I lost the hope
You show my love
I'm checkin for you
Boy your right on time
Angel of Mine
Nothing means more to me then what we share
No one in this world can ever compare
Last night the way you moved is still on my mind
Angel of Mine
What you mean to me you'll never know
Deep inside I need to show
(Chorus)
I never knew I could feel each moment
As if they were new
Every breath that I take
The love that we make I only share it with you
You, You, You, You
When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find
Angel of Mine
(Chorus)
How you changed my world you'll never know
I'm here for now you helped me grow
I look at you looking at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
Checkin' for you boy your right on time
Angel of Mine
The lyrics are not bad to say the least.
Today went to look for Sujun as I heard she's not feeling well.
Really tired now...eyes slowly closing as I'm waiting for Celena to come online...*yawnz*...
Oh yah, my Bandit Lvl 54 liao......
Think I stop here...pox ah? Still same lor...more scabs dropping off my body, haha...
Something for you pple for bo liao sake...
.LuKe.
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Day 10 & 11 of Poxication
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired, fine
[CuRRent Song:] DJ Valium - Doing It Again
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] "Gor" Fish + Rice
Morning went to see doctor and wait...backtracking really sucks, now I mixed up everything. Never mind....I think I'll forgo day 10 since it's nothing too much apart from pox clearing up.
Anyway, went to see doc in the morning...yeah, den it went like dis...
Doc: How are you? Still feeling bad?
Me: No, apart from the first few days when it's bad, now it's better.
Doc: What? It's still bad now?
Me: No...I mean first few days. It's better now apart from the 2 pox on the leg.
(points to ankle and foot)
Doc: Oh my, it means you have not fully recovered.
Me: Which means?
Doc: I think it might still be contagious. I should give you tomorrow MC.
Me: (...) Oh ok...den how? Means I cannot go out?
Doc: Not really. You must not go too crowded places with lots of people. To be exact, do not be too close to lots of people. Infection level is very low now but just in case.
Me: So means can go out in general but avoid close contact?
Doc: Yeah. Does your work need to work closely with people?
Me: Yeah, work close with pple, GSK. We first line support.
Doc: Ok lah den I give you until Sunday MC. Den u come back on Sunday ok? I write you letter.
Me: (thinking: letter?) Orh ok.
Doc: Meanwhile just apply calamine lotion.
Me: I've already stopped applying since it's not itchy. Only first few days itchy.
Doc: Never mind, just apply on those 2 pox that are still active.
Me: Ok...(do I need to?)
End of the thing. Was given MC till Sunday. In the end, the 2 poxes turned dark at the end of the day I came back.
Anyway went out walk a bit here and dere den come back. Wah, just these few hours I already super tired I took cab back on my last destination.
Oh well, Poxication over soon!!!
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] DJ Valium - Doing It Again
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] "Gor" Fish + Rice
Morning went to see doctor and wait...backtracking really sucks, now I mixed up everything. Never mind....I think I'll forgo day 10 since it's nothing too much apart from pox clearing up.
Anyway, went to see doc in the morning...yeah, den it went like dis...
Doc: How are you? Still feeling bad?
Me: No, apart from the first few days when it's bad, now it's better.
Doc: What? It's still bad now?
Me: No...I mean first few days. It's better now apart from the 2 pox on the leg.
(points to ankle and foot)
Doc: Oh my, it means you have not fully recovered.
Me: Which means?
Doc: I think it might still be contagious. I should give you tomorrow MC.
Me: (...) Oh ok...den how? Means I cannot go out?
Doc: Not really. You must not go too crowded places with lots of people. To be exact, do not be too close to lots of people. Infection level is very low now but just in case.
Me: So means can go out in general but avoid close contact?
Doc: Yeah. Does your work need to work closely with people?
Me: Yeah, work close with pple, GSK. We first line support.
Doc: Ok lah den I give you until Sunday MC. Den u come back on Sunday ok? I write you letter.
Me: (thinking: letter?) Orh ok.
Doc: Meanwhile just apply calamine lotion.
Me: I've already stopped applying since it's not itchy. Only first few days itchy.
Doc: Never mind, just apply on those 2 pox that are still active.
Me: Ok...(do I need to?)
End of the thing. Was given MC till Sunday. In the end, the 2 poxes turned dark at the end of the day I came back.
Anyway went out walk a bit here and dere den come back. Wah, just these few hours I already super tired I took cab back on my last destination.
Oh well, Poxication over soon!!!
.LuKe.
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Day 9 of Poxication
[CuRRent MooD:] Fine
[CuRRent Song:] DJ Jason Chow - Masterplate Mighty Mix Volume 2 Disc 2
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Potato Soup
Thinking about how my pox is clearing up certainly makes me excited - I can finally go out soon! Then again, it reminds me that I'm going to work soon. DUH.
MC only until Thursday, so have to see what doc has to say about my condition to decide whether I can go out anot. Maybe I should hope I Friday I will have MC as well...else so sian, rest so long den have to work first day on a Friday. FRIDAY! STUPID LEH! Even though it's a Friday but confirm no mood lor...so sian...
If morrow go see doc den he say can go out liao...I think I will confirm go out have a breather lor...walk whole orchard without pple I also dun mind. Wah liew stay at home for 10 days really pain sia...butt pain head pain wateva also pain...hahaha...
Now onli left a few stubborn pox...let's see what doc has to say...
Not bad rite, got pox I everyday find something to blog? Now THAT'S bo liao. On a side note, My Bandit LVL 53 liao. SIAONESS.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] DJ Jason Chow - Masterplate Mighty Mix Volume 2 Disc 2
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Potato Soup
Thinking about how my pox is clearing up certainly makes me excited - I can finally go out soon! Then again, it reminds me that I'm going to work soon. DUH.
MC only until Thursday, so have to see what doc has to say about my condition to decide whether I can go out anot. Maybe I should hope I Friday I will have MC as well...else so sian, rest so long den have to work first day on a Friday. FRIDAY! STUPID LEH! Even though it's a Friday but confirm no mood lor...so sian...
If morrow go see doc den he say can go out liao...I think I will confirm go out have a breather lor...walk whole orchard without pple I also dun mind. Wah liew stay at home for 10 days really pain sia...butt pain head pain wateva also pain...hahaha...
Now onli left a few stubborn pox...let's see what doc has to say...
Not bad rite, got pox I everyday find something to blog? Now THAT'S bo liao. On a side note, My Bandit LVL 53 liao. SIAONESS.
.LuKe.
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Day 8 of Poxication
[CuRRent MooD:] Fine
[CuRRent Song:] Barcera - Secret of Love (Central Seven Club Remix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Chicken pox pills / Water
LOL
Today woke up rather late at 2pm, looked at my pox and am quite happy with myself. Much of the smaller poxes start to clear faster, while the bigger pox does appear to be clearing up as well. The big fat ones are losing steam apart from a few over at the legs. However just now I checked my legs and found signs of rashes...what's wrong?
I'm trying to resume much of my usual activities, and yeah I'm level 52 Bandit in Maple already. Haha...actually shld be resting soon...
Well...pox pox faster clear lah...hahaha...
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Barcera - Secret of Love (Central Seven Club Remix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Chicken pox pills / Water
LOL
Today woke up rather late at 2pm, looked at my pox and am quite happy with myself. Much of the smaller poxes start to clear faster, while the bigger pox does appear to be clearing up as well. The big fat ones are losing steam apart from a few over at the legs. However just now I checked my legs and found signs of rashes...what's wrong?
I'm trying to resume much of my usual activities, and yeah I'm level 52 Bandit in Maple already. Haha...actually shld be resting soon...
Well...pox pox faster clear lah...hahaha...
.LuKe.
Monday, October 23, 2006
Day 7 of Poxication
[CuRRent MooD:] Neutrally fine
[CuRRent Song:] E-Type feat. Nana - When I Close My Eyes
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Cabbage with meat soup
SAME OLD ROUTINE! HAHAHAA...what else is new...? Nothing much different, today is second day of lazing on the bed refusing to wake up...hahaha...
Most pox still ard, the smaller ones are disappearing...and praying those on face faster disappear...else how I meet pple...?
Hahhaa...
Maple and maple...soon to be Lvl 52 liao...hahaha...
Den, yeah anyway, even though it might be a bit late but...
Happy birthday, Sujun.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] E-Type feat. Nana - When I Close My Eyes
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Cabbage with meat soup
SAME OLD ROUTINE! HAHAHAA...what else is new...? Nothing much different, today is second day of lazing on the bed refusing to wake up...hahaha...
Most pox still ard, the smaller ones are disappearing...and praying those on face faster disappear...else how I meet pple...?
Hahhaa...
Maple and maple...soon to be Lvl 52 liao...hahaha...
Den, yeah anyway, even though it might be a bit late but...
Happy birthday, Sujun.
.LuKe.
Sunday, October 22, 2006
Day 6 of Poxication
[CuRRent MooD:] Fine
[CuRRent Song:] Madonna - Into the Groove
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Strepsil Menthol
Okay it's STILL the same, eat sleep maple. Ok only difference was that I chatted with Celena on phone to help her pass time.
Pox is slowly recovering, I hope it could be faster though - it's getting irritating to be oh-so-careful about my own body movements. Imagine I have to go slow motion on removing and putting on clothes, sitting/lying down etc. - grrrr....
I'm more or less booked on my post-pox activities (LOL)...so far I have 2 bookings already, or tentative bookings I should say. Life becomes so uncertain nowadays there is no confirmation to anything and everything I do. It seems life will not rotate around myself anymore, but who cares. I just gonna do what I think and feel I will do, whether it works, whether it succeeds or what, I'm not gonna care.
Ok, a link for you readers for the day. Thanks Yvonne!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QOqXlbWf9Io
It certainly got me laughing.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Madonna - Into the Groove
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Strepsil Menthol
Okay it's STILL the same, eat sleep maple. Ok only difference was that I chatted with Celena on phone to help her pass time.
Pox is slowly recovering, I hope it could be faster though - it's getting irritating to be oh-so-careful about my own body movements. Imagine I have to go slow motion on removing and putting on clothes, sitting/lying down etc. - grrrr....
I'm more or less booked on my post-pox activities (LOL)...so far I have 2 bookings already, or tentative bookings I should say. Life becomes so uncertain nowadays there is no confirmation to anything and everything I do. It seems life will not rotate around myself anymore, but who cares. I just gonna do what I think and feel I will do, whether it works, whether it succeeds or what, I'm not gonna care.
Ok, a link for you readers for the day. Thanks Yvonne!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QOqXlbWf9Io
It certainly got me laughing.
.LuKe.
Saturday, October 21, 2006
Day 5 of Poxication
[CuRRent MooD:] Fine
[CuRRent Song:] No Music (copying songs)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Wintermelon soup
The usual wake up in the morning, eat medicine and continue to on comp....no.
Today I rested on bed till 11am, which is probably my first real "lai chuang" for this week. Had my brunch and found that I'm not exactly tired at all! Took a chance and bought x2 xp card 24 hours for today and played Maple.
The poxes are still clearing up little by little, and I hope to see them cleared real fast. They are really irritating to begin with. Cos of the pox, my face looks really terrible.
2 quotes pertaining to pox:
"I looked at my face and felt as though it got hit by a thousand pimples."
"Now it seems that both pox and pimple are fighting for space on my face."
The latter is real funny it seems.
Oh well, gonna rest soon. Nothing too special happened today =)
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] No Music (copying songs)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Wintermelon soup
The usual wake up in the morning, eat medicine and continue to on comp....no.
Today I rested on bed till 11am, which is probably my first real "lai chuang" for this week. Had my brunch and found that I'm not exactly tired at all! Took a chance and bought x2 xp card 24 hours for today and played Maple.
The poxes are still clearing up little by little, and I hope to see them cleared real fast. They are really irritating to begin with. Cos of the pox, my face looks really terrible.
2 quotes pertaining to pox:
"I looked at my face and felt as though it got hit by a thousand pimples."
"Now it seems that both pox and pimple are fighting for space on my face."
The latter is real funny it seems.
Oh well, gonna rest soon. Nothing too special happened today =)
.LuKe.
Friday, October 20, 2006
Day 4 of Poxication - Depoxifying
[CuRRent MooD:] A lil tired
[CuRRent Song:] Oceanlab - Sky Falls Down (Armin van Buur Mix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Pox Pills / Plain Water
Woke up in the morning to take pills, toss n turn a bit and found that I'm unable to sleep so I woke up to use the comp. Realised my HR fren did not go to work either, chatted with her online a bit.
The routine's not too much different, eat slp maple blablabla...well, I did notice some of the minor poxes are starting to clear up. I look at my face...sigh...CMI. Horrendous. Worst ever seen. I better hope all those things clear up from my face else I really have a hard time meeting people up since I'm already as bad as I can be.
The tiredness is getting on me as I'm writing this.
Ok time to crash. Haha.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Oceanlab - Sky Falls Down (Armin van Buur Mix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Pox Pills / Plain Water
Woke up in the morning to take pills, toss n turn a bit and found that I'm unable to sleep so I woke up to use the comp. Realised my HR fren did not go to work either, chatted with her online a bit.
The routine's not too much different, eat slp maple blablabla...well, I did notice some of the minor poxes are starting to clear up. I look at my face...sigh...CMI. Horrendous. Worst ever seen. I better hope all those things clear up from my face else I really have a hard time meeting people up since I'm already as bad as I can be.
The tiredness is getting on me as I'm writing this.
Ok time to crash. Haha.
.LuKe.
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Day 3 of Poxication
[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral
[CuRRent Song:] Karma - Everytime You Leave (Neno DJ Loco Loco Short Remix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Strepsil Menthol
It gets funny when you're actually backtracking the days instead of actually writing it on the day itself.
Nothing much, continual suffering, eat slp maple, exchange smses, msn chat....what else man? But one thing I found out was that my "headache" was partially caused by the pox residing on the "resting" areas of my head. What I mean is that when I lie on bed, there will be this area the head will rest on the pillow, the pox will be pressed on those areas, causing myself pain.
Nothing I can do about that for now, so I have to take my painkillers till the pox goes down. Or endurance is the key. I think I'll just take it at night. Nowadays it's hard to sleep at night also - I have to force myself to bed when I feel tired but when I'm on the bed I find that I cannot get to sleep at all. That feeling simply sucks to the extreme.
I'll also need to find a bit of time to replace my tagboard. That taggie board seems to be down in and out, might as well down for good. It's getting real irritating.
Beginning of Day 4, tired but feeling a lil better. Till next update.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Karma - Everytime You Leave (Neno DJ Loco Loco Short Remix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Strepsil Menthol
It gets funny when you're actually backtracking the days instead of actually writing it on the day itself.
Nothing much, continual suffering, eat slp maple, exchange smses, msn chat....what else man? But one thing I found out was that my "headache" was partially caused by the pox residing on the "resting" areas of my head. What I mean is that when I lie on bed, there will be this area the head will rest on the pillow, the pox will be pressed on those areas, causing myself pain.
Nothing I can do about that for now, so I have to take my painkillers till the pox goes down. Or endurance is the key. I think I'll just take it at night. Nowadays it's hard to sleep at night also - I have to force myself to bed when I feel tired but when I'm on the bed I find that I cannot get to sleep at all. That feeling simply sucks to the extreme.
I'll also need to find a bit of time to replace my tagboard. That taggie board seems to be down in and out, might as well down for good. It's getting real irritating.
Beginning of Day 4, tired but feeling a lil better. Till next update.
.LuKe.
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
Day 2 of Poxication
[CuRRent MooD:] Weak but fine
[CuRRent Song:] None (Maplestory's background music?)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Water Chestnut / Water Chestnut drink
Where's day 1? Ehm...hehe ok I'll start with Day 1 but today is Day 2 so...
DAY 1
Fever persisted from Sunday night till Monday, and I've got the premonition It is coming. I haven't had such a fever for a longggg time...so it felt kinda unbearable at moments. However...upon looking at my mummy's efforts to keep me cool (honey drink) even in the wee hours (the ice in the hse was used up), somehow I felt so loved that my mummy has always been there for us.
Anyway, on Monday morning Malcolm msged me instructions of work but I realised I'm not even fit for work - giddiness, painful eyes, lethagic, headache, muscle aches...no way I can move to work. Contacted the necessary people to tell them I'm off to see a doctor while continue resting...and my mummy, poor her did not have a good nite of rest, continued to make the honey drink for me. I love you mummy!
Late morning, got my bro to accompany me to the doc. Doc only gave me headache medicine but 2 days of MC (just in case). Bought my usual packet of duck rice but realised my appetite had taken quite a hit as I was only able to finish half a packet. No choice...after eating, went to bed again.
Woke up in the afternoon and got my laptop on to connect back to GSK. Wow, the number of email are...howdy. Oh yeah, I should set my away from office - should do that soon. Anyway, went to close off some work-related stuff and chatted with my HR fren for a while. Dad bought back 2 coconuts to get the drink out into a cup and got me to drink it. Whew...that's a lot of liquids but I know I need it. After staying in the GSK network for some time (Kamisah needed some help), I turned it off and went to rest again.
Evening, woke up and switched on the PC, chatting with frens and eating my dinner - porridge with preserved cai xin. Oh well, what to do I'm sick. Finishing most stuff, I went to take a bath. Took off my clothes...
...oh shit.
Those things. On my arm. My body. Starting to get obvious.
Tio liao lor!
Bath finished and told my mum that I've contracted it (good thing to our opinion since it's better than contracting it years later). After mapling a little and stuff, I went back to bed.
DAY 2
Woke up in the morning, looked at myself - yeah confirm liao is The Pox. LOL. Then got up to clean up and went to the doc. Wow it was a long wait (like 5 patients) before it's my turn. Went in to tell the doc, the doc inspected me....yeah confirm is Chicken Pox. So he gave some advice blablabla, contacted GMP to make sure they cover the "quick recovery medicine" (which they did - I heard it costs about a hundred!) and yeah, I am a Certified Pox Carrier. (LOL) Walked to buy Chee Cheong Fun (with nothing but soy sauce) and the auntie asked if I had a stomach upset -.- and I replied "no, just not feeling well". Imagine if I tell her "oh I'm on chicken pox" LOL...
Reached home, apply calamine lotion and took the medicine. Wondering what is the "Wonder Medicine"? It's enclosed in a box of 70 tablets (wow) and take 5 times a day (WOW) two tablets everytime (Ooooh) so I'm like swallowing that much pills. So the usual things that EVERYONE repeated umpteen times (but thanks anyway)
No scratching (x dunno how many times)
Dun eat heaty food, oily food blabla (x dunno how many times from 2 persons)
Bath without soap (once for now)
Drink more water (just about the next thing to No Scratching)
Yeah. Haha...so meanwhile I'll be resting at home for 10 days without going out while my poor colleagues struggle for the FDA audit for GSK on the next week. JIAYOU HP Outsource! We are low-life forms aka ants but we can do it!!!
Besides...ants do a lot to the ecosystem, don't you think so?
That concludes Day 2 of Poxication. =) time for bed.
Anyway, an interesting link found by Sunshine. Anything to my name ~ duh
http://www.80stees.com/products/Dukes-Of-Hazzard-Luke-Duke-T-shirt.asp
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None (Maplestory's background music?)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Water Chestnut / Water Chestnut drink
Where's day 1? Ehm...hehe ok I'll start with Day 1 but today is Day 2 so...
DAY 1
Fever persisted from Sunday night till Monday, and I've got the premonition It is coming. I haven't had such a fever for a longggg time...so it felt kinda unbearable at moments. However...upon looking at my mummy's efforts to keep me cool (honey drink) even in the wee hours (the ice in the hse was used up), somehow I felt so loved that my mummy has always been there for us.
Anyway, on Monday morning Malcolm msged me instructions of work but I realised I'm not even fit for work - giddiness, painful eyes, lethagic, headache, muscle aches...no way I can move to work. Contacted the necessary people to tell them I'm off to see a doctor while continue resting...and my mummy, poor her did not have a good nite of rest, continued to make the honey drink for me. I love you mummy!
Late morning, got my bro to accompany me to the doc. Doc only gave me headache medicine but 2 days of MC (just in case). Bought my usual packet of duck rice but realised my appetite had taken quite a hit as I was only able to finish half a packet. No choice...after eating, went to bed again.
Woke up in the afternoon and got my laptop on to connect back to GSK. Wow, the number of email are...howdy. Oh yeah, I should set my away from office - should do that soon. Anyway, went to close off some work-related stuff and chatted with my HR fren for a while. Dad bought back 2 coconuts to get the drink out into a cup and got me to drink it. Whew...that's a lot of liquids but I know I need it. After staying in the GSK network for some time (Kamisah needed some help), I turned it off and went to rest again.
Evening, woke up and switched on the PC, chatting with frens and eating my dinner - porridge with preserved cai xin. Oh well, what to do I'm sick. Finishing most stuff, I went to take a bath. Took off my clothes...
...oh shit.
Those things. On my arm. My body. Starting to get obvious.
Tio liao lor!
Bath finished and told my mum that I've contracted it (good thing to our opinion since it's better than contracting it years later). After mapling a little and stuff, I went back to bed.
DAY 2
Woke up in the morning, looked at myself - yeah confirm liao is The Pox. LOL. Then got up to clean up and went to the doc. Wow it was a long wait (like 5 patients) before it's my turn. Went in to tell the doc, the doc inspected me....yeah confirm is Chicken Pox. So he gave some advice blablabla, contacted GMP to make sure they cover the "quick recovery medicine" (which they did - I heard it costs about a hundred!) and yeah, I am a Certified Pox Carrier. (LOL) Walked to buy Chee Cheong Fun (with nothing but soy sauce) and the auntie asked if I had a stomach upset -.- and I replied "no, just not feeling well". Imagine if I tell her "oh I'm on chicken pox" LOL...
Reached home, apply calamine lotion and took the medicine. Wondering what is the "Wonder Medicine"? It's enclosed in a box of 70 tablets (wow) and take 5 times a day (WOW) two tablets everytime (Ooooh) so I'm like swallowing that much pills. So the usual things that EVERYONE repeated umpteen times (but thanks anyway)
No scratching (x dunno how many times)
Dun eat heaty food, oily food blabla (x dunno how many times from 2 persons)
Bath without soap (once for now)
Drink more water (just about the next thing to No Scratching)
Yeah. Haha...so meanwhile I'll be resting at home for 10 days without going out while my poor colleagues struggle for the FDA audit for GSK on the next week. JIAYOU HP Outsource! We are low-life forms aka ants but we can do it!!!
Besides...ants do a lot to the ecosystem, don't you think so?
That concludes Day 2 of Poxication. =) time for bed.
Anyway, an interesting link found by Sunshine. Anything to my name ~ duh
http://www.80stees.com/products/Dukes-Of-Hazzard-Luke-Duke-T-shirt.asp
.LuKe.
Monday, October 16, 2006
I think I'm poxicated
[CuRRent MooD:] Fine but sick
[CuRRent Song:] Fantasy Project - When I Fall In Love
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Guilin Gao
Yesterday tio fever....den today went c doctor...pox haven't come out...
Just now went to take bath...hmmm...saw something on my arm. And some other places.
I think I'm Poxicated.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Fantasy Project - When I Fall In Love
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Guilin Gao
Yesterday tio fever....den today went c doctor...pox haven't come out...
Just now went to take bath...hmmm...saw something on my arm. And some other places.
I think I'm Poxicated.
.LuKe.
Saturday, October 14, 2006
Mood goes on a coaster ride
[CuRRent MooD:] Extreme?
[CuRRent Song:] Lilu - Little Girl (Eiffel 65 Remix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Bee Hoon + Luncheon Meat + Fish Fillet / Soya Bean Milk
Well, I have to say that I've really been on a weird mood recently. A lot of things happened that I simply can't say much here, affecting my mood just that I have to go drastic measures to counter-effect the mood swing. Yet...I can't do anything to alleviate the root problem, I can only wait.
IMAGINE ME WAITING. DAMNIT.
Anyway, I got to know about the news and instantly there were 3 pple that appeared in my mind - Patricia, Michelle and Isabelle. Pat knew it along so she was advising me properly, while Michelle used her intelligence to guess it right and for Isabelle, it just went on her gut feeling. It seems weird they could know somehow, but I'm very happy they are very supportive of me.
Thanks for all the encouragement ladies =)
Sunshine was also trying to find out about the matter...told her a lil about it but she still seems to be little bothered about it...oh well, am I blessed or what. I really don't know what to say.
On that day, met up with Belle and we took Jap food in PS - costing over $60. Ouch.
Yesterday was real unstable mood @ workplace - almost argued with Malcolm over matters. I'm trying not to let it affect my work. Initially supposed to attend a birthday chalet held by Serene, Tammy's friend but my mood and headache did not allow me to carry on so I went back home first. Went smsing a few people and after quite a while I go town only to be meeting up with Belle's fren, Celena (or Celly in short - sounds like some musical instrument).
By the time we met up it was at Art Friend, a place I rarely lay my feet on (I'm hardly artistic or creative, fyi) to look for stuff. After that we went to Mos Burger and have a good chat and went walking a bit before we proceeded to go home with me sending her back to her place before I go back. Going her place reminds me of my army days! HAHAHA!!!
It's like late by the time I'm home.
Anyway, thanks Celena for making my evening nice.
Thanks Sunshine for crapping with me, all the sense and non-sense.
I thank Isabelle for accompanying me after taking her stuff from Serangoon, always believing that friends are worth it. You are worth it too!
A big hug for Michelle, who never knew what happened from the beginning but stood for me somehow, even after knowing the incident.
Patricia, thanks for all the advice and thoughts you have shared with me so far. It has been invaluable.
I thank everyone who tried. Oh yeah, thank you Lidia (another workplace Mapling fren) for even being concerned by sms-ing me to check on me.
On a note, when is my CHICKEN POX COMING???
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Lilu - Little Girl (Eiffel 65 Remix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Bee Hoon + Luncheon Meat + Fish Fillet / Soya Bean Milk
Well, I have to say that I've really been on a weird mood recently. A lot of things happened that I simply can't say much here, affecting my mood just that I have to go drastic measures to counter-effect the mood swing. Yet...I can't do anything to alleviate the root problem, I can only wait.
IMAGINE ME WAITING. DAMNIT.
Anyway, I got to know about the news and instantly there were 3 pple that appeared in my mind - Patricia, Michelle and Isabelle. Pat knew it along so she was advising me properly, while Michelle used her intelligence to guess it right and for Isabelle, it just went on her gut feeling. It seems weird they could know somehow, but I'm very happy they are very supportive of me.
Thanks for all the encouragement ladies =)
Sunshine was also trying to find out about the matter...told her a lil about it but she still seems to be little bothered about it...oh well, am I blessed or what. I really don't know what to say.
On that day, met up with Belle and we took Jap food in PS - costing over $60. Ouch.
Yesterday was real unstable mood @ workplace - almost argued with Malcolm over matters. I'm trying not to let it affect my work. Initially supposed to attend a birthday chalet held by Serene, Tammy's friend but my mood and headache did not allow me to carry on so I went back home first. Went smsing a few people and after quite a while I go town only to be meeting up with Belle's fren, Celena (or Celly in short - sounds like some musical instrument).
By the time we met up it was at Art Friend, a place I rarely lay my feet on (I'm hardly artistic or creative, fyi) to look for stuff. After that we went to Mos Burger and have a good chat and went walking a bit before we proceeded to go home with me sending her back to her place before I go back. Going her place reminds me of my army days! HAHAHA!!!
It's like late by the time I'm home.
Anyway, thanks Celena for making my evening nice.
Thanks Sunshine for crapping with me, all the sense and non-sense.
I thank Isabelle for accompanying me after taking her stuff from Serangoon, always believing that friends are worth it. You are worth it too!
A big hug for Michelle, who never knew what happened from the beginning but stood for me somehow, even after knowing the incident.
Patricia, thanks for all the advice and thoughts you have shared with me so far. It has been invaluable.
I thank everyone who tried. Oh yeah, thank you Lidia (another workplace Mapling fren) for even being concerned by sms-ing me to check on me.
On a note, when is my CHICKEN POX COMING???
.LuKe.
Sunday, October 08, 2006
A Sunday morning in GSK
[CuRRent MooD:] Fine
[CuRRent Song:] Soul Asylum - Runaway Train
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Carrot Cake / Teh Tarik
Trying to get up some Maple pics =)
On way to Orbis
Hiding behind and peeping =)
I used a Megaphone!
Smooching and leaving
Congrats with Candies
Congrats with Fireworks
Bear-headed Bride?
Chatting with the couple
Leaving the banquet
Waiting for the wedding
Say CHEESE!
Being in the middle is weird...
Someone is not smiling...
Hehe...
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Soul Asylum - Runaway Train
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Carrot Cake / Teh Tarik
Trying to get up some Maple pics =)
Chatting with the couple
Someone is not smiling...
Hehe...
.LuKe.
Friday, October 06, 2006
The day people talked about my hair
[CuRRent MooD:] Fine
[CuRRent Song:] GSK - Server Room Noise (Fanout Remix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Fruit cake / Milo
Stupid topic rite? It's just about what happened yesterday at workplace...
Walked to my server room, Pin Pin called my name.
PP: Hey hey got something to ask you...
Finished what she wanted to ask...
PP: Hey your hair quite nice ah?
Me: Eh...ok lor
PP: Not bad lah, better than the one on your pass
(points to my pass)
Me: Aiya I that time not yet cut hair ma, now cut le
PP: This one look nicer lah
Me: Of cos lah, this one more expensive leh
PP: How much?
Me: Last time I cut barber ma, $10 nia...now cut Jean Yip $25 lor
PP: This one still better, yi fen qian yi fen huo (1 cent of cash for 1 cent of goods)
Me: Ok...
Went to HR side...
Jassamyn: She (PP) do valuation on you ah?
Me: Huh???
(Elizabeth called)
Liz: come come I ask u something...
(done)
Candy called...
Candy: Hey hey come come...
(done, walked over to Jassamyn)
Me: what u mean?
Jas: I mean PP was doing valuation on your hair, your shirt and your overall issit?
Me: Huh no lah...she only talking about my hair, about it look nice
Candy: yeah lah, you look much nicer like this leh!
Me: Of cos lah this hair more expensive
Cdy: How much?
Me: $25 lor
Cdy: Yeah it looks better on you!
(went over SJ to talk a bit and passed her something which made her squeal like a pig)
(walked into server room and did my ops)
Tim walked in...
Tim: Hey Luke! How have you been?
Me: Yeah fine, how about you?
Tim: Okay lah...hey, you look much younger ah? Your hair looks good on you.
Me: No lah, got white hair liao...
Tim: Got white hair? How come?
Me: Think is family lah...cos my bro also ard my age got white hair...
Tim: Aiya dun be modest lah, must be cos of GSK rite?
Me: ??????
(end of my hair story)
LOL stupid sia...
Hehe Maple Update: Bandit Lvl 45!
Oh well..things nowadays really getting real...unpredictable.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] GSK - Server Room Noise (Fanout Remix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Fruit cake / Milo
Stupid topic rite? It's just about what happened yesterday at workplace...
Walked to my server room, Pin Pin called my name.
PP: Hey hey got something to ask you...
Finished what she wanted to ask...
PP: Hey your hair quite nice ah?
Me: Eh...ok lor
PP: Not bad lah, better than the one on your pass
(points to my pass)
Me: Aiya I that time not yet cut hair ma, now cut le
PP: This one look nicer lah
Me: Of cos lah, this one more expensive leh
PP: How much?
Me: Last time I cut barber ma, $10 nia...now cut Jean Yip $25 lor
PP: This one still better, yi fen qian yi fen huo (1 cent of cash for 1 cent of goods)
Me: Ok...
Went to HR side...
Jassamyn: She (PP) do valuation on you ah?
Me: Huh???
(Elizabeth called)
Liz: come come I ask u something...
(done)
Candy called...
Candy: Hey hey come come...
(done, walked over to Jassamyn)
Me: what u mean?
Jas: I mean PP was doing valuation on your hair, your shirt and your overall issit?
Me: Huh no lah...she only talking about my hair, about it look nice
Candy: yeah lah, you look much nicer like this leh!
Me: Of cos lah this hair more expensive
Cdy: How much?
Me: $25 lor
Cdy: Yeah it looks better on you!
(went over SJ to talk a bit and passed her something which made her squeal like a pig)
(walked into server room and did my ops)
Tim walked in...
Tim: Hey Luke! How have you been?
Me: Yeah fine, how about you?
Tim: Okay lah...hey, you look much younger ah? Your hair looks good on you.
Me: No lah, got white hair liao...
Tim: Got white hair? How come?
Me: Think is family lah...cos my bro also ard my age got white hair...
Tim: Aiya dun be modest lah, must be cos of GSK rite?
Me: ??????
(end of my hair story)
LOL stupid sia...
Hehe Maple Update: Bandit Lvl 45!
Oh well..things nowadays really getting real...unpredictable.
.LuKe.
Thursday, October 05, 2006
Happiness? Priceless.
[CuRRent MooD:] Jolly
[CuRRent Song:] GSK - Noise of TC Server Room (Fanout Remix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Biscuits / Milo
Hahhaa...trust of me to put a nonsensical name for the song area. Haha.
One thing I love to do in life is to make the people around me happy. Nothing beats the happiness radiated from their smile and eyes. Really a joy to behold.
Ok that's all - updates if any. LOL.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] GSK - Noise of TC Server Room (Fanout Remix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Biscuits / Milo
Hahhaa...trust of me to put a nonsensical name for the song area. Haha.
One thing I love to do in life is to make the people around me happy. Nothing beats the happiness radiated from their smile and eyes. Really a joy to behold.
Ok that's all - updates if any. LOL.
.LuKe.
Sunday, October 01, 2006
An early sunday morning
[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Sichuan Vege + Rice / Plain Water
Well now playing maple...hahaha...will post some pics if I have the time, but cos my current skin has a "limited" display size, I might consider or not posting them. LOL.
Just yesterday (friday to be exact) night I met up with Sunshine in the evening to see how she is. Well...I guess she's still living fine without me, which is comfort to know. Well...sometimes I'm just so afraid of hurting people...it will take time for me to heal from every hurt, whether is being inflicted on me or vice versa. It is so strange.
Life is going on a weird ride nowadays. Wonder if things will actually settle in life at all.
I hope I won't screw my life any further. I can't afford it anymore.
Tired.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Sichuan Vege + Rice / Plain Water
Well now playing maple...hahaha...will post some pics if I have the time, but cos my current skin has a "limited" display size, I might consider or not posting them. LOL.
Just yesterday (friday to be exact) night I met up with Sunshine in the evening to see how she is. Well...I guess she's still living fine without me, which is comfort to know. Well...sometimes I'm just so afraid of hurting people...it will take time for me to heal from every hurt, whether is being inflicted on me or vice versa. It is so strange.
Life is going on a weird ride nowadays. Wonder if things will actually settle in life at all.
I hope I won't screw my life any further. I can't afford it anymore.
Tired.
.LuKe.
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Wandering thoughts
[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral
[CuRRent Song:] Basic Element – This Must Be A Dream ‘2005 (Radio Edit)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Double Chocolate Frappe
Now taking a drink in McCafe, sipping their Double Chocolate Frappe which is currently “my drink” in this place.
They say being loved is a good thing, but do you feel that sometimes it does not bring you anywhere at all? I felt like that some point of time, and now I’m feeling it again. Seriously, I don’t think anyone can understand how I feel without knowing what has happened. Then again, I don’t wish anyone else to know what happened in any single case..it will cause quite a log of debate I believe.
Just had a game of DDR Extreme and PPP with workwear, how’s that? I don’t know of much people who does that (there are, and I know them), and it certainly make people think that I’m mad.
I think I’m seriously mad as well.
Everyday as I walk through this grim journey of darkness, I do not know what kind of things lay in store for me. I do not know if the light I see will aid me in my route to the unknown or simply blind me, making my voyage ever perilous.
Somehow, the kind of love unto me seems too puzzling to me, even thought-provoking. How did I get such kind of attention?
I’ve doubted my ability to love anymore. I can’t trust my own intuition and instinct anymore; I’m just walking and swaying about, wandering into the vast land of mystery.
I can’t exactly tell what’s right or wrong anymore; I’m just walking the way I want, not seriously thinking about grave consequences as I might endanger the people around me.
I was selfless on a selfish note, selfish on myself and now selfish without possible recognition of anything around me. I know I’m not myself anymore, and something which I didn’t want to happen had happened to me.
Yet I’m not pulling myself back from this plunge. It seems I WANTED this fall into the abyss. I refused the rope, the harnass, a ladder – I just wanted to fall deep and die when I reach the bottom – or get crushed by immerse pressure I put myself in while falling.
For those who are out of my life, you’re lucky you needn’t have to bother about me. For those who just came in, please take care and do pull yourself back and not to save me as I fell past your window.
If you think you’re the one who caused my current situation, don’t think so much about it. As I said, I chose my route and you needn’t have to account to anything. Just take good care of yourself and not let me pull you with me into the everlasting darkness.
Then again, I’m the one causing the trouble, so as to speak. How shall punishment and retribution get to me in time, I wonder.
I know I’m just being overly-critical of myself. Don’t worry, this is just what I call as a “neutral” post – no sadness, no happiness, just thoughts.
I’m just waiting for something good or bad to happen to me so I can change my course. Till then, I’m on a Neverending Dream. =)
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Basic Element – This Must Be A Dream ‘2005 (Radio Edit)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Double Chocolate Frappe
Now taking a drink in McCafe, sipping their Double Chocolate Frappe which is currently “my drink” in this place.
They say being loved is a good thing, but do you feel that sometimes it does not bring you anywhere at all? I felt like that some point of time, and now I’m feeling it again. Seriously, I don’t think anyone can understand how I feel without knowing what has happened. Then again, I don’t wish anyone else to know what happened in any single case..it will cause quite a log of debate I believe.
Just had a game of DDR Extreme and PPP with workwear, how’s that? I don’t know of much people who does that (there are, and I know them), and it certainly make people think that I’m mad.
I think I’m seriously mad as well.
Everyday as I walk through this grim journey of darkness, I do not know what kind of things lay in store for me. I do not know if the light I see will aid me in my route to the unknown or simply blind me, making my voyage ever perilous.
Somehow, the kind of love unto me seems too puzzling to me, even thought-provoking. How did I get such kind of attention?
I’ve doubted my ability to love anymore. I can’t trust my own intuition and instinct anymore; I’m just walking and swaying about, wandering into the vast land of mystery.
I can’t exactly tell what’s right or wrong anymore; I’m just walking the way I want, not seriously thinking about grave consequences as I might endanger the people around me.
I was selfless on a selfish note, selfish on myself and now selfish without possible recognition of anything around me. I know I’m not myself anymore, and something which I didn’t want to happen had happened to me.
Yet I’m not pulling myself back from this plunge. It seems I WANTED this fall into the abyss. I refused the rope, the harnass, a ladder – I just wanted to fall deep and die when I reach the bottom – or get crushed by immerse pressure I put myself in while falling.
For those who are out of my life, you’re lucky you needn’t have to bother about me. For those who just came in, please take care and do pull yourself back and not to save me as I fell past your window.
If you think you’re the one who caused my current situation, don’t think so much about it. As I said, I chose my route and you needn’t have to account to anything. Just take good care of yourself and not let me pull you with me into the everlasting darkness.
Then again, I’m the one causing the trouble, so as to speak. How shall punishment and retribution get to me in time, I wonder.
I know I’m just being overly-critical of myself. Don’t worry, this is just what I call as a “neutral” post – no sadness, no happiness, just thoughts.
I’m just waiting for something good or bad to happen to me so I can change my course. Till then, I’m on a Neverending Dream. =)
.LuKe.
Monday, September 25, 2006
Thanks for the love everyone
[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
With quotation from Celena's blog, thanks everyone for the love you showered unto me. That previous entry was only a rant but turned out I had quite some response. I really have to count my blessings in the darkness of days I stay.
I'll resolve the issue with my bro, and well though those who know me will know what kind of outcome it will be, but oh well, what to do, one is my bro other is my fren.
Will update again when possible.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
With quotation from Celena's blog, thanks everyone for the love you showered unto me. That previous entry was only a rant but turned out I had quite some response. I really have to count my blessings in the darkness of days I stay.
I'll resolve the issue with my bro, and well though those who know me will know what kind of outcome it will be, but oh well, what to do, one is my bro other is my fren.
Will update again when possible.
.LuKe.
Friday, September 22, 2006
What I like, what I want...?
[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral, little affected by previous entry
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
Hmmm...this is quite a bo liao entry..."inspired" by a lady I saw in the MRT. She kinda reminded me what I like and what I want.
Material Wants:
1) More formal clothing
2) More clothes
3) Money (obvious, but is not exactly desperate want)
4) A good phone (in the ranks of N series (function, not fault), O2 Stealth etc.)
What I like/don't mind in a female (Don't laugh and don't discriminate):
1) Don't mind wearing skirts. In fact, like to wear skirts. I always think it brings a feminine touch out of them. Next point will re-iterate current point...
2) Legs. Whether they wear skirts or shorts, it brings out their legs. I'm not those slim-legs=swee kind of legs man, I appreciate many variations.
3) A bit "bah-bah" (having a bit of "meat" ard) is ok, just don't be oversized. In fact, many of my gfs were on a bit weight side, but I don't mind since hugging them is real good.
4) Does not look like an alien (Barney??? LOL)
5) I like cute gers much more than the chio kind. Usually cute gers are easier to communicate compared to the chio ones - the latter often have attitude problem. Some cutes gers are a bit on the weight side, and they are certainly much more humble. I like humble girls.
6) Average dress sense. Please vary your wardrobe. I know my wardrobe sucks and I don't need a second person to remind me there's another split image of myself.
Wonder why I came up with all these? I saw an average-looking woman with decent legs (to my opinion, since her legs ain't the slim kind) while in the MRT today. Hehe.
See ya ard till next update. Finally a casual update. =P
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
Hmmm...this is quite a bo liao entry..."inspired" by a lady I saw in the MRT. She kinda reminded me what I like and what I want.
Material Wants:
1) More formal clothing
2) More clothes
3) Money (obvious, but is not exactly desperate want)
4) A good phone (in the ranks of N series (function, not fault), O2 Stealth etc.)
What I like/don't mind in a female (Don't laugh and don't discriminate):
1) Don't mind wearing skirts. In fact, like to wear skirts. I always think it brings a feminine touch out of them. Next point will re-iterate current point...
2) Legs. Whether they wear skirts or shorts, it brings out their legs. I'm not those slim-legs=swee kind of legs man, I appreciate many variations.
3) A bit "bah-bah" (having a bit of "meat" ard) is ok, just don't be oversized. In fact, many of my gfs were on a bit weight side, but I don't mind since hugging them is real good.
4) Does not look like an alien (Barney??? LOL)
5) I like cute gers much more than the chio kind. Usually cute gers are easier to communicate compared to the chio ones - the latter often have attitude problem. Some cutes gers are a bit on the weight side, and they are certainly much more humble. I like humble girls.
6) Average dress sense. Please vary your wardrobe. I know my wardrobe sucks and I don't need a second person to remind me there's another split image of myself.
Wonder why I came up with all these? I saw an average-looking woman with decent legs (to my opinion, since her legs ain't the slim kind) while in the MRT today. Hehe.
See ya ard till next update. Finally a casual update. =P
.LuKe.
Thursday, September 21, 2006
It's very late now
[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral
[CuRRent Song:] Guang Liang - Yue Ding
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Fish / Teh Peng
Well...actually it's very late now and I should be slping but...
Just roughly go thru wat happened ytd.
I believe many of you who had known me for some time knows just how much I regards my friends, how much I protect my frens and godsisters. It seems that he had really crossed my boundary and I'm still restraining myself.
What happened was that on one saturday, my bro smsed me whether I have $20 to spare cos our fren needs it. Initially I wanted to decline, but upon seeing it's a particular fren's request, I hesitated. I asked him why she did not approach me herself and he said she did request thru him but he did not have the cash so he approached me instead. Being doubtful, I asked him to tell her to msg me the account number. She did, so I thought it was true...or so I thought.
That day after the transfer, I went down to the usual haunt and checked wif her if the money was deposited and she said yes, it did. She continued her game without saying when she will return - quite unlike her style, but probably cos she was busy I didn't really bother her with it. Budget is rather low dis month so I smsed her the next day or so asking when she will return the money. No reply...never mind, it's rather normal since she do miss sms at times. On that night, she was on MSN and asked me a funny question, about something to do with return of money, but vice versa. I was like ?????? so I asked her but she did not respond.
Ytd she msged me if my bro said that she was the one needing money and I said yeah, if I did not misintepret the SMS my bro left for me. I double-checked...yeah no, I doubt I misintepreted. It turned out that my bro owed her some money and being down on resources, she asked my bro for the money. He did not have any, so he asked from me. I transferred, thinking SHE was the one borrowing. Yes she needed the money, but it was actually my bro who caused the problems. I was like WTF. WTF!!!!! I can't believe my bro did that. She is already bloody pitiful, no family le, money also using what her decreased mum left for her, in Singapore also living under someone else's roof and without a job...den my bro still dare to borrow that much money from her???
JUST WHAT IS THAT BLOODY USELESS BROTHER OF MINE THINKING? HAS HE GONE BONKERS???
He wanna screw half of my life upside down, I already resigned to it. He screwed my family upside down, that I have nothing to say....BUT I can't stand MY FRIENDS BEING PART OF HIS VICTIMS as well.
Sadly said, I believe her much more than my bro...since he had already disappointed those that had faith (may still be hoping) in him many many countless times.
This being said, I may still clear part of the debts for him...to be exact, I'm giving face to my friend who was an unfortunate victim. There is no single way I think he can return the money, and my friend is prepared to give up this friendship. It sounds bad but if you're at the end of it, you will understand why.
Borrow money. Don't return. Then twist the words. I can't believe he did it right in front of me and my friend.
He owes me an explanation.
.LuKe.
P.S. Post created at 1+am but edited the next day.
[CuRRent Song:] Guang Liang - Yue Ding
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Fish / Teh Peng
Well...actually it's very late now and I should be slping but...
Just roughly go thru wat happened ytd.
I believe many of you who had known me for some time knows just how much I regards my friends, how much I protect my frens and godsisters. It seems that he had really crossed my boundary and I'm still restraining myself.
What happened was that on one saturday, my bro smsed me whether I have $20 to spare cos our fren needs it. Initially I wanted to decline, but upon seeing it's a particular fren's request, I hesitated. I asked him why she did not approach me herself and he said she did request thru him but he did not have the cash so he approached me instead. Being doubtful, I asked him to tell her to msg me the account number. She did, so I thought it was true...or so I thought.
That day after the transfer, I went down to the usual haunt and checked wif her if the money was deposited and she said yes, it did. She continued her game without saying when she will return - quite unlike her style, but probably cos she was busy I didn't really bother her with it. Budget is rather low dis month so I smsed her the next day or so asking when she will return the money. No reply...never mind, it's rather normal since she do miss sms at times. On that night, she was on MSN and asked me a funny question, about something to do with return of money, but vice versa. I was like ?????? so I asked her but she did not respond.
Ytd she msged me if my bro said that she was the one needing money and I said yeah, if I did not misintepret the SMS my bro left for me. I double-checked...yeah no, I doubt I misintepreted. It turned out that my bro owed her some money and being down on resources, she asked my bro for the money. He did not have any, so he asked from me. I transferred, thinking SHE was the one borrowing. Yes she needed the money, but it was actually my bro who caused the problems. I was like WTF. WTF!!!!! I can't believe my bro did that. She is already bloody pitiful, no family le, money also using what her decreased mum left for her, in Singapore also living under someone else's roof and without a job...den my bro still dare to borrow that much money from her???
JUST WHAT IS THAT BLOODY USELESS BROTHER OF MINE THINKING? HAS HE GONE BONKERS???
He wanna screw half of my life upside down, I already resigned to it. He screwed my family upside down, that I have nothing to say....BUT I can't stand MY FRIENDS BEING PART OF HIS VICTIMS as well.
Sadly said, I believe her much more than my bro...since he had already disappointed those that had faith (may still be hoping) in him many many countless times.
This being said, I may still clear part of the debts for him...to be exact, I'm giving face to my friend who was an unfortunate victim. There is no single way I think he can return the money, and my friend is prepared to give up this friendship. It sounds bad but if you're at the end of it, you will understand why.
Borrow money. Don't return. Then twist the words. I can't believe he did it right in front of me and my friend.
He owes me an explanation.
.LuKe.
P.S. Post created at 1+am but edited the next day.
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
VERY VERY PISSED OFF
[CuRRent MooD:] Unhappy, pissed off
[CuRRent Song:] Infernal - Keen on Disco (Extended Mix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Lunch @ GSK
I am so fucking pissed off by that someone in my household. I better wish what I heard ain't true at all.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Infernal - Keen on Disco (Extended Mix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Lunch @ GSK
I am so fucking pissed off by that someone in my household. I better wish what I heard ain't true at all.
.LuKe.
Thursday, September 14, 2006
Life changes...(Part 2)
[CuRRent MooD:] PISSED OFF
[CuRRent Song:] DUH
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] DUH
Paste almost everything done...IE CRASHED.
FUCK.
Wateva.
Scented paper I used last time for writing letters.
Letters and more letters.
The gift I tried to hide away from prying eyes. It says "I Love You".
More gifts...
Her dad's namecard that time.
Some letters she wrote.
A "poem" I wrote for her while she's down.
A poem she wrote in response of mine (not related to the one on top).
A small birthday gift.
Apology snippets for her cousin who "abused" me.
Another apology.
A bookmark she gave to me.
Xmas card.
My birthday card...
Words I held dear in my heart for a long time......
Yeah done. Haha.
Anyway life changes...I will live in the darkness of the night, hiding away from the Sunshine I once held on. Neverending dreams I will hold on to.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] DUH
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] DUH
Paste almost everything done...IE CRASHED.
FUCK.
Wateva.
Scented paper I used last time for writing letters.
Letters and more letters.
The gift I tried to hide away from prying eyes. It says "I Love You".
More gifts...
Her dad's namecard that time.
Some letters she wrote.
A "poem" I wrote for her while she's down.
A poem she wrote in response of mine (not related to the one on top).
A small birthday gift.
Apology snippets for her cousin who "abused" me.
Another apology.
A bookmark she gave to me.
Xmas card.
My birthday card...
Words I held dear in my heart for a long time......
Yeah done. Haha.
Anyway life changes...I will live in the darkness of the night, hiding away from the Sunshine I once held on. Neverending dreams I will hold on to.
.LuKe.
Friday, September 08, 2006
Life changes...(part 1)
[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, energetic (but a bit sianz)
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
Initially thought half day leave...but ended...hmmm...got to help out cos Daniel on MC...bo bian! Still trying to negotiate.
Saw my title? My life will change from now...cos I started to dump my past.
Yesterday night I dumped my past into the trash bin...trash chute to be exact. Part 2 of this post I will share some pics with all of you. It will not be clear, you can go around guessing what those stuff are, but yea, I threw the gifts that "she" gave me. Of course, I talked to myself before I threw those gifts away...it was more of a final message to whatever and whoever...these stuff held zero significance now that she's married happily ever after.
I remembered those days I hid those gifts for fear someone might know. I remembered my friends wide-eyed when they knew that gift came from a girl. I remembered how I was titled "Love Saint - Qing2 Shen4" in Sec school just because of her. The ending was not good, the post-mortem was worse, the finale was a killer...but all these is part of my past, and I have to let go.
I do not want to see those things anymore, at least physically.
Once I brace up to remove all these things, I will become a stronger man. Hopefully. LOL.
More updates if possible.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
Initially thought half day leave...but ended...hmmm...got to help out cos Daniel on MC...bo bian! Still trying to negotiate.
Saw my title? My life will change from now...cos I started to dump my past.
Yesterday night I dumped my past into the trash bin...trash chute to be exact. Part 2 of this post I will share some pics with all of you. It will not be clear, you can go around guessing what those stuff are, but yea, I threw the gifts that "she" gave me. Of course, I talked to myself before I threw those gifts away...it was more of a final message to whatever and whoever...these stuff held zero significance now that she's married happily ever after.
I remembered those days I hid those gifts for fear someone might know. I remembered my friends wide-eyed when they knew that gift came from a girl. I remembered how I was titled "Love Saint - Qing2 Shen4" in Sec school just because of her. The ending was not good, the post-mortem was worse, the finale was a killer...but all these is part of my past, and I have to let go.
I do not want to see those things anymore, at least physically.
Once I brace up to remove all these things, I will become a stronger man. Hopefully. LOL.
More updates if possible.
.LuKe.
Monday, September 04, 2006
A weekend just passed like that...
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired, thinking
[CuRRent Song:] Ozi meets Tom Mountain - Dreams
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Black Bean Soup / Pokka Green Tea
My first trip to Dbl O is well, not the best but hahaha...it's ok.
I guess a lot of things in my mind lately.
I really wanna sort out my thoughts quickly so I can attend to the bigger issues in my life.
Time is not on my side.
I think...there are things to change in my life...
A pic for you pple:
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That's Belle's fren and me. Nice cute ger eh? My type - opps!!! HAHAHA
Dun jealous woh, Sunshine. :P
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Ozi meets Tom Mountain - Dreams
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Black Bean Soup / Pokka Green Tea
My first trip to Dbl O is well, not the best but hahaha...it's ok.
I guess a lot of things in my mind lately.
I really wanna sort out my thoughts quickly so I can attend to the bigger issues in my life.
Time is not on my side.
I think...there are things to change in my life...
A pic for you pple:
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That's Belle's fren and me. Nice cute ger eh? My type - opps!!! HAHAHA
Dun jealous woh, Sunshine. :P
.LuKe.
Friday, September 01, 2006
A neverending dream, a dream of you~
[CuRRent MooD:] Fine, hyper, happy, awake (wow)
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
My mood is good, but that nudging headache is still around. It does not come like in waves, but rather like a ball in the head, once I shake my head I'll notice it.
It's end of a month, beginning of another, end of a week and coming to weekend. I'm supposed to have some stuff coming on, but it seems nothing is 100%.
Sat nite is supposed to be with Isabelle for her bday, but I have not got a response from her.
Oh well, hope everything works out.
[ Update ]
Received response from Belle to meet up at certain time and place (forgot but in handphone). Hehe ok so it's confirmed.
Haiz...I am really a forgetful nervous wheck I think one day I will cause my team to die sia...got one vendor I Monday arrange Wed come but Wed I MC, den I arrange today but today I tio held up by another vendor forget to inform my team!!! COCK UP ME!!! KILL ME PLEASE. Sigh. Like dis how my team can work??? Haiz...lousy me.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
My mood is good, but that nudging headache is still around. It does not come like in waves, but rather like a ball in the head, once I shake my head I'll notice it.
It's end of a month, beginning of another, end of a week and coming to weekend. I'm supposed to have some stuff coming on, but it seems nothing is 100%.
Sat nite is supposed to be with Isabelle for her bday, but I have not got a response from her.
Oh well, hope everything works out.
[ Update ]
Received response from Belle to meet up at certain time and place (forgot but in handphone). Hehe ok so it's confirmed.
Haiz...I am really a forgetful nervous wheck I think one day I will cause my team to die sia...got one vendor I Monday arrange Wed come but Wed I MC, den I arrange today but today I tio held up by another vendor forget to inform my team!!! COCK UP ME!!! KILL ME PLEASE. Sigh. Like dis how my team can work??? Haiz...lousy me.
.LuKe.
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Blogskin 7.0 is up
[CuRRent MooD:] Okay
[CuRRent Song:] Cascada - A Neverending Dream (Deepforces Remix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Lots
As per title, lol
Spent half a day cos I've not done blogskin for a long time. Oh well =)
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Cascada - A Neverending Dream (Deepforces Remix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Lots
As per title, lol
Spent half a day cos I've not done blogskin for a long time. Oh well =)
.LuKe.
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
A gathering in Aloha Changi...
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired, fine, little pondering
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
Finally managed to resolve the server backup thingie for Lily, hehe I really enjoy doing a bit of troubleshooting and learning in the process, a pity I'm just "not there yet".
Anyway, yesterday I took half day off (and in the process conveniently forgotten about the meeting between another user and I) but by the time I reached home it's like 2+pm..and guess what, I thought Jurong Point is under CapitalLand lor...LOL...den reached home, cleared some stuff out of bag, changed and went off to PS area. Wah lau, bring laptop dere 1/2 hour for Wawa to do her stuff den finish le...waste my effort to use energy bring laptop..but oh well, no choice la...
After that went down Heeren (and showed us men thongs -.-) and den walked back up to PS. After that we stayed wif her a while in PC Bunk to watch her play Audition and then I left..only to come back once for my shades and another was to bring Jacqueline (happened to bump onto her on my way to MRT) to Wawa. Then after that went take MRT for a trip down to Pasir Ris.
Jialat really my mistake much of it - I assumed it's Downtown so I took bus from Pasir Ris...guess what, Pat updated me and told me it's Aloha Changi. Oh damn it. I flagged a cab and down I go to Aloha Changi. Alighted there, then again remembered it's NOT exactly Aloha Changi, it's the govt chalets inside. Walked inside and finally found the place. The area brought back some fond memories of my past......
Helped her with some stuff (bringing out from Kitchen to outside) and slowly seeing the familiar faces. After a long long time I've managed to see some of my Poly mates - Samson (with his wife), Sun Loong, Weiming, Wenwei (happens to be my sir in army days) and Minhui (my pri sch mate as well)...chatted for some time and really brought lots of laughter and memories.
Oh well, just about it. =) it's a good gathering. Anyway, is it time for me to change blog skin?
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
Finally managed to resolve the server backup thingie for Lily, hehe I really enjoy doing a bit of troubleshooting and learning in the process, a pity I'm just "not there yet".
Anyway, yesterday I took half day off (and in the process conveniently forgotten about the meeting between another user and I) but by the time I reached home it's like 2+pm..and guess what, I thought Jurong Point is under CapitalLand lor...LOL...den reached home, cleared some stuff out of bag, changed and went off to PS area. Wah lau, bring laptop dere 1/2 hour for Wawa to do her stuff den finish le...waste my effort to use energy bring laptop..but oh well, no choice la...
After that went down Heeren (and showed us men thongs -.-) and den walked back up to PS. After that we stayed wif her a while in PC Bunk to watch her play Audition and then I left..only to come back once for my shades and another was to bring Jacqueline (happened to bump onto her on my way to MRT) to Wawa. Then after that went take MRT for a trip down to Pasir Ris.
Jialat really my mistake much of it - I assumed it's Downtown so I took bus from Pasir Ris...guess what, Pat updated me and told me it's Aloha Changi. Oh damn it. I flagged a cab and down I go to Aloha Changi. Alighted there, then again remembered it's NOT exactly Aloha Changi, it's the govt chalets inside. Walked inside and finally found the place. The area brought back some fond memories of my past......
Helped her with some stuff (bringing out from Kitchen to outside) and slowly seeing the familiar faces. After a long long time I've managed to see some of my Poly mates - Samson (with his wife), Sun Loong, Weiming, Wenwei (happens to be my sir in army days) and Minhui (my pri sch mate as well)...chatted for some time and really brought lots of laughter and memories.
Oh well, just about it. =) it's a good gathering. Anyway, is it time for me to change blog skin?
.LuKe.
Friday, August 18, 2006
Suck dust day
[CuRRent MooD:] Fine
[CuRRent Song:] Forgot
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] MacDonald
I think I’m just about super heng or super suay from what I know..hardly a chance to be in a Mac on a morning, so I’m taking my meal in Mac. Just wanted to try my luck in the wireless since it was down few weeks back..and guess what?
Still down.
Checked with the manager and she said it was up few weeks back but probably due to some recabling works, it might have been affected again.
Call that heng or suay?
Later go home will suck dust and dirt..cos contractor will come to change our windows and door gate..hehe finally something new to check out at my place eh? Keke.
Oh well, nothing too much to talk about. See ya ard..
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Forgot
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] MacDonald
I think I’m just about super heng or super suay from what I know..hardly a chance to be in a Mac on a morning, so I’m taking my meal in Mac. Just wanted to try my luck in the wireless since it was down few weeks back..and guess what?
Still down.
Checked with the manager and she said it was up few weeks back but probably due to some recabling works, it might have been affected again.
Call that heng or suay?
Later go home will suck dust and dirt..cos contractor will come to change our windows and door gate..hehe finally something new to check out at my place eh? Keke.
Oh well, nothing too much to talk about. See ya ard..
.LuKe.
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Long time no blog..but wat to blog???
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Mee Goreng / Sugar Cane drink
Yesterday evening just went through my first real RT session...wah, long time no run really can kill...last time run to Orchard also no problem, now run like dis I tio stitches! Just read a document about stitches @ http://www.thestretchinghandbook.com/archives/side-stitch.htm and surprise, it says "take more fluids", opposed to what many people say about not taking them!
Nowadays hor...playing Maple wif my bro...really bo liao nothing to do kill stupid mushrooms and boars to get caps and teeth...LOL...and raise lvls...really something to pass time, not much skill involved unlike SG...but then again, I decide to let SG rest a while in my mind. With so much regimental changes, I felt rather tired about that. Oh well.
Guess what...ytd came back from RT, I left my working shoes in the bus. DAMN there goes my shoes. Now I'm wearing kuku PT shoes wif work wear...look so KUKU...
Nothing much to blog...so nvm lah...another time..
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Mee Goreng / Sugar Cane drink
Yesterday evening just went through my first real RT session...wah, long time no run really can kill...last time run to Orchard also no problem, now run like dis I tio stitches! Just read a document about stitches @ http://www.thestretchinghandbook.com/archives/side-stitch.htm and surprise, it says "take more fluids", opposed to what many people say about not taking them!
Nowadays hor...playing Maple wif my bro...really bo liao nothing to do kill stupid mushrooms and boars to get caps and teeth...LOL...and raise lvls...really something to pass time, not much skill involved unlike SG...but then again, I decide to let SG rest a while in my mind. With so much regimental changes, I felt rather tired about that. Oh well.
Guess what...ytd came back from RT, I left my working shoes in the bus. DAMN there goes my shoes. Now I'm wearing kuku PT shoes wif work wear...look so KUKU...
Nothing much to blog...so nvm lah...another time..
.LuKe.
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
I wonder how I endured so long in GeeAssKay
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired, vexed, confused, irritated
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
Frankly speaking, I do not know what to write. More and more things pile up, no matter how fast or slow it's still the same - we can't finish means we can't.
Come to think, I can't stay here for too long. Oh well...sucky.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
Frankly speaking, I do not know what to write. More and more things pile up, no matter how fast or slow it's still the same - we can't finish means we can't.
Come to think, I can't stay here for too long. Oh well...sucky.
.LuKe.
Sunday, July 23, 2006
A peaceful sunday PM...
[CuRRent MooD:] Ok
[CuRRent Song:] DJ Jason Chow - The Masterplate Mighty Mix Volume One
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] None
I think I must be mad.
Thursday I'm down with near-flu symptoms, friday I played Maple till 5am to sat morning, then went market wif mum and rested a while after that, then after some time I went out again. And guess what, I tried to be superman again - I went MU at night till 2am I went home...3am reached home, den maple till 5+, den rest a while, come to work!
I think I'm crazy.
Anyway, after these few chionging sessions between Paradigm and MU, I could identify my kakis. Paradigm is obvious, Dan the man and gang but for MU, my bro needs the music to bring him some mood for techno (since RnB is his speciality), same for Jiangyue. So who left for me to bring mood in? I have MingDe and Vivian. Both of them are regular saturday MU goers, and though MingDe don't really dance a lot, I enjoy Vivian's company. Not that she dances great or what, but she can certainly bring a good mood in as she can dance to any music in MU. Of course, she is rather selective on which songs will bring her mood in, and she uses similar style in RnB (only switching bpm slower), but all and all she's a good chiong kaki. Mingde's lucky to have such a chiong kaki and I'm also happy to know such a kaki too.
Yesterday while we were on way back, I was wondering something and I asked my bro, "Sometimes I really wonder what the lives of such MU pple are like. You know, their real lives outside MU." To me, I've only seen Mingde once outside in Marina Square with his gf (I heard they broke up) and as for Vivian, she remains a mystery. Oh well, I guess it's good not to be too nosy sometimes. Why people go chiong is to enjoy, and sometimes to escape or deviate from their actual lives. Few of the pple I knew from MU just got arrested and jailed...so come to think, isn't ignorance a bliss sometimes?
I've tuned down my gaming in SG and turned to Maple. Yeah Maple. Can't imagine? Well I'm only helping my bro's character - I don't have one myself. Don't forget I'm still paying for SG, which now I should maybe wonder if I still should do so.
Another thing to plan now is whether to get my new PC next month, or maybe even planning a phone should the bluetooth dongle be out. If the latter comes true, I might consider that option and even forgo my iPod Nano - I'll sell it.
Oh well...hehe. Whatever.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] DJ Jason Chow - The Masterplate Mighty Mix Volume One
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] None
I think I must be mad.
Thursday I'm down with near-flu symptoms, friday I played Maple till 5am to sat morning, then went market wif mum and rested a while after that, then after some time I went out again. And guess what, I tried to be superman again - I went MU at night till 2am I went home...3am reached home, den maple till 5+, den rest a while, come to work!
I think I'm crazy.
Anyway, after these few chionging sessions between Paradigm and MU, I could identify my kakis. Paradigm is obvious, Dan the man and gang but for MU, my bro needs the music to bring him some mood for techno (since RnB is his speciality), same for Jiangyue. So who left for me to bring mood in? I have MingDe and Vivian. Both of them are regular saturday MU goers, and though MingDe don't really dance a lot, I enjoy Vivian's company. Not that she dances great or what, but she can certainly bring a good mood in as she can dance to any music in MU. Of course, she is rather selective on which songs will bring her mood in, and she uses similar style in RnB (only switching bpm slower), but all and all she's a good chiong kaki. Mingde's lucky to have such a chiong kaki and I'm also happy to know such a kaki too.
Yesterday while we were on way back, I was wondering something and I asked my bro, "Sometimes I really wonder what the lives of such MU pple are like. You know, their real lives outside MU." To me, I've only seen Mingde once outside in Marina Square with his gf (I heard they broke up) and as for Vivian, she remains a mystery. Oh well, I guess it's good not to be too nosy sometimes. Why people go chiong is to enjoy, and sometimes to escape or deviate from their actual lives. Few of the pple I knew from MU just got arrested and jailed...so come to think, isn't ignorance a bliss sometimes?
I've tuned down my gaming in SG and turned to Maple. Yeah Maple. Can't imagine? Well I'm only helping my bro's character - I don't have one myself. Don't forget I'm still paying for SG, which now I should maybe wonder if I still should do so.
Another thing to plan now is whether to get my new PC next month, or maybe even planning a phone should the bluetooth dongle be out. If the latter comes true, I might consider that option and even forgo my iPod Nano - I'll sell it.
Oh well...hehe. Whatever.
.LuKe.
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Sick Thursday
[CuRRent MooD:] Sick, tired
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
See my title and mood can le. Going to see doctor later. This week is not overly busy but still got stuff to do.
Too tired. Blog another time.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
See my title and mood can le. Going to see doctor later. This week is not overly busy but still got stuff to do.
Too tired. Blog another time.
.LuKe.
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Super super tired...
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Cheesecake / Milo
This whole week had been super tired, and I know I'm not spared in these 4 days before the weekend. Nowadays it's just wishing the weekdays pass super fast and weekends stay as long as they want...but what to do, there's just 24 hours a day and that's good enough.
Of cos, it was certainly my fault to have stayed up all night last Friday by going to Paradigm and MU, then after that directly back to GSK to report for PM. The power part is when I went back home I just went on to do my own things till about 5pm I went out again. I rested early on saturday - something which I wouldn't imagine myself to do but had no choice since I'm extremely exhausted. Sunday woke up to find Sunshine and then went market with mum to buy stuff, went back home a while and watched Anime with bro, den went out wif Sunshine and walked around.
My reason for staying up on Friday? To relieve those stupid amount of stress accrued from my work. My legs were really tired over the weekend, but I kinda enjoyed myself.
Coming weekend, I should be planning for sports rather than anything else. I think I should come up with some kind of regime. LOL.
Tired tired...zzz
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Cheesecake / Milo
This whole week had been super tired, and I know I'm not spared in these 4 days before the weekend. Nowadays it's just wishing the weekdays pass super fast and weekends stay as long as they want...but what to do, there's just 24 hours a day and that's good enough.
Of cos, it was certainly my fault to have stayed up all night last Friday by going to Paradigm and MU, then after that directly back to GSK to report for PM. The power part is when I went back home I just went on to do my own things till about 5pm I went out again. I rested early on saturday - something which I wouldn't imagine myself to do but had no choice since I'm extremely exhausted. Sunday woke up to find Sunshine and then went market with mum to buy stuff, went back home a while and watched Anime with bro, den went out wif Sunshine and walked around.
My reason for staying up on Friday? To relieve those stupid amount of stress accrued from my work. My legs were really tired over the weekend, but I kinda enjoyed myself.
Coming weekend, I should be planning for sports rather than anything else. I think I should come up with some kind of regime. LOL.
Tired tired...zzz
.LuKe.
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
More and more shit
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired but still awake
[CuRRent Song:] E-Type - Dans La Fantasie
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Chicken Chop + BBQ Chicken Wing / Teh Peng
I tell you all hor, GSK only comes with more and more shit, more and more nonsense, and lesser reasons for us to stay on.
Workload getting more and more, pay also dun add on with OT, you can still grit through, complain and not do much about it - but can you imagine if your privilege gets taken away? Ok, we accept the fact we don't get the $1 discount that their staff gets in lunch time, fine I'm ok with it. We just got updated that we MAY lose our privilege to get those free soft drinks from dispensers (meanwhile we cannot just openly take the drinks - SUCKS) and you know what's next? To be NOT ABLE TO EAT IN THEIR CAFETERIA!!! What's next, cannot buy their products from there as well??? WTF!!! Do you know by doing this, they are further cutting down our efficiency? Imagine scenario we need walk in and out GSK to makan, and during lunch time they will not be able to locate us AT ALL. This might sound like a good thing, but in the long run it's everyone suffering without even looking deep into it. From what I know, nearest eating place is like 5-10 mins walk from GSK, worse than the distance over at Quality Road to nearest makan place. THIS IS GETTING FUCKING RIDICULOUS. They think GSK in Orchard Road issit? It's at TUAS, MIND YOU!!! (ok, outside Tuas)
Phew. A load off. I can't imagine if GSK's big pple decide to say "HP Outsource cannot take food and drinks from cafeteria" - I believe we have reasons to protest. On another front, as what my "old" colleague says, "at most we spend longer time outside, they also cannot say anything, also cannot locate us, cannot ask us to faster come back!" - which is true, but this is really a stupid thing. When this happens, we will start lunch @ 11:30am and be back GSK @ 1:30pm. They cannot blame us - it's their own demise. Fuck those other contractors lah, I know everyone "should be fair, should be equal" but look, we are employed to directly assist a department, we are more like "contract-ed staff of GSK" rather that contractor, from my opinion. We sit in and out office, work with users closely, administer servers, troubleshoot stuff - and tell us like dis. I know other contractors will have their own versions, but remember - we are being taken away our privilege, while they don't have any in the first place. It's worse to have something and taken away rather than not having it at all in the first place, especially if you are talking about privileges. I look forward the day they took away the privilege and me submitting my resignation, reason being "GSK is getting ridiculous. No point staying on and wasting time, wasting effort and gets almost no appreciation".
Ok lah...dun complain so much le...Sunshine already listen too much le...
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] E-Type - Dans La Fantasie
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Chicken Chop + BBQ Chicken Wing / Teh Peng
I tell you all hor, GSK only comes with more and more shit, more and more nonsense, and lesser reasons for us to stay on.
Workload getting more and more, pay also dun add on with OT, you can still grit through, complain and not do much about it - but can you imagine if your privilege gets taken away? Ok, we accept the fact we don't get the $1 discount that their staff gets in lunch time, fine I'm ok with it. We just got updated that we MAY lose our privilege to get those free soft drinks from dispensers (meanwhile we cannot just openly take the drinks - SUCKS) and you know what's next? To be NOT ABLE TO EAT IN THEIR CAFETERIA!!! What's next, cannot buy their products from there as well??? WTF!!! Do you know by doing this, they are further cutting down our efficiency? Imagine scenario we need walk in and out GSK to makan, and during lunch time they will not be able to locate us AT ALL. This might sound like a good thing, but in the long run it's everyone suffering without even looking deep into it. From what I know, nearest eating place is like 5-10 mins walk from GSK, worse than the distance over at Quality Road to nearest makan place. THIS IS GETTING FUCKING RIDICULOUS. They think GSK in Orchard Road issit? It's at TUAS, MIND YOU!!! (ok, outside Tuas)
Phew. A load off. I can't imagine if GSK's big pple decide to say "HP Outsource cannot take food and drinks from cafeteria" - I believe we have reasons to protest. On another front, as what my "old" colleague says, "at most we spend longer time outside, they also cannot say anything, also cannot locate us, cannot ask us to faster come back!" - which is true, but this is really a stupid thing. When this happens, we will start lunch @ 11:30am and be back GSK @ 1:30pm. They cannot blame us - it's their own demise. Fuck those other contractors lah, I know everyone "should be fair, should be equal" but look, we are employed to directly assist a department, we are more like "contract-ed staff of GSK" rather that contractor, from my opinion. We sit in and out office, work with users closely, administer servers, troubleshoot stuff - and tell us like dis. I know other contractors will have their own versions, but remember - we are being taken away our privilege, while they don't have any in the first place. It's worse to have something and taken away rather than not having it at all in the first place, especially if you are talking about privileges. I look forward the day they took away the privilege and me submitting my resignation, reason being "GSK is getting ridiculous. No point staying on and wasting time, wasting effort and gets almost no appreciation".
Ok lah...dun complain so much le...Sunshine already listen too much le...
.LuKe.
Thursday, July 06, 2006
Tired stupid week?
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
Nothing much to do, trying to relax a little, now trying some LAN pts to work. Need to prepare dis and dat, certainly a tired week and weeks ahead won't be much different.
My ears are ok now, but I've spent like $350 on medical bills and these bills cannot even be reimbursed or subsidised in any way. This is just so plain sucky.
I noe I've not been blogging for like a week or so...well, just feeling tired and busy and stuff. Anyway, for a "record" I've won $36 so far from World Cup - lucky me! Well maybe dat to make up for the medical bills.
Oh well gtg...blog when have time...
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
Nothing much to do, trying to relax a little, now trying some LAN pts to work. Need to prepare dis and dat, certainly a tired week and weeks ahead won't be much different.
My ears are ok now, but I've spent like $350 on medical bills and these bills cannot even be reimbursed or subsidised in any way. This is just so plain sucky.
I noe I've not been blogging for like a week or so...well, just feeling tired and busy and stuff. Anyway, for a "record" I've won $36 so far from World Cup - lucky me! Well maybe dat to make up for the medical bills.
Oh well gtg...blog when have time...
.LuKe.
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Just random to say the least
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired, neutral
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
Well, called up Mount E yesterday and told me consultation is $70 excluding procedures...I was like wah, if ask me go twice or more masi siao!!! I hope the referral letter does tell the doctor what to do...so at least go once you know is do once do good...sian part will be still need go back...idiotic...
Nothing much to talk about also...just nothing to do start of my day blog lor...later doing work liao...kicking off the patches and stuff. Ok lah...I think don't talk too much le...work more impt...
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
Well, called up Mount E yesterday and told me consultation is $70 excluding procedures...I was like wah, if ask me go twice or more masi siao!!! I hope the referral letter does tell the doctor what to do...so at least go once you know is do once do good...sian part will be still need go back...idiotic...
Nothing much to talk about also...just nothing to do start of my day blog lor...later doing work liao...kicking off the patches and stuff. Ok lah...I think don't talk too much le...work more impt...
.LuKe.
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
A walk through the past? Just a passing thought...
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired, pondering
[CuRRent Song:] Deep Spirit - You're The One That I Want (Bass Up! Remix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
Just applied oil on my ear...sian...no reimbursement for my specialist checkup! This is so irritating. And guess where they assign me to...Mount E you know??? It is such a damn ex place lor...I also dunno what the hell to do with it...maybe I should call them up and ask the pricing...so at least I'm more or less prepared...otherwise kana bo dai bo ji refer to so ex place, wat for???
Just had a walk into the past yesterday. It was a total shit feeling, I wonder why I had to walk thru it in the first place. Come to think, I think I looked for trouble and trouble came knocking on my door. Good thing it's not a serious issue and I've more or less came to terms with it...well, more or less I said.
Sometimes I wish I couldn't have cared less with my personal life with aspect to this. I would rather be a mindless money-earning machine or a mommy's boy maybe. No choice, I am what I am.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Deep Spirit - You're The One That I Want (Bass Up! Remix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
Just applied oil on my ear...sian...no reimbursement for my specialist checkup! This is so irritating. And guess where they assign me to...Mount E you know??? It is such a damn ex place lor...I also dunno what the hell to do with it...maybe I should call them up and ask the pricing...so at least I'm more or less prepared...otherwise kana bo dai bo ji refer to so ex place, wat for???
Just had a walk into the past yesterday. It was a total shit feeling, I wonder why I had to walk thru it in the first place. Come to think, I think I looked for trouble and trouble came knocking on my door. Good thing it's not a serious issue and I've more or less came to terms with it...well, more or less I said.
Sometimes I wish I couldn't have cared less with my personal life with aspect to this. I would rather be a mindless money-earning machine or a mommy's boy maybe. No choice, I am what I am.
.LuKe.
Monday, June 26, 2006
Finally last week of the month...(reflections)
[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral, thinking...
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
Wah...sian ah...this week gonna be yet another troublesome one. Security patches to run, things to solve, den colleague leaving...sigh, add on the fact I'm still clearing up my life, I wonder how are things really going to turn out for me.
I really think I'm quite a sucky person to be out with. Throughout my life I've been trying to be a better person, only turning out worse than what I thought of to be. I guess the best parts of my life has to be time before I'm 18, where major decisions and occurences happened. I guess if I made a different choice, my whole life would have been changed. Still again, even if I made a different choice THAT time, I would've made a similar choice later after that...because I am what I am, and something which I can't change radically.
Sometimes I tink I know what I want in life, and sometimes I think I don't. Seems contradicting eh? Life at 25 and not achieving much, it's really time for me to review my life isn't it? My eldest bro @ 25 was already married, moved out and had life decisions to make for himself. Disregarding my 2nd bro, I guess I'm really an underachiever in this aspect, not able to match up to my eldest bro.
I know my parents do not have too high expectations in me, but somehow I have an expectation of myself to provide whatever I can for them. I know they are always there for me, always ready to help me when I need it, and advise me when necessary (though I find it a nag at times, but that's normal isn't it?). I wanted a gf and wife that can take care of them, that they find comfortable. They do not have high expectations, they are simple people. You'll know it when you talk to them.
Talking abt gf, I guess I really have to rethink about myself and Sunshine. Once again we bumped onto the same issue yesterday, about myself not treating her well and stuff. No, it's not her fault...it's just about me, my expectations and stuff. Sometimes I think I do not understand myself well, sometimes I do...but I know I understood myself way too much I could not have the courage to face it. A brimming pot of evil, maybe.
I know I'm losing myself, but I will have to force myself to pick up again for my parents.
What do I want from my life, people around me and from a prospective gf/wife/partner? I think I know, but just that either I don't work for it or I do not have the courage to face it. Then again, how many would?
How many knows that changes being made will benefit or destroy their very existence? Only by trying it out would you know. It takes courage to change and accept changes.
New journey? Yes/no/maybe?
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Milo
Wah...sian ah...this week gonna be yet another troublesome one. Security patches to run, things to solve, den colleague leaving...sigh, add on the fact I'm still clearing up my life, I wonder how are things really going to turn out for me.
I really think I'm quite a sucky person to be out with. Throughout my life I've been trying to be a better person, only turning out worse than what I thought of to be. I guess the best parts of my life has to be time before I'm 18, where major decisions and occurences happened. I guess if I made a different choice, my whole life would have been changed. Still again, even if I made a different choice THAT time, I would've made a similar choice later after that...because I am what I am, and something which I can't change radically.
Sometimes I tink I know what I want in life, and sometimes I think I don't. Seems contradicting eh? Life at 25 and not achieving much, it's really time for me to review my life isn't it? My eldest bro @ 25 was already married, moved out and had life decisions to make for himself. Disregarding my 2nd bro, I guess I'm really an underachiever in this aspect, not able to match up to my eldest bro.
I know my parents do not have too high expectations in me, but somehow I have an expectation of myself to provide whatever I can for them. I know they are always there for me, always ready to help me when I need it, and advise me when necessary (though I find it a nag at times, but that's normal isn't it?). I wanted a gf and wife that can take care of them, that they find comfortable. They do not have high expectations, they are simple people. You'll know it when you talk to them.
Talking abt gf, I guess I really have to rethink about myself and Sunshine. Once again we bumped onto the same issue yesterday, about myself not treating her well and stuff. No, it's not her fault...it's just about me, my expectations and stuff. Sometimes I think I do not understand myself well, sometimes I do...but I know I understood myself way too much I could not have the courage to face it. A brimming pot of evil, maybe.
I know I'm losing myself, but I will have to force myself to pick up again for my parents.
What do I want from my life, people around me and from a prospective gf/wife/partner? I think I know, but just that either I don't work for it or I do not have the courage to face it. Then again, how many would?
How many knows that changes being made will benefit or destroy their very existence? Only by trying it out would you know. It takes courage to change and accept changes.
New journey? Yes/no/maybe?
.LuKe.
Sunday, June 25, 2006
What can I do with Life...
[CuRRent MooD:] A lil tired, a lil moody
[CuRRent Song:] Clutch - The Light (Extended Mix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] None (haven't eaten anything the whole day)
I guess I owe an apology to Sunshine for needlessly displaying acts of childishness. I guess it's hard for me as things are going thru my brain and I find it hard to act on myself with thoughts bombarding myself every now and then. Now and then it's the same things, same questions without answers, that I leave myself so puzzled I do not know an actual call of action. I really don't know what I should do next.
Coming weeks will be tough with only me and Malcolm ard (my other colleague will be his last week in GSK) so it's time to get my head (our heads to be precise) even bigger. Sigh...this can be quite a problem really.
This weekend is more or less the same, spending time at home and with Sunshine...went to Bugis wif her yesterday to walk and buy a bit of stuff...still training my SG when I can, and slept quite a lot today. Oh well...what kind of shit life am I leading...I wonder.
Till I can sort out a lot of things, till I can get myself disciplined...there's nothing too much I can do. Yeah, thanks to Serene for trying to make me feel better - she's Dan's "sister".
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Clutch - The Light (Extended Mix)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] None (haven't eaten anything the whole day)
I guess I owe an apology to Sunshine for needlessly displaying acts of childishness. I guess it's hard for me as things are going thru my brain and I find it hard to act on myself with thoughts bombarding myself every now and then. Now and then it's the same things, same questions without answers, that I leave myself so puzzled I do not know an actual call of action. I really don't know what I should do next.
Coming weeks will be tough with only me and Malcolm ard (my other colleague will be his last week in GSK) so it's time to get my head (our heads to be precise) even bigger. Sigh...this can be quite a problem really.
This weekend is more or less the same, spending time at home and with Sunshine...went to Bugis wif her yesterday to walk and buy a bit of stuff...still training my SG when I can, and slept quite a lot today. Oh well...what kind of shit life am I leading...I wonder.
Till I can sort out a lot of things, till I can get myself disciplined...there's nothing too much I can do. Yeah, thanks to Serene for trying to make me feel better - she's Dan's "sister".
.LuKe.
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Fucked up
[CuRRent MooD:] As per title
[CuRRent Song:] Black Eyed Peas - My Humps
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Fish Hor Fun / Sugar Cane Drink
Fucked up.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Black Eyed Peas - My Humps
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Fish Hor Fun / Sugar Cane Drink
Fucked up.
.LuKe.
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Just a short update
[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] "Vege" Porridge / Plain water
Today ah..wan to see doctor also got problem..tell me cannot claim den need me pay cash! I was like WTF..den I contacted Jacee from GMP den after some clearance she say should be able to see the doctor..later I will go again..dis ear of mine really giving me quite some problems..
Jus about 2 days away from SG’s reincarnation..about time I make my last efforts to level whatever I can..though it will not be simple..anyway I’m in one of the better regiments already..hehe..
Hope morrow go back work wun be overwhelmed by workload..and hope everything goes fine at workplace..if not also no choice la..some things not within our control, but of cos when make a mistake must make sure wun happen again lor..else it’s really no one’s fault but yourself..
Really wonder when this ear of mine will be ok. Oh well..nothing too much to blog on a normal weekday, so I’ll probably leave it for some other time..or till I have things to say.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] "Vege" Porridge / Plain water
Today ah..wan to see doctor also got problem..tell me cannot claim den need me pay cash! I was like WTF..den I contacted Jacee from GMP den after some clearance she say should be able to see the doctor..later I will go again..dis ear of mine really giving me quite some problems..
Jus about 2 days away from SG’s reincarnation..about time I make my last efforts to level whatever I can..though it will not be simple..anyway I’m in one of the better regiments already..hehe..
Hope morrow go back work wun be overwhelmed by workload..and hope everything goes fine at workplace..if not also no choice la..some things not within our control, but of cos when make a mistake must make sure wun happen again lor..else it’s really no one’s fault but yourself..
Really wonder when this ear of mine will be ok. Oh well..nothing too much to blog on a normal weekday, so I’ll probably leave it for some other time..or till I have things to say.
.LuKe.
Monday, June 12, 2006
A short blog for the week
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Breadtalk Cheese + Ham bread / Grass Jelly Drink
Wah…the week was pretty tough but we did manage to grit our teeth thru it. Oh well what to do, life goes on..
On a good note, I’ve finally got my news of an increment, not too much, jus abt 10% of my total income. Sounds not bad, well beggars are not choosers so I guess I’ll just stick to it.
I’ll go update my resume later on, but I guess I have to find a way to accustom to my lifestyle and get a bit of savings and planning so I can study or at least aim for MCSA (or MCSE).
What have I done for the week? This week I am being hit by an infected ear so I can’t hear properly on the left ear..so I’m out from nightspots.
Friday/Saturday/Sunday:
Come to think of it, apart from the fact I did not go Paradigm, I think all I did was to stay at home and SG. And of course my tiredness got on me as well.
Just got myself those UV screen protector kinda things – my actual intention was to make sure my screen does not get dirtied by random sources (fingerprints, saliva etc) but I hope it will solve the problem of reflective light sources (since my screen directly faces the window).
Time to eat =)
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Breadtalk Cheese + Ham bread / Grass Jelly Drink
Wah…the week was pretty tough but we did manage to grit our teeth thru it. Oh well what to do, life goes on..
On a good note, I’ve finally got my news of an increment, not too much, jus abt 10% of my total income. Sounds not bad, well beggars are not choosers so I guess I’ll just stick to it.
I’ll go update my resume later on, but I guess I have to find a way to accustom to my lifestyle and get a bit of savings and planning so I can study or at least aim for MCSA (or MCSE).
What have I done for the week? This week I am being hit by an infected ear so I can’t hear properly on the left ear..so I’m out from nightspots.
Friday/Saturday/Sunday:
Come to think of it, apart from the fact I did not go Paradigm, I think all I did was to stay at home and SG. And of course my tiredness got on me as well.
Just got myself those UV screen protector kinda things – my actual intention was to make sure my screen does not get dirtied by random sources (fingerprints, saliva etc) but I hope it will solve the problem of reflective light sources (since my screen directly faces the window).
Time to eat =)
.LuKe.
Monday, June 05, 2006
An update...long or short?
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired, pondering
[CuRRent Song:] Melodie MC - Anyone Out There
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Egg + Fish / Pokka Green Tea
I've not updated for a week eh...so what should I write? As usual lor the weekend...
Friday:
Spent morning in QR, took half day off. Went to JP, cut my hair (dis time it's quite short) and wanted to surprise Sunshine by going back early to see her...ended up she went out wif her aunt..so bo bian lor, go home rest a bit den prepared myself, went down to PS to accompany my bro and play game...after that met up with Dan and co, went to Paradigm.
Another private party, but we got to know "the lonely dancer" - his name is Richard. Then got a treat from Andrew as he won jackpot, den hang ard till abt 3am walked to the MU bus stop took NR5 back home.
Saturday:
Rested till late afternoon, prepared myself then meet up Sunshine to go Suntec PC Show. Wah as usual, lotsa pple crowding everywhere, I thought I won't be getting anything this year but...Man Proposes, God Disposes - I ended up getting a BENQ 17" LCD monitor @ $325...with a webcam! But I gave to Sunshine though. Now look at my screen very SONG. LOL. After that met up with Alynna Jie for dinner, den Jazlyn came to meet us as well, den chat and bla bla bla...den go home play game...actually ard near morning wanna slp but Isabelle called me den asked me to call her frequently to make sure she's ok...ended up I turned in ard 7am...
Sunday:
Woke up ard 3, den went to Bugis and met up with Berlinda to purchase system...her rough specs:
P4 2.4a GHZ
PC Chips MoBo
512MB PC400 RAM
Combo CDRW
56K Modem
$478....noticed something missing? HDD? LOL. Cos her previous system that time HDD spoilt, so she got a new HDD. Since she dun really need a good system, so she reuse...then I saw a very attractive offerr:
+ $68 for 250GB SATA HDD
WOW!!! After asking Berlinda, she agreed I could pay the $68 and get myself the HDD. COOL!
Imagine $68 for 250GB SATA HDD...whr to find????
Brought to her place and set up everything...reached home already 12+midnight le...
Today:
BUSY DAY!!!!!!
Actually had something else to talk about...but never mind...another time...
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Melodie MC - Anyone Out There
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Egg + Fish / Pokka Green Tea
I've not updated for a week eh...so what should I write? As usual lor the weekend...
Friday:
Spent morning in QR, took half day off. Went to JP, cut my hair (dis time it's quite short) and wanted to surprise Sunshine by going back early to see her...ended up she went out wif her aunt..so bo bian lor, go home rest a bit den prepared myself, went down to PS to accompany my bro and play game...after that met up with Dan and co, went to Paradigm.
Another private party, but we got to know "the lonely dancer" - his name is Richard. Then got a treat from Andrew as he won jackpot, den hang ard till abt 3am walked to the MU bus stop took NR5 back home.
Saturday:
Rested till late afternoon, prepared myself then meet up Sunshine to go Suntec PC Show. Wah as usual, lotsa pple crowding everywhere, I thought I won't be getting anything this year but...Man Proposes, God Disposes - I ended up getting a BENQ 17" LCD monitor @ $325...with a webcam! But I gave to Sunshine though. Now look at my screen very SONG. LOL. After that met up with Alynna Jie for dinner, den Jazlyn came to meet us as well, den chat and bla bla bla...den go home play game...actually ard near morning wanna slp but Isabelle called me den asked me to call her frequently to make sure she's ok...ended up I turned in ard 7am...
Sunday:
Woke up ard 3, den went to Bugis and met up with Berlinda to purchase system...her rough specs:
P4 2.4a GHZ
PC Chips MoBo
512MB PC400 RAM
Combo CDRW
56K Modem
$478....noticed something missing? HDD? LOL. Cos her previous system that time HDD spoilt, so she got a new HDD. Since she dun really need a good system, so she reuse...then I saw a very attractive offerr:
+ $68 for 250GB SATA HDD
WOW!!! After asking Berlinda, she agreed I could pay the $68 and get myself the HDD. COOL!
Imagine $68 for 250GB SATA HDD...whr to find????
Brought to her place and set up everything...reached home already 12+midnight le...
Today:
BUSY DAY!!!!!!
Actually had something else to talk about...but never mind...another time...
.LuKe.
Monday, May 29, 2006
Monday's journey back home
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] LJS
Now on the way back home blogging..hehe. Well the weekend has been rather normal, nothing too much to boast about so here it goes..
Friday:
Knock off from work and took cab with my work colleagues and ‘boss’ to Clarke Quay to makan. By the time we reached there its 7:30pm (took an hour to reach) and the cab fare costs over $25. This is so expensive! Anyway we ended up taking our dinner at an Indonesian restaurant and chatted quite a lot about work-related issues (boring but what to do) and some off-work stuff. Around 9pm I took 190 with Malcolm (the newest addition into the team) and went to PS. After he met up with his friends I went to Atrium.. jus as I was abt to go in, I was being intercepted by a female who asked for some time for a survey. Turned out it’s a Prudential agent and I told her I had an agent who is from Prudential too. We chatted a bit and talking a lot of rubbish before I took my leave. Nothing much abt the night apart from bumping onto Andrew and he asked if I’m going to Planet Paradigm and I replied another time – budget low and mum’s visit to clinic the next day. Upon reaching home I took a bath and went to bed.
Saturday:
Woke up 9:45am and prepared to go clinic with mum. By the time I’m back home it’s I think 12+ and I turned on the comp to play SG. About 2+ near 3pm I went to take a nap and woke up at ard 5pm. Thinking that I had to meet up with Berlinda, I prepared myself and went to MRT station..but she called me after I passed the gantry and said that she does not have sufficient cash..so ok..another time. I took train down to PS. Went Atrium arcade and hang around a little before my bro appeared. Accompanied him to Park Mall to meet up Wawa and went Holiday Inn Hotel for an interview in a pub. After that we took bus back to Centerpoint and walked to Cineleisure to makan. After that went to MU with them but only stayed till the last bus and went home. Home, play game till morning.
Sunday:
Accompanied Sunshine for the whole day.
Today:
BUSY DAY. LOL.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] LJS
Now on the way back home blogging..hehe. Well the weekend has been rather normal, nothing too much to boast about so here it goes..
Friday:
Knock off from work and took cab with my work colleagues and ‘boss’ to Clarke Quay to makan. By the time we reached there its 7:30pm (took an hour to reach) and the cab fare costs over $25. This is so expensive! Anyway we ended up taking our dinner at an Indonesian restaurant and chatted quite a lot about work-related issues (boring but what to do) and some off-work stuff. Around 9pm I took 190 with Malcolm (the newest addition into the team) and went to PS. After he met up with his friends I went to Atrium.. jus as I was abt to go in, I was being intercepted by a female who asked for some time for a survey. Turned out it’s a Prudential agent and I told her I had an agent who is from Prudential too. We chatted a bit and talking a lot of rubbish before I took my leave. Nothing much abt the night apart from bumping onto Andrew and he asked if I’m going to Planet Paradigm and I replied another time – budget low and mum’s visit to clinic the next day. Upon reaching home I took a bath and went to bed.
Saturday:
Woke up 9:45am and prepared to go clinic with mum. By the time I’m back home it’s I think 12+ and I turned on the comp to play SG. About 2+ near 3pm I went to take a nap and woke up at ard 5pm. Thinking that I had to meet up with Berlinda, I prepared myself and went to MRT station..but she called me after I passed the gantry and said that she does not have sufficient cash..so ok..another time. I took train down to PS. Went Atrium arcade and hang around a little before my bro appeared. Accompanied him to Park Mall to meet up Wawa and went Holiday Inn Hotel for an interview in a pub. After that we took bus back to Centerpoint and walked to Cineleisure to makan. After that went to MU with them but only stayed till the last bus and went home. Home, play game till morning.
Sunday:
Accompanied Sunshine for the whole day.
Today:
BUSY DAY. LOL.
.LuKe.
Sunday, May 28, 2006
This life of mine is getting dangerous...or is it?
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired
[CuRRent Song:] Spring Break - Big Bad Love (Cascada Remix Long)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Sichuan Vege / Water
I know pple will ask me why, but I guess I wun say much of now. I just wanted it to be written here so when I come back to my blog entry, I would think back of what may or not had happened and whether Ive regretted it.
Is GSK's significance only drill down to that?
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Spring Break - Big Bad Love (Cascada Remix Long)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Sichuan Vege / Water
I know pple will ask me why, but I guess I wun say much of now. I just wanted it to be written here so when I come back to my blog entry, I would think back of what may or not had happened and whether Ive regretted it.
Is GSK's significance only drill down to that?
.LuKe.
Thursday, May 25, 2006
Just a passing thought
[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral
[CuRRent Song:] 品冠 & 梁静茹- 明明很爱你
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] LJS
Sorry if I mis-spelt Fish Leong's chinese name.
Just a small writing after I listened to S.H.E.'s 不做你的朋友...
This song at one point talks about a couple unable to be together and remains as best friends. We know for certain such situations is few and far between, and that it can rarely be maintained. Of course, they did sing in the end to propose to not being friends at all.
I hold an extreme optimistic view to my relationships - that whatever happens, we should at least still be friends. So far so good, maybe not always in contact but at least no one hates the other like bitter enemies. I still chat with at least one of them (maybe cause she's the one who let me down), as for the rest it's occasional.
I often believe the key is never to end a relationship in a quarrel - it should be due to mutual understanding of each other that one acknowledges the other's reason to not maintain the close relationship any further. Such things is tough and depends on the individual...but nothing is impossible so long you work hard enough.
This is going to be a short writing as my new keyboard sucks. LOL. Till another time =)
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] 品冠 & 梁静茹- 明明很爱你
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] LJS
Sorry if I mis-spelt Fish Leong's chinese name.
Just a small writing after I listened to S.H.E.'s 不做你的朋友...
This song at one point talks about a couple unable to be together and remains as best friends. We know for certain such situations is few and far between, and that it can rarely be maintained. Of course, they did sing in the end to propose to not being friends at all.
I hold an extreme optimistic view to my relationships - that whatever happens, we should at least still be friends. So far so good, maybe not always in contact but at least no one hates the other like bitter enemies. I still chat with at least one of them (maybe cause she's the one who let me down), as for the rest it's occasional.
I often believe the key is never to end a relationship in a quarrel - it should be due to mutual understanding of each other that one acknowledges the other's reason to not maintain the close relationship any further. Such things is tough and depends on the individual...but nothing is impossible so long you work hard enough.
This is going to be a short writing as my new keyboard sucks. LOL. Till another time =)
.LuKe.
Friday, May 19, 2006
Yet another dream (a short one)
[CuRRent MooD:] Normal
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Plain water
It's strange that I had only 4+ hours of sleep and yet I could have a dream...a short one that is. I do not understand why, and this had never happened - I dreamt of the same person consecutively 2 days. It must've been her marriage that somehow affected my subconscious. The dream is very simple, only lasted a minute probably - I was in a hall, looking at people dancing Line Dance (something which used contemporary music in sychronised steps of groups of pple or individuals - kinda like Para Para but the latter uses Eurobeat in general) and I saw her right beside me dancing along with the others. It is real strange, and I woke up.
The idiotic rebuilding for QR really got on to me. What's wif this place that their network rebuild is so slow I had to use CD rebuild...and that the CD rebuild is equally f*cked up as well? This is total crap.
I guess the dream happened cos I'm quite an emotional person...even though nowadays I chose to hide some feelings, some still persist. Yesterday I read Pingguo's blog and was somehowwhat felt deeply about how she is feeling at the moment. Oh well..life is like dis.
Gonna end blogging. Somehow some idiotic thing is happening. -.-
On a sidenote, one of the LSX pple is getting married. Oh well...I'm really getting old. STRESS AH.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Plain water
It's strange that I had only 4+ hours of sleep and yet I could have a dream...a short one that is. I do not understand why, and this had never happened - I dreamt of the same person consecutively 2 days. It must've been her marriage that somehow affected my subconscious. The dream is very simple, only lasted a minute probably - I was in a hall, looking at people dancing Line Dance (something which used contemporary music in sychronised steps of groups of pple or individuals - kinda like Para Para but the latter uses Eurobeat in general) and I saw her right beside me dancing along with the others. It is real strange, and I woke up.
The idiotic rebuilding for QR really got on to me. What's wif this place that their network rebuild is so slow I had to use CD rebuild...and that the CD rebuild is equally f*cked up as well? This is total crap.
I guess the dream happened cos I'm quite an emotional person...even though nowadays I chose to hide some feelings, some still persist. Yesterday I read Pingguo's blog and was somehowwhat felt deeply about how she is feeling at the moment. Oh well..life is like dis.
Gonna end blogging. Somehow some idiotic thing is happening. -.-
On a sidenote, one of the LSX pple is getting married. Oh well...I'm really getting old. STRESS AH.
.LuKe.
Thursday, May 18, 2006
So bored...
[CuRRent MooD:] Bored, tired, sleepy
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Seafood Mee Goreng / Lemon Barley Drink
So bored...wanna sleep...but got to wait for the CD burn finish...den do stuff...den can go back.....JU site. SIAN!!!
Haha...on a light note, I'm taking morrow afternoon off. Later go back JU must PIA!!!
Wait...I'm a slacker...blogging while @ work! SINFUL!!!
Oh well, gonna wait for the CD to finish, so what to do.
Later go put the tapes in safe.
Person whom I'm looking for on MC...hmmm..hahaha...
I think you see the way I type you will know how bored I can get.
Anyway I had a dream this morning...funny one, and certainly won't happen cos it's a clash of timeline.
I have both Steven (my Para friend) and my childhood sweetheart as my classmates! This is weird.
The setting is like a big classroom...or canteen...or both, since it's like both combined into one mega big room...the classroom is on one side and the canteen the other. I was eating lunch with Steven and my childhood sweetheart (call her A la) when she and her friend walked past us. Both of them are student councillors, so they have some power...I saw her friend throwing rubbish in improper ways, and talked somehowwhat loudly. Steven left me to go back class, which I'm finishing my big plate of food when she jus came along and said, "you better finish the food faster, and remember to clear your food else there will lots of rubbish everywhere." - it's a bad tone really.
I took the tray and plate, and stood up and went to the collection area to clear...but as I walked past I said "don't think just because you can talk loudly means anything. I do clear my rubbish unlike someone else who throws it around and talks louder than me."
I could see both their faces change, and were furious. I added "don't look at me, I'm speaking the truth. I'm going back to class."
They literally stared at me as I was walking back...I could feel it. I walked towards Steven and commented "those are certainly some unreasonable girls!"
And I woke up. Strange dream.
Oh well...off I go.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Seafood Mee Goreng / Lemon Barley Drink
So bored...wanna sleep...but got to wait for the CD burn finish...den do stuff...den can go back.....JU site. SIAN!!!
Haha...on a light note, I'm taking morrow afternoon off. Later go back JU must PIA!!!
Wait...I'm a slacker...blogging while @ work! SINFUL!!!
Oh well, gonna wait for the CD to finish, so what to do.
Later go put the tapes in safe.
Person whom I'm looking for on MC...hmmm..hahaha...
I think you see the way I type you will know how bored I can get.
Anyway I had a dream this morning...funny one, and certainly won't happen cos it's a clash of timeline.
I have both Steven (my Para friend) and my childhood sweetheart as my classmates! This is weird.
The setting is like a big classroom...or canteen...or both, since it's like both combined into one mega big room...the classroom is on one side and the canteen the other. I was eating lunch with Steven and my childhood sweetheart (call her A la) when she and her friend walked past us. Both of them are student councillors, so they have some power...I saw her friend throwing rubbish in improper ways, and talked somehowwhat loudly. Steven left me to go back class, which I'm finishing my big plate of food when she jus came along and said, "you better finish the food faster, and remember to clear your food else there will lots of rubbish everywhere." - it's a bad tone really.
I took the tray and plate, and stood up and went to the collection area to clear...but as I walked past I said "don't think just because you can talk loudly means anything. I do clear my rubbish unlike someone else who throws it around and talks louder than me."
I could see both their faces change, and were furious. I added "don't look at me, I'm speaking the truth. I'm going back to class."
They literally stared at me as I was walking back...I could feel it. I walked towards Steven and commented "those are certainly some unreasonable girls!"
And I woke up. Strange dream.
Oh well...off I go.
.LuKe.
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Now I truly feel the "work sucks" feeling...
[CuRRent MooD:] SIAN
[CuRRent Song:] Bananarama - I Love The Way
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Chicken / Water
I dun wanna talk so much abt work though.
Looking around in Friendster, two friends of mine got married...or should I say, one ex-friend. Beautiful ladies, if you wanna see just request from me (the pics I meant).
Life takes many turns, sometimes up and many downs...but it's just how we treat life that life wanna treat us. Frankly speaking, I just wanna write a little here before I disappear.
Today took 1/2 day off and visited GMSS. Could not see Mrs Tan around though.
Sleeping soon, another shit day morrow @ GSK. Just wanna leave that place soon...maybe?
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Bananarama - I Love The Way
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Chicken / Water
I dun wanna talk so much abt work though.
Looking around in Friendster, two friends of mine got married...or should I say, one ex-friend. Beautiful ladies, if you wanna see just request from me (the pics I meant).
Life takes many turns, sometimes up and many downs...but it's just how we treat life that life wanna treat us. Frankly speaking, I just wanna write a little here before I disappear.
Today took 1/2 day off and visited GMSS. Could not see Mrs Tan around though.
Sleeping soon, another shit day morrow @ GSK. Just wanna leave that place soon...maybe?
.LuKe.
Sunday, May 14, 2006
Sunday is a Mother Day...
[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] LJS + Coke
Today is PM day and it sucked cos it had its failures. Not to mention that now they are fighting wif fire over at main site cos the email server not working..die man dunno why like dat..
So talking about my weekend..it’s just slightly over half the fun I anticipated..well at least it’s not a total failure.
Friday:
Vesak day holiday, so accompanied my mum to the market to buy some fruits and stuff. Den reach home and continued to set up my comp cos I could not find the CD I need. Anyway I’ve reformatted my comp, so it’s a lot better and recovered from the common ailments that irked me. Initially arranged to go to Chinatown with Joanna, ended up she wanted to go Jurong to collect some stuff so I didn’t accompany her but instead went to meet up with Dan to have an early dinner and also to check out the arcade till time runs out. After that we met up with the rest (Brian, Yvonne and forgot the gal’s bf’s name lol) and went up Paradigm.
Paradigm to us on Friday is what we term as “private party” cos there are so few pple..but nevertheless we ordered a Jim Beam for all to enjoy. I didn’t know Jim Beam can be downed so easily – we only used 2 jugs of mixers for the bottle of JB..the music was nice, DJ Jason Chow lived up to his name but a pity the crowd was disappointing – we have agreed that we should try to heighten the crowd this coming Friday by posting on possible mediums – Friendster, WhoLivesNearYou and whatever we can think of..jus gather the techno/eurodance lovers!! Besides, it’s ladies nite too!
Pulled Belle to the place too and she seemed to be the only female enjoying the ladies nite as I had to accompany her to the counter to get her free drink till the staff got fed up (joking here). The thing ended at 3, she met up with her Maple friend and I went with the pple to makan n drink at the open makan place beside Meridian, den went back home.
Saturday:
Woke up at abt 2pm as my mum dragged me out to the market to buy daily necessities. After that, went back home to game a bit and check stuff, and agreed a time out with Joanna to Chinatown @ 6pm. Met up 15mins later and she said Jovi was around (Jovi for your info is one of my real-life SG playing friend) so we met up with him and went to makan and check out N80 pricing. So far the cheapest for non-plan N80 is $998.
We took 124 and went to town, to PS so Joanna could find a Mother’s Day gift which the end she didn’t..ended up is Jovi got a gift instead from Precious Thots. After walking ard for a while they said they wanted to go “poke balls” (pool) so I took my leave and went down to Zone-X and saw Eddy, an arcade fren from my Para days. After hanging ard for a long time, we went makan @ BK (actually it’s me makan) den went up Star Fac, saw Belle. Den played Puzzle Fighter, den after that walked out of PS, they took cab to PartyWorld Orchard while I took bus 111 back home.
Cheong game...SG and the jap game my bro dled. No sleep.
Sunday:
Now, going back home after PM. An hour or so later and I have to check server. SIAN!!!
.LuKe.
P.S.: Server going fine. Hope everything is great.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] LJS + Coke
Today is PM day and it sucked cos it had its failures. Not to mention that now they are fighting wif fire over at main site cos the email server not working..die man dunno why like dat..
So talking about my weekend..it’s just slightly over half the fun I anticipated..well at least it’s not a total failure.
Friday:
Vesak day holiday, so accompanied my mum to the market to buy some fruits and stuff. Den reach home and continued to set up my comp cos I could not find the CD I need. Anyway I’ve reformatted my comp, so it’s a lot better and recovered from the common ailments that irked me. Initially arranged to go to Chinatown with Joanna, ended up she wanted to go Jurong to collect some stuff so I didn’t accompany her but instead went to meet up with Dan to have an early dinner and also to check out the arcade till time runs out. After that we met up with the rest (Brian, Yvonne and forgot the gal’s bf’s name lol) and went up Paradigm.
Paradigm to us on Friday is what we term as “private party” cos there are so few pple..but nevertheless we ordered a Jim Beam for all to enjoy. I didn’t know Jim Beam can be downed so easily – we only used 2 jugs of mixers for the bottle of JB..the music was nice, DJ Jason Chow lived up to his name but a pity the crowd was disappointing – we have agreed that we should try to heighten the crowd this coming Friday by posting on possible mediums – Friendster, WhoLivesNearYou and whatever we can think of..jus gather the techno/eurodance lovers!! Besides, it’s ladies nite too!
Pulled Belle to the place too and she seemed to be the only female enjoying the ladies nite as I had to accompany her to the counter to get her free drink till the staff got fed up (joking here). The thing ended at 3, she met up with her Maple friend and I went with the pple to makan n drink at the open makan place beside Meridian, den went back home.
Saturday:
Woke up at abt 2pm as my mum dragged me out to the market to buy daily necessities. After that, went back home to game a bit and check stuff, and agreed a time out with Joanna to Chinatown @ 6pm. Met up 15mins later and she said Jovi was around (Jovi for your info is one of my real-life SG playing friend) so we met up with him and went to makan and check out N80 pricing. So far the cheapest for non-plan N80 is $998.
We took 124 and went to town, to PS so Joanna could find a Mother’s Day gift which the end she didn’t..ended up is Jovi got a gift instead from Precious Thots. After walking ard for a while they said they wanted to go “poke balls” (pool) so I took my leave and went down to Zone-X and saw Eddy, an arcade fren from my Para days. After hanging ard for a long time, we went makan @ BK (actually it’s me makan) den went up Star Fac, saw Belle. Den played Puzzle Fighter, den after that walked out of PS, they took cab to PartyWorld Orchard while I took bus 111 back home.
Cheong game...SG and the jap game my bro dled. No sleep.
Sunday:
Now, going back home after PM. An hour or so later and I have to check server. SIAN!!!
.LuKe.
P.S.: Server going fine. Hope everything is great.
Friday, May 12, 2006
Updated on Friday for Thursday
[CuRRent MooD:] Fine
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] N.A.
Yeah I’m on half day off today, now going back home in the train.
2 super juniors sitting beside me..what do I mean by super juniors? I meant those that was from my sec sch but are not within my batch (that means they are not there while I am)..haha, weird way of saying it eh?
Later reach home, change of clothes den go out le..meeting up wif Ricky to Queensway, den makan and chat a bit den I continue go town le I assume. In the evening will be meeting up with Isabelle to take a CD from her..den jus spend a bit of time outside..everything goes fine, I’ll be reformatting my comp tonight.
Tentatively on Friday I’ll be going Paradigm while will be going drinking on Saturday, but there is no confirmation..which means things can turn pretty happening or boring depending on how everything goes.
Work has been fine this week, busy but still managable, tied up a bit of loose ends here and there but there is still lots of work to be done. It’s QR week for me the coming week, and I’m having PM on Sunday. Hope the PM dun screw too much. Gonna be careful with it.
Now listening to Masterplate CD tracks..felt that the first CD is better. Hehe.
Actually nothing much to write about..I hope I have more pics after the weekend! =)
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] None
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] N.A.
Yeah I’m on half day off today, now going back home in the train.
2 super juniors sitting beside me..what do I mean by super juniors? I meant those that was from my sec sch but are not within my batch (that means they are not there while I am)..haha, weird way of saying it eh?
Later reach home, change of clothes den go out le..meeting up wif Ricky to Queensway, den makan and chat a bit den I continue go town le I assume. In the evening will be meeting up with Isabelle to take a CD from her..den jus spend a bit of time outside..everything goes fine, I’ll be reformatting my comp tonight.
Tentatively on Friday I’ll be going Paradigm while will be going drinking on Saturday, but there is no confirmation..which means things can turn pretty happening or boring depending on how everything goes.
Work has been fine this week, busy but still managable, tied up a bit of loose ends here and there but there is still lots of work to be done. It’s QR week for me the coming week, and I’m having PM on Sunday. Hope the PM dun screw too much. Gonna be careful with it.
Now listening to Masterplate CD tracks..felt that the first CD is better. Hehe.
Actually nothing much to write about..I hope I have more pics after the weekend! =)
.LuKe.
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Just a pic for all of you =)
[CuRRent MooD:] Neutral tired
[CuRRent Song:] VA - The Masterplate Mighty Mix Volume One (Disc 2)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Egg + Hot Dog / Water
Nothing much, just a picture for all of you:
Do we look like siblings? =)
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] VA - The Masterplate Mighty Mix Volume One (Disc 2)
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Egg + Hot Dog / Water
Nothing much, just a picture for all of you:
Do we look like siblings? =)
.LuKe.
Monday, May 08, 2006
Tired sleepy sunday
[CuRRent MooD:] Tired but ok mood
[CuRRent Song:] E-Type - Far Up In The Air
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Curry Chicken and Hawaiian Pizza / Pokka Green Tea
SIAN!!! Morrow need to work. SIAN SIAN SIAN.
Lemme recap...
Friday:
Went to Planet Paradigm with Daniel and co. Initially went to PS' Star Factory to play Puzzle Fighter den bumped onto Dan's fren Andrew. Den after hanging in there a while, went down wif him to meet up another of their friend, Mandy (the 2nd Mandy that I know of). After that went to Meridian there the open-air makan place and eat and chat. After a while Andrew told me a gal asked him go over meet her, so we went with him back to PS' Starbucks. His friend's name is Gladis or something (pronounce same as Gladys), then chat and crap so much, then we meet up the rest and went to Planet Paradigm.
Friday Planet Paradigm is Eurodance night! Techno all round man!!! Hahaha!!! Not bad, spacious, cheap drinks (compared to MU) and dance floor is practically our pple...LOL. I heard they going there again coming Friday for drinks, so I might join them again.
Saturday:
Woke up after 2 hours of slp to accompany Sunshine a while then go back home SG and dally around, then evening time proceeded to PS. Damn I alighted at wrong bus stop and had to walk the remaining distance to PS. Went to Star Factory again and saw Andrew, and until about 11+pm I walked over to Orchard Shopping Centre to meet up with Joanna, my cute cousin ;) ...den she brought me up the ktv pub whr the room they booked with their pple. Had free Martell to drink - nice! =) den got to celebrate birthday of her sis Joanne (a babe in my opinion!). Then just see show (see how Joanne is down with so much drinks), see and hear and sing song, den see see around a bit till Isabelle msged me and asked whr I am...den after dat she came to join me. After staying for a while she wanted go MU, so we went. Come to think, how Joanne responds to her friends about my existence makes it so funny. I was trying to get a pic wif her and Joanna (which I did) den also quite funny, one of the guys responds this manner:
Guy: hey you know I am to her anot?
Me: then you know who I am to her anot?
Joanne: hey you know who he is anot?
Me: I'm her cousin leh!
Joanne: he's my real cousin leh!
Guy: I also never really say who I am to her wat...
Something like that...so funny, come to think of it!
MU there we reach is euro/techno already, den she asked to get Vodka Ribena and Baileys on rocks. Then just dance and listen music, den go home. I already so tired liao..hahaha..
Sunday:
SLEEP. Wake up go market with mother. Come back home. SLEEP. SLEEP.
Wake up eat, bath, now chatting and blogging.
LATER SLEEP.
HAHAHAHAHA......
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] E-Type - Far Up In The Air
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Curry Chicken and Hawaiian Pizza / Pokka Green Tea
SIAN!!! Morrow need to work. SIAN SIAN SIAN.
Lemme recap...
Friday:
Went to Planet Paradigm with Daniel and co. Initially went to PS' Star Factory to play Puzzle Fighter den bumped onto Dan's fren Andrew. Den after hanging in there a while, went down wif him to meet up another of their friend, Mandy (the 2nd Mandy that I know of). After that went to Meridian there the open-air makan place and eat and chat. After a while Andrew told me a gal asked him go over meet her, so we went with him back to PS' Starbucks. His friend's name is Gladis or something (pronounce same as Gladys), then chat and crap so much, then we meet up the rest and went to Planet Paradigm.
Friday Planet Paradigm is Eurodance night! Techno all round man!!! Hahaha!!! Not bad, spacious, cheap drinks (compared to MU) and dance floor is practically our pple...LOL. I heard they going there again coming Friday for drinks, so I might join them again.
Saturday:
Woke up after 2 hours of slp to accompany Sunshine a while then go back home SG and dally around, then evening time proceeded to PS. Damn I alighted at wrong bus stop and had to walk the remaining distance to PS. Went to Star Factory again and saw Andrew, and until about 11+pm I walked over to Orchard Shopping Centre to meet up with Joanna, my cute cousin ;) ...den she brought me up the ktv pub whr the room they booked with their pple. Had free Martell to drink - nice! =) den got to celebrate birthday of her sis Joanne (a babe in my opinion!). Then just see show (see how Joanne is down with so much drinks), see and hear and sing song, den see see around a bit till Isabelle msged me and asked whr I am...den after dat she came to join me. After staying for a while she wanted go MU, so we went. Come to think, how Joanne responds to her friends about my existence makes it so funny. I was trying to get a pic wif her and Joanna (which I did) den also quite funny, one of the guys responds this manner:
Guy: hey you know I am to her anot?
Me: then you know who I am to her anot?
Joanne: hey you know who he is anot?
Me: I'm her cousin leh!
Joanne: he's my real cousin leh!
Guy: I also never really say who I am to her wat...
Something like that...so funny, come to think of it!
MU there we reach is euro/techno already, den she asked to get Vodka Ribena and Baileys on rocks. Then just dance and listen music, den go home. I already so tired liao..hahaha..
Sunday:
SLEEP. Wake up go market with mother. Come back home. SLEEP. SLEEP.
Wake up eat, bath, now chatting and blogging.
LATER SLEEP.
HAHAHAHAHA......
.LuKe.
Thursday, May 04, 2006
Happy stuff and not-so-happy thoughts
[CuRRent MooD:] Lil tired
[CuRRent Song:] BoA - First Snow
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Fish / Plain Water
Actually it's vice versa but just thought of talking about the happy stuff before touching the not so happy ones.
Just now I went to Mac with my neighbours, then I happened to bump onto my Primary school friend who jio-ed another Primary school fren out to have a chat. Even though I do not understand too much of the people which they were talking about (after all, they were on similar tracks in life - the JC route), I felt the kind of feeling being with old friends just cos they were my Primary school frens. It's really cool chatting random stuff, associating with their own kind of excitement and enthusiasm towards different thigns yet maintaining my own individual stand. Really cool.
Upon thinking about stuff these days, the anti-idea came to mind today - about two of my close ones leaving the country probably - but they never visit my blog so I doubt they will really notice how I feel.
One is my Alynna Jie and the other, my Desy daughter.
Alynna is going back to Australia a few months down the road, and although I do not display too much, no one really understands (neither do I) why I was so happy with her stay in Singapore. There was simply a small sense of loss and worry while she's away in Aussieland, and upon hearing of news she's back I was all so happy and enthusiastic meeting her, often just trying to make up and forgo many other stuff for her. Knowing of her going back Aussieland brings me some pain deep in me, which I wonder why. I'll always support Jie's endeavours in work and life, and though I can't bear to see her back in Australia, I'll have to support her.
Desy is Indonesian, so no doubt she will be back there...from what I've heard, it should be in the coming months, maybe just a few months after Jie goes back to Aussie. I don't think I can accomodate too much of having my 2 close ones being a distance away from me, especially for Desy's case that she won't be back in Singapore anytime soon (and possibly never). It's strange how I started out having a liking for her but ended up in the current state.
Sometimes I wonder why all these happens, why life works out this way for me. Maybe it's just another trial for me to think of ways to make myself able to fend myself without dedicating my feelings and love for others, and just redirect it back to myself, my life and those who really needs it. I really wished there's some way out of such mess.
After all these, I will be left with Berlinda, Patricia and Michelle. Frankly speaking, I held many different feelings and approaches towards these ladies in my life...I'll probably mention in another blog entry when I have the time.
Till then people.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] BoA - First Snow
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] Rice + Fish / Plain Water
Actually it's vice versa but just thought of talking about the happy stuff before touching the not so happy ones.
Just now I went to Mac with my neighbours, then I happened to bump onto my Primary school friend who jio-ed another Primary school fren out to have a chat. Even though I do not understand too much of the people which they were talking about (after all, they were on similar tracks in life - the JC route), I felt the kind of feeling being with old friends just cos they were my Primary school frens. It's really cool chatting random stuff, associating with their own kind of excitement and enthusiasm towards different thigns yet maintaining my own individual stand. Really cool.
Upon thinking about stuff these days, the anti-idea came to mind today - about two of my close ones leaving the country probably - but they never visit my blog so I doubt they will really notice how I feel.
One is my Alynna Jie and the other, my Desy daughter.
Alynna is going back to Australia a few months down the road, and although I do not display too much, no one really understands (neither do I) why I was so happy with her stay in Singapore. There was simply a small sense of loss and worry while she's away in Aussieland, and upon hearing of news she's back I was all so happy and enthusiastic meeting her, often just trying to make up and forgo many other stuff for her. Knowing of her going back Aussieland brings me some pain deep in me, which I wonder why. I'll always support Jie's endeavours in work and life, and though I can't bear to see her back in Australia, I'll have to support her.
Desy is Indonesian, so no doubt she will be back there...from what I've heard, it should be in the coming months, maybe just a few months after Jie goes back to Aussie. I don't think I can accomodate too much of having my 2 close ones being a distance away from me, especially for Desy's case that she won't be back in Singapore anytime soon (and possibly never). It's strange how I started out having a liking for her but ended up in the current state.
Sometimes I wonder why all these happens, why life works out this way for me. Maybe it's just another trial for me to think of ways to make myself able to fend myself without dedicating my feelings and love for others, and just redirect it back to myself, my life and those who really needs it. I really wished there's some way out of such mess.
After all these, I will be left with Berlinda, Patricia and Michelle. Frankly speaking, I held many different feelings and approaches towards these ladies in my life...I'll probably mention in another blog entry when I have the time.
Till then people.
.LuKe.
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
Running through my thoughts
[CuRRent MooD:] Ponder wonder mood
[CuRRent Song:] Nuage - I Really Wanna Be Your Magic
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] LJS / Pokka Green Tea
Actually by now I would've forgotten what to write. Haha...somehow my thoughts are a little clearer now, though I would think they might not be the best of solutions, but I think it might just work out.
Till next update.
.LuKe.
[CuRRent Song:] Nuage - I Really Wanna Be Your Magic
[Last FooD/BeveRage:] LJS / Pokka Green Tea
Actually by now I would've forgotten what to write. Haha...somehow my thoughts are a little clearer now, though I would think they might not be the best of solutions, but I think it might just work out.
Till next update.
.LuKe.
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